forever pinoy

I watched Moana on Nov 22nd in my theater and How Far I’ll Go has been stuck in my head since then.

I haven’t been moved this much by a Disney movie to the point of crying in so long. I think I cried like realistically, five times. But it felt to be more like at least 20.

Moana is beautiful. And reminds me so much of my homeland in the Philippines.

My mother doesn’t like animated movies much, as English is her second language. So they can be hard to follow. But when she saw the island culture, I know she was moved too and comforted to see something so beautiful yet familiar on a large screen.

Please go watch Moana. You won’t be disappointed.

Relationships are never easy. Some days you’re going to wake up and that love you know you have for the person in the bed next to you, isn’t going to come so naturally. We always say “no one told us it was going to be this hard” but they did. We choose not to listen because it seems so unreasonable that one day, you will find yourself doubting your love for that person. The only way you can make a relationship last is if you work at it every day and never give up on it. Because if you fight and argue and quarrel with that person and still can’t imagine leaving them, then you love them. And that’s the kind of love that’s forever.

Tell me I’m the one for you. Tell me I’m your dream come true. Tell me you want to spend the rest of your life with me. Tell me you’re willing to fight for us. Tell me you’re missing me as much as I miss you. Tell me you can’t go on a day without knowing how I am. Tell me you won’t get tired of me. Tell me how better your day is whenever you’re talking to me. Tell me how much you want to spend time with me, just sitting and cuddling next to each other every Sunday afternoon. Tell me how much you want to walk along the streets while holding my hand. Tell me how proud you are to have me as your other half. Tell me how much you want to wrap your arms around me everytime I’m having a hard time. Tell me you’re going to stay by my side through the good and bad days. Tell me you’re not capable of letting go of me. Tell me you love me.
—  Tell me
February 27, 2015

Pare. Baket ginaganyan mo lang siya? Hindi mo ba alam na maraming lalaki ang gustong gusto pormahan siya pero di nila magawa kase makita pa lang nila yung ngiti niya pag ikaw yung kasama wala na kaagad silang pag-asa. Maraming lalaki ang nagsasabing sana sila nalang yung nakakapagpasaya sa kanya. Na sana hindi siya nasasaktan dahil sa mga ginagawa mo.

Maraming iba diyan na hinihintay lang magkalabuan kayo. Nagtataka sila kung baket yung pinapangarap nila pinapaiyak mo lang. Sinasaktan mo siya imbes na pasayahin. Diba minsan mo rin siyang pinangarap? Nasan na yung pangako mong di siya sasaktan, iiwan, pagsasawaan o susukuan? Nasan na yung sinabi mong forever?

Kapag ikaw ba yung nasa kalagayan niya at siya ang gumagawa sayo ng mga bagay na yan, matutuwa ka? Kung nasasaktan ka, naisip mo ba na baka siya rin nasasaktan? Na nahihirapan siya mamili? Na ngayon ka niya pinaka kailangan kaya lang siguro nagkaganun. Diba dapat ikaw yung magcomfort sa kanya? Naguguluhan siya kase di mo siya binibigyan ng security.

Alam mo ba yung pakiramdam ng mag-isa. Gusto mo bang maramdaman niya yun? Ganun ba talaga kataas yung pride mo para di mo siya patawarin? Masaya ka ba na nagmumukha siyang tanga kakahabol sayo?

Pano pag hindi siya yung nag first move? Edi wala na agad? Ganun ganun nalang ba yun? Madali lang naman ang isang chat eh. Kahit simpleng goodmorning at goodnight pwede na.

Marami siyang dahilan para ipatalo ang lahat, pero di niya ginagawa kase mahal ka niya. Wag mong takbuhan, harapin mo siya. Alalahanin mo yung happy memories. Itatapon mo na lang ba lahat ng yun? Isipin mo yung mga nagawa niya para sayo at yung mga nagawa mo para sa kanya. Mahal mo pa ba siya? Yan lang naman ang pinakatanong. Kase kung mahal mo, ipaglaban mo pre.