forever living in the past

anonymous asked:

Just a question (not a request i know your lovely askbox is closed), In lots of headcanons and imagines authors prefer to keep our mint blue (or green) daddy alive and well, interacting with the RFA AND Saeran. Do you think that we all just ignore this pesky detail or do you think that time has somehow managed to heal (about) 21 years of murder-cult slavery? Honestly i'm prolly overthinking this lol i doubt anyone cares. But do you guys think that if V lived he would be forgiven?

Ooohh…. okay, this is an interesting question. Honestly, I’d like to believe that they would be able to move on. It’d be something rough to move past (plus imagining V survives), there would probably be a lot of rough relationships, strained trust, arguments… it’d be rough waters. It wouldn’t heal over, they would never really be able to move past it. They’d forever have to live with what happened, knowing how each of them tied into it, and knowing that if they didn’t keep moving…. it’d just keep haunting them and hurting them. All of them. Crap, there’d probably be moments that V would be ready to leave, blaming himself for it all, and would need to be drawn away from the idea, moments where Saeran or Yoosung or really any one gets frustrated and in a fit of rage burst at V. And then they’d have to keep going, resolve it or something, cause that’s what you do in life.
It’d just… it’s impossible to move on and forget that kind of thing. But I think they could keep going anyways ^^

~Sunflower (:

So our little blue baby has definitely already got strained relationships with everyone in the RFA. If you’ve played Jumin’s route in the Christmas DLC we know that Jumin is done with V’s secrets at this point and he isn’t sure what to do about this. This was really shocking to me because we all know that these two are practically each others only friends. We all know Yoosung doesn’t particularly care for V already and a lot of people start to follow this during Seven’s route I believe? Anyway, I’m just trying to say not everyone’s view on V is too great right now. Then they find out this boy was hiding Rika from all of them AND was allowing these awful things to happen to Saeran. I think out of everyone, saying V survived and Rika was still sent to get help in Alaska, Seven and Yoosung would have the hardest time forgiving V. Jumin being the third, and then finishing with Zen and Jaehee being the most forgiving. Honestly, even Zen and Jaehee would have a hard time forgiving V too soon but after some time I feel they all would end up forgiving him. He might not have all of the trust they used to have placed in him but at least they’re all still friends, right? For maybe years a lot of things will be strained with V but I think that with Rika safe and the RFA and Saeran safe as well he’d at least tell Jumin and Seven the whole story and they would help the others understand. But their relationships with V will never be the same, even between him and Jumin.

Saeran and V is a different story. I don’t think Saeran would ever be able to truly forgive him because we know how tainted Saeran’s thoughts on V are, I mean, he shoots the man. No one would force Saeran to forgive V, including V himself. If anything Saeran would tolerate him in public and at parties. Other than that I don’t doubt Saeran despising V. Even if they manage to convince Saeran that Rika was in the wrong and awful to him but so was V. Even though we ignore this V helped Rika take him, he didn’t report Rika to the police for what she was doing, and he didn’t try and get Saeran out and take him to Seven. We know Seven shouldn’t have family or relationships or anything like that but Saeran can hack too it could’ve gotten him a pass in, even if no one else knew except V and Vanderwood, who would be happy work was getting done. But V never tried getting him out, he stayed by Rika’s side because he’d become obsessed with her and this image of her he’d created. He helped, even if not intentionally to make Saeran this way and if Saeran forgave him I’d be surprised.

~Peony is sorry she wrote so much, she had more to say but she’ll leave it at this

Thank you for giving us the most memorable year. All your hard work wasn’t in vain due to the fact that you were disbanding after a year, it made it all the more amazing and iconic. The tears shed in sadness and happiness were not wasted, and the memory of the amazing I.O.I will forever live on. Thank you for giving us your hearts this past year. We love you, and wish you the best on your future endeavors. Thank you, I.O.I

The Great Gatsby Sentence Meme
  • “All I kept thinking about, over and over, was ‘You can’t live forever; you can’t live forever.”
  • “Can’t repeat the past? Why of course you can!”
  • “Do you ever wait for the longest day of the year and then miss it? I always wait for the longest day of the year and then miss it!”
  • “Human sympathy has its limits.”
  • “'I’d like to just get one of those pink clouds and put you in it and push you around.”
  • “I am one of the few honest people that I have ever known.”
  • “I like large parties. They’re so intimate. At small parties there isn’t any privacy.”
  • “I suppose the latest thing is to sit back and let Mr. Nobody from Nowhere make love to your wife.”
  • “I thought you were rather an honest, straightforward person, I thought it was your secret pride.”
  • “I wasn’t actually in love, but I felt a sort of tender curiosity.”
  • “I’m inclined to reserve all judgments, a habit that has opened up many curious natures to me and also made me the victim of not a few veteran bores.”
  • “I’m five years too old to lie to myself and call it honor.”
  • “I’ve been drunk for about a week now, and I thought it might sober me up to sit in a library.”
  • “It is invariably saddening to look through new eyes at things upon which you have expended your own powers of adjustment.”
  • “It makes me sad because I’ve never seen such- such beautiful shirts before.”
  • “It takes two to make an accident.”
  • “It’s a great advantage not to drink among hard drinking people.”
  • “Life is much more successfully looked at from a single window.”
  • “Once in a while I go off on a spree and make a fool of myself, but I always come back.”
  • “The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
  • “What’ll we do with ourselves this afternoon, and the day after that, and the next thirty year?”
  • “Whenever you feel like criticizing anyone, just remember that all the people in this world haven’t had the advantages that you’ve had.”
  • “You see, I usually find myself among strangers because I drift here and there trying to forget the sad things that happened to me.”

Eligor ver.XXXIX The Scribe

They say that our lives are a story that has yet to be written and that the author will start the first page upon our death.

Death though is a relative term for us, for no one in our city ever truly dies, they’re just…redistributed. They say that all inhabitants of our city come from the Code. That when we die, we return to the Code and our experiences are mixed in and distributed with other newly decreased, and this new jumble of data will become a new citizen. With no memories of our past lives, we continue on forever adding to the Code.

Our lives aren’t just erased though, no. Who we are and everything we’ve ever done is recorded in a book and stored away. Who writes these books, you ask? That would be The Scribe, Eligor. He, along with dozens of Drones record, and process each and every story that comes through their halls and by doing so ensures that no citizen is ever forgotten or lost. There have been thirty nine previous versions of Eligor so far, with a new Eligor being chosen every few generations.

Who Eligor is exactly is a mystery as we only ever meet him twice in our lives. Once at our inception and then again at our conclusion. It is He who decides what makes up our code to go into the world with, and it is He who writes our story at the end.

I wish there was a way to see posts from a certain time. Like for people who come late into the fandom but still want to experience what everyone else thought. Like homestuck or PJO or Harry Potter. Go back to 2012 when something big happened and see what everyone thought instead of dead tags since there hasn’t been news in forever. It’d be super cool to just kinda, live in the past for a bit

Immortal Heart (Closed)

Alexander Hamilton and Thomas Jefferson had always kept their relationship secret from the public, their enemies, their friends and their family. Hamilton was still married to Eliza Schuyler and still had offspring with her, none of them getting his special ability. Both of their lives were normal, or as normal as an Immortal can get.

Immortal, the gift of living forever, or the curse of suffering with your long past. These were some of the most common types of humans on Earth. They gain this gift through hard work and it’s often a surprise when they find out.

Hamilton found out about his gift while on the battlefield with Washington. After finding out, his life seemed to have brightened. His life had become reckless. Everyone close to him, even Thomas, knew about his gift and they kept advising him not to mess with a Requirement.

Requirements, rare Immortals that can take the gift of other Immortals.

Well, that’s exactly what happened in 1804. He challenged a Requirement to a duel.

Muffy reminds me of my older sister. She was almost thirty and  afraid that she’ll live alone forever after several heartbreaking relationship in the past. But as she tried to keep going on and keep being herself, now she is a wife of a very lucky man and mother of an adorable little boy.

I could pack it up now
Fail my classes
Stop going
Do what I want and buy a cup of coffee
Go to the library
and stare blankly at a cubicle wall

I spend so much time
People say this is what makes a poet
Lots of musing
Lots of brooding
I think I am more lazy
than poetic

I think I am at my peak
I think I am very lucky
I think I will not make it to 28
I think I will live forever
I think I dwell on the past too much
I think I am doing very well, thank you
I think I should be proud of myself
I think I need a life

Do you have an extra one
to spare?

Say my name 
One more time
I want to hear the same voice
I heard before
when we first met
when you first looked at me and smiled
I want to go back to that moment
when everything about us is so ideal
If only i can live in the past forever
if only i can
because that is only where
I can hear your voice
-the one that is so different
from what i hear today -
but what can I do
we’re stuck at this moment
-you’re moving on
I’m still holding on-
and that leaves me feeling this pain
I want to scream
I want to shout your name
I want to let the world know
that it’s still you
But I know that will not change everything
I can no longer have you
so I think
I will only settle with asking you to say my name
one more time
for the last time
—  say my name for the last time, rbl.bttt

It gets hard to find
the answers inside
yourself when
you only feel alive
looking out behind
half closed lids,
thanking your lashes
for keeping what’s left
of you hidden.

I try to hide it but
we both know
I’ve been here
so many times, crossed
this path in more
than one incarnation,
always trying to
find myself in
all the wrong places.

If meeting the end
is always the same,
alone and crumpled
on some cold and
dirty floor,
at least I knew you
and your love,
and the way you believed
in something better
waiting patiently
at the top for us
to reach out and finally
take what was ours
and hold on tight.

At least we’ll have tried.