forever living in my heart

memories of the months

january: snowy eyelashes, rose tea, silk

february: baby hairs, melting snow, candle light

march: softness, ribbons, fairy whispers

april: thunderstorms, melodies, swingsets

may: white dresses, rose petals woven into hair, romanticism

june: peach farms, long summer drives, closed eyes

july: lighthouses, a sea breeze drifts through an open window, blue

august: strawberry fields, stardust, humming

september: lullabies, new beginnings, ballerina pink

october: pumpkin patches, the carnival, caramel

november: long hair, girl lips, barefoot

decemeber: pomegranate, the ballet, fresh snow


Cities & Moods: Tübingen, Germany 

Es blüht das fernste, tiefste Tal:  Nun, armes Herz, vergiß der Qual!
Even the deepest, most distant valley is in flower. Now, poor heart, forget your torment. (Ludwig Uhland, Frühlingsglaube) 

inspired by the wonderful moodboards by lovely @expatesque:) 


“God is a DJ.
Life is a dancefloor.
Love is the rhythm.
You are the music.”

Bonus: Close-ups of Chully’s beauty.

  • what she says: i'm fine
  • what she means: the trailer for the i am heath ledger (2017) documentary was released today, april 4th, on what would've been heath's 38th birthday. after all these years my heart was not prepared to be bulldozed. watching heath laughing and smiling and being silly and goofy broke my heart but also made me feel happy and at peace. even that small bit of content showed what a sincere and wonderful human being he was and i can't believe it's been so long since he passed. but he will live on in my heart forever and ever and ever. i miss him. that entire documentary will probably ruin me.

31 Days of Muse
Day 17 - Favourite cover: Feeling Good
 Live @ Radio 3, 2001

Star Wars: Ahsoka

(the imaginary cast)

So it’s common at this point to tell you which actors I used as models for my characters in Star Wars: Ahsoka. I am going to do that (sort of), but first I have a small confession to make: I don’t really make up a headcast very often.

I have a mild version of Prosopagnosia, or face blindness. I remember how people stand and what they sound like, their hair and the way they hold their shoulders, but not their actual appearance.

(I actually found out that This Was A Thing when the Hobbit cast was announced. I didn’t recognize Richard Armitage, who I had seen in several movies, but I did recognize Jed Brophy, though, because whether he is an orc, and elf, or a dwarf, he stands the same way. In hindsight, I should have known beforehand, because this happens to me pretty regularly, but that’s a post for another time.)

ANYWAY, so I don’t usually know what my characters look like. I know how they sound and how they move and how they love, but their eye colour? Not so much.

This became problematic for me as a writer because when you don’t describe what a character looks like, most of your readers will assume they are white. I did not want this to happen, so I started looking specifically for actors who I felt had the personality I wanted and the looks to match (I routinely ask friends to help me out with that last part).

So keeping all of that in mind, here is the headcast for Star Wars: Ahsoka.

Ahsoka Tano

I mean, you all already know how Ahsoka looks and sounds, but I had to write action scenes with her, so I went with Amandla Stenburg for my model. Their determination and dedication to their craft, their grace in the face of internet jerks, their willingness to keep pushing the envelope. I mean, there’s a reason Amandla Stenburg is in so many YA movies, has a comic book, etc. etc., and their turn in Sleep Hollow was one of my favourite parts of that show.

Kaeden Larte

I don’t actually have a picture for Kaeden, because she’s based on a real person! My friend Ardo, who writes for Women on Comics, has this ebullience about her. She’s one of the hardest working people I know, she has SO MUCH respect for her parents (who, like Kaeden’s, wanted a better life for their kids), and she’s so awesomely nerdy. Kind of hilariously, Ardo got Kaeden’s braids right after I handed the book in.

Miara Larte

One of the things I love most about Quvenzhané Wallis is that she refused to let anyone take away her sense of self, even when she was young and under the spotlight at the Oscars. We were going to learn her name, and she was going to judge us. She was such a professional and so determined, and I continue to be so impressed by her.

Selda and Vartan

They don’t smile quite as much in the book, and it seemed rude to take away Ranier Andreeson’s hair, but I think Victor Garber would be a great Togruta. I just like how solid they are and if a tiny bit of Jack Bristow bled into Selda and Ahsoka’s interactions, well, nobody’s perfect. ;)

Hedala Fardi

I don’t really have a picture for Hedala either, largely because I don’t know any Indian actresses who are five or younger. Again, I used real people, but Hedala’s appearance is more an amalgam of the baby pictures my flatmates would show me when I lived in the UK. Almost all of them were mothers, living away from their families to get their MAs or MScs. I was one of the the youngest (and one of two white girls) in our dorm, and seeing those pictures gave me hard evidence that so many cultural stereotypes are outdated and useless, and also that literally anything was possible when your family was behind you. That’s not only Hedala, but the rest of the Fardis, too.


And that’s them! I hope this is moderately helpful, or at least shows you that not everyone sees characters the same way. It’s certainly something I still working on, as I progress as a writer, and I feel that with Star Wars: Ahsoka, I’ve levelled up a bit.


Eunhae 7th Reunion 💖💖😭😭😭😭😭
170521 Eunhae live IG:
Hyukjae: what is this? Don’t we have to speak?
Donghae: (refuses to answer him)