“I was afraid of losing you”

This is honestly so heartbreaking though? Can you imagine how terrified Even was throughout their relationship after Isak had said youknowwhat to him in the locker room? How hard Even must have worked to keep it together? Because showing Isak even just a little bit of his mental illness would have ended everything? Can you imagine how hard Even tried to keep it together in the hotel that night? The desperation he must have felt to not let his mental illness surface? How incredibly difficult everything must have been for him? Thinking back to the school scene where Sonja tries to tell Isak about Even can you imagine how terrified Even was of that call? How scared he must have been when he left Isak? The anxiety he must have felt? It makes my stomach turn to be honest. I have been there. Trying my best to put on this facade that everything is okay and I am okay. Pretending to be a completely functional individual when you’re mental illness is pulling at you all day constantly reminding you that you are not has to be the greatest struggle I’ve ever had to deal with. It’s incredibly scary you are constantly analyzing everything you say and everyone’s reactions your movements are controlled your smiles are timed. It’s a battle you have to fight every single day. It’s horrible. It’s like you’re battling this thing that won’t leave you alone and on top of that you have to pretend that everything is okay that nothing is wrong. I honestly wouldn’t wish that existence on anyone because no one deserves to live like that and that is why we need to be able to talk about mental illness openly we have to stop demonizing it and the individuals who struggle with it. We didn’t ask for this, we don’t want it, but it’s there and it is constantly torturing us it’s constantly hurting us without our consent. I’m so happy that skam showed this struggle that Even has been having because man can I identify with that. With that fear of being found out. With that fear of losing people I care about because they might be scared or because they think they can’t help me so they keep their distance. I am so happy that Isak finally knows about Even being bipolar because this means that Even no longer has to pretend to be anything he can just be himself completely because at the end of the day even if our mental illnesses do not define us they are a part of us and one that we have to fight with for the rest of our lives and we shouldn’t have to hide it to receive acceptance or because we fear the way people are going to react.

earthboundricochet  asked:

On meds: ask A LOT of questions to the person prescribing them to you, not just to be informed (you can do your own research fairly easily if you know the active principles) but mainly to know if you can trust them. If they refuse to tell you about side effects or things like how to tell if you are reacting badly to it, that's a huge red flag. If you suspect you have side effects and your shrink(s) dismisses everything rather than reasoning and explaining when you tell them, HUGE red alert.

Thanks for the advice!

anonymous asked:

omg yes to the idea that loki tries to make everything a green/gold color scheme (for obvious reasons) while darcy just wants as many sparkly things as possible. every time loki tries to take something down darcy guilt trips him. "oh you don't like my tree topper? i didn't like it when you faked your death" and when he gets all huffy and says "your decorations are ridiculous" you KNOW she's coming back with "you know what else is ridiculous? u faking your death" - ur secret santa ☃

shit I love this so much bc you also just know that loki will STILL try to find some kind of rebuttal. darcy entertains him only because it’s impossible to regain the high ground when you literally faked your own death like you’re living in a shakespeare play, and loki is, frankly, embarrassing himself. 

guys i witnessed so many… so many shitty rev dipper headcanons and portrayal that i feel like i gotta drop in my 2 cents so yall listen up cause heres the official reverse dipper ™

- he is mentally ill, thats a fact
- he is impulsive
- he is shorter than everyone in the mystery squad (paz, gideon, mabel) which makes him incredibly angry bc holy shit guys stop growing
he is gay asf.
- he actually doesnt give any shit bc why should he?? does anyone care?? he sure doesnt
- he is actually very awkward and unsure of himself
- he is not graceful. at all. he trips in everything
- he gets scared by nearly everything
- he is a ho for fashion n make up
- for some reason he thinks side swept bangs r cool??? he is mistaken
- he thinks of himself as a generous, giving person, when in reality, he is very selfish
- he fucking loves pokemon n animal crossing like holy fuck
- he thought eating expired cheese was an A+ idea
- for some reason ppl think hes murderous??? hes not. calm down edgelords. all he does is cry n sleep.
- his magic shows are more like this
- he is actually a huge nerd stop portraying him so edgy just stop yall please…. im begging…

anonymous asked:

"we get to know about Lea, his sweater" haha, kan ikke tro Isak aldri har nevnt genseren sin!

You come into MY house?!?!?

Hah thank you!! That made no sense, his sister obviously.
Or actually, maybe his infamous sweater named Lea is the root of all evil?? The reason everything bad happens? You never know

anonymous asked:

Goopy! Tomorrow i have a con and i'm gonna meet up with some internet friends for the first time and i am afraid they'll hate me ;;. (sorry if i sent this message at a bad time)

Hm? Nah! its ok!!
i understand where the insecurities are
coming from! but I assure you they WON’T hate you! if they are your friends they are for a reason!! try to be chill about it, everything its gonna be okie dokie!
Take care!!!

kata-kata yang selalu saya ingat dalam hati dan kepala ,
daun yang jatuh pun sudah di atur oleh allah swt.
apalagi keinginan yang di miliki manusia,
kenyataan yang di hadapi dan perjumpaan dengan orang-orang tertentu,
perasaan yang begitu tidak menentu dan semangat yang naik turun .
Allah selalu punya maksud di balik semua itu.
No coincidence happens in the world, everythings happen for a reason.
“Tidak ada yang kebetulan di dunia ini, segalanya terjadi untuk sebuah alasan”.

Cek ig @penacintaproject ya dear😊
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theiirkniight  asked:

one reason why i follow you: everything you do is adorable. literally. you could sneeze and i would give it a blue ribbon. im that invested

meme | accepting /  Please tell me anonymously or not why you follow me. I could use some positive messages

how the heck am i adorable, explain friendo. 

omfg isn’t the blue a you tried ribbon ??

anonymous asked:

If you gave out half the amount of pokemon with one per person restriction you wouldn't be constantly pushed to the second page and people would get their pokemon in less time instead of cutting off deposits before people have gotten what they were waiting for and everyone stressed out

Or you can deposit for what you want most first instead of acting like I don’t extend the giveaways for ridiculous amounts of time. Like this stresses me out more, trust me. I did 2 pokemon before on this gen and the only reason people got everything was b/c I extended it for hours more.
Even when I cut off, I make the notice that I continue trading everyone who deposited before cutoff.

the world may be pretty fucked up but at least dan met phil


The Only Thing Worth Remembering About From 2015: the rebirth of “Larry Stylinson” & watching them rise.

Harry and Louis are the Stevie and Lindsey of the mermaid-tattoo-era stadium-rock eye-contact game. Louis’ eyes are dark, intense, controlling, with a surly "damn your love, damn your life” edge. Harry’s eyes say “I hear the darkness you’re expressing and it’s important to me but my heart tells me to twirl right now,” so he twirls and touches his hair. The brooding look vs. the beatific twirl. When one of them gets happy, the other gets wistful. When one of them gets bitchy, the other gets sugary. I could watch them sing together for hours. I could probably watch them do laundry for hours. (I doubt they do laundry.)“ - Rolling Stone Magazine (2015)


Jin isn’t gonna start cooking until he talks about his special Pink Puma shoes:

He’s so proud of them, it’s adorable x 


I go where the knife needs to be.