I have bad days where my confidence is just zero, and I feel like shit because I feel I look like shit, pardon my language. But then I just suck it up. I’m like any other girl at the end of the day, I’m not made of steel.
It’s strange to think about how I’m 31 weeks along already. It feels like I just announced my pregnancy, and now there are only 9 weeks left until this baby is here. It’s crazy that before we know it, we will be a family of six! April 2017, please hurry. We’re all so excited for this little girl to be born, and I can’t wait to not be pregnant anymore! I decided to include a couple of photos of the beautiful view right outside our house, here in Saint Greer Island. I just absolutely love it here.
How far along?
I am precisely 31 weeks along today
Total weight gain/measurements?
I think I’ve gained about 2 pounds per week since my last update. I’m beginning to look quite chubby, and I don’t know if it’s all because of the baby, haha. Also, in the photo for this bump update, I just look fat - so there’s that.
Any new stretch marks?
No new ones, which is nice.
How is your sleep?
I still don’t sleep more than like… 2 hours per night. It’s slowly starting to drive me insane.
Best moment this week?
I know Valentine’s Day was last week, but it was a really nice day. Sam’s family were looking after the kids, so Sam and I finally were able to spend some time together, just the two of us, which was great!
Do you miss anything?
I MISS SLEEP! and caffeine.
Yes, we have a very active little bub in there.
Any food cravings?
I still crave everything chocolatey, and not exactly super healthy, but it’s just… ugh
Anything making you queasy or sick?
We’re having a little lady.
Back pain, fatique.
Belly button in or out?
Are you happy or moody most of the time?
I’m definitely moody most of the time, but I try to not let anyone feel it.
- there are two windows on each side of the bed and his blinds are always down - alina: ‘um why don’t you let some light in it’s a nice sunny day ou-’ aleksander: [laughs in that pretentious way of his like he’s been carrying the weight of the world for centuries] oh, alina, my dear alina, alina, alina… i’m ancient, alina……….. also, (alina,) it’s very aesthetically pleasing - Old Married CoupleTM - speaking of, they never actually marry but he tells her she has his heart and alina rolls her eyes in quiet acceptance and that’s kind of the same thing - black sheets, dark gray curtains, glow in the dark stars on the ceiling - he makes alina roll her eyes so much she actually develops a rare muscle tick no doctor can explain - alina: i have this headache- aleksander: *walks in* alina: there it is - they really want a pet but ofc they have to fight on this too so they end up with two: a white cat that’s the same colour as alina’s hair and a black pomeranian that literally looks like a ball of fluffy shadows - nutella pancakes for breakfast, lunch and dinner - alina has a perpetual frown and aleksander has a resting bitch face so you can bet there’s always a free seat for them on the train/subway - he has nightmares too and they’re actually very violent and draining so alina just wraps her arms around him and presses her nose against his shoulder until he stops shaking and then she starts drawing lazy circles of light (warm and soothing by definition) over his naked skin to calm him down - he’s the tall and brooding one but she’s the one people should look out for - valentino dresses and armani suits - aleksander praises himself on his newfound self-control and composure - that is, until he sees alina with nothing but his shirt on and deadass forgets how to function - sometimes he literally has to hook a finger into alina’s collar to hold her back bc yes she’s usually very quiet and patient and kind but the moment someone drives her over the edge she’s throwing hands and flip-flops (if necessary) - everyone treats them like a married couple too?? even tho they’re not?? - shadow play!!!!!! - snow angels - he freckles in the sun and alina always makes fun of him - + moles!! he’ll get like five new moles everytime he goes out so he has to walk with those giant ass rich widow hats (not all year round tho, july-august are probably the worst bc it’s just unbearably hot and sunny) - he’s still very closed off and distant (especially in public) in front of other people but the minute he’s alone with his sunshine? he melts like an ice-cream cone on a hot summer day - they never really say “i love you” but they just. know. - she knows in the way he brushes her messy pixie haircut behind her ear and his hand lingers a moment too long, almost like he’s awestruck and he knows in the way she smiles at the shadows sometimes, like they remind her of him /they do/ and the extra spoon of sugar she puts in his coffee bc she knows him so well - sometimes if alina is too tired from work she’ll make him read her fairytales bc he has a very soothing voice, simultaneously lulling her to sleep and making her acutely aware of his presence - lush who?? they can make their own bathbombs using their grisha powers - he can make cool swirling shadows and alina can make the water look like liquid starlight - and then they take a nice relaxing bath. together. - he makes her shadow puppets when she’s sick (or upset/grumpy) and tells her stories his mom used to tell him when he was a kid - alina: “*yanks curtains open* rise and shine you lazy ass it’s a beautiful day!! aleksander: it’s literally -15 degrees and the sun’s nowhere to be seen alina: ?? i’m here?? - (both) probably very into lana del rey
There's a difference between shipping MCD!Aarmau and MS!Aarmau,right? Like one is sweet and fluffy,and the other is just wrong,because they only got together once,when Aphmau was tired and stressed. I want to make sure I'm not the only one seeing it this way.
I mean you can think this. I don’t… like the turn of what Aarmau took in MCD but I could see how it’s a choice Aph could make as a character. She didn’t feel close to Laurance anymore, the stress of everything is coming down on her and Aaron did have a connection with her– Aph is flawed and sometimes flawed people make choices that don’t seem the smartest.
Did I like the pregnancy plot? No. I thought what happened to Aaron was a mistake and that plot line they took was even bigger.
Do I respect Jess’s creative choices? Yup.
Do I like the aarmau baby? I love Alina to bits AND I KNOW HOW SHE CAME TO BE ISN’T MY FAVORITE BUT,,, SHE’S A COOL CONCEPT AND A CUTE KID. Anon,,, I’m weak for baby characters and Aph in season 3 is killing it in motherhood, I love mother-child plots!!!
All in all,,, I like both of them. True, aarmau isn’t something I care to focus on, I come to accept both as a canon and I prefer way over than the other choices presented. (Yes even Larmau– that ship had no chance, people let go of it. Let it sink. Let it die.)
Emmett wrapped his fingers around Alina’s and led her to one of the canopy-covered couches. As if he had been on cue, one of the few staffers on the island magically appeared from the bungalows bringing along a couple of mimosas and a plate of poisson cru, which had quickly become one of Alina’s favorite dishes from the island. Then, as quickly and modestly as he had appeared, he was gone.
Alina shook her head in disbelief. <<Do you think they have been seeing us having sex?>>, she asked embarrassed.
Emmett bursted out laughing, wrapping his arm around her shoulders. <<Even if they did, they are respectful enough to turn the other way>>, he reassured her kissing her cheek.
Alina sighed, smiling. <<We should probably be a little more conservative about what we do out and about>>, she suggested.