The best part of “Dear John” is how Taylor subtly changes the lyric from “I should’ve know” to “you should’ve known” at the end of the song as she realises it was his fault not hers, and nobody can tell me any different.
Part 3 to my 2 other One-shots Apocalyptic and I’m Low on
Gas and You Need a Jacket. This will be the final part. I will not do anymore
for this because I feel this could be a good ending for it. I hope you enjoy.
It’s the lyrics of the song Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold.
Fandom: PlayChoices-Endless Summer
Word Count: 1,318
“A lonely road crossed
another cold state line. Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find.
While I recall all the words you spoke to me can’t help but wish that I was
there back where I’d love to be, oh yeah.”
He sat on the edge of the roof, his legs dangling over the
edge, a bottle in his hand. His mind wandered to past places. He tried his
hardest to forget her over the past 6 days that she’d been gone. He was certain
he would never see her again.
He thought back to his time in war. However, his mind seemed
to distort the memories a bit. She was there. She couldn’t have been there. The
person who looked like her was her opposite, quiet and reserved. They didn’t
speak much to anyone unless they needed to. They just watched everything.
He tried to clear his head. He nursed the bottle a bit then
laid down on the edge of the roof. He wouldn’t fall off, he knew that for sure.
He just wanted to be alone. If anyone saw him laying on the edge, they likely
wouldn’t talk to him in fear of him falling off the roof.
He was surprised there was still alcohol left after how much
he drank as well as the college kids, His mind wandered to his family. He
missed them so much. His mom was probably disappointed in him with whatever
bullshit Lundgren told everybody about Mike and him. He would give anything to
be back home and tell him mom what really happened.
His cheeks felt wet and that’s when he noticed he was
crying. His chest ached. He had lost too much. With a sigh, he sat up and put
the bottle down.
There’s nothing here
for me on this barren road. There’s no one here while the city sleeps, and all
the shops are closed. Can’t help but think of the times I had with you,
pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah.
His mind wandered to summer nights when he was a teen. There
was this girl who would be visiting Shreveport. At first they had just run into
each other and he was his usual self that made people stay away from him.
However, this girl just wouldn’t leave him alone.
They were bad influences on each other. She taught him how
to steal. He taught her how to hide and be stealthy. She had already “known”,
but she didn’t really know. He knew how to hide and not be found; he knew how
to be stealthy. It was all those skills combined that helped him during war.
Something began to dawn on him. That girl had always gone by
Wolf and she had similar features to MC. He remembered her so clearly. She was
so beautiful. He didn’t get to say goodbye to her before shipping off to boot
Some search, never
finding a way. Before long, they waste away. I found you, something told me to
stay. I gave in, to selfish ways, and how I miss someone to hold when hope begins
After that young girl and Mike he never searched for anyone
or anything again. There was no reason to. That was until he met MC. She was
all he didn’t know he was searching for. He heard the roof door open and close.
“Go away.” He grumbled, taking a swig of the bottle in his
hand. He heard soft footsteps walking towards him still. Slowly he turned and
stood up. He didn’t look up to really look at the person until he was fully on
his feet. He thought his eyes were playing tricks on him. Standing in front of
him, in all her beauty, was MC. His mouth fell open slightly. “MC…” He took a
small step forward. His hand reached out towards her. “Is it really you?”
Carefully his hand caressed her cheek. The touch of her
flesh made him gasp. She leaned into his caress. She reached out and pulled him
into a hug. Relief filled him.
“It’s really you.” He whispered more to himself.
“It’s me.” She whispered, pulling away from the hug to look
into his eyes. They were filled with relief, but also hurt. Hurt that she left.
Hurt that he may never know what happened to her. She guessed the relief took
over as he pulled her close once more, crashing their lips together.
“You’re alive. It’s really you. You’re here and alive.” He
whispered, his voice just filled with relief and happiness.
“Did you think I would never come back, J/N?” She asked
softly, running her fingers through his hair.
“No. I thought you were gone forever. I just….gave up….on
everything.” He whispered, the hurt taking over now. “Why did you leave me? We could
have just gone together. I could protect you.”
“I can protect myself.” She whispered softly, not trying to
make him feel bad.
“Yeah you’ve proven that enough times.” He grumbled. “Let me
save you sometimes. We should be a-“ He cut himself off, remembering they never
actually agreed to being together. He didn’t want to call them a team when they
weren’t even together. With a sigh, he pulled away from her, turning his back
“What were you gonna say?” She asked, trying to reach out
“Nothing, it doesn’t matter.” He grumbled, stepping further
away from the woman he loved.
“You were gonna say we make a good team, weren’t you?” She
“No, MC.” She exclaimed trying to get him to talk to her. He
turned on her with a cold glare and did what he didn’t want to.
“You know what, MC? Why don’t you just leave me the hell
alone? You seem to be real good at doing that!” he spat and walked to the roof
Dear god, the only
thing I ask of you, is to hold her when I’m not around, when I’m much too far
away. We all need the person who can be true to you. I left her when I found
her, and now I wish I’d stayed. ‘Cause I’m lonely and I’m tired, I’m missing
you again, oh no…once again.
He walked down to the beach, like he had done many nights
while MC was gone. He went in to autopilot and did what had become a habit
while MC was gone. He climbed to the highest point and just sat, staring out.
“God, I know I’ve fucked up in my life and I probably
shouldn’t even cuss when praying, but don’t punish these kids for shit that I’ve
done. My mom would tell me to ask for forgiveness for everything and it would
all work out eventually, but I’ve been asking for forgiveness since we got
stuck on this island and nothing has changed. Please, let them go. Let MC have a long and happy life.”
He paused for a second.
“Let her be okay. Even if she’s here now, I miss her so much…”
He whispered, finishing his prayer off with an ‘amen’. He sat there for a while
until he finished his bottle and the sun was rising. He slowly stood up and
went to his hotel room. When he woke up, he felt a body in his arms. He opened
his eyes to find MC. Part of him was yelling at him to push her away and not
let this happen because she would just leave again. He decided to go with his
heart instead, pulling her as humanly close as possible.
“I love you, Jake. I’m not ever leaving you again.” She
whispered softly. He felt almost as if his heart stopped after hearing her say
she loves him.
“I love you, too, MC.” He whispered, breathing in her sweet
scent before falling asleep once more.