for u ava

i woke up this morning and realised that i could not remember the sound of her voice. her laugh echos in my head when i try hard enough to imagine it but it’s nothing more than an empty, weightless reflection of reality teetering on the cusp of my memory. and it only brings me pain to try and remember it

but my fear of forgetting her is much more powerful and so i must remember and i end up at the same question, of everyone in the universe

what did we do wrong to deserve this

why me?

“Can’t see quiznak, Captain…”