me, at night, eyes snapping open:
Lana Del Rey wrote a song named "Terrence Loves You" for her album "Honeymoon". Said song references David Bowie's "Space Oddity". David Bowie had a half-brother named Terence, who suffered from schizophrenia and who he was very attached to as a kid. He was also the one who turned David's interest at an early age towards jazz. Due to David being fearful he might be schizophrenic himself and general fear of mental illness that ran in his family, the two brothers lost touch after David witnessed Terry worsening and checking himself into a mental hospital. They never quite reunited before Terry's suicide in January 1985. The line "and I lost myself, and I lost you, too, but I still got jazz, when I've got the blues", might be meant as spoken from Terry's perspective.
It’s done! Thomas Sanders/ Dodie Clark/ Terrence Williams Jr inspired piece, based of the song “Birds” from the musical Ultimate Storytime. Thanks to @honeylemonicetea for the use of her handwriting.
(This piece is for sale, and all proceeds from my work go to my college fund.)