I literally love the idea of being so obsessed with ur lover that u can’t keep ur hands off them even in public and always being turned on by them and everything they do…I wanna be with someone who’s always dying to touch me and be close to me like I love corny infatuation, I love love, I love unbearable intensity
This is probably just me but I love when Victor spins… like… have you ever just looked at him when he’s spinning? The way his hair just kinda…. swooshes??? anndd,, uuhhHHH,,?? and his expressions??? ju s t,,,,,,, hhHH
so he’s gone and you’re trying to let this go with him but it just won’t leave and you just can’t forget. this is an ache like lazarus; it is alive when it shouldn’t be, it is back and bigger than ever. it hurts that the memories are so soft and at the same time so goddamn wrecking ball. he was never as gentle as you remember. this was never as perfect as your naive high school eyes saw it. it’s hard to let go when the hurt is a leech and you are always bleeding. it’s hard to breathe easy when your head is always underwater.
i think one of the most realistic scenes in season 3 is the one in ep 3 where Isak and Emma are talking about their favourite music on the couch, and Isak is showing off a bit. he’s been listening to a lot of nas. when you want to feel close to someone, you listen to their favourite music. it’s only been a week since Even introduced Isak to nas, but here he’s acting shocked that Emma hasn’t heard of him, illmatic is only like the best album ever made, come on, everybody knows that, ill as in ill and matic. this is just so relatable to me, because i feel he’s not really just talking about music or nas, he’s also talking about Even and Even’s music. he has this huge crush that he can’t say out loud, to anyone. he can’t talk about the way his eyes shine when he laughs, or the way he smells, or how funny his jokes are. the stuff that is on your mind all the time when you’re 17 and falling for someone, he can’t talk about any of it. he is alone. but he can talk about Even’s music. he can brag about Even through nas. oftentimes people try to appear knowledgeable about music when they want to make an impression on someone, but Isak’s not trying to impress Emma because Emma is already too impressed. he’s trying to distance himself from her. he’s sitting on the couch with Emma, yet all his thoughts are on Even. so he tells Emma about nas because he can’t tell her about Even. these seemingly mundane yet emotionally revealing scenes are one of the reasons i love this show.
you’re the kind of person who says sorry when they don’t mean sorry.
you just want me to stop having feelings
so you don’t have to think about what you did wrong. you don’t even fucking listen to me when i speak so i’m done speaking.
i hate you so much. there’s no way hatred isn’t this feeling. my blood is boiling. you’re still choosing her over me, even as friends.
you don’t deserve my friendship.
you never did.
i write a poem about me leaving you and you see it so you text me.
i don’t answer because i fucking hate you but i feel guilty about it the entire day.
iiii. you text me again. you say “hey.”
you tell me you saw my snapchat story and you hope i’m having fun. you ask me
how school’s going. you’re so good at pretending you care. you’re so good at it, i believe you.
iv. i always give in. i always text you back eventually. and you’re so fucking nice to me,
i forget about all of the things you did wrong.
all of the lies. the times
you were threading your hands in her hair when i was breaking down.
vi. why can’t you make this easy? why can’t you fucking leave?