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◢ You will have to wade through blood. ◣

■ Footage:  Marie Antoinette, Farewell My Queen, Muhteşem Yüzyıl, The Empress of China, The Tudors, Anne of the Thousand Days, The Young Victoria, Rome, Cleopatra (1999), The Girl King, Elizabeth, Elizabeth I (2017), Elizabeth: The Golden Age, Mary Queen of Scots, The Pillars of the Earth, Ekaterina (2014), Tut, The White Queen, The White Princess, A Royal Affair
■ Music:  TSFH - Nero
■ Characters:  Marie Antoinette, Hurrem Sultan, Wu Zetian, Anne Boleyn, Victoria I, Cleopatra VII, Christina of Sweden, Elizabeth I, Mary Queen of Scots, Empress Matilda, Catherine the Great, Ankhesenamun, Elizabeth Woodville, Elizabeth of York, Caroline Mathilda

What a fucking betrayal

To be honest, I did shed a tear when I heard about Jemma’s departure in two weeks, but I’m not surprised that she was basically an afterthought.

I know some people don’t like the berena side of the fandom now or whatever, but this was a total waste of an excellent actress, regardless of your feelings about her character. If I was Jemma Redgrave right now though, I’d be pissed. In my opinion, when she left for her break, that was the end of berena. The kill list was basically a ‘there you go, you got your lesbian couple and don’t ask for anything else’, and then they disappeared, not a single moment of their relationship shown, except for Bernie trying to deal with Serena’s grief, and even then Jemma had very little to do.
In my opinion, when Jemma went on the break, the writers saw that there a big split in the reactions: there was all of us, who loved Bernie and berena and everything they were doing, and then there was the older, more conservative audience who made it quite clear they didn’t like Bernie or Berena. It was basically a choice between trying to keep the new viewers, or please the pre-existing audience, and they picked the latter.Realistically, I know that Berena on the show is over, regardless of how much I wish that they could both come back together and be happy. It doesn’t stop Berena being a very special ship.

Yes, some people will say it’s silly to be upset at Jemma leaving because only TV, but for me, Berena was really important.
Serena’s storyline made me finally comfortable identifying as bi and I wouldn’t have come out to my parents without Berena- telling them about what I wanted for them let me tell them in my own life and let them understand my feelings. Not only that, but Berena was a lifeline for me- I suffer from chronic pain that has me virtually housebound, but Berena got me back in touch with my creativity, experimenting with my online work. Plus it gave me the chance to experiment with fiction writing, and now I’m actually trying to write an original LGBT novel, because berena fanfiction gave me the confidence.

When I sent off my letter for an autograph from jemma, I thanked her and Catherine for Berena, because it gave me the chance to have control over my identity, which is enormous for me; I have so little power in my life now that it is so dictated by my pain, and that my whole image from my burns to my clothes, and Berena really did help me take a bit of control back.
Jemma put on the autograph ‘strong by name and strong by nature’ (my surname is Strong) and when I’m crying in agony looking at that genuinely helps.

I will always be grateful to Catherine and Jemma for Bernie and Serena, and sad that the writers denied us the relationship that we and seemingly Catherine and Jemma wanted to see.

But more than anything, I am grateful for the berena community: it was a huge part of me accepting myself, and everyone is amazing. I love you all to bits, even if you don’t know anything about me- you are all really amazing! ❤

WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME ABOUT THIS HOLBY CITY SHIT #17

I HAVE CONFLICTING FEELINGS ABOUT FLORAL GUY™ TELLING DOM THAT CURLY FRIES IS GAY (?? HE MIGHT BE BI OR PAN SOMETHING IDK) BECAUSE 1) HE TOLD HIM IN CONFIDENCE AND U CAN’T BE OUTING PEOPLE LIKE THAT, BUT 2) FUK YES ONE STEP CLOSER TO HAVING #DOM FRIES BECOME CANON SO
-DOM REMINDS ME OF SOMEONE BUT I CAN’T QUITE THINK WHO
- “WHO U WAITING FOR” “A WOMAN” THIS MAY BE THE ONLY TIME I’VE EVER RELATED TO ITALIAN GUY
- HOW IS THIS 11 YR OLD KID GETTING TO GO TO ICELAND WHEN I ONLY GOT ON 1 SCHOOL TRIP IN MY ENTIRE 5 YEARS IN SECONDARY SCHOOL AND THAT WAS TO A FUCKING FARM
- DID LOVELY LESBIAN LADY™ GET A HAIR CUT BECAUSE HER HAIR IS LOOKING ESPECIALLY LOVELY TODAY
- CAN CURLY FRIES™ ACTUALLY STOP SABOTAGING HIMSELF PLEASE AND THANK YOU
- “I’M GOING TO HELL” ME EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE TBH
- OMG DOM JUS KISSED LOFTY I AM LIVING
- WHY ARE SMILEY WOMAN AND ITALIAN GUY KISSING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WARD PLEASE LIKE DON’T THEY KNOW EVERYONE IS WATCHING THEM NOT DO THEIR JOBS
- WHY IS THIS 11 YR OLD MORE GROWN UP THAN 99% OF THE PEOPLE ON HOLBY PLEASE
- NO0O0O0 I’VE JUST REALISED THAT THE PERSON DOM REMINDS ME OF IS A YOUNG STALIN OMG I’M ACTUALLY DYING
OVERALL THOUGHTS :
THANK FUCK ESSIE AND RAF WEREN’T THE CENTRE OF THIS EPISODE BECAUSE I WOULD’VE ACTUALLY FALLEN ASLEEP

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