(( alright, i’ve had this idea for a few minutes, but, i think it’s time for me to show it o3o. i’d like to request/dare people to draw themselves in their favorite elsword outfit! meaning your irl self with an elsword outfit you’d like to wear/you’d like, for example - this is mine, which was myself with AT’s outfit. i’d like to see some other entries, if possible! if you do, please note me/tell me about it, i’d like to see it! tagging anyone who sees/reads this~ -brandi/ip )) (( side note : IBs, item mall costumes etc is aloud, not just promotion outfits! ))
I really only came back on to make this post. I’ve seen the messages and responses and I can’t tell you how lovely they are and how much they mean. I hope you understand that I just can’t reply to every single one right now but they are appreciated.
I’ve also seen who hasn’t responded, who chose to use this whole incident (and I don’t just me what happened to me) as a thing to dismiss as if they weren’t a part of it, who brushes is off as ‘drama’, who is conveniently trying to switch blame, etc. I urge everyone to just take a closer look at those around you. See who they’re liking, see who they’re reblogging, if something feels off it probably is.
I was nothing but calm and rational and respectful in my posts. I never mentioned anyone by name, I never got angry, and most importantly I didn’t use a single tag. Which means anyone who read my posts did so because they either follow me or they came looking for it.
I was attacked on the core things that make up me. That cuts. I’m a strong person. I’m a stubborn person. But everyone has their limits. I thought this fandom was worth the effort I was putting into it but I’m not so sure anymore, not after this. Nothing is going to change. The trailer will come out in the next day or so and this will all be forgotten. The problem will of course still be there but no one is going to bother with it. So, fine, why should I.
I don’t know how long I’ll be gone. Maybe two days, maybe two weeks, maybe two months. I need some distance because theres a lot of disappointment swirling around with the anger and the hurt right now. I’m definitely feeling like the only reason I’m wanted here is because of my writing. Me as an individual, a person, a potential friend…that’s not as interesting as the free entertainment. I’ve been in this fandom for a long time now and I can count on one hand the amount of people who have actually attempted to get to know me outside of my writing. Yesterday I dared to step outside my assigned box, to defend the fandom that I’ve given so much of my time to and look what it got me.
I’m sure plenty of people will see me as weak, as whiny…well, you have your role as a mother attacked, your ability as a writer questioned, along with a host of horrible slurs thrown your way and then we’ll see if you do any better. After that trying to defend a fandom that seems more than willing to keep this swept under the rug doesn’t seem worth it.
Again, to those of you who have been amazing and supportive, even from some unexpected places I thank you. There are good parts to this fandom, I just need a little time to remember what they are.
i tagged it military so that anyone who has issues reading about things related to the military or their various abuses of both american and non-american people, esp poor people & people of color, can block it if necessary
if u just want to block it bc you’re pro military ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ the u.s. military fucked my entire family over soo
What was your last: Drink: Cranberry juice. Last phone call: It was with a shitty person, to be honest. I regret it. Last text: It’s mild, had something to do with wanting things I sent back. Last song you listened to: Guy Fieri’s theme song. Last time you cried: I don’t remember. It’d probably be over something stupid in a recent time.
Have you ever dated someone: Yeah. Wish I hadn’t. Been cheated on: Maybe. Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope. Never kissed anyone. Lost someone special: Yeaaaah. Been drunk and thrown up: Naaah, not yet at least. 2 Months tho. List three favorite colors: Black, Grey, Red.
In the last year, have you… Made a new friend: Yes. Fallen out of love: Mhm. Laughed until you cried: All the fricking time. Met someone that changed you: Yeah- in bad ways mostly. Found out who your true friends are: More or less. Found out someone was talking about you: Not really- it probably happens all the time tbh.. Kissed someone on your fb friends list: Naaaah. I wish.
General: How many people on your fb friends list do you know IRL: I don’t even have an active Facebook. BUT LAUGHS BC OUR WORK FACEBOOK. But I recently started logging in on my old one and mostly all of them are my friends or family. Do you have any pets: Yes- Two birbs. Do you want to change your name: Not.. Really. What did you do for your last birthday: I don’t remember. Watched a movie? Ate at some place- SHRUGS. What time did you wake up today: 9:30AM for work. What were you doing at midnight last night: Probably sleeping my ass off or watching horror gameplays. Name something you cannot wait for: A convention here in AK so I can cosplay… Woops. Last time you saw your mother: 1,000 years ago- kidding. Like 30 minutes ago I think. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Wish I didn’t have such bad anxiety, didn’t dive into a relationship that ended up to be a complete nightmare in the end, didn’t limit myself, talked more- etc., etc. What are you listening to right now: Diners, Drive-ins, & Dives on tv. Have you ever talked to someone with the name Tom: Yeah, at school. What’s getting on your nerves: Ohohoho. Someone I shouldn’t have talked to again. Most visited website: Tumblr probably. Nickname: Mountain, Drubagel, Bro, Dude, Drucapribro, Jaun, etc. Relationship status: Single Pringle and never wanna pringle with people who are shitty to people that love’m. Zodiac sign: Libra. Pronouns: He/Him. Favorite TV show: Courage the Cowardly Dog.. |8 Hair color: Originally dark brown/black but now it’s red. Long or short: Looks at the camera- me? Height: 0′0″. Do you have a crush on someone: Sorta kinda. I probably have no chance with them. It’s not a crush it’s more like- hey, I wanna hang out and platonically date the heck out of you if you want to. What do you like about yourself: Nothing really. I’m trash. Tattoos: None but I can probs afford one now.. LOL Righty or lefty: Righty. First surgery: None. First piercings: Ears. Best friend: Klad man. First sport you joined: HAHA– First vacation: Just recently actually. First pair of trainers: I NEVER GET THIS QUESTION. POKEMON TRAINERS? ASH- BROCK AND MISTY?
Heres what it is: i wasn’t planning on doing this tag cause like Hansol is literally my one and only. I love the others VERY VERY MUCH but like, I have a completely different kind of love for Hansol and so this will just be boring for anyone who reads it, but since i’ve been tagged by a lot of people (in a short time) i’ve decided to do it anyway. Im sorry.
Rules: Answer honestly and tag 13 people when you’re done (1 person for every seventeen member).
Past/ Current Bias Phases. These are the member(s) you’ve gone through a huge bias phase/ are currently your bias(es):
The member(s) that caught my eye first AKA First Bias:
Hansol (and well Coups but it was mainly Hansol so)
The Bias Phase that hit me the hardest:
Phases I’ve YET to be in. These are members that haven’t been through a huge bias phase for you, but it’s going to come at you eventually just you wait. Of course you still love them all to death though (IMPORTANT NOTE: this does not mean you dislike them, or don’t love them!)
Dino, Woozi, Seungkwan, Mingyu
My Next Phase might be:
The One and Only. This is the member that you know will always be your #1 Bias in Seventeen or in general: