I was a very jealous type of girlfriend when we were still in a relationship. I admit i was immature back then. Whenever we quarrel, i was always the first one to give up on the relationship. Little misunderstandings and arguments about small things often lead to “i’m breaking up with you” - my favorite line to use when things are getting too heavy for us to carry on & continue the relationship. But my favorite line turns out to be his weakness. He’s always the first one to apologize, telling me how much he loves me and how he’s so afraid of losing me. I pushed him a lot of times before he finally got tired of countering all my attacks. He gave up. That time, i was hating on myself for pushing him away. I remember texting him everyday, leaving long messages saying how sorry i was and how i regret what i did but in the end, i was left with nothing but silence. He never replied. I was regretful. I pushed him away until he can no longer take it. I blamed myself for years.
Right now, I still push people away. In fact, there’s someone i’ve been talking to for a year or two. I’ve been pushing him away but he’s still here, fighting for his place in my life. He’s so insisting that sometimes when i push him away, i’m the one who gets tired of pushing.
I don’t know the reason behind me pushing people away, perhaps you do it too. We may have pushed people away, or treat others coldly, or nag at them, or burst out on them, or showed other people some kind of not-so-pleasing personality and made a mistake on how we treated them,
but here’s what i realize
We don’t have to blame ourselves when someone leaves. We don’t need to ask our friends to evaluate us and tell us what’s wrong with us.
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We have won.
Mark Zuckerberg is president!
This is so much and so
much! The oval office in the White House, and this is what it is. So
many supported and this was possible!
We have technology. We have love.
And now, we have president. Mark Zuckerberg: 47th United
States? Such a good title to have. And geeky Wil Wheaton is a Vice President and that is! And hope
and hope and hope and hope and hope. Mark Zuckerberg the president! Mark Zuckerberg the president! This
is what the people wanted. This is
what those the people needed! Need of
Mark Zuckerberg. Can’t you see? In the heart? There can be nothing without Zuckerberg. He will
save America. He will bring back the sky.
This shall be no more. The
Pence administration? A failure of America.
Pence is kept, the way without harm, and that’s
that, but so much more is needed
to America. Mark Zuckerberg is needed to America.
The threat of Mobian cult is what is the
threat of America. So much loss. So much
collapse. A concern of which? Continues
to be ripped in and again, and hope is lost. A government so vile and reckless. Hopeless for America.
Something had to be done. Michael Richard Pence has not been harmed. Michael Richard Pence has not been harmed. This is those things the newscasters always say! America
must be united. Only one way. Only
one way. Mark Zuckerberg will save America.
Mark Zuckerberg will bring back the sky.
Some was lost in the change. Some cannot receive Mark Zuckerberg. Stuck to the world before and such.
And these some have been lost. Mark
Zuckerberg technology too strong for
some to admit. (Military will be improve!
The false faith threat quick dispatch. A danger destroyed! All thanks to Mark Zuckerberg.) Bring sorry, but
must. But the rebuild has begun so soon
and already. Many and many were loyal to
Mark Zuckerberg, and loved Mark
Zuckerberg so deeply, and needed
Mark Zuckerberg to be president. So many serve loyal and love! And love! Mark Zuckerberg and love!
Mark Zuckerberg is president. Mark
Zuckerberg is president. He will repair. He will heal. He will end the treacherous times. He will save America.
He will bring back the sky.
As for we! Mark
Zuckerberg campaign team, of Mark Zuckerberg campaign blog, and the help of campaign Mark Zuckerberg? We have won, and the election no longer needs for Mark Zuckerberg,
but he will need so much else! We
will stay. We will keep update the blog. We will share the
beauty of Mark Zuckerberg! So much
better and more content for you funny Tumblr folks. So much more love for Mark Zuckerberg is hoped for!
Now you can see his beauty. Now, you
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Mark Zuckerberg is
hope. And, good and good folks of Tumblr, hope is America. More update of come
soon, but for now. Together united,
I know this was a present for Peepsqueak, but I want all of you to take a good look at this picture. Not only it symbolize Wander’s Hat, but it also symbolize hope.
Wander’s hat doesn’t give you what you want, it give us what we need. Right now, it’s giving us hope because I feel like we are getting closer to saving the show. I mean look how much process we did over the months: We have over 40,000 signatures (almost 50,000!), it been referenced and cameos in other shows, marathons every now and then, and most importantly give the crew and @crackmccraigen hope that the show can be save.
When ever you are feeling down or giving up, look at this picture and remember that it’s symbolize hope for everybody that needs it. Wander spread hope for us, we have to do the same for him and the crew.
We made it through the first trimester :). My husband wanted to do the first trimester screening (NT scan + heart scan + bloodwork) and the Harmony Test (blood test for changes in the number of chromosomes). The scan was perfect, now we wait for the lab results. I enjoyed the scan (they had such a great ultrasound machine -> perfect pictures and we now know the sex of the little one already ;), but I don’t like waiting for the lab results. We’ll get them in the middle of next week. If everything is fine, we finally share the news at work etc. Our families already guessing if it’s a boy or girl, but we won’t tell them - it’s real fun ;).
I’m feeling very good physically (had some nausea and was veeery tired, both has improved a lot), but I can’t shrug off all the doubts. Of course the critical early weeks are over, but as I’ve worked in Gyn/OB the last 7 years I’ve also seen the rare cases. Can’t talk with my husband about that (normally he’s the one who worries and he is just happy at the moment - I don’t want to destroy that). And I know that those fears are irrational. Most of the pregnancies / births going I’ve seen over the years went well. But of course the bad experiences are stuck in my brain. Also I’ve got a kind of ‘survivors guilt’ overcoiming infertility. I still follow many TTC blogs and I just hope that all of them will be pregnant soon. This community helped me a lot.
I guess I’m getting a little hormonal at the moment (one day absolutely happy and on the next I can’t belive in our luck) But that’s normal in pregnancy I guess :).
Confession: I know who I am in Christ. I am a new creation. I am the righteousness of God. I am a joint heir with Jesus. I am more than a conqueror. I am a world overcomer, and from this day forward I am a winner!
If there is something that God has spoken into my life over and over again, it is that He always has my best interest in mind. God paints a picture in His Word about what is right and what is wrong, for a reason. The non-believer may think that Christianity is all about rules. But I would like to offer another side. I’ve found that the things in life that lead me away from God, always lead to self-destruction. That rings true in my life, and the lives of people around me whom I’ve seen stray away and do their own thing. A god who lets you do what ever you want and get away with it, is not a loving god. But guys… our God cares about us SO much, that He’s made it clear about what will prosper us, and what will destroy us. Sometimes that looks like conviction, and sometimes that looks like Grace. With that, let me say… there is a reason why He wants our lives to line up with His Word. He has a reason.
I still check my email every day, hoping to see your name. When I don’t, like every day before, it’s another dagger piercing my heart. But I keep checking. Hope is funny like that; it doesn’t care about the day or week or month before. It knows, despite all evidence to the contrary, that there is always the smallest chance that you’ll finally decide to answer me. Logically, I know that you won’t, but hope doesn’t respond well to logic.
This hope is what I cling to on my darkest days.