flying day

imagine making love…imagine feeling your soul connect with hers with each stroke and each gasp and each halted moan..imagine feeling her pulse quicken while your hand is closed around her neck, the way her back arches toward the sky or the way her thighs lock around your head. imagine that primal look in her eyes as she tries to tell you she loves you but the ecstasy has halted all words in her throat. imagine feeling someone in every way possible, and still wanting more.

File under things that are currently pissing me off.

I leave for Seattle/PDX in 8 days (flying out tuesday 4/4). So between now and then, I have three days off and a lot to do. I made a list. This isn’t new. Every time I travel anywhere, I make a list. Because I’m the kind of person who will leave my toothbrush at home. My list is thorough and literally everything is listed on it. I have quite a bit to do between now and tuesday so today I’m washing everything I will need for this trip that wasn’t clean already and I’m working on projects that need to get done before I leave.

So - certain people are making cracks about how “women pack too much” and he picked up my list and giggled at it - “wow you even listed tampons, that’s dedication” like HAHA this is so funny look at the silly woman. Yeah, bromeo, this is part of why I left your ass in the first place. GRR.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

Inktober Day 06~
Idk if this is a rarepair or not, I just introduced myself to mercymaker and 👌🍸❤️💯