i am unable to take life lightly.
the smallest happiness feels like an entire anthology of poems worth writing. perhaps that is my flaw: that i believe all of life demands documentation. but i cannot help that i fear forgetting how your smile feels on my lips. i fear forgetting the indie songs that make me chuckle with judgement. i fear forgetting conversations that prolong my sleep for hours. i fear forgetting what it is like to be happy without restraint.
i want to walk earth with a nonexistent footprint - one day i am gone and the earth will seamlessly continue to be - but within my own world, everything feels heavy. no amount of cosmic nihilism can annihilate a smile, this temporary warmth that maybe i cannot define but i sure as hell can feel it.
we are all so small and i fear forgetting it all. i do not know how we end and frankly i do not even know how we begin, but for just tonight, i am happy. and i’ll be damned if i let myself forget that.
So I heard you like Shiro? I’m so proud of myself for actually finishing this and not leving it half-done on my desktop for 6 months (like I usually do~~). PS I know his mouth is uneven (he’s biting his lip, you just can’t tell because I HAVE NOT ZE SKILLZ… oh well).
I recorded this, too, so expect a speedpaint soonish. Enjoy~