“It was like I was in a dream too. I forgot everything. But even though I didn’t remember you—I felt your presence… and I knew that I would never be complete unless those shadows were brought into the light.”
And I know that sounds kind of weird, but just hear me out for a bit. I want to see her leave the team because she couldn’t handle it, because she couldn’t stand to see her best friend hurting the way he was, because it was killing her to think that the reason he’s in this position right now is because she was too selfish to live without him. I want her to go to Coulson and tell him that it’s for his own good, even though they both know that she’s lying.
Jemma Simmons is not perfect, and it’s completely reasonable to think that when faced with this situation she might’ve been weak. I want the team to know this. I want Fitz to know this. I want her to know this. I want her return to be difficult and for her to have to earn her place back with the team. I want Skye to be cold and distant, because how dare she leave him and make her be the one who has to watch Fitz fall apart. I want May to be quietly disappointed, and Coulson to withhold his trust. I want Trip to be angry, because we all know how he reacted when May left. Trip knows that you don’t just desert your team, no matter what.
But most of all, I want her relationship with Fitz to feel like it’s breaking apart. I think Fitz knows Jemma left, and there’s little bits and pieces of evidence to that sprinkled throughout the episode. And God, can you imagine how that must have hurt? No matter her reason, when Fitz needed her most she wasn’t there for him. What happened to being beside each other the whole damn time? What happened to fixing things together? What happened to being Fitzsimmons? Jemma is going to have to fight like hell to earn his trust back. Of course he still loves her, and she still loves him. But relationships are hard, and sometimes they are tested, and that’s how they get stronger. The relationship between Fitz and Simmons has never been perfect, and we’ve seen that all throughout season 1- lack of communication, codependency, etc. They need this if they have any hope of being the person that the other one deserves.
But in the end, I want them to know that they are a family. And families are dysfunctional, and sometimes people leave, and sometimes people make mistakes. That’s real life. I don’t want to watch flawless characters make the right choice every single time. I don’t want to see heroes only ever do heroic things. I want to see them fail. I want to see them be selfish and weak and wrong. It doesn’t make them bad people, it makes them human.
Jemma Simmons is not perfect, and I would never want her to be.