Chapter Five

Player: Tyler Seguin – Dallas Stars

Prompt: The highly requested next chapter of Give Us a Chance. 

 Mentions: Jamie & Jordie Benn        

 Warnings: Angst & Cuss Words

 Preview: You studied his body language and the way he walked into the backyard. Even from this far, you knew you were watching a broken man.

 Characters: 2016 words.

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You had been hiding out all day. Ever since Candace’s warning yesterday you found yourself on edge even in the safety of your own home. You tossed and turned all night, hardly getting a wink of sleep. You were currently standing in the kitchen absentmindedly washing dishes from lunch when a noise outside caught your attention. You picked up your eyes from the sink to look out the bay window.

And there was the Seguin family sitting on the back porch as the dogs ran around chasing a football. What you didn’t expect was seeing the Benn brothers throwing said football back and forth a heated game of monkey in the middle occurring.

 In this moment you realized you had missed them. Being best friends with Tyler, came being close with the pair and you hadn’t realized how much you missed them being in your life. You sighed.

 You continued to scan the backyard, looking for him. You didn’t see him, something inside you was sad that you didn’t. You didn’t know why; Tyler broke you. You took a deep breath and were about to turn around when their sliding glass door opened and there he was.

 You studied his body language and the way he walked into the backyard. Even from this far, you knew you were watching a broken man. The sparkling brown eyes you fell for years ago were dull and the smile that used to make the butterflies in your stomach flutter was gone with no trace of it ever being there in the first place.

 Once again, you felt sadness run through your veins. You wanted to pretend it was because you were looking at the man that broke your heart but you couldn’t even lie to yourself. You were just as devastated to see Tyler in the state he was in, and that broke your heart even more.

 “What you looking at Y/N?” Your brother asked quickly pulling you from your thoughts.

 “Nothing, it’s nothing.” You wiped the last of the dishes and stepped away from the sink just as your brother saw what was keeping your attention.

 He smirked as you tried to leave the kitchen. “Y/N, can you take this out to the boat, I forgot to put it back this morning.”

You knew exactly what he was doing and you weren’t amused. You knew he wasn’t going to give up on the situation so you snatched the bag from his hand and headed towards the back door. 

You stood in the front of the big glass door for a moment. You looked down at yourself examining what you were wearing. You were barefoot, your hair in a messy bun, wearing a pair of black leggings and an oversized long sleeve Dallas shirt. How fitting you thought to yourself. You hadn’t even realized the shirt but being that it was one of the last clean shirts you owned you had no choice but to slip it on this morning.

You placed your hand on the handle of the door, and suddenly it felt as if the door weighed a couple tons. You closed your eyes, took a deep breath and stepped outside.

 You had hoped you would make it to the dock and back without anyone noticing. Marshall and Cash had other ideas.

Tyler’s POV

 I walked outside to sit with my family. They had hoped a trip to the lake house would ease my mind. I had just played one of the shitiest seasons of my career, but could you blame me? I lost the love of my life and my best friend over a stupid mistake.

Y/N had ignored every way I tried to get in contact with her. I had lost her and I didn’t know how to get her back. I contemplated flying out to her but every time someone convinced me out of it. They would tell me to give it time or to give her space, but it was killing me.

 My family suggested coming out to the lake house to clear my head and maybe figure out what I was going to do. Jamie and Jordie offered to tag along. They were both concerned all season, and to be honest I think they wanted Y/N back in our lives as well.

 I sat down on the deck and looked towards the lake house her family owned across the yard. A light was on, and I felt my heart flutter. Was her family here? Was she here? Why didn’t my family tell me?

 I stood up and Candace seemed to read my mind.

 “Sit down Tyler.” She commanded placing a hand on my arm.

 I looked at her questioning what she knew without uttering a word.

 “Yes Ty, She’s here but you have to let her come to you.” She sighed looking down. “I saw her yesterday and she wasn’t the Y/N we all know and love. When she saw Marshall, I swore she was going to faint. I warned her you were coming and I could almost see all the color fall from her face. She looks like she hasn’t been doing much better than you.”

 My mom then joined the conversation. “I agree with your sister sweetheart. You need to let her come to you.”

 “But what if she doesn’t mom,” I questioned

 “She will Hun, just have faith.”

 Suddenly Marshall and Cash were running for the opposite end of the yard. And there she was. I watched as she froze when the dogs ran up to her. She slowly bent down to pet them both. When she finally looked up, I felt as if I had been hit by a truck.

 The beautiful eyes I fell for were sunken in, and I could almost see where the tear streaks looked as if they were permanently etched in her skin. She looked as if she lost weight and could barely stand on her feet. I wanted so badly to run to her, pick her up in my arms and tell her everything was going to be okay. But I couldn’t. I was the one who did this to her, and it was more than I could bare.

 You froze as the two dogs began to lick your bare feet. You slowly bent down to pet them, offering them both a quick hello and pets. You looked up, frightened to see what was happening in front of you.

 All eyes were on you, passing you sympathetic smiles. Your eyes finally met Tyler’s and you swore you stopped breathing. He was just as still as you were. He looked as if he was taking you in, the sadness overcoming him as he turned and went back in the house.

 You offered everyone else a fake smile and continued down to the dock. You collapsed on the dock as soon as you knew you were out of sight. You were sobbing before you knew it. It had been over six months but it felt just as fresh as when it happened. You didn’t know how long you had been laying there, but before you knew it the sun was setting.

 You collected yourself and moved to the edge of the dock. You sat there admiring the sunset when you heard footsteps. You assumed it was your brother coming down to find you but when you turned around you almost fell into the lake.

 Tyler was just steps away from you now, his eyes were red-rimmed and you knew he had been crying.

 “Can we talk, just please.” He begged you, his voice cracking.

 Your heart ached for him. Even after everything he was still Tyler. You nodded, bringing your eyes back to the water. You swayed your feet watching the ripples as you felt the wood shift. You watched as two feet swayed mere feet away from yours. You sat in silence that felt so deafening you could hardly stand it but you couldn’t bring yourself to be the first to break it.

 Finally, Tyler did.

 “Listen Y/N, I know I messed up. I should have reacted better when that girl kissed me and if I could go back I would. There isn’t a day that I don’t regret it. It cost me you, and that’s something I can’t replace. I’m not going to sit here and beg you for your forgiveness or make excuses. I was wrong and I know it. Everyone told me I need to wait it out and let you come to me but after seeing you today, I couldn’t wait any longer. I’m not here to ask for you back or for you to talk to me, even though it is all I want in the world. I came down here to get you to promise me to take care of yourself. I know everyone is worried about you. You aren’t the Y/N I know and love. Your eyes are missing that shimmer it has when you talk about something you care about or your laughing at something that isn’t as remotely funny as you think it is. Your smile isn’t real, and your real one is one of the prettiest things about you. Your smile could move mountains. It makes anyone feel like they are the luckiest human being on the planet to witness anything like it. The world needs your smile. And I know you’re not eating. You have to promise me you’ll take care of yourself, please at least that. I can’t handle the thought of me being the reason this world is deprived of someone like you.”

 You were speechless. You could feel the salty tears burning your eyelid. You sat in silence for a few more moments before you felt the dock shift once more.

 “Just please, take care of yourself” Tyler repeated once more as he turned to walk back up the dock.

 “I don’t know how to be her without you.” You said suddenly causing Tyler to turn around.

 You looked up at him, allowing the tears to flow down your cheeks. “I don’t know how to be that girl without you. I don’t know how to live without you. I can’t remember life without you. And these months have been a living hell. I miss you as much as I don’t want to. I hate that I can’t be myself without you.” You found a sudden strength to stand and face him.

 I hate that you broke my heart, I hate that I lay in bed and watch every video on my phone of you, torturing myself. I hate that you can do this to me. I hate that you took a piece of me.” With each statement, you pounded into his chest. Tyler took each hit until finally, he grabbed your wrists as you broke down into sobs. “I hate that I don’t hate you in the least Tyler.”

 He allowed you to sob into him, lowering you both down until you were sitting on the dock.

You allowed yourself to sob into his arms for what seemed like forever. Finally, you glanced up at him, noticing his own tear streaks.

 “What are we doing Tyler?” You asked with a sigh standing up.

 “I don’t know Y/N.”

 You wiped your tears as he stood himself waiting for you to speak.

 You gulped, closing your eyes. “I know that I’m not completely okay with what you did but I also know that I can’t just keep pretending that you aren’t just a house away. I’m ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder a fight. I just need more time.”

 “What does that mean?”

 “Friends?” you reached out your hand.

 He looked at you curiously. “Friends.”

 You shook hands and wiped yourself off.

 “Friends” you repeated as you made your way up the dock.

 You swore you heard him mumble, “For Now.”