five-months-ago

Recently(okay, five months ago) I met a guy who I instantly connected with and we hit it off so well. He treats me extremely well, better than any guy has before. I thought I was in love with him and told him, but he has yet to say it back(for weeks). I thought I felt so strongly about him, thinking about our future & things, but now I am less sure. This could partially be bc my mom in my ear, she is against us being different races (he’s Indian). And on his end, he knows his family would not approve of me bc of race. He himself has done nothing wrong, but I’m just starting to feel differently about us and don’t know what/how to tell him? I also started a new job which gives me even less time to talk to him and our different schedules give us no time to meet up anymore. I like him as my friend still, but I’m just not sure anymore if he’s the one to date/ be with for long term. (For reference we are both in our early 20s).

When you’re alone, you realize a lot of things. You realize that the last coffee you had was taken almost five months ago. You realize that the person who ruined you before has a son now. You realize that the teacher that you looked up to was now gone. You realize that you prefer the clothes that you said you never want to wear when you were fifteen. You realize that those girls who wear make up to be more beautiful only wear those cosmetics to make themselves feel good. You realize that romance stuff wasn’t as gross as it was when you were younger. You realize that you wanted to explore and to find new adventures, something you wouldn’t say back then. You realize that you don’t have as many friends as you have when you were in high school, because you learn to choose who you’ll give your trust to. You realize that not everyone would judge anyone on their first glance. You realize that there were more people who were kind and would lend their hands on the next person who would ask. You realize that your heartbreak at 14 was of different level than your heart break at 19. You realize that you don’t have to ask people for validation when the only validation you need is from yourself. You realize that having curvaceous doesn’t make you ugly. You realize that everyone will leave and that those who don’t were the real treasure.

You don’t just realize those stuff—you understand them in a deeper level, and you’ve grown.

Everything has changed. (Seungcheol)

Group: Seventeen.

Member: Choi Seungcheol.

Additional Info: Member x Reader. angst. Brother!Au. Lots of curse words. And more stuff lmao. (I’ll do the second part soon!!).


Reader’s POV

Since my brother Seungcheol started dating that girl called Sohee five months ago, everything changed.

He started to grow more distant with the rest of the group and me; he spent all his free time with her, they always went shopping, went to parties, to the cinema… he did EVERYTHING with her. Everytime he was done with his training schedule, he ran to the dorms to get ready and do something with Sohee. There wasn’t any “Seventeen time” or “Brother and Sister time” anymore. It was always “Seungcheol and Sohee time”.

To be honest, none of us knew why Seungcheol was still with her, because she was actually a stuck up bitch. He never got to see her “normal-self”. Sometimes when he’s not around and we are at the dorms with Sohee -something really rare, actually- her real-self showed up; constant yelling at us, insulting me or some of the members, trying to flirt with Junhui or Mingyu -something that never worked- and picking fights with me, when I honestly didn’t bother her or anything.

The day I got into a “big fight” with her, I decided to talk to my brother about everyting that has been going on lately. All the members agreed with me, since we all wanted to open his eyes, because things can’t be like this anymore.

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“It’s a bittersweet time. I’m trying to be happy because it’s said that the baby will absorb sad moments. But my father died five months ago, today. We don’t know exactly what happened. He was alone. We think someone tried to rob him because he was found shot to death in his car. I think it was hardest for me because we were so close. He used to visit me at the hospital every day while I was working. I learned that I was pregnant shortly after he died. I think my pregnancy is what’s keeping our family alive. Especially my mother. She’s always with me now. She gets me everything I need. The baby keeps both of us looking forward. It’s going to be a girl.”

(Buenos Aires, Argentina)

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July 11 2017

Five months ago study buddy and I got together officially :’)

Here’s my attempt at a flat lay bc I love my stationery but haven’t put it to any use as I am still having a lazy summer…

Ellee

Send me numbers!

1: What would you name your future daughter?
2: Do you miss anyone?
3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
5: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
6: Did you go out or stay in last night?
7: How late did you stay up last night?
8: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
9: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
10: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
11: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
12: Have you pretended to like someone?
13: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
14: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
17: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
19: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
20: Who did you last see in person?
21: What is the last thing you said out lot?
22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
23: Have you ever been to Paris?
24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
25: Do you use chap stick?
26: Who did you last share a bed with?
27: Are you listening to music right now?
28: What is something you currently want right now?
29: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
30: How is your heart lately?
31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
32: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
33: What do people call you?
34: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
36: What are you listening to right now?
37: What is wrong with you right now?
38: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
39: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
40: What is on your wrists right now?
41: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused/waiting for the unexpected?
42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?
43: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
44: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
45: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
46: What were you doing at midnight last night?
47: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
48: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
49: Have you ever been to New York?
50: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

“I had to leave Venezuela. I’ve lived there my entire life. My parents are buried there. But five months ago I had to leave. It just got too dangerous. One day I was attacked while walking home from the supermarket, and I woke up on the ground. I’ve had guns pulled on me several times. I just couldn’t do it anymore. I’m trying to start a new life but it’s impossible to find a job. I’ve applied to about sixty shops so far but nobody will give me a chance. They think I’m too old. I tell them to try me for just a few days, but they won’t. I did find one part time job cleaning toilets and picking up trash. These are things I’ve never done in my life. But right now I can’t afford to be picky.”

(Santiago, Chile)

Hundreds of dollars of bird toys, hand made toys I created with my blood, sweat and tears, and yet this is their favorite thing.

The bag my birthday present came in. Five months ago. If I take it away to throw it out they get upset.

Hundreds of dollars of toys made for birds and their favorite thing is a $2 gift bag of tissue paper.

Ungrateful.

it’s summer again and my hair has reached my waist
i’ve stopped pretending that i don’t miss you
and i’ve stopped trying to convince myself that you miss me too
did you know my father started drinking again?
did you know that my parents are fighting again?
did you know i couldn’t get up this morning?
i’ve tried to ignore your side of the bed but it’s not warm anymore
i can’t remember what your voice sounded like
and i’ve forgotten what it’s like to hold your hand
you know, most nights i look at the sky and try to remind myself that we’re under the same moon
but then again, most nights i go back inside and cry myself to sleep
i’m trying to remind myself that time will help me forget you
that a bottle of vodka and some diet coke will turn me into my father
that people leave and they don’t come back and you can’t do anything to fix it because it can’t be fixed
i’m trying to act like being your friend doesn’t hurt
like it doesn’t tear me to pieces
like i don’t wish i could call you baby and fall asleep to the sound of your voice
—  you set a fire in my heart five months ago and i’ve been trying to put it out

A guy i know asked if i wanted some woodwind arrangements done like five months ago and i was like sure why not so I sent him a bunch of midi i wrote and i didnt think he’d actually do anything with it and this morning he sent me a huge 8GB folder full of .wavs he recorded and they all sound perfect and Ive got to figure out something i can do with them

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I did some digging, and I found this spreadsheet of monthly payments from Blossom Maple Farms to Lodge Industries, until about five months ago when they stopped. The payments, which are significant by the way, have been happening for 75 years. That’s a ton of money. What if Clifford implicated daddy to get out of paying the monthly fee?

“All the workers on my oil platform were laid off five months ago. I didn’t save the money when I had it. Now it’s been six months since I last worked. I even had to ask my mother-in-law for money last Saturday so I could buy milk for the kids. I have to do something. Maybe I can drive a taxi or something. If I don’t get a job soon, I think the family will break apart. My wife is always asking me what I’m going to do. It’s like she doesn’t even understand what’s happening in the economy right now. Even my four-year-old son feels that something is wrong. He’s started to ask me when I’m going back to work. I lie to him. I tell him I’m on medical leave. I don’t want him to feel this stress too.”

(Buenos Aires, Argentina)

post breakup AUs

because i haven’t seen enough of these around and i am so here for angst:

  • “today was the first family gathering i’ve been to since we broke up and my little cousin that absolutely adored you asked where you were and i had to lock myself in the bathroom and sit in the tub for a half an hour and look through a folder on my phone of pictures i took of you to feel okay again¨ AU
  • ¨i still have your phone number memorized even though i haven’t called you since we split and somehow i remembered it even though i’ve had like six shots of bourbon and hey, i know you’re pissed that you’re here at this dingy club at 3 in the morning to pick my drunk ass up, but you have to admit that’s pretty impressive¨ AU
  • “i’m pretty sure if taylor swift and i were in a competition of who could write the most breakup songs in one night, i’d win by a landslide because i still set two plates out for dinner even though i eat alone and it’s almost pathetic because we’ve been broken up for ages but i’m still not over you” AU
  • “so i know we haven’t talked in like, two years, and that things ended pretty badly between us but what the fuck do you mean you’re engaged to be married¨ AU
  • “yes, i know this is your sweatshirt and that we broke up five months ago but it’s really comfy okay. i totally don’t wear it because like it still smells like you or is the only thing that even remotely feels like home since i moved out. pfft. absolutely not.” AU
  • “look, i know we agreed to be friends and everything but that’s what everyone says when they break up. i can’t take you asking me for advice on how to ask out the new person you’re interested in, okay? it’s killing me” AU
  • “oh hi, totally didn’t expect to see you here at this one hole in the wall coffee shop literally no one in the entire world besides you knows about. what a coincidence.” AU
  • “it´s my [insert family relation here]´s wedding and seeing all these happy couples is killing me and all i can think about is how this was almost us” AU (bonus: “i know that it’s two in the morning and i’m dressed really formally and a little (a lot) bit drunk but i couldn’t stop thinking about you after my grandma asked how you were doing also can i come in it’s freezing out here”)
  • “i still have your sister’s scarf and i know it’s stupid but i’ve been hoping maybe one day you’ll come by and pick it up so we’ll be forced to talk again because i haven’t seen you in months and i’m maybe kinda sorta still in love with you” AU
  • “i know we were never officially together or anything but seeing that picture you posted on [insert social media] with him/her literally felt like you carved my heart out of my chest and stomped on it and i’m not really sure why i’m leaving this voicemail but my pillow still smells like you and i miss your stupid face” AU
  • “we have a lot of mutual friends so we see each other more than two broken up people usually do and i know we’re not really close anymore but you’re wearing that stupid (adorable) hat you always wore when you were upset so tell me what’s wrong because it’s literally killing me to see you look so sad” AU
  • “so like, i know we broke up and stuff but funny story, i haven’t told my family yet and they just assumed you’d be coming with me for [insert family celebration] and i really don’t know how to tell them and i know this is really selfish but i can’t break my great grandma’s heart like that, she’ll probably have a heart attack and– wait what? you’d do that for me? holy shit, i love you… wait–” AU
  • “i found your box of letters underneath my bed last night and because i’m a nosy motherfucker i decided to read them and it turns out they were all addressed to me and the last one was dated the day you moved out and i’m not quite sure why i thought this would be a good idea but here i am, standing on your doorstep, wondering why the fuck we’re not together anymore” AU
  • “well this is really awkward considering the last time we saw each other, i was screaming at you to never talk to me again, but like, my dog recognized you all the way across the park and literally dragged me over here because she misses you so hi” AU
DO YOUR WORST
  • 1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
  • 2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?
  • 3: What if I told you that you were pretty?
  • 4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
  • 5: Are you interested in anyone right now?
  • 6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?
  • 7: Do you want to be single?
  • 8: Did you go out or stay in last night?
  • 9: How late did you stay up last night?
  • 10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?
  • 11: Last three things you had to drink?
  • 12: Have you pretended to like someone?
  • 13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?
  • 14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?
  • 15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?
  • 16: Think back five months ago, were you single?
  • 17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
  • 18: Hold hands with anyone this week?
  • 19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
  • 20: What would you name your future daughter?
  • 21: Do you miss anyone?
  • 22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?
  • 23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?
  • 24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?
  • 25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?
  • 26: Who did you last see in person?
  • 27: Are you listening to music right now?
  • 28: What is something you currently want right now?
  • 29: What is the last thing you said out lot?
  • 30: How is your heart lately?
  • 31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
  • 32: Are you wearing socks?
  • 33: What do people call you?
  • 34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
  • 35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?
  • 36: Who did you last share a bed with?
  • 37: Did you do something bad today?
  • 38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
  • 39: Do you get stressed out easily?
  • 40: Will you sing today?
  • 41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?
  • 42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
  • 43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?
  • 44: What are you listening to right now?
  • 45: What is wrong with you right now?
  • 46: What is on your wrists right now?
  • 47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wea
  • 48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
  • 49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?
  • 50: Are you a good artist?
  • 51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?
  • 52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?
  • 53: Ever been on a golf cart?
  • 54: Do you have trust issues?
  • 55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?
  • 56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?
  • 57: Do you use chap stick?
  • 58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
  • 59: Do you have a little sister?
  • 60: Have you ever been to New York?
  • 61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
  • 62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?
  • 63: What were you doing at midnight last night?
  • 64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
  • 65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
  • 66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?
  • 67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?
  • 68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
  • 69: Will next Friday be a good one?
Body Language (One Shot)

A/N: This was a request from @ihavetwobuckystomyname a very long time ago, and I’m super sorry that this took so long to write, hun! I hope you enjoy it! There’s a song that goes to this as well and it’s right here if you wanna listen!

Body Language - Reader and Bucky have been in a relationship for a while, and she’s ready to take the relationship to the next level. But Reader has a small problem: she’s deaf. 

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Deaf Reader 

Warnings: Smut. Language. Slight mentions of past neglect. Bucky being adorable. NSFW!

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Dick Grayson, Nightwing, had left to establish himself in another city. There were three of us then. Bruce, myself, and Robin, Tim Drake. Robin was out alone that night when he came upon a woman in trouble. We soon realized Tim was missing. Night after night we scoured the city, running down every lead, pressing every underworld connection, but no one had seen any sign of Robin. For three agonizing weeks, there was nothing. Then, one night, we were sent an invitation. 

Five Months

Description: You run into your ex-boyfriend while at a party with your current one and during the encounter are reminded of all the ways he still controls you.  You aren’t entirely surprised to find yourself on your knees in the bathroom with him in front of you minutes later.

Pairing: Namjoon x Reader

Genre: Smut

Word Count: 12097

Warning: Dom!Namjoon, spanking, breath play, daddy kink, demeaning names, punishment, cheating, bathroom sex

A/N: @avveh prepare to die.  I think I listened to The Weeknd the entire time I wrote this haha.  Some of the songs were played over 100 times just during the time I wrote this, particularly “Shameless”, “Earned It”, and “Often”.  

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