Being the new chick at the gym...

I’m the girl who can only squat the bar.

The girl who barely knows what I’m doing and looks out of place

I’m probably the heaviest girl at the weight rack working on deadlifts and crunches

I’m the girl who you assume won’t be there in a couple of weeks

But here’s what you don't know:

I’m also the girl who is tired of starting over

The one who isn't here to look cute and take selfies

The girl who doesn’t give a shit that I’m sweaty and red-faced and my bun is starting to fall out.

So keep staring, judging if you must, but I’m not here for you I’m here to be a better version of me than I was yesterday.

Faster, stronger, healthier 

Fitness is like gardening. If you sow a seed, you don’t come back the next day and don’t start digging in the soil to see if the plant has already begun to grow. The same applies to working out. You can’t do a work out and stand in front of the mirror the next day expecting to see your muscles already growing and fat melting. Trust the process. It is a slow one but it is happening. The change is already happening deep within but you have to wait a few weeks or months to finally see it. But once you do, you will feel proud and accomplished.

Today, I wore a crop top for the first time in public.

360lbs before. I want to say there’s about 165lb and three year difference here.

Even though I had been obese my entire life I knew the day I took this picture that I was going to succeed. Be a visionary. Think about who you want to be, not what you want to weigh. Adopt a healthy and active lifestyle and you’ll see the results physically. :)

Having a cold heart doesn’t mean you have no feelings, it means that you felt enough.