Hi. My first boyfriend is one of my best friends, but everything went way too fast, and I wasn't in love with him; I wrote him a letter explaining all and I had the fucking great idea of actually giving it to him. He's very sensitive, and I hurt him so badly and I'm so terrible and I want to make things better but I fucked up all over and so fast
Everything can and will be ok! I encourage you to try and not over think things right now and talk to him in a way that is honest and really gets down to the core of what you’re feeling and how you want you both to be. I think you should talk to him and apologise for having to do this but try to explain why you think you’re better apart and see how he responds. If he gets angry or something similar and doesn’t want to talk to you then I think it would be best to give him so space a few days or maybe even weeks before talking again to just smooth out some things. You’re not a terrible person for doing this. You just did what you thought was best and there’s nothing wrong with that. I hope this helps you a bit.