first we'll live

Through Rebel Eyes

(I’m still filled with feelings from the Star Wars Rebels Season 3 finale so… *throws a random character study fanfic into the void and runs*)


The first thing Kallus notices about living with the Rebellion is how bright everything is.

He has lived his life among shades of black and white and grey. His years have been spent walking the polished corridors of Imperial strongholds and stations, standing on the spotless bridges of their ships. The world around him has been smooth, ordered, monochrome – and those things always meant safety for him. Colour and chaos were things he encountered only in battle, brought to him by blaster fire and bursts of flame.

But as the Ghost leaps through hyperspace – once, twice, three times, to shake off any pursuit as they head towards Yavin – it all changes. He, and the other battered souls the Ghost crew rescued from the ruined base on Atollon, collapse to sleep on chairs, on tables, some even curling up on the floor like children. And as Kallus lies there, exhausted but sleepless, he notices the paintings.

Sabine Wren has covered the insides of the ship with her signature graffiti, coloured shapes and emblems and figures coating nearly every available space. In the dim light, Kallus casts his eyes across them, and realises how comforting a sight they are. He isn’t sure why, until he sees the symbol, that symbol, the phoenix emblem that’s repeated again and again across the walls in ink of every possible hue. The symbol that, for years, set his teeth on edge when he saw it, because it represented chaos, it represented his enemies.

Now… it’s a symbol for freedom. It represents the rebellion – and that means it represents him.

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GoT meme | Anything [7/8] → Wildling to the bone

“I know one thing. I know that you are wildling to the bone. It was easy to forget that sometimes, when they were laughing together, or kissing. But then one of them would say something, or do something, and he would suddenly be reminded of the wall between their worlds.”

First, we'll live.

Summary: The North’s King no more and the Queen who should’ve been are inside her chamber which he guards. He can’t hear everything clearly, but the fool’s white wolf beside him could. It wasn’t that long ago that he stood guard over another queen’s chamber and did nothing when he should’ve. He won’t fail again.

Also on AO3.

You’re hurting me,” they had heard Rhaella cry through the oaken door.

“We are sworn to protect her as well,” Jaime had finally been driven to say.

“We are,” Darry allowed, “But not from him.

- Feast for Crows, Jaime

Jaime stood closer to the door he was guarding most nights than not.

Once again, he was a sworn knight to another.

Once more, he laid down his sword, his, life, and more vows.

Ser Jaime of the Kingsguard.

Shield to the Mad King Aerys Targaryen, who died by his sword.

Sword to the Usurper King Robert Baratheon, who died by his family’s scheming.

Protector to King Joffrey Baratheon, who died by the Tyrell’s protection for Queen Margaery.

Counsel to King Tommen Baratheon, who died by his own hand.

Partner and now traitor to Queen Cersei Lannister, who killed their love.

He laughed bitterly. Maybe Joff had the right of it when he read the Book of the Brothers that recounted half a page dedicated to his illustrious career as a kingsguard, ending with him being called Kingslayer which, now that he thought about it, was apt, since he’d outlived all kings he pledged to serve.

And also why he had to turn away from Cersei. As much as it pains him, he wouldn’t want to be branded a Queenslayer too should it come down to it.

She’d let the realm bleed so long as she got what she wanted.

Burn them all.

As if fire was the answer to everything even after seeing what the bigger threat was. As much as he still loved Cersei, he didn’t want to be witness to her self-destruction. He did not want to hold any part to her demise. He tried everything, tried every reason, and tactic, yet she was too consumed with grief and ambition.

I’m grieving too.

Yet here he was, right back where he started. Pledging to yet another cause, even after so many broken vows.

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game of thrones challenge: [3/8] quotes‘You’re mine,’ she whispered. 'Mine, as I’m yours. And if we die, we die. All men must die, Jon Snow. But first we’ll live.
                           ‘Yes.’ His voice was thick. ‘First we’ll live.


Maybe we’re in emergency mode, reacting instead of acting.


— Swimming? In the storm? She laughed at the notion. Is this a trick t’ get the clothes off me, Jon Snow?“
— Do I need a trick for that now? he teased. Or is that you can’t swim a stroke? Ygritte punched his arm. 
—You know nothing, Jon Snow. I’m half a fish, I’ll have you know.


Raphael checking out Simon because this is very important.

I actually love the idea that in two or three or four years time the Tiva fandom may just come back to life because the NCIS writers may decide to re-visit Tiva’s storyline and give them a happy ending. All of these blogs that resurfaced in the last few weeks and gif sets that got new notes will come back and it will be just like old times for a few weeks again and that makes me so happy.

anonymous asked:

Do you think Ygritte liked Jon more? It seems like she did to me and it kind of makes me a little mad cause he didn't treat her very well. Like she put all of her trust in him and he betrayed that without too much hesitation(even though it was kind of life or death at that point but still), and I just feel like she would never do that to him. Idk I still love them ofc but I wish he would have shown a little more that he loved her, even though he's not as vocal and stuff as she is!

No, I don’t think she liked Jon more. I understand why people could feel this way though but in my opinion they love each other in an equal way, just not the same way.

We know how commited and stubborn Ygritte is when it comes to the wildlings cause ; she’s ready to do anything for what she believes in and i think it’s the same thing when she truly loves someone. When Jon finally agreed to have sex with her, it was a deal sealed for her ; the proof that he wanted her as much as she wanted him (even though it all started way earlier when Jon took Ygritte captive ; she was considered “stolen” according to the wildling culture and it meant that she was his from this point, basically) (still she was waiting for him to demonstrate his desire for her though, until the cave scene it was like a platonic relationship because of Jon’s vows). Ygritte is the kind of person that you shouldn’t betray because when she gives something to you, whether it’s her heart or her beliefs, it’s like the whole thing - not just a bit, but the whole thing. I’m sure she thought about Jon not being as committed as her because of his statut of (ex-)brother of the Night’s Watch, but i think that she blinded herself because she didn’t want to think about what would happen if Jon betrayed her (how she would feel, what she would have to do) ; she wanted to “stay in the cave” forever, in a bubble of happiness. They’re naked at this moment and even though it’s obviously more practical to have sex, the cave scene is also a moment when they’re free of worries and their past, just free everything, free of being two young people in love laughing, kissing, and pushing each other in cold water.

Now about Jon : his heart belonged to the Night’s Watch until he met Ygritte. From this point, it was divided in two and you see his constant struggle in the book  whereas Ygritte can fully love Jon because there’s no such struggle - she lives for the wildling cause, Jon is a wildling, so there’s no problem. You don’t have the impression that Jon loves Ygritte as much as she loves him because Jon tries his best to not allow himself to do that. But deep down he can’t help loving her and that’s something you have to read between the lines (or just read in the book, actually) because he tries to not act this way to suffer less when he’ll have to leave (because he knows he’ll have to, at some point ; whether he succeed at escaping or whether he dies trying, he knows he can’t stay with her forever because that is not him). It’s the same thing with the other wildlings, actually ; he appreciates a lot of them and try not to care about them (which is quite impossible as Jon is someone who cares about stuff/people).

Ygritte would never betray Jon because there’s no reasons for her to do that. She doesn’t live in a lie like Jon does, she isn’t put in a situation where she has to pretend to be someone else. She’s herself, she’s free, which Jon can’t be, not really. I’ll just end this long message with some quotes which demonstrate Jon’s love for Ygritte :

  • If i could show her Winterfell… giver her a flower from the glass gardens, feast her in the Great Hall, and show her the stone kings on their thrones. We could bathe in the hot pools, and love beneath the heart tree while the old golds watched over us.
  • (in the cave :) “I know I want you,” he heard himself say, all his vows and his honor all forgotten. […] “I love the smell of you,” he said. “I love your red hair. I love your mouth, and the way you kiss me. I love your smile. I love your teats.” He kissed them, one and then the other.”
  • They shared the same sleeping skins every night, and he went to sleep with her head against his chest and her red hair tickling his chin. The smell of her had become a part of him. Her crooked teeth, the feel of her breast when he cupped it in his hand, the taste of her mouth … they were his joy and his despair.
  • When she grinned, the crooked teeth didn’t seem to matter. And maybe her eyes were too far apart, but they were a pretty blue-grey color, and lively as any eyes he knew. Sometimes she sang in a low husky voice that stirred him. And sometimes by the cookfire when she sat hugging her knees with the flames waking echoes in her red hair, and looked at him, just smiling … well, that stirred some things as well.

Also, keep in mind that leaving Ygritte was never an easy thing (I am going home, he told himself. But if that was true, why did he feel so hollow? ; Ygritte I’m sorry, I have to… ; You were wrong to love her, a voice whispered. You were wrong to leave her, a different voice insisted) and that Ygritte’s name appear in Jon’s chapters in A Dance With Dragons (so after her death) almost 30 times. I think that says it all !

anonymous asked:

Why do you love jon and ygritte so much ? Big fan of them too

I’ll try to not be too long about this but i could go on for ages - even though writing in english is not that easy for me so i’m not very eloquent and i might do a lot of mistakes :)

There are a lot of reasons and i don’t know where to start *heavy breathing*. The obvious thing would be : they love each other (they don’t really say it in the books but  “first we’ll live” is just like it). Just so, not only do they truly love each other (which is a rare thing in ASOIAF/GOT but also not an easy thing in general) but they don’t need to say it - they play with each other, they sometimes compliment each other, they laugh together (i love Orell’s comment in the show about them “giggling together in the night” because that’s what they do), they sleep together, they LEARN together (i’ll talk about this a lot later). No political things or anything else at stake : just pure feelings. Just the pleasure of enjoying someone and to be with this person.

It’s also not a love based on the fact that they find each other attractive (they do, eventually, but at the beginning Jon finds Ygritte just plain except for her hair) and it’s not love at first sight either ; it’s something progressive, especially on Jon’s side. The most important side to their relationship to me is not really the fact that they get along despite their fights, it’s that they learn from each other, which is clearly transparent when you understand that “You know nothing” is not a catchphrase to show that Ygritte is making fun of Jon but that she thinks that he has so much to learn about life and who’s gonna be his teacher ? “I can teach you how to do it” she says at one point. It’s obviously a reference to do the do but it’s also so much more than that : she can teach him to experiment things he never did, things that are for her what’s life is about. They are SO different and that’s why there are so many funny situations between them but also why their relationship is so rich and interesting. In the books, Ygritte is a singer and a storyteller (like almost all the wildlings because their culture is very much based on orality) so she tells Jon things about her people and sometimes Jon disagrees and you have so many pages about them just talking about stories and their beliefs and learning even though they’re both stubborn. Ygritte teaches him about wildlings, Jon teaches her about modern stuff like castles (because she is so fascinated by castles and what men can do in general).

And they do learn. We don’t have Ygritte’s point of view and i don’t want to spoil the next books too much but oh guys HOW MUCH JON HAS LEARNT FROM YGRITTE. Jon can be annoying when he’s narrow-minded because of his education, his talent and his bastard situation (he’s my fave character of all time but he has flaws like everyone else) ; and he’s so much more open-minded after his experience with Ygritte and the wildlings. He also becomes one of the most modern and feminist characters in ASOIAF. He wants women to have a chance to fight if they want to because he knows they can be as strong and capable and smart as men. He wants Sansa to inherit Winterfell once he learns Robb’s dead. He respects women, he respects them so much - he doesn’t want to marry someone if he doesn’t love her and vice versa. He wants equity and justice, not power, which is so refreshing and also so important. It’s something that is in him and i believe that it was at first thanks to Arya but then thanks to Ygritte (Arya/Ygritte parallels in Jon’s mind are one of my fave thing ever btw).

Then of course there is this big wall between them that represents the gap between their world. They often make fun of each other because of their differences and it sometimes leads to some real fights but they always come past that because they love each other. If we forget the context Jon/Ygritte’s relationship is to me everything love should be : enjoying someone’s company, laughing, being physically attracted to eacher other, having a deep affection/care for the other one without erasing your own’s personality and independance, and learning about you about others about life about everything and eventually be a better person.

The thing is, Jon and Ygritte are both stubborn and even though they learn they still have their own beliefs, personality and history. Jon is a man of honor just like his father. He fights again his feelings and his attirance towards Ygritte for a long time and he starts sleeping with her only when his life is in danger because wildlings don’t trust him - it’s a deed yes but the most pleasant deed of all. He has to fight against guilt and desire all the time which is so exhausting but sometimes he looses himself when he’s with her and that’s the most beautiful thing. But if having sex seems to be a thing he HAS to do at first, it’s nothing like that after. It’s a way to enjoy her company and Ygritte is never sexualised : her most female attribute’s are at the same level that her hair or her smile for Jon, it’s just stuff that makes her very attractive (and gives him a lot of pleasure but the lord’s kiss is very important because he gives her pleasure too IT’S A NOT A ONE-WAY THING WITH THE GIRL DOING STUFF TO THE GUY OK IT’S ALWAYS A BEAUTIFUL SHARED MOMENT OF PLEASURE AND HAPPINESS BETWEEN THEM and that’s what love should always be about and i’m in tears this pairing is ruining my life). It has a very sad end because Jon can’t be with her forever ; he believes the wildlings fight is a lost cause and it’s just not who he is. He has things to do, people and the Watch to protect even though he loves her - he wants simple things, he wants to live with her at Winterfell, but the world can’t be simple, their relationship can’t be neither and he had choices to make, just like Aemon told him at the beginning. But he never forgets her and i hope we’ll see more of his grief in the season because she is always there in his mind.

(….oops I think i said i’d do short, i’m really sorry, and even now i’m sure i forgot a lot of things but i hope you’ll find this answer satisfying :)) I just want to finish with some quotes from Jon’s chapters in the third book. If you haven’t read it and like Jon/Ygritte, you should totally read the following things in the read more.

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Jon & Ygritte in every episode → 02x10 ‘Valar Morghulis’


He could feel the throb of pain where her arrow had gone through the meat and muscle of his thigh. He remembered the old man’s eyes too, and the black blood rushing from his throat as the storm cracked overhead. But he remembered the grotto best of all, the look of her naked in the torchlight, the taste of her mouth when it opened under his. Ygritte, stay away. Go south and raid, go hide in one of those roundtowers you liked so well. You’ll find nothing here but death.