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My mom watched Oliver today so we could go get some Christmas shopping done, and she wanted to take him to see Santa and asked if that was okay and I said sure, so we packed him a cute outfit for it.

Anyway, the Santa was set up where you take your own pictures with your phone. Mom said that Oliver seemed fine initially, they set him on Santa’s lap and he stared at him but still seemed okay.



Mom said right before she snapped this picture, Ollie had latched onto his beard and tried to yank it off! There were tons of kids in line, so naturally mom and the assistant “elf” both shot forward to help keep the beard on. After that, they left since Oliver didn’t seem like a Santa fan 😂😂

Mom said he was fine after she picked him up. I guess Santa pictures will just have to wait until he’s a little older lmao I’ve gotta admit that I kind of love this pic though 😂😂

So I guess today has been the first full and proper day home with Rowan. Last night was tiring as I’d only managed an hour’s nap since delivering and she was cluster feeding from midnight to 6am, I got Dan to sit with me from about 3am onwards.

Babba and I both managed a solid 4hrs sleep and she had regular feeds throughout the day spaced between 2-3hrs.

Strictly speaking, I should’ve tried to sleep more, but I took the opportunity to do some housework while Dan did our grocery shop.

I did manage an hour in the afternoon while Dan watched over her downstairs and I slid into bed. I instantly knew when she was awake for feeding again though.

It seems like it might be the same again tonight with the cluster feeding, but it’s going well. At least I can somewhat multitask while she’s on the boobs. I’m lucky that it’s come so naturally, both for me and her as she latches on beautifully.

Eating has been a bit of a challenge in terms of when I can eat and making sure I get in enough myself so I don’t let my blood sugar drop. I definitely think it did a while ago, so Dan changed and fussed Rowan while I ate a substantial meal. I felt instantly better, but it’s only the second day, and it’s gonna take some getting used to.

But it’s not that bad. It’s a learning curve, that’s for sure, but it’s certainly not impossible.

I do wish I had managed to put on more weight/fat during the pregnancy though as the midwife weighed me today and I’ve already lost 10-11lbs of the minuscule 17-ish lbs that I put on. It wasn’t for lack of eating though, that’s the thing, but I guess it’s just one of those things?

We both have a check up on Tuesday to see how things are going and Rowan will also be weighed for the first time since birth at that appointment. The midwife did say that I shouldn’t be alarmed if she loses a little weight while my supply establishes after the colostrum. Which could be any time from now, I think she said.

I have my mom and step-dad making an appearance around lunch time tomorrow for a few hours, and I know they have to drive +3hrs to get here, but if I really can’t deal with more than 2hrs of my mom’s company right now.

Dan has been wonderful though, he’s really landed into the role of a Dad much easier than I think even he anticipated.

I love our little family so much.

I only wanted a new avatar but she’s cute and this happened. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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If you are pregnant and plan on having a vaginal birth, here are instructions on how to make your own padsicles. They will help sooth you while you are healing, and making a bunch of these up right before you give birth will really help during your postpartum recovery. I hope this helps some of you wonderful ladies! Have a wonderful day!

What mothers think while breastfeeding in public

> please stop crying.
> Omg I’m so nervous.
> if you’d stop putting your hand in your mouth, my nipple could go in there.
> no one’s staring…
> yes they are – she’s screaming her head off.
> should I try to use a blanket to cover?
> ugh, I can’t see what I’m doing now!
> ugh, why did you unlatch?!

What mothers do NOT think while breastfeeding in public.

> let me lure in all the unfaithful, sinful husbands with my leaking, milk-filled breasts 😈

I was nursing my son this evening on the couch when I noticed his eyes start dozing off. My first thought was “Let’s go lay down, baby”. Normally when he gets sleepy, we go lay down and I leave him in his room for a nap. But instead, tonight I decided to hold him and let him sleep in my arms. Looking at his tired eyes slowly close, I couldn’t remember the last time I let him nap in my arms. It was at that moment my heart sunk. How could I not remember when I last let my baby stay sleeping in his most warm, safe, favorite spot? My first born, my only son, my little love, I’ll let you stay right here. Because I don’t want to pick you up, put you down, and never pick you up again. I don’t want to lay you down for a nap in your bed and never let you sleep in my arms again. They are always open for you.

Things Nobody Ever Tells You About Pregnancy But Which Everyone Should Know:

(nothing will be held back. I warn you now. Also not everyone experiences all or maybe even any of this blah blah blah)

- You may not have a period for 9 months but there is always something coming out of you. Leukorrhea (it’s basically just white discharge). Constantly. They say it comes and goes but it doesn’t. It’s always there. Every. Single. Day. And quite often there’s enough of it that you wished you wore a liner.

- You pee literally every 20 minutes. Literally. Even if you haven’t drank anything since you last peed.

- But on the flip side you only go to the loo for ‘other reasons’ once every few days.

- Pregnancy dreams are more strange than you could ever, ever imagine.

- When you sneeze you pee a little bit.

-  You know that one really annoying thick, black hair that appears once every blue moon on your chin that you have to pluck out? Yeah, you get about 20 of those and they just seem to keep getting worse.

- Trying to shave from the waist down is an ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE.

- Never underestimate just how horrific morning sickness is. It doesn’t get the credit it deserves.

- Ligament pain is a thing. It feels like your abdomen is on a medieval torture stretching rack.

- When your unborn baby kicks you in the cervix it is pain like you have never felt before.

- Staying awake through the day becomes a true battle. Which you will never win.

- You can’t sleep how you want to sleep anymore. The baby tells you which side you want to sleep on and when you want to move. The choice is no longer yours.

- You never stop thinking about the fact you are pregnant. Ever. No matter what you do, the fact that there is a miniature human in your actual belly never leaves your mind.

- You love every single second of it.

morning sickness sucks

I’ve been experiencing pretty bad morning sickness with my first pregnancy (starting around week 6 and getting worse up til now, week 11). I was hoping I would get lucky, since my grandma didn’t have any with her three children, and my mom didn’t have any with me or my sister, but alas…

On Friday it was so bad that I was throwing up all day and couldn’t even keep water down for the whole day and I was miserable. My husband ended up taking me to urgent care around 3:30 and after seeing a doctor, I was admitted for IV fluids and an antinausea medication, which kept me in the hospital until 11:30 that night.

I haven’t been feeling at all myself since then and I’ve mostly just stayed in bed and eaten very bland foods in small amounts, afraid of throwing up again.

I’m sure many women have experienced something similar to this in pregnancy, or worse. By no means do I think I’m the only one. But I’m at my rope’s end. I’m so scared to trigger the throwing up again and not be able to stop. I feel bad for my husband who’s been caring for me and putting off other things he has to do. I feel bad that I haven’t been able to do so much as wash my own dishes because even that makes me sick.

Please pray for me that God gives me strength to get through this and that it is over soon. I am hoping and praying that this will end with the first trimester (week 13, I am at week 11) as it often does, but I’ve heard of women who’s morning sickness lasts their whole pregnancy, and I’m terrified that it will happen to me. Please pray for my husband, who has been so patient. Please just pray.