anti-cullen players: cullen is complete trash and a horrible person who should be despised by everyone!!1!
extreme pro-cullen players: my bf has never done anything wrong, ever, in his entire life, and is made of sunshine and should be loved by all <3
me: cullen wanted to help people and devoted his life to an order he idolized since childhood, a cause which he believed in, but was ultimately corrupt and fine with throwing out the rules at the first sign of trouble. he was traumatized at the kinloch circle and still tried to follow the templars, but with a hardened outlook. he served under a fanatic leader who used her superiority to influence him into being complicit with her abuse towards her chargers. after a time, he become weary of her and when the depth of madness became apparent, tried to remove her from command and help the people of kirkwall. he believes that his actions can never be forgiven and he has no right to ask for that forgiveness. regardless, he still does his best to help people and atone for his past mistakes. cullen is a complex, nuanced character who is neither good nor bad and cannot be written of as one or the other