first season was totally about her believing

This is a little weird for me to write because before you gave out this prompt, I never really thought about how much this person impacted me. Last year at the beginning of my freshman year in college, I met my two roommates for the year. While Helli was amazing, Vernesha -my other roommate - has impacted my life in ways I could not contemplate. At first, she was quiet and instropective while I was - am - a loud, bubbly person. We didn’t really mesh well but we certainly did not hate each other even in the least bit. I was binge watching Supernatural then and was at the season 4 marker I believe when she started listening in on the episodes. We never really talked so it took her a little bit to ask what it was and what it was about but she eventually did and I got very excited because, well, I am a total fangirl and raved to her about Supernatural for at least a couple of hours. She then started watching it on her own and from that point on the strongest friendship I made during my college years was forged (currently a junior). At first, Supernatural was the only thing we talked about but we would talk for hours about it but gradually she opened up and I found myself opening up beyond the ruse of my loud persona. My persona and my happy go lucky attitude was a front because I believed that if I pretended I was strong and happy then to an extent, I actually would be happy. And it does work but to a point. I never told anyone about my past and my overwhelming fears but I did to her, throughout these two years and oddly she knew exactly how to respond. First, she found out about my sexual assault back in freshman year of high school and read the signs that I hated to talk about how vulnerable it made me feel when I did talk about it (which was very, very rare) and she read that it had shaped me into becoming the callous person that comes out whenever I feel like there is any sort of attack against me. She listened to me tell people that I didn’t care about them - despite the fact that I did - and watched me cut off people completely because I was afraid. Which brings me to my next point, she also learned about the death of my best friend back in junior year of high school exactly 6 months after the death of my cousin, both of which have molded me into a person that hates attachments and connection and would rather have a 1000 acquaintances than 1 best friend. Because it hurt so much when you lose these people and so whenever I cut off or hurt people or convinced people that I didn’t care about them, she would listen and later that night we would talk and I would cry and she would listen and she would cry because she lost her mother to cancer when she was in 6th grade and I would listen. I would listen to her story; a story involving her deceased mother, abusive stepparent and stepbrothers, her constant worry over financials because she didn’t have anyone - never had anyone to stand beside her. And so I did. I did everything I could to help her just as she did for me. When she worked early mornings and studied all day for her scholarships, I would try and provide some comic relief and a quiet environment for her to work. Whenever she needed to rant of get something off her chest, I listened. It may not seem like much but it is the world to us. During the second semester of my freshman year of college, my family experienced severe financial struggles and suddenly I was thrust into a world I didn’t understand but she held my hand through the entire journey. Now I have a job and security, I never had a job before because I never needed to but she helped me secure the job and understand how the working world worked. Sometimes talking to her about it saved me from marching into the financial aid office and screaming my lungs off, possibly getting expelled in the process. She never is one to come out and be sappy about anything and she knew I didn’t want that. Every time I had a problem and I was clearly complaining without formulating a useful plan she would say and I quote, “Ree, get off that excuse wagon and start making a plan. You can get through this just like you got through everything else. Let’s go.” Even if I tried my hardest to cut her off like I did so many other people, I can’t. She is my best friend and I love her. I guess the love I have for her is stronger than the fear I have of losing her.
Now I don’t really know if in the instructions when it says on Tumblr, it meant posting the nomination on it or nominating someone that has an account on tumblr. She doesn’t but either way I felt like her story should be out there in the world and that I needed to write this. To recognize her impact on my life and to realize how grateful I am for her.
Attached is a picture of us on our pretend christmas day since we don’t have much of a christmas with our respective families.
And so, I nominate Vernesha Lawrence

Yeah, I’m sure Damon saw a future with Elena from the very beginning when his first word to her was “Katherine?!” I totally believe it. Also I bet he saw a future with her when he killed her brother. As well as when he said he’d kill Elena to get Katherine back. He was probably thinking about their future together when last season he said that he didn’t one together as well. Right?

anonymous asked:

Since you talked about C's feelings for B, can you talk about B's feelings for her? Where does he stand?

Oh anon you have blessed me with this ask!

Let’s talk about Bellamy’s feeling for Clarke shall we?

So first of all I totally believe Bellamy Blake is head over heels in love with Clarke Griffin but I think it took him a while to peg down his exact feelings for her! So let’s go back to the beginning shall we:

Season 1: Burdened Bellamy
Clarke mercy kills Atom in ep 1.3
this is one of the most pivotal Bellarke moments of not the most. Up to this point Bellamy has spent his whole life carrying other people’s burdens from the age of six keeping Octavia’s existence secret was a burden.
then he had to carry the burden of giving up his life for her, then he carried the burden of knowing his actions (accidentally) caused his mom to get floated & Octavia to be locked up.

He gets to the ground he feels the burden of thinking he killed Jaha, trying to keep O safe, finding food etc for the 100.

He’s probably so tired & he’s handed a knife by Charlotte to “mercy kill” Atom and he’s trying to bring himself to do it when Clarke appears. She knows Atom is in pain & wont survive she’s been around medical things.

So she takes the knife from his hand & gives him a nod, a look & she takes that burden from him onto herself. For the first time in his life Bellamy has someone say “here let me help, you don’t have to do this alone” & in that moment when he looks at her in awe this is his first realization about who Clarke is. His “armor” cracks & he sees this beautiful girl do such a selfless thing, & it was for him. Imo he’s a goner from that moment on. But he thinks it’s just a crush, & He respects her. He doesn’t want her to be just another Roma etc. then his feelings intensify as the season goes on.

season 2 : Bodyguard Bellamy

he’s just as desperate to find Clarke as Finn is, but he actually cares about al the other people as well.
Then oh boy! he comes stumbling back into camp with Monroe & Mel & Clarke surprises him with that epic tackle hug. At that moment he doesn’t hide his affection from her( like he did in S1) he hugs her tight, breathes her in. In That moment something changes between them. & they both recognize it.

Then in ep 2.9 when she says “I can’t lose you too” he Realizes for the first time ever that someone he values & cares for values & cares for him just as deeply. He spends the rest of the season protecting her, caring for her, risking his life by believing in her. In the end he begs her to stay. But he loves her to much to force her to stay. So he lets her go. Hoping she will come home.

Season 3: rescuer Bellamy

It starts with Bellamy looking for Clarke relentlessly. Then the beautiful ep 3.2 he risks everything including his life to bring her home. & in that 5 second reunion he smiles wide for the first time in months & brushes her hair back so he can look in her eyes & say “I’m bringing you home” he’s so distracted that roan attacks him before he knows what happened. Then when he yells “we can’t lose her!” His face looks shocked & surprised at his own admission. In that moment I think he realizes his feelings run deeper than he ever thought. He knows he loves her.

Oh then in ep. 3.5 the “fight” he has with her, his emotions are running high & he realizes in that moment that even though she’s hurt him, he still loves her & wants to keep her safe. He may go about it all the wrong way (handcuffs) but Bellamy Blake is fully aware of his feelings for Clarke Griffin from this scene on. And he’s angry about it. He’s hurt,he doesn’t want to feel that way for her at the moment.

His look when he sees her again in ep 3.11
Or in ep 3.12 when he tells her “you’re out of your mind if you think I’m letting you do this alone” he’s still hurt & a bit angry but his love for her is still stronger.

then the hug in ep 3.13 he cries into her hair & hugs her tightly to push all his broken pieces together. He forgives her, tells her he doesn’t want to be angry anymore.

From that moment on Bellamy is freaking extra about everything Clarke. He will touch her whenever he has the chance. He has her back,even when her ideas are problematic. He gets vocal about her safety & bad choices.

He doesn’t trust her safety to Roan. But when she says “I trust you” in ep 3.15 he goes into full on protect my wife mode the whole episode. He fights everyone & everything he climbs that tower & he rescues Clarke because she trusts him & he now knows that she is worth the risk. The risk of his heart. The risk of his body. The risk of his life. He will protect & love her or die trying.

Then he passes the hardest test;He puts his faith in her & feeds her the ALIE chip. he knows now you can’t have real love without real trust,real faith in the other person. Bellamy Blake by the end of ep 3.16 has proven & proclaimed in every way besides physical romance that Clarke Griffin is the love of his life and he will do anything to keep her safe.Anything to ease her burden. His soul is tied to hers in a way that defies common romance, it’s exquisite.

I’m so pumped for S4 & the further exploration of Bellamy being very demonstrative of his love.
I think he’ll be more tactile, more aware of his feelings. It’s going to be beautiful & painful!

Geeeez anon, I got a little carried away! I apologize for this crazy long post! I just have a lot of feelings about Bellamy’s feelings!! Lol

Thanks for giving me a reason to be extra ❤️

I think we can all agree that the majority of this season of Hart of Dixie has not been the greatest. The complete lack of Zade. But the final Zoe and Wade scene in “Stuck” made me realize that there was an actual reason(s) behind that… and a wonderful payoff coming. 

Wade was always seen as the bad boy, the screw up. But last season, Wade talked about wanting his own bar. Zoe supported that. She believed in him before he even believed in himself, before anyone else believed in him. She had total faith in him and he’s never had someone like that and it scared him. That’s why he cheated pushed her away. But look where he is now. He owns his own bar! His bar is getting franchised. And who is the first person he tells? ZOE.(and look how proud of him she was!) He finally believes in himself the way she always believed in him. He’s not the playboy screw-up that he, and so many others, saw him as. He is the man that she deserves and he knows that now and he knows he’s ready for it this time.

Zoe has spent the entire season with the “perfect” guy. The type of guy she always pictured her life with. The safe choice. And Maybe she really did love him, but it still didn’t work out. He walked away, out of her life, and she let him. But now… now she is faced with the possibility of Wade walking out of her life. Wade, the guy who she was surprised by… the bad-boy bartender who broke her heart -turned- responsible business owner that she never got over… He’s not as easy to let go of. She realized that she’s not ready for a life without Wade in it. And from the looks of the previews, she’s not going to just let him walk away without fighting for him.

They both had their heart broken. She had some lessons to learn and he had some growing up to do. They are both finally in a place where they are ready for a relationship with each other!!! 

Oh you sneaky Hart of Dixie writers. You took a serious risk this season keeping Zade so far apart and I hated you for. But I see now that there was a method to all that madness. I can not wait for the payoff in the season finale (appropriately titled Second Chance) WHEN SHE TELLS HIM SHE LOVES HIM and to see it play out next season!