find me in my shallow dreams

The reason why I love otome games so much:

Society: You’re socially awkward. You should try making friends. The way you laugh is weird. You need to lose some weight. Get a boyfriend. Don’t spend so much time on the internet. Study more, relax less. Your outfit sucks. No one will ever love you if you don’t start acting friendlier. That test was so easy, how could you fail it? You look so tired, it’s repulsing. What’s wrong with you, can’t you speak properly? Stop complaining about being bullied, there are people that have it worse than you!


Voltage inc. men:


This is my healthy obsession.

Because, each time you make me feel worthless, lonely, abnormal, or insecure, I find relief in these words of comfort. Because, whenever the truth of my existence tries to tear me down, I’ll always have my dreams, my fictional characters, and my little otome world. Because, despite being stuck in this shallow, judgemental society, I know that I can freely swing from a universe to another. Because I am given the opportunity to live inside my head, away from you.

Oh, you think I am detached from reality? You’re wrong. I am deeply, emotionally, and entirely connected to the reality of my own feelings, my own pleasure, my own self… I am blind and immune to your idiotic rules, your typical expectations, your mocking laughter, and your unjustified insults. I choose to  acknowledge the people, things and activities that make me happy. I choose to convert reality as I enjoy it, turning it into my own happiness. I am a human being. I am able to create my own reality.

“Don’t ever be ashamed of loving the strange things that make your weird little heart happy.”

Otome games make me happy. It’s as simple as that. 

This is a post of appreciation. Voltage, thank you for putting a smile on my face, whenever I feel sad. :)

(That ended up sounding more dramatic than I expected. But I hope I am not the only one that feels this way. xD) 

anonymous asked:

What are your motivations behind the injections? Aside from the aesthetic changes to your penis and scrotum, what are the benefits? Does it make you feel more confident about yourself? I know it's not mine to understand as it's your thing but I'm trying to wrap my head around why you would do something so drastic.

This is another question I’ve had trouble answering succinctly, but this is a good opportunity to figure out a good way to do it. Forgive me if it’s not too cohesive.

To this day, I still can not tell you why I like what I like, and I don’t know that I ever will be able to. Regardless, it’s undeniable that I crave size and masculinity. Not a controversial position of course - it’s popular opinion that a guy with muscles is more attractive than not, a beer gut (while not mainstream attractive) is considered pretty manly, and of course everyone would like a bigger dick.

But for whatever reason, that’s never been enough for me. From day one, I found myself unsatisfied with what most people considered “big.” It’s not an accident that I found GReg’s videos in my early days, I sought them out. I wanted to see the biggest muscles, the fattest bodies and the biggest dicks. I was never satisfied, and a big reason I started drawing - no one even drew the sizes I wanted to see.

To me, it’s not enough to have muscles. I dream of being overburdened with mass; grotesquely huge, with arms so thick I could touch the peak of my own bicep, a chest swollen and protruding several feet forward, all muscles nearly useless from their own limited range of motion.

To me, it’s not enough to be fat. I dream of being on the cusp of immobility; forced to take slow, plodding, and thunderous steps wherever I go, constantly out of breath, limited in every way by the fat that envelops my entire body.

To me, it’s not enough to have a big dick. I dream of a package so big I could barely walk; with a shaft as thick as a can of paint, and balls so big and pendulous they hang down to my knees like beach balls.

That’s the common thread - excessive size. Overwhelming, impractical size. Size that is limiting and burdensome. Size turned up to 11. What nearly everyone would turn their nose up in disgust at, and declare stupid and “too big,” that’s what I like, and that’s what I want to be.

That’s where silicone ticks all the right boxes. It’s appealing because it’s freaky and unnatural-looking. Because it’s all thickness and no length in your shaft, you quickly look overinflated, and eventually engulf your own head with thickness. It’s the perfect combination of size and freakiness beyond the point of practicality. It’s unappealing to most people, but that’s exactly how I like it.

I know I’ll never live the dreams I have of the extreme sizes mentioned above (which is why I end up drawing it instead). Some men are capable of achieving pretty extreme sizes, but I know my genetic and (especially when it comes to silicone) practical limits. Still, I intend to come as close as I can.

Every time my bulge grows, I feel a little closer to my goal. Every pound I gain, every inch of new mass I measure, I feel more like the “me” I dream about. It does make me more confident in myself, not because I want everyone to envy me—quite the contrary, I want them to find me excessive and weird—but rather because I feel more comfortable in my own body. It feels right.

It’s a bit embarrassing to write out like this, because it seems shallow (and probably not all that unique of a mentality, from what I’m learning from you all), but it’s a part of me that I cannot deny. Growing in any way gives me immense fulfillment and satisfaction, and in the end that’s why I do this.

Riei Stellaworth Short Story Translation

[The Little Mermaid]

(。-ω-)ノ  Sorry for the long moment of inactivity, folks! School got really busy. but I’m back in business now (yay summer) and I’ll be posting a lot more translations!

щ(ಥДಥщ) This guy is such a damn piece of work, my gawd hahahah.  MY GAWD THIS STORY. щ(ಥДಥщ)  HE’S SOOOO. TRASHY. щ(ಥДಥщ)  AGHAGA RIEIIII. I’ll be translating them in order of the original CD releases. Special thanks to Deea for getting the raws~

The storm caused me to fall from the ship I was aboard. Death was impending; my body was sinking towards the ocean’s floor. I was destined to drown… …until a girl appeared out of nowhere. She held my body and navigated the ocean’s waters with such ease, as if a storm hadn’t exist. Upon arriving at the shore, the girl whispered to me.

“Oh dear prince, you’re safe now.”

Her voice was as lovely as a bell’s ring. My condition wasn’t so good. Having drunk a bunch of salty seawater, I found myself barely able to move. Though, I managed to open my eyes and they would see who owned that lovely voice――Opened they did and saw clearly did they. The girl. Her legs. She didn’t have the legs of a human being. My rescuer was a mermaid.

There was a sign of a person approaching, causing the mermaid to rush back into the sea. A different girl came to help me. At the time, I was delirious and thought she was the one who saved me. I then became engaged to her.

Well, I thought it was all in good. Not only did I have a fiance, but I could also play around. My palace could only give me so much amusement and what’s a man to do when there’s plenty of beautiful women around? Even if I’ll be married, no matter how much I played around with girls, not a single person had an issue with it.

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A Lonely Road

I walk a lonely road, the only road that I haveever known. When I was a young boy, my father took him into the city, to see a marching band.  My father asked, “Son, will you defeat them, your demons, and all the non-believers, the plans that they have made? Because one day, I’ll leave, a phantom to lead you in the summer, to join the The Black Parade.”

I said, “Father,  I walk this empty street, On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams, Where the city sleeps, And I’m the only one and I walk alone.  And though you’re dead and gone believe me, Your memory will carry on.”

How many years have passed me by? Since I’ve stopped to take a look at all the changes in my life? So many friends have come and gone, but all those summer nights still burn inside my lungs.

And I’m so sorry. I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight.
I need somebody and always, this sick strange darkness, comes creeping on so haunting every time.

And I bet I’m not the only one who thinks I’m stuck in the past with all the friends I am losing. I regret not holding on to it closely. The past is the past and I’m letting it kill me.

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me, My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating. Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me.
‘Til then I walk alone 

Narrados en una canción (P. 2)
  • ARIES: Houdini - Foster The People

Rise above going to start the war
What you want, what you need,
What’d you come here for?
Well, an eye for an eye
And an ‘F’ for fight
They’re taking me down as a prisoner’s riot

I’ve got shackles on, my words are tied
Fear can make you compromise
Lights turned up, it’s hard to hide
Sometimes I want to disappear

Focus on your ability
Focus on your ability
Now focus on your ability
Focus on your ability

  • TAURO: The Lazy Song - Bruno Mars

Today I don’t feel like doing anything
I just want to lay in my bed
Don’t feel like picking up my phone,
So leave a message at the tone
Because today I swear I’m not doing anything

I’m going to kick my feet up then stare at the fan
Turn the TV on, throw my hand in my pants
Nobody’s going to tell me I can’t

Tomorrow I’ll wake up, do some P90X
Find a really nice girl,
Have some really nice sex
And she’s going to scream out
This is great
-Oh my god, this is great-

Oh yes, I said it, I said it
I said it 'cause I can

  • GÉMINIS: Chandelier - Sia

Party girls don’t get hurt
Can’t feel anything, when will I learn?
I push it down, push it down
I’m the one for a good time call
Phone’s blowing up, ringing my doorbell
I feel the love, I feel the love

I’m going to swing from the chandelier
From the chandelier
I’m going to live like tomorrow doesn’t exist
Like it doesn’t exist
I’m going to fly like a bird through the night
Feel my tears as they dry
I’m going to swing from the chandelier
From the chandelier

But I’m holding on for dear life
Won’t look down, won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light
Because I’m just holding on for tonight
Help me, I’m holding on for dear life
Won’t look down, won’t open my eyes
Keep my glass full until morning light
Because I’m just holding on for tonight
On for tonight

  • CÁNCER: One Way Or Another - Blondie

One way or another I’m going to find you
I’m going to get you, get you, get you, get you
One way or another I’m going to win you
I’m going to get you, get you, get you, get you
One way or another I’m going to see you
I’m going to meet you, meet you, meet you, meet you
One day maybe next week, I’m going to meet you
I’m going to meet you, I’ll meet you 

I’ll walk down the mall
Stand over by the wall
Where I can see it all, find out who you call
Lead you to the supermarket checkout
Some specials and rat food
Get lost in the crowd 

  • LEO: Primadonna Girl - Marina And The Diamonds

Primadonna girl, yeah,
All I ever wanted was the world,
I can’t help that I need it all,
The primadonna life, the rise and fall,
You say that I’m kinda difficult,
But it’s always someone else’s fault,
Got you wrapped around my finger, babe,
You can count on me to misbehave…

Primadonna girl,
Would you do anything for me?,
Buy a big diamond ring for me?,
Would you get down on your knees for me?,
Pop that pretty question right now baby…

Beauty queen on a silver screen,
Living life like I’m in a dream,
I know I’ve got a big ego,
I really don’t know why it’s such a big deal, though…

  • VIRGO: Boulevard Of Broken Dreams - Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don’t know where it goes
But it’s home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I’m the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I’ll walk alone

  • LIBRA: Pretty Hurts - Beyoncé

Pretty hurts
Shine the light on whatever’s worse
Perfection is the disease of a nation
Pretty hurts
Shine the light on whatever’s worse
Tryna fix something
But you can’t fix what you can’t see
It’s the soul that needs the surgery

Just another stage
Pageant the pain away
This time I’m gonna take the crown
Without falling down, down

Ain’t no doctor or therapeutic that can take the pain away
The pain’s inside
And nobody frees you from your body
It’s the soul that needs surgery
It’s my soul that needs surgery
Plastic smiles and denial can only take you so far
And you break when the paper signs you in the dark
You left a shattered mirror
And the shards of a beautiful girl

  • ESCORPIO: Don’t Cry - Guns N’ Roses

Don’t you cry tonight
I still love you, baby
Don’t you cry tonight
Don’t you cry tonight
There’s a heaven above you baby
And don’t you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don’t you take it so hard now
And please don’t take it so bad
I’ll still be thinking of you
And the times we had, baby

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside
Now honey, you got to make it your own way
But you’ll be alright now, sugar
You’ll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby 

  • SAGITARIO: West Coast - Lana Del Rey

Down on the West Coast
They got a saying:
“If you’re not drinking, then you’re not playing”
But you’ve got the music
You’ve got the music in you, don’t you?

You push it hard I pull away
I’m feeling hot and on fire
I guess that no one ever really
Made me feel that much higher
Te deseo cariño, boy it’s you I desire
Your love, your love, my love

I can see my baby swinging
His Parliament’s on fire
And his hands are up on the balcony
And I’m singing oh baby, oh baby, I’m in love
I can see my sweet boy swaying
He’s crazy y cubano como yo my love
On the balcony and I’m saying
Move baby, move baby, I’m in love…

  • CAPRICORNIO: Viva La Vida - Coldplay

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy’s eyes
Listened as the crowd would sing:
“Now the old king is dead, long live the king”

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can’t explain
I know Saint Peter won’t call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

  • ACUARIO: Imagine - John Lennon

Imagine all the people
Living for today…
Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world…

  • PISCIS: Some Nights - FUN

Some nights I stay up
Cashing in my bad luck
Some nights I call it a draw
Some nights I wish that my lips
Could build a castle
Some nights I wish they’d just fall off

That’s alright, I found a martyr in my bed tonight
Stopped my bones
From wondering who I, who I am, who I and who am I?

Well some nights, I wish that this all would end
Because I could use some friends for a change
And some nights, I’m scared you’ll forget me again
Some nights, I always win, I always win


anonymous asked:

I walk a lonely road the only one I have ever known don't know where it goes but it's home to me and I walk alone


“I walk this empty street on the boulevard of broken dreams, where the city sleeps and I’m the only one and  I walk alone… I walk alone I walk alone


I walk alone, I walk.”


“My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me. My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating, sometimes I wish someone out there will find me ‘Till then I walk alone.”


“I’m walking down the line that divides me somewhere in my mind, on the border line of the edge and where I walk alone”

Felt by the Heart

Summary: Dan is blind and has been since he was only three. He hates that he can’t see and feels like life is going nowhere for him, until one day, fate steps in.

Warnings: Blindness, self hate, sadness.

Dan Howell. The name was quite familiar in the small town that he lived in. Everyone, even kids, knew that he couldn’t see and waited on him hand and foot; walking him across the street, telling him where something is, handing him his food, he never had to do anything for himself. And he hated it, he absolutely loathed that he was treated like a little kid, not a twenty three year old. What was the point in life when you never got to do anything with it?

The brunette sighed and shook his head as he walked into his favorite coffee shop, run by his best friend since he was only five; Samantha. On his first day of school, she was the only one who didn’t avoid him or constantly wave her hands in front of his face. She always stood up for him in school and she still does, Samantha was very overprotective of Dan; but she didn’t treat him like a child.

“Hey Dan, the usual?” She asked when she saw Dan walk in.

Dan smiled and nodded, “Yes please, oh, and a blueberry muffin, I haven’t had one in awhile.” He said softly. Dan walked over to the counter, touching the wall to make sure that he was in the correct place.

Samantha began to make Dan’s coffee, talking excitedly about the changes in the weather. Dan loved listening to his friend talk about Spring; her favorite season. She was so passionate about it and could talk about it for hours on end. Samantha always described everything that she loved about Spring in great detail, telling Dan how each flower looked and how the trees, sky and grass looked. He loved it. Even though he couldn’t see it, Spring was his favorite season too.  

When Samantha finished Dan’s drink, she handed it to him and took his money, giving him his change back. Dan smiled and put his wallet back into his pocket along with his phone.

“Thank you” Dan told her, turning around and walking forward, right into someone. He felt liquid hit him and heard a fall before he fell on top of that person as well. Dan blushed darkly and tried to stutter out an apology, but before he could-

“What the hell is wrong with you?! You got in his way, everyone knows that Dan is blind! Do you have a fucking brain in your head?” Samantha nearly yelled angrily at the person who Dan had run into.

Though Dan couldn’t see, he could just imagine how terrified and upset the person must’ve been. The person was probably already flustered, and Samantha was only making it worse. Dan sighed and shook his head.

“I’m sorry about my friend… she’s just overprotective. And I’m sorry I ran into you, I’ll buy you a new drink if you want.” Dan whispered, just hoping that the person hadn’t left or walked away.

For a moment, Dan began to fear that the person had left and he was talking to no one. Sure, it had happened before, but that didn’t make any less embarrassing. The brunette just wanted to go home, snuggle into his blankets and turn up his music as high as it would go. It seemed to be the only thing that calmed him down these days.

Suddenly and unfamiliar voice came towards Dan, “It’s alright, I’m sorry that I didn’t watch where I was going. I’m new in town, I’m living here for a few years, I needed a break from the big city life.”

The voice was that of an angel in Dan’s opinion. It was strong yet soft at the same time and had a very light Northern accent; most people wouldn’t really notice it, but Dan, who relied almost solely on his ears, did.

Dan couldn’t help but grin at the voice, “It’s okay, I may be blind but I’m not helpless, most people in town seem to think that I am. Anyways, at least you got a nice welcome, the town’s blind man ran right into you.” He chuckled.

Phil chuckled at Dan’s words, “It is a very nice welcome actually, I got to meet an amazing guy. Wanna sit with me for a bit?” He asked, hope lingering in his voice.

The brunette felt his heart flutter at the mystery man’s words. Someone, a man, wanted to talk to Dan? Not because he pitied him, but because Dan was “amazing”?

“Um, yeah, I’d like that.” Dan smiled, blushing when he felt a large, soft hand take his and lead him to a booth.

Dan felt nervous, but not in a bad way. He felt kind of excited, like a kid on the way to a theme park or an adult heading to a first date. His palms were a bit sweaty and the smile refused to leave his face; he probably looked like a complete idiot, but for once, he just didn’t care.

“So… I’m Dan” He whispered softly, unsure of what to say.

The voice chuckled, “And I’m Phil, it’s very nice to meet you.”

Phil… the name had a really nice ring to it. It was simple, but seemed to somehow tell a story, maybe it was the man’s voice, the way he spoke his name as if it wasn’t just what he was called, but something that was him. Dan smiled and played with his hands underneath the table, unsure of what to say next.

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New Moon’s Daughter

I wake as the sun is dreaming of shallows. Holy heart
with your bright black stain.
Oh poor melancholy princess, your stinking humbug rug
(as always, the inevitable cry of Waste!)

In the end, the real question is: who breached the breach
and killed the rabbit?
Well, I only look at the sky. I am a fool
for all of its answers. Even hear me say, Dear God,
and think of things nobody else repeats–
you’ll find I exist as my own island, shuddering towards some home.

And who has time these days for the odd, old world?
I am tired, tired, tired
I am rolled flat and cooked to a crisp. Oh princess
your frivolous mouth, your righteous fit
(nitwit, nitwit)
I thought maybe I loved you
(and then, what came of it?)

I wake as the sun is dreaming of lonely things,
unhappy things. I wake and the sea is there and my body
is crusted as the rocks. Princess, pretend I am crazy!
I am crazy, crazy, crazy!

I wake, convinced that half my mind
has lost itself to slaughter.

sentence prompts ➝ zedd
  • ❝We’re all we’ve got.❞
  • ❝My walls are paper thin.❞
  • ❝I will never let you go.❞
  • ❝Feel like I’m drowning from the sound.❞
  • ❝We both know how this ends.❞
  • ❝My thoughts are gone.❞
  • ❝If our loves insanity, why are you my clarity?❞
  • ❝Forgive me for staring.❞
  • ❝Doesn’t mean we’re bound for life.❞
  • ❝It’s easy to hold on, but so hard to forgive.❞
  • ❝Can’t you help me see?❞
  • ❝We’ll run where lights won’t chase us.❞
  • ❝Thousands of miles away from reaching your hand.❞
  • ❝Are you gonna stay the night?❞
  • ❝We’re smart enough to know that no one gets out alive.❞
  • ❝Now we’re staring at the ceiling.❞
  • ❝In my head I heard them play a song.❞
  • ❝Giving makes us feel good.❞
  • ❝I’ll show you my true colors.❞
  • ❝You are the piece of me I wish I didn’t need.❞
  • ❝It’s true, I’d fall for you.❞
  • ❝You’re so pretty when you’re mad.❞
  • ❝Uh, tell me is it the day I made it?❞
  • ❝So hold your tongue and hear me out.❞
  • ❝Right, this is the breakdown.❞
  • ❝What’s left of this moment, I’m not gonna waste it.❞
  • ❝Don’t speak as I try to leave.❞
  • ❝I want you to know that it’s our time.❞
  • ❝You’re making up stories of your own.❞
  • ❝We are revolving chemistry.❞
  • ❝Holding on to what we used to be.❞
  • ❝Loving every minute cause you make me feel so alive.❞
  • ❝I feel it slipping away.❞
  • ❝This won’t be forever, so why try to fight it?❞
  • ❝We’ve escaped our capture.❞
  • ❝Wherever it’s going, I’m gonna chase it.❞
  • ❝You kill the lights, I’ll draw the blinds.❞
  • ❝So what? I don’t mind.❞
  • ❝Can’t we pause it for just one kiss.❞
  • ❝I know that we were made to break.❞
  • ❝We are in-love enemies.❞
  • ❝Oh, I would love you if you let me.❞
  • ❝No I won’t apologize for the fire in my eyes.❞
  • ❝This feeling is heavy, makes my body ache.❞
  • ❝If you pull then i’ll push too deep.❞
  • ❝All I ever really wanted in this short life was you.❞
  • ❝I’m not afraid, I’m not.❞
  • ❝Give me one night to mend the pain.❞
  • ❝Breathing you in when I want you out.❞
  • ❝Just be yourself and there won’t be a need to see your face.❞
  • ❝I should’ve known better, I’ll admit it.❞
  • ❝You painted black upon the whitest lies.❞
  • ❝I’ll fall right back to you.❞
  • ❝Something tells me, I know nothing at all.❞
  • ❝Wherever you go, whatever you do. You know I’ll follow you.❞
  • ❝My heart is heavy.❞
  • ❝I see what you’re wearing, there’s nothing beneath it.❞
  • ❝Tell me your cover tonight or tell me lies.❞
  • ❝I want you to know that I’m all yours.❞
  • ❝You’ve seen them fall, you have seen them rise.❞
  • ❝Let me show you how a kiss should taste.❞
  • ❝I never meant to hurt you and I know you feel the same.❞
  • ❝Right now I don’t know why I love you.❞
  • ❝I know that we are upside down.❞
  • ❝We’ll let this place go down in flames only one more time.❞
  • ❝If you’re lost I’m diving in after you.❞
  • ❝Why are you my remedy?❞
  • ❝I won’t let you drown, I’ll pull you back to the shallow.❞
  • ❝You and me bleed the same light.❞
  • ❝I’m slippin’ down a chain reaction.❞
  • ❝You’re lost, worn out, face down.❞
  • ❝I want to let you color me in.❞
  • ❝Wearing your heart like a stolen dream.❞
  • ❝Don’t slam the fucking door.❞
  • ❝If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?❞
  • ❝Finding our truth in a hope of doubt.❞
  • ❝Are you done with love so they can’t hurt you tomorrow?❞
  • ❝We both know what we’ll choose.❞
  • ❝Let’s get lost at sea where they will never find us.❞
  • ❝I had nothing but pieces of thoughts of the hope that you would see me.❞
a hella long list of random lyric sentence starters
  • "I'm insecure and I care what people think."
  • "We're stressed out."
  • "Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days."
  • "Wake up, you need to make money."
  • "You used to make me feel like I could walk on water."
  • "You're the reason why I can't listen to the same songs I used to."
  • "I write songs about you all the time."
  • "I bet I don't run through your mind."
  • "I've given up on you.
  • "It still hurts to know you're not alone."
  • "Lately, my dog's the only one around that listens to my problems."
  • "It's been a lonely year."
  • "I'm just happy being with you."
  • "Quietly, quietly, the two of us are entangled."
  • "You don't realize the way I am."
  • "This silent love leaves a silent scar."
  • "I don't feel anything when I look at your face."
  • "That's nothing compared to what I had done in the past."
  • "Wild horses couldn't drag me away."
  • "You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress."
  • "Please remember me, fondly."
  • "We'll meet again."
  • "Fuck the man."
  • "I heard from someone you're still pretty."
  • "And when the morning came I was ashamed. Only now it seems so silly."
  • "Never meant to last."
  • "An angel kissin' on a sinner."
  • "Girls like girls like boys do."
  • "Always gonna steal your thunder."
  • "Imma take your girl out."
  • "Don't tell me what I feel."
  • "Kissed your girls and made you cry, boys."
  • "Tell me if you feel it, too."
  • "Hello there, the angel from my nightmare."
  • "We can live like Jack and Sally if we want."
  • "I would ask for advice, but I just do what I like."
  • "You're a waste of my time."
  • "I smoke cause I'm stressed. I try to get high, but it gets me depressed."
  • "I've fallen for her, more than once."
  • "My daddy is dead, I've got no man to follow."
  • "And I know that I'm shallow, but why shouldn't I be?"
  • "I don't want any trouble, it just chooses to find me."
  • "I've been thinkin' about fallin' in love."
  • "I've been thinkin' about you."
  • "I’m afraid somebody else might take my place."
  • "All my friends always lie to me."
  • "You’re too mean, I don’t like you."
  • "Fuck you anyway."
  • "You make me wanna scream at the top of my lungs."
  • "You make me wanna die."
  • "Keep on dreaming, don’t stop breathing, fight those demons."
  • "I got a hunger and it won't go away."
  • "I want it all to remind me of the first time."
  • "I think I like you, but it's complicated."
  • "It's always better when we're together."
  • "You look so pretty sleeping next to me."
  • "I belong with no one."
  • "You belong with me."
  • "Run off to school like a good drama queen."
  • "Do you care where you're going, or know where you've been?"
  • "Our faith is placed in second chances."
  • "You're the star of the story you don't care about."
  • "Just a little girl in a bigger world turning upside-down."
  • "You keep it all inside so that nobody knows."
  • "All these boys are thirsty for your outsides."
  • "You never care to ever let the right ones in."
  • "Baby, I'll carry you all the way home."
  • "I just wanna love you, dear."
  • "I understand you, just take my hand."
  • "I found God. I found him in a lover."
  • "He's off to pay his crimes and he's got no time for mine."
  • "It's tearing me apart."
  • "It's ruining everything."
  • "Were you lying all the time?"
  • "Was it just a game to you?"
  • "You know I'm such a fool for you."
  • "You got me wrapped around your finger."
  • "I thought the world of you."
  • "I thought nothing could go wrong, but I was wrong."
  • "It was always me and you."
  • "This body is yours."
  • "Your mess is mine."
  • "Luck be on my side tonight."
  • "You're the reason that I feel so strong."
  • "You still make sense to me."
  • "Boy, look the other way."
  • "That's not the way that friends behave."
  • "I always knew that I would love you from afar."
  • "She's got darling hazel eyes."
  • "It shouldn't come as a surprise."
  • "Why do you go wasting your time on me?"
  • "I'm eager to please."
  • "I'm scared that you’re gonna slip away."
  • "I don’t think she knows how she changed all my plans."
  • "You act like you don't know me."
  • "My god, you tempt my anxious mind."
  • "We are bitter losers, snarling through our smiles."
  • "We are wild."
  • "We’re fucked, but we say that we’re fine."
  • "We long for journeys and the roadside."
  • "Every little thing made me miss you more."
  • "I'm just trying to make a getaway to you, and I'd have gone a thousand miles more."
  • "And I looked at you, you were so damn cute."
  • "I know you're thinking of me."
  • "You're everything that I hoped for."
  • "I'm all the shit that you go for."
  • "Stop kidding yourself now."
  • "I never found a way to let you know."
  • "I also never found a way to let you go."
  • "Right now I’m feeling rough."
  • "Come settle in with me."
  • "I will not open myself up this way again."
  • "Feels like I don't know you."
  • "I've strayed from who it was that you knew."
  • "You were trying to make it work."
  • "You were sleeping in my shirt
  • "Sometimes things don't come full circle."
  • "I was hoping that you cared."
  • "I was distant, I was scared."
  • "There's no way to go back now."
  • "Just love me when you can."
  • "I'll wait patiently."
  • "I'll wake up every day just hoping that you still care."
  • "Surely even I deserve the best."
  • Just when I believe you've changed for good, you go and prove me wrong just like I knew you would."
  • "When I run out of second chances, you give me that look
  • and you're off the hook."
  • "Oh, what am I still doing here?"
  • "It ain't right to just love me when you can."
  • "Slow down, you are out of control."
  • "One of us is right, and one of us is wrong."
  • "It could be so easy if it didn't feel so wrong."
  • "What if I was younger?"
  • "I never should have asked, it was a long time ago."
  • "There's things I wish I knew."
  • "We're a million miles away."
  • "With you, my dear, I'm safe."
  • "You will be gone and I won't see you anymore."
  • "You left my love on the line and said that you were leaving."
  • "I saw you in the arms of someone else."
  • "I cry myself to sleep and you thought I was happy."
  • "I was lonely, had nowhere to go."
  • "I heard that you moved on."
  • "Everything has changed."
  • "Sometimes you've got to bleed to know that you're alive."
  • "The songs on the radio are okay, but my taste in music is your face."
  • "You fell asleep in my car, I drove the whole time."
  • "I heard you were lying about how brave you are.
  • "I heard you were still trying to get back to the start."
  • "I'm gonna miss you."
  • "Gonna miss you, girl, and all of the things we could've done."
  • "I move so fast, how could you be with me?"
  • "I wish you well. All the best."
  • "I spent an hour with you, should I want anything else?"
  • "We were sixteen, maybe less, maybe a little more."
  • "I walked home smiling, I finally had a story to tell."
  • "Time has bridled us both, but I remember you, too."
  • "You confuse me with your riddles and your sudden generosity."
  • "You really shouldn't get this fucked up."
  • "I'm tired of being careful."
  • "Let me under your skin."
  • "Why do I always spill?"
  • "God, I wish I never spoke."
  • "Think I got myself in trouble."
  • "Should've never said the word 'love.'"
  • "I'm sick of all the games I have to play."
  • "I've got your picture, she's got you."
  • "Throw on your dress and put on your doll faces."
  • "Everyone thinks that we're perfect."
  • "Go back to being plastic."
  • "Smile for the picture."
  • "We were too wasted to close the window."
  • "Do you want it? Do you want me?"
  • "You are where I want to be."
  • "I can drive."
  • "Who is she?"
  • "I used to know know to leave the boy behind without having to watch him go."
  • "Going on, my first impression, I recall you wearing white."
  • "There was something sweet in the air, babe, that summer night."
  • "There will always be another time for us to fall in love."
  • "The first times always cut the deepest."
  • "She is something to behold, elegant and bold."
  • "I could easily lose my mind."
  • "The way you kiss me will work each time."
  • "Eyes, innocent and wild, remind me what it's like."
  • "Pulling me back into the flames and I'm burning up again."
  • "I never understood what was at stake."
  • "Well now you've come and gone, I finally worked it out."
  • "I never should have told you."
  • "I never should have let you see inside."
  • "Don't want it troubling your mind. Won't you let it be?"
  • "You cool me down."
  • "Do you love me now?"
  • "I'm not so used to doubt."
  • "Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth."
  • "You're the only one that wants me around."
  • "I don't believe in you and I."
  • "I'm not yours anymore."
  • "You're always leaving me behind."
  • "I feel like a fool."
  • "I ain't got nothing left to give."
  • "You are mine, I am yours. Lets not fuck around."
  • "You are the only one."
  • "Yours is the first face that I saw."
  • "I realize that I need you and I wondered if I could come home."
  • "Remember the time you drove all night, just to meet me in the morning."
  • "I thought it was strange, you said everything changed, you felt as if you'd just woke up."
  • "I'm glad I didn't die before I met you."
  • "I don't care, I could go anywhere with you and I'd probably be happy."
  • "Maybe this time is different."
  • "I mean, I really think you like me."
  • "You pull away so easily."
  • "I'm only there so that you're not alone."
  • "So I'm pouring some whiskey, I'm gonna get drunk."
  • "I want a lover I don't have to love."
  • "I'll meet up with the band in the morning."
  • "Love's an excuse to get hurt."
  • "We both go together if one falls down."
  • "I talk out loud like you're still around."
  • "Do I let her sleep or should I wake her up?"
  • "We were lovers in a past life."
  • "I'll make you mine, time after time."
  • "We can keep in touch if that's what you want."
  • "You say I don't have the time for you, but I do."
  • "I am what you need when you can't find it somewhere else."
  • "I am what you want when you don't have anything else."
  • "I came here with a load and it feels so much lighter now I met you."
  • "Honey, you should know that I could never go on without you."
  • "You're the one that I wanted to find."
  • "Anyone who tried to deny you must be out of their mind."
  • "I know it's too late."
  • "I should have given you a reason to stay."
  • "We're not the same, dear, as we used to be."
  • "There was little we could say, and even less that we could do."
  • "Nothing was left for you and me."
  • "Someday you will be loved."
  • "I cannot pretend that I felt any regret."
  • "The memories of me will seem more like bad dreams."
  • "I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet."
  • "You told her that you loved her, but you don't."
  • "She was beautiful, but she didn't mean a thing to me."
  • "I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking as we moved together in the dark."
  • "All I see are dark grey clouds in the distance moving closer with every hour."
  • "Was something wrong?"
  • "You're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now."
  • "No, we can't talk about it now."
  • "One last touch and then you'll go, and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more."
  • "It was vile, and it was cheap."
  • "You are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me."
My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone…
—  Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Songs That Remind me of the Signs: System of a Down

Aries: Darts-” fear not the gods that come from the sky, long not for the one who’ve lost their way. Arise as did the gods Ninti”

Taurus: Stealing Society-” When I feel like talking I’ll never be wrong
If I fell like walking you best come along
I close my windows crank the heat up high
till my palms are wet and my tongue is dry”

Gemini: Lost in Hollywood-” They find you, Two-time you,
Say you’re the best they’ve ever seen, You should have never trusted Hollywood.”

Cancer: Aerials-” Life is a waterfall
we’re one in the river
and one again after the fall
swimming through the void
we hear the word
we lose ourselves
but we find it all”

Leo: U-Fig-” Melt in the sun, melt in the sun!
Who wants to come with me and melt in the sun?”

Virgo: Honey-”Run away to the land far away…where the hills are green and the water is gray”

Libra: Roulette-” I have a problem that I cannot explain… I lack the reason why I should be so confused… I know, how I feel when I’m around you,
I don’t know, how I feel when I’m around you”

Scorpio: Spiders-” Approaching guiding light, our shallow years in fright,
Dreams are made winding through my head”

Sagittarius: Sad Statue-” You and me will all go down in history, with a sad Statue of Liberty, and a Generation that didn’t agree”

Capricorn: Holy Mountains-” They have all returned resting on the mountain side, we have learned that you have no…”

Aquarius: Question!-” Do we! Do we know, when we FLY?
When we, when we go
Do we die? “

Pisces: Dreaming-”Dreaming of screaming
Someone kick me out of my mind
I hate these thoughts, I cant deny"

My Favorite Songs of 2013.

1. All Who Hear - Young Oceans

2. Too Much - Drake

3. Diamonds - The Boxer Rebellion

4. Dust to Dust - The Civil Wars

5. Bleeding Out - The Lone Bellow

6. Me - The 1975

7. Is There Somebody Who Can Watch You - The 1975

8. Young and Beautiful - Lana Del Ray

9. The Exit - Lydia

10. You & Me - Satellite

11. Pink Rabbits - The National

12. Dream - The Boxer Rebellion

13. Silhouette - Active Child w/ Ellie Goulding

14. Sweater Weather - The Neighbourhood

15. Beautiful War - Kings of Leon

16. Heavy Feet - Local Natives

17. You Never Need Nobody - The Lone Bellow

18. Mirrors - Justin Timberlake

19. Hard to Find - The National

20. Humiliation - The National

21. Robbers - The 1975

22. Royals - Lorde

23. Hold My Liquor - Kanye West w/ Justin Vernon

24. The City - The 1975

25. Brave - Sara Bareilles

26. Bitter Poem - Cold War Kids

27. Up Against the Wall - Fiction Family

28. Shallows - Daughter

29. God Badge - Fiction Family

30. Thing About Freedom - Matt Wertz

31. Stepson - Foals

32. Ledges - Noah Gundersen

33. Two Coins - City and Colour 

34. I Was a Fool - Tegan and Sara

35. My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark - Fall Out Boy 

36. Blue Ocean Floor - Justin Timberlake

37. Tell Mama - The Civil Wars

38. Out of the Woods - Foals

39. Pompeii - Bastille

40. Satellite Call - Sara Bareilles

41. Ladies and Gentlemen - City and Colour

42. Wasting My Young Years - London Grammar

43. Who You Love - John Mayer w/ Katy Perry

44. Things We Lost in the Fire - Bastille

45. Anna Sun - WALK THE MOON

46. Dead American - Anberlin

47. Obscene - Bloc Party

48. Overnight - Parachute

49. I Will Be Found (Lost at Sea) - John Mayer  

50. Hurricane - MS MR

the signs as daughter lyrics

aries - “woken up like an animal / i’m all ready for healing / my mind’s lost with nightmares streaming / take me out of this place i’m in / break me out of this shell-like case i’m in” [x

taurus - “two feet standing on a principle / two hands longing for each others warmth / cold smoke seeping out of colder throats / darkness falling, leaves nowhere to go / … but we’re still sleeping like we’re lovers” [x

gemini - “cause i don’t stand a chance in these four walls / and he don’t recognise me anymore / burned out flames should never re-ignite / but i thought you might / take me home” [x

cancer - “i should go now quietly / for my bones have found a place to lie down and sleep / where all my layers can become reeds / all my limbs can become trees / all my children can become me” [x

leo - “will you stay with me my love, for another day? cause i don’t want to be alone, when i’m in this state / will you stay with me my love? till we’re old and grey / cause i don’t wanna be alone when these bones decay…” [x

virgo - “i can’t forget it / though i’ve tried / i know you regret it, love / you told me so many times / but i still wonder why you left with them / and left me behind” [x

libra - “drifting apart like two sheets of ice, my love / frozen hearts growing colder with time / there’s no heat from our mouths / please take me back to when i was yours / when we were in flames” [x

scorpio - “love, hunt me down / i can’t stand to be so dead behind the eyes / 
and feed me… spark me up / a creature in my blood stream chews me up / so i can feel something
” [x

sagittarius - “dry your smoke-stung eyes / so you can see the light / you’re staring at the sky / watching stars collide / watching stars / if you leave when i go / find me in the shallows” [x

capricorn - “i have brittle bones it seems / i bite my tongue and torch my dreams / have a little voice to speak with / and a mind of thoughts and secrecy / things cannot be reversed, we learn from the times that we are cursed” [x

aquarius - “i used to dream of adventure / when i was younger / with lungs miniature / but now we’re killing our brain cells / is this called living, or something else?” [x

pisces - “by tomorrow we’ll be lost amongst the leaves / in a wind that chills the skeletons of trees / and when the moon shines, i will leave two lines / find my love, then find me / don’t bring tomorrow / cause i already know i’ll lose you” [x

ACOTAR fan theory


Okay, so I am re-reading ACOTAR (finally reading it to my Fiance) And although we are only halfway through the book there are some things I have noticed that Feyre has commented on about her dreams and thoughts pretty early in the book back when she had just arrived on Tamlin’s estate and it was so hard to keep from squealing aloud in excitement so my Fiance wouldn’t find out what is going on. But basically, look at this shit:

Remember the scene just as Feyre is beginning to get comfortable around Tamlin and Lucien, right after the Bogge incident? Feyre has a nightmare about the Fae Wolf (Andras)  that she killed in the woods. But here, let me pull this part straight out of the Chapter.

Behind me, a shadow lurked – no, watched. I didn’t dare turn to look at it, to see who might be within that shadow, observing, not as the wolf stared at me across the clearing.

Just staring. As if waiting, as if daring me to fire the ash arrow.

Okay. Well. here were my thoughts on this at first: There are two options in my mind. The shadow behind Feyre that she seems to describe as a physical person watching could definitely be multiple things. It could be a metaphor of Andras himself watching. It could be a hint at what happens later in the book, when she finds out that the wolves were intentionally out there looking for a human for Tamlin to find. So, it could have been Tamlin. But let’s look at this part, several chapters later when Feyre has just gotten out of the scene with the Suriel and the Naga.

I jerked awake in the middle of the night, panting. My dreams had been filled with the clicking of the Suriel’s bone-fingers, the grinning naga, and a pale, faceless woman dragging her bloodred nails across my throat, splitting me open bit by bit. She kept asking for my name, but every time I tried to speak, my blood bubbled out of the shallow wounds on my neck, choking me.

Now, I have a very over-active imagination, and this is just me throwing more crazy fan-theories of mine out there, but bear with me for a moment. 

So, in the first scene of Feyre’s dreams, she describes a shadow behind her, watching, that when I read it again to my Fiance, had me thinking it might be Tamlin or a metaphor right? Well, what about in the next dream? She describes a faceless woman asking for her name. 

What if it’s Rhysand? What if, ALL this time, as soon as Feyre entered into Prythian, somehow, he knew all along. Don’t you find it strange that Rhys, who can enter people’s minds and force them to do things, see things, randomly showed up on the night of Calanmai? Like… WHY? Why would he go there and do that? He obviously wasn’t there to relay a message to Tam or Lucien. From the sound of it, he never even ran into them. He also mentions to Feyre upon their meeting that he had an obvious dislike for the Spring court. Why the hell would he go there at all? Yes, there is renewed magic and all that, but he is a High Lord himself. He can do that in his own COURT. Isn’t it weird that he just happens to randomly show and as Feyre’s “Savior” As she calls him, at LEAST TWICE?! And he wasn’t in the crowd. He was in the woods, off to the side, where those three Faeries took her. He had been WATCHING her. Waiting for her. What if it was a set up?

Here is what I think: I think that Rhysand had been monitoring Tamlin. And when he found out that he had brought a human into his manor, Rhys got curious. I think in that first description of the dream, Rhys was somehow able to watch and kind of get an idea of what kind of human Tam was harboring. I then think that he entered her dreams AGAIN right after the incident with the Suriel and the Naga, and tried to get her to tell him her name, of which she somehow didn’t. THEN he showed up on Calanmai, seeing as it is “The one day out of the year where he can roam freely from court to court” JUST to get a first hand glimpse at Feyre. 

I also do not think that the Queen was not involved at ALL. I know that later on, she finds out about Tam’s “weakness” And searches for her, even so far as to cross the wall and take another human girl, but I think that in the beginning, ONLY Rhys knew about her. Why he was so curious, who knows. It could have been for information to give to the Queen, or maybe something deeper, but I do know that Tam was not the only one who saw Feyre as something special.

Last thing here, on the night of Calanmai, Feyre does actually plan on staying inside like she is told to do. She was in her room, watching the fires from her window, curious but willing to stay indoors. She sounded resigned. What then happens? She states that a VOICE in her HEAD told her to get up and GO SEE. Go see. go go go. 

UHM….?!?!?! Yeah. That wasn’t just Feyre’s curiosity. I think that Rhys fucking lured her out there. Either because he was too lazy to go get her at the house, or because he couldn’t physically enter it. DUDE. Rhys has been in the game the entire fucking time, he was just watching from a distance. 


seven-virtues-plusmore  asked:

🎵 (For Justin.)

Justin’s quietly singing to himself, eyes closed, blissfully unaware of the cowgirl nearby.

“I walk a lonely road, the only one that I have ever known… Don’t know where it goes, But it’s only me, and I walk alone… I walk this empty street on the boulevard of broken dreams…. Where the city sleeps and I’m the only one, and I walk alone… I walk alone, I walk alone, I walk alone and I walk a- My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me. My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating… Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me… Till then I walk alone…. I’m walking down the line that divides me somewhere in my mind on the border line of the edge and where I walk alone read between the lines. what’s fucked up and every thing’s all right, check my vital signs to know I’m still alive and I walk alone. I walk alone, I walk alone, I walk alone and I walk a- My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me… My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating, sometimes I wish someone out there will find me… Till then I walk alone…. I walk alone, I walk a- I walk this empty street, on the boulevard of broken dreams…. Where the city sleeps, and I’m the only one, and I walk alone… My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me…. My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating… sometimes I wish someone out there will find me… Till then I walk alone…..” 

Where I cut, you bandage because hurting the people you love isn’t as clean and smooth as we’d like. Where I burn, you soothe like the twist and turns of a cap to squeeze soothing ointment on the dry skin from not smiling. Where I’m heavy, you claim I’m a feather. I must be a feather from old dinosaurs because I’m one that hit the ground too soon. Would you still hold me if I was more than you can handle? Probably. You’ve proved that more than a few times and you’ll continue to do so. Where I’d make people bleed, you said I felt soft like water and you see through me. If I’m frozen, you melt. If I’m boiling, you’re not dissolvable. If I’m ice cold, you’re warm, milk tea and a notebook filled with poems. If I’m broken, you’re just as broken. Maybe we had to break to find out that my sharp edges match with your soft curls and that’s great.. a mural and a puzzle waiting to collide. And we’re more than a painting that’s pricelessly hanging, we’re more like held hands waiting to happen. You told me about not finding the right glue, you’re right. You’re not glue. You’re a torch. You’ll heat my words to my lips and seal my soul inside of my shoulders. You’re an ocean to my ocean, if I’m drowning you’ll be there as more than bubbles and luminescences of the deep, you’ll be a blanket of ice, so my tears will freeze and you’ll kiss my clawing thoughts because waiting for tomorrow isn’t so bad. You match my in between the lines because you care. If I’m confusing, you let me know. You always do. I hope I’m crystal clear when I say, I love you because you’re a diamond breaking all of my glasses and it’s okay this time around. I have you and.. well… you have me. You hate appreciation and I have no idea why, most likely because you find it unnecessary and quite shallow. I can be your seashell and you can be the sirens of the sea. Can you hear your voice playing throughout my voice yet? I hear you lately, singing about Neverland and being broken because I break you at every turn… Let’s stop being broken dreams and let’s get lost because adventures of the heart is a chalkboard and I’m writing to you hoping you won’t run from the screech, my love doesn’t sound pretty… Love me anyway?
—  I’d much rather be lost with you than to be found without you.