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J.K. Rowling wrote the screenplay for the film, which opens in 1927, a few months after Newt helped to unveil and capture the infamous Dark wizard Gellert Grindelwald.  However, as he promised he would, Grindelwald has made a dramatic escape and has been gathering more followers to his cause—elevating wizards above all non-magical beings.  The only one who might be able to stop him is the wizard he once called his dearest friend, Albus Dumbledore. But Dumbledore will need help from the wizard who had thwarted Grindelwald once before, his former student Newt Scamander.  The adventure reunites Newt with Tina, Queenie and Jacob, but his mission will also test their loyalties as they face new perils in an increasingly dangerous and divided wizarding world.

This fandom is really toxic, in all honesty. Never in my life have I see a group of teenagers be so awful just because they can. You’re all so invested in Jack’s girlfriend that your heads have fit nicely up her ass and seem to stay there, searching for something, anything to use against her. Who, might I remind you, is also a teenager and growing up. You people aren’t helping by ‘spilling the tea’ you’re driving a wedge between you and an actor you claim to support. Mind your own damn business and like, go do your homework or something.

RIP Nelsan Ellis

Thank you for creating Lafayette, who meant so much to so many of us.

Never before had some of our queer black family been so richly portrayed, and still, in your wake, none have come close.

Lafayette Reynolds, forever my she reign. 👑 👑 👑

A message from Kat, (co-) founder of Takemehomefromnarnia and Rainbow Direction

Yesterday morning I woke up to a storm. During the night, our twitter account had liked a tweet that was hateful towards Louis and towards a segment of the fandom, and we were following the account in question.

Deepest apologies

Before I say anything else: I speak for everyone at TMHFN/Rainbow Direction when I say how deeply sorry we are that this happened and that you have been hurt by it. We love all the boys, we welcome all fans whatever they ship, and we condemn all forms of hate.

Some might also need specific reminding that we love Louis. We do. Our blog was named after a twitter incident with homophobia directed at Louis. One of TMHFN’s early actions was speaking up against the homophobic slurs flying around on twitter after Louis joined a football team. On so many occasions we’ve pointed people to the interview in which Louis – when asked whether he appreciated gay and straight fans both – said that “I think it’s great, all fans are fans of our music so it doesn’t really matter what or who they are.” We have supported his music and solo career. And while we’ll never know whether they were in support of Rainbow Direction, we did take notice of Louis’ various rainbow themed T-shirts that he’s worn at important occasions over the years. So we love him, like we love all the boys, and we like to think he loves us, like he loves all his fans.  

What happened

It’s been more than four years since the start of TMHFN and this is not the first time we’ve encountered crisis. From the past we’ve learned not to judge too quickly and to take the time to take things in, find out what really happened, and listen to everyone’s point of view.

For the past couple of days, whenever we were all awake and were able to discuss (we are spread over 4 time zones and 2 continents) we have been talking about what happened and how it could have happened.

Only the five current core team members (Li, Ellis, Tamara, Edwin and I) have access to the social media accounts.  We have an indiscriminate follow-back policy, which is how the tweet showed up on our timeline. Its mention of homophobia was the reason why it attracted attention.

All five of us have known each other a long time, and we trust each other 100% . We are absolutely sure that no one here supports what the tweet said. We are therefore absolutely sure no one here liked the tweet thinking they were on their personal account. We are also absolutely sure no one here liked the tweet from our account on purpose for whatever reason.

Which leaves only two possibilities – a hack, or an accident. Since we consider the former to be a bit unlikely – our only reasonable conclusion is that it must have been a slip of the finger while checking out this tweet on our timeline for its mention of homophobia.

That night, being the only one on the account still awake, Edwin had already come to this conclusion: that it must have been a mistake, likely his since he was the last one on the account. He immediately took full responsibility for the error, apologizing for it, correcting it and offering his resignation. In doing so, he put Rainbow Direction and the principles it stands for above his own interests. And I am sure that every single one of us would have done the same.

What we stand for

That’s because we are all convinced that what we are doing here – trying to create visibility for marginalized young people, trying to create a safe space for all young music fans to be themselves, trying to make this 40 million strong fandom/community more inclusive for the 10% of it that doesn’t identify as straight – is bigger and far more important than any single one of us.

Thank you to everyone who has notified, expressed their anger, shown understanding, supported, been completely honest with us,… We appreciate and understand everyone’s reactions - we are also shocked and saddened that this happened - and will do everything we can to keep TMHFN and RD the positive, safe community that it has been to so many of us.

If what happened last night makes you feel you can no longer support Rainbow Direction, we fully understand that.  You can sign off by simply dropping us an ask/DM.

I ask you with urgency, though, that however you feel about this, please NOT to abandon you rainbows whatever else you do. There are about 4 million LGBTQ+ One Direction fans who need you to make them feel safe here. Remove your name, drop our tags, but please keep the rainbows.

No limits to love

There is one thing I do need to get off my chest. Like everyone else here, I have been taken aback by the speed and harshness with which this error was judged before we were even aware of it, and it’s been shocking to see the way it was blamed on various people who had nothing at all to do with it.

It’s symptomatic of a fandom that seems to be deeply divided into factions ever since the boys started releasing solo albums. As a bisexual polyamorous person I cannot count the times I have had to explain that “loving one person/gender doesn’t mean I’d love the other(s) any less, because there isn’t a limited amount of love”.

I am saying it again about love for music today: it’s perfectly possible to love two (or more) artists at the same time. Even if they are from the same band. And can we please also love each other a little bit more? Treat each other with a little bit more kindness (Harry), always assume best intentions (our own lovely Ellis), and find some mildness, some forgiveness in ourselves.

I have not accepted Edwin’s resignation, and was supported in that decision by the three other colleagues. Movements and organisations are driven by people, and people inevitably make mistakes sometimes. People who own up to their mistakes and learn from them should be valued, because they are the only ones that grow.

This organisation too will try to learn from its mistakes and improve. Edwin is taking a role that doesn’t involve access to the social media accounts. We’ll clarify our Twitter followback policy and simplify our “likes” policy, or abandon likes alltogether, as some of you have suggested. We’re also putting in place a password system that should allow us to correct any mistakes much sooner. As always, we welcome all of your concerns and any suggestions on how to improve.

I’ll close off by saying thank you, once again, to those of you who shared their feelings about what happened with us, whether positive or negative, we have learned from all of you. Thank you for your support and thank for your honesty. The five of us remain as committed as ever to create a safe space in this fandom for LGBTQ+ fans and hope we can count on many of you to make that happen with us. Together we are stronger.

All my love

Kat

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Game Aesthetics: Nick (Left 4 Dead 2)

Here in the middle of the lonely night
Here in the middle of the losing fight, You’re
Here in the middle of the deep regret
Here when the healing hasn’t happened yet

Here in the middle of the desert place
Here in the middle when I cannot see Your face
Here in the middle with Your outstretched arms
You can see my pain and it breaks Your heart

- Ellie Holcomb, Find You Here

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Game Aesthetics: Rochelle (Left 4 Dead 2)

COMING JUNE 2018

Ellis Grant glanced up towards the flickering white light, it had been playing up for days now and the more she looked it, the more it infuriated her. She’d been in the facility for longer than she cared to remember, in fact she had lost count of the number of days long ago. Her days, which were once filled with warm sunlight and the fresh air of the outdoors, were now regimented and gruelling, filled with artificial light and the sterile scent of hospital corridors. 

“Elle…” Owen Grady’s voice tore Ellis’ attention from the flickering light and she stared at him blankly. She didn’t speak much these days, in fact she did very little. “Please…” Owen pleaded, “…just try.” 

If she could’ve found it in herself, Ellis would have laughed. Try she thought. As though it were that simple. As though she hadn’t been trying since the moment they brought her out of the coma that they had kept her in for weeks. She’d done her trying, and she’d gotten precisely nowhere. 

The two of them stared at each other intensely for short while before eventually Owen sighed and stood up, turning away from Ellis and walking towards the window on the opposite side of the room. He left her in her wheelchair at the end of the parallel walking bars that had been her nemesis for the past couple of weeks and looked out towards the entrance gates. When he caught sight of a figure, heading towards the large wrought iron gates Owen smirked. Heading towards the rehabilitation centre was a tall, thin, man with greying hair. He was dressed entirely in black: black shirt, black trousers, black socks, black shoes, and walked with an air of self confidence like nothing Owen had ever seen before. He neared the building, a sarcastic grim reaper, there to pull Ellis from the slump she presently found herself in. 

“Oh you’re in for it now Grant.”