finally went to my first show in la

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Michael Luwoye has the title role in the hit Broadway show “Hamilton,” now playing at the Hollywood Pantages Theatre. He joined us on Good Day LA and talking about how at first, he just though of theater as a hobby rather than a career.

“I was in New York and I was catering. Hours before, I’d just finished my final audition for Hamilton and Burr – I was auditioning for both parts at that time. And I left the audition, I went to my catering job, I set up, I was putting on my tuxedo, and I got a call from my agent and I found out that I was going to be Hamilton alternate on Broadway. And I did the show for seven months on Broadway as Hamilton and an understudy for Aaron Burr. And they gave me the role full time for the national tour.”

“Did you think you were in a dream?”

“I still haven’t woken up. Every single day, I’m pinching myself.”

“What happened to the catering job that night?”

“Yeah, have you given that up?”

“I did my last job that night, I completed the job, and then I went home and I started learning the material.”

“I mean, it was hitting the lottery! You take that tux off and chuck it, right?”

“It’s still somewhere in my closet…”

So, apparently, Yuki Hayashi (composer of the BNHA ost) had had the opportunity to work with Hiroyuki Sawano (composer of the Attack on Titan ost) in the past…

And, in the beginning (prior to my discovery) I was really getting strong Sawano vibes from the BNHA ost, especially regarding the Todoroki vs. Midoriya theme song (KIMI NO CHIKARA)… so I digged a little bit.

Sawano worked on Guilty Crown in 2011, making me fall in love immediately with his music…to the point I was able to recognize his influence on other soundtracks as well.
So, as soon as I heard the epic ost for Attack on Titan I knew it had been him since the beginning, in 2012.
The same went with Kill la Kill, a few months after the finale of the first half of the first season of Attack on Titan. I knew it was that little bitch, it had been him all along.
And I loved to recognize his music in some of my favorite shows.

But now…now this new guy Yuki Hayashi makes me question even my mediocre musical knowledge by dropping a small precious work of art like the BNHA ost, especially in regards of Todoroki vs. Midoriya theme.
Initially I was intrigued such as: “oh, apparently mah boy Sawano didn’t make the ost for BNHA…how weird tho, because it really resembles his previous works in some way…”
So I made some more digging and I found out some nice things.

And so I scrolled down the list of all the anime shows Hayashi had took part in as composer…and then it hit me.
It hadn’t been the first time when I heard his music this summer. Oh no. Because last fucking summer this little genius of a fucker right here broke my heart with his music while I was watching Kiznaiver EXACTLY ONE YEAR AGO.

And now I found out that Sawano and Hayashi collaborated together previously to all of this, back in 2009 for a television drama called “Triangle”.

I’m sorry for this massive info-dump on my part but…now I am so excited about being able to recognize my favorite composers in other works.

Most of the times, I get emotionally attached to an anime because the music gives me chills. Same goes for movies if the main composer is Clint Mansell, or Dario Marianelli, or Marco Beltrami, or Junkie XL: I get the same vibes every single time I find myself having an eargasm in the middle of a theatre while watching a movie for the first time.

I am happy and I just wanted to share this little thing with you.

Jack Johnson - Awkward

Request: Hi! Can I have an imagine with Johnson that I’m from South America and I know just a little bit of English and I asked him for directions to the hotel I’m staying but he decided me to take me out for lunch instead and just make it really cute. I love your blog! Thank you

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I had always been such an awkward person, it’s just the way I am even though I tried to change that, but you can’t escape awkwardness, I guess. It’s one thing that you say the worst things in the worst times, or just simply mess up things, but when the whole story of how you met your boyfriend is an awkward one… That’s quite hurtful. It had been over three years now, but I still remember it like it happened yesterday.

So here is how it all happened. I was on an exploring vacation in LA because I was about to move there from South America, mainly to learn the language, but also because one of my friends got me a great job. I went there a month before my moving to check out my apartment and the workplace before starting this new chapter in my life. I learnt English before in school, but back then I was far from great. I could make myself understood but I was not able to have long conversations about difficult topics.

As lucky as I was, I got lost when I was on my way back to the hotel I was staying for the week. I was running around like an idiot to find out where I was, the GPS in my phone went nuts for some reason and I only had a not too detailed map I took from a shop. It started to get dark and I was scared to be out in the night alone in a city I had never been to, so I did what I should had done earlier. I asked for directions hoping I would understand them.

I saw a blonde guy with glasses walking on the other side of the street with a grocery bag in his hands so I thought he may be living around there. I jogged over to him.

“Hey, sorry. I… need help?!” It sounded more like a question, since I wasn’t sure it was correct. The guy stopped and smiled at me.

“Okay. How can I help you?” he asked absently.

“Lost. Hotel, can’t find,” I said showing him a piece of paper that had the name of the hotel on it.

“Oh, you are looking for the La Quinta Inn?” I nodded listening carefully to what he was saying. “That’s it?” he asked and it made me worried a bit.

“Yes?!” I answered unsure what he was referring to. “You can help?”

“Um, sure, it’s… actually, I can show you, if you want me to,” he offered. It was a much better option, because I was afraid if he gave me directions I would misunderstood and just get even more lost.

“Thank you,” I smiled at him relieved.

On our way to the hotel he asked me some basic questions, since I told him right away that my English was kind of terrible. I told him about where I came from and why I was there, probably with thousands of grammatical mistakes, but he always helped me when I couldn’t express myself, it was nice from him. Then I asked him about himself, he said his name was Jack and that he was into music industry, but he didn’t tell me much about his work and I also didn’t want to push the subject. What’s more, I couldn’t even if I wanted, I was afraid I wouldn’t understand him. He was really nice and walked me back to the hotel, he showed me a few cool places on our way.

“So when are you going home?” he asked when we were in front of the hotel.

“Saturday.”

“That’s five more days. What will you do alone?” I just shrugged.

“See apartment. Shop.”

“Oh so you will be shopping for five days?” he asked chuckling. “I can show you around if you are interested.”

“Really?” I asked surprised.

“In fact, I would love to take you out for dinner now.”

“Dinner?” I asked not being sure what that meant.

“To eat something,” he explained and I understood immediately nodding my head gladly.

“Okay!”

He took me to a nice restaurant nearby and I was happy I didn’t have to spend the evening alone in my hotel room. Oddly, I started to notice that young girls were staring at us. I was afraid I did something weird or awkward as usual, I checked my reflection in every mirror that came to my way just to make sure I looked good. Jack didn’t seem to realize it or he just ignored in for some reason. I didn’t dare to ask him about it right until two girls came up to us.

“Hey, sorry for bothering but Jack, can we take a photo?” one of them asked and I was just watching the happenings with wide eyes.

“Uh, yeah sure,” Jack smiled as the two girls stood to his sides and they took a quick selfie. The girls thanked it to him and then left. He glanced at me and seeing my expression he sighed. “Okay, I have to tell you something.”

“You are star?” I asked furrowing my eyebrows at him.

“I wouldn’t say that. I’m making music with my friend and we gained fame over this app called Vine. Now we are planning our second European tour.”

“What?!” I asked with wide eyes. I felt ashamed and awkward that I didn’t know him, but I wasn’t really into celebrities to know about every uprising sensation, but I also wasn’t expecting to run into one of them.

After the first shock I accepted the situation and Jack gladly told me about their career. When he walked me home later that night he asked if I still wanted him to show me around. Obviously I said yes, this whole fame thing did not change my opinion on him. When I got back to my room my first task was to check him out. I listened to their songs and watched interviews and when I met him the next day I was a Jack&Jack expert.

The showing around turned into another date and then another… and when I moved to LA I already had my boyfriend there with me. Years went by, I learned English very well and finally I was able to express every thought I had about Jack. They were mostly about how much I loved him.

10

Honestly, I don’t even know how to begin to explain how amazing Friday night was. I can’t put into words how thankful I am for what 5sos-official has done for me.

Since I was 10 years old, I’ve dreamed of being a musician. Life was tough and music was the first thing that I found a love and passion for entirely on my own. I was 12 when my dad got me my first guitar, and I was 14 when I began to learn how to play it. Before I knew it, I was a senior in high school, and I was being forced to decide what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. The only thing that I knew could make me happy for a lifetime was music, but I’m nothing special as a musician. I don’t have an amazing voice, and I’m really insecure about my guitar playing. Everyone kept telling me I need to dream of something realistic. Music can’t make you rich. After graduation, I didn’t sign up for college because I had no idea what to study. The only thing I knew was music but again, I’m nothing special and I would never survive that industry. So I waited. I was so close to giving up on my dreams.

Then, my friend showed me a new band she figured I’d like. Honestly, I had heard of them before but I assumed they were a boy band as they were touring with one direction. (Don’t get me wrong - I do love one direction, but they are not my regular taste in music) Considering my favorite band is All Time Low and Alex Gaskarth kept tweeting them, I listened to them and heard the pop punk influence, and instantly fell in love.

It shocked me to learn that ¾ of the guys were younger than me. They were all just 4 regular boys from Australia chasing their dreams - just like me - and now they’re friends with the musicians they grew up idolizing. That’s when it hit me - I had a chance. I didn’t have to give up. I wouldn’t.

Fast forward to August (?) of 2014. 5SOS announces a tour and they have a stop in my town - Seattle.
I got off work for the day that tickets were released and bought two of the best possible tickets available - soundcheck, and spots in general admission.
After that it was all about patience.


When the ROWYSO tour started, everyone freaked out because the boys brought a fan on stage to play guitar. It killed me. I couldn’t imagine playing guitar on stage with my favorite band. (Insert “I am not worthy” gif from Wayne’s world)

The year strolled by. I finally started classes at a local community college because I wanted to get my basic credits out of the way while I was young. For my class, I wrote my final paper about the gender gap in the music business and for it I was able to interview a music producer who I met in LA when I went down there for the first time in September 2014 to see 5OS. It was through that that I knew I wanted to be a producer.

Fast forward again. The show is a week away and 5sos has still been inviting fans on stage during the show. I couldn’t let myself go to the show without trying as hard as I possibly could to get on that stage (legally, of course.) I decided to make a sign that said “MICHAEL, PICK ME.”

On Wednesday night, me and my best friend stayed at another friends house because she was chosen to be an insider. Thursday we got downtown at 11am, and we found their actual hotel at 2pm. After a bit of casual walking around and waiting, we went into the hotel lobby. My mom and I had been in there before without staying in the hotel so I was confident if we were casual we could stay. My insider friend, Amy, then decided she was going to walk up the stairs to the front desk. Me and Nikki (best friend) sat on the couches downstairs to wait for her. But, as she was walking up the stairs she passes by two guys - one of them was a huge older guy, and the other was younger, tan, tall, with shaggy sandy blonde hair. AND THATS WHEN I REALIZED IT WAS ASHTON AND I WENT INTO SHOCK. I said his name softly - loud enough for him to hear but not to start a scene - and he looked around like he heard it but didn’t want to make eye contact with me. I don’t think it was rude of him, it was understandable because I was in the hotel, invading his privacy, his alone time. Then I look back at Amy, and freaking Calum walks by her. Idk what to do so me and Nikki are just awkwardly standing by the couches - when Nikki begins coughing and having an asthma attack. (Not because she saw them - because she was having troubles breathing before. I had wandered off from the two to check the other hotel that ended up actually being theirs, so when I called them and said their bus was there they both ran 7 blocks up hill.) the boys walked into the bar/restaurant and sat a bit away. Because Nikki couldn’t breath, she went to the bar and asked for a water. The girl gave her and Amy a glass but then the security guards were onto us and the hotel security got us and wanted us to leave. We explained the situation with Nikki and how she needed water so he said he’d bring us some and we went outside. He brought them smart waters which is freakin awesome because $$$$ but then again the hotel is also $$$$$$$$$$$$ so it’s not like it did any damage. Anyway after that he showed us the area that they had roped off and some fans were in there. He said that’s where we should be cause the guys will meet fans there. We ended up staying there until 2am and the guys never came out. However, Bryana came in a taxi at 1:30 and she was so wonderful and beautiful and sweet and I love her wow. Anyway point of this is we were downtown waiting to meet them for 15 hours and didn’t get to so we were all really down.



***NOW HERES MY STORY FROM THE ACTUAL THE DAY OF THE SHOW SO IF YOURE LAZY LIKE ME, SKIP TO THIS PART***





Because we were exhausted from the day before, we got to the venue at 1pm. We were gonna go to their hotel early but decided not to. We also figured so many people were at the needle trying to meet them we wouldn’t even bother. And of course they met people ha ha smh

We got food. Me and Nikki went to soundcheck and it was wonderful. We made some great friends. You know how the story goes..
Our tickets were for general admission and we got pink wristbands which meant we were on Michael’s side. While waiting for them to let us in (soundcheck kids got in first, before the doors opened) I got to chat with girls who would be in Michael’s pit so when we got down there we were all friends. I asked them if they would help me when michael picked someone to get onstage and they all agreed bc FAM. So the show starts and it’s wonderful and amazing and hey violet is adorable and 5sos can’t spell hair gel and I love them. A few years ago I went to an arcade and won this stuffed banana and when I went to LA I wanted to try to throw it on stage for them but I couldn’t. So I brought it to this show and threw it and it MISSED THE STAGE AND FELL ON THE FLOOR I ALMOST CRIED.

Anyway they played rejects and I knew that was when they’d pick a fan. I thought they did it before the song so when they didn’t I got depressed and figured they were either going to do it during a different song or not going to do it at all, but then, before the last chorus, they stopped. Here’s how the conversation went~
Michael: I have an idea Luke: well I also have an idea Michael: oh..well.. What’s your idea? Luke: I think we should bring a fan onstage to play this song with us Michael: that’s a great idea!

Instantly I put my sign up and turned the lights on for it to flash. The lights in the stadium were turned down and michael and Luke were given big flashlights. They were shining them all over the crowd, looking around my side, (they were saying things too about who they should pick) and when they walked to calum’s side I got flashbacks of when I saw ATL and they brought people on stage for time bomb and I wasn’t one of them, and one of the girls didn’t know the freaking lyrics and it made me so mad omg. I was gonna be so heart broken if I was going to end up watching someone get on stage who didn’t even know how to play guitar. They kept looking around and I noticed the camera man was looking at me and I was on the big screen. Then Luke walked over to Mikes side and was shining his flashlight towards me, and said “hey, this girl has a sign. Should we bring her up?” And michael came over and shined his light at me too so I couldn’t see anything other than two bright lights and all I could hear was people yelling and finally I realized they picked me when someone said “ITS YOU! THEY PICKED YOU!!” And then a bodyguard came over and pulled me out of the pit. I put my backpack down and one of the security guards said I couldn’t bring my phone on stage so I gave it to him.

Then I looked up at the stage and realized that was it. I was going to do it. I walked up and looked at the crowd and it was PACKED to say the least. The arena was filled to the ceiling. Strangely it didn’t bother me though, and I didn’t even think about the people. I was more scared performing at my last dance competition in front of 50 people than I was to be on stage with 4 of my inspirations in front of +15,000 people in the key arena. It was oddly comfortable.

This is where things get kinda blurry in my memory. Michael and Luke were looking at me so I walked over to the catwalk where they were standing. I stood by Michael and glanced over at Luke who was just staring at me and that’s when it hit me - it was real. Michael asked my name and if I played guitar and I said yeah, he looked like he was waiting for me to say more so I said I’ve been playing for 6 years. That’s when he was like ok wow that’s longer than me. He handed me his guitar and I put the strap around me while Luke teased that I was probably better than Michael (I didn’t hear it, luckily. If I did then I would’ve been much more nervous bc no way in hell am I better than Michael) lemme just say, Michael wears his guitar LOW. It felt like it was at my ankles. Before I started playing Michael switched it so that I was playing rhythm (thank u mikey) and then he strummed a bit and handed me the pick. Him and Luke walked away and I honestly kinda panicked in my mind. It was like at the end of the Lizzie McGuire movie when Lizzie and Isabella are singing a duet and then Isabella leaves and Lizzie is like WTF M8. In my head I was panicking bc the guitar was so low and my wrists are weak so I thought I would be crappy. I ended up lifting the guitar onto my leg a bit which made it kinda hard to play so all I did was play a little chord progression. Ashton started drumming along and I think Calum started playing too, but I couldn’t hear ANYTHING that I was playing. Ashton stopped so I stopped and Michael came over and said I was a rock goddess and something else idk. I handed him his guitar and tried to hand him his pick but he was like “you can have that” and then I went to walk back and Luke opened his arms for a hug and I hugged him and said thank you so much (Now rewatching videos I think he said something back but I was in a daze and didn’t notice. I’m gonna assume he said you’re welcome or something idk) then I walked back to michael and hugged him and said thank you to him and then I got off the stage and I went back to the barricade and they let me back in where I was. Everyone was telling me I did really good and that’s when I broke down and sobbed into Nikki’s shoulder and then continued watching the show and kdjsjdaiidiajna.


And then here’s a lovely conversation they had before playing SKH
Luke: You may have noticed that we released a new song not too long ago. And what I wanna do - what we wanna do is play that song right now. How do you feel about that? Michael: What would you do if I just said right now I didn’t wanna play it? Luke: wut Michael: what would you do if I was just like, nope, I’m not gonna do it Calum: I would believe you if you said you didn’t know how to play it. Luke: michael says no Michael: I don’t know how to play it. I’m just gonna play - Luke: (points at me) Let’s get Haleigh back up. She’ll play and this is where I freeze up and realize he’s talking about me Calum: (giggles his widdle giggle) Michael: yeah let’s get Haleigh back up
YEAH SO I KINDA DIED.
also towards the end of the show, the camera guy picked up my banana and put it by Michael’s mic stand so yAY :’)))))))

After the show, everyone in the pit came up and told me if they got pics and got my number to send them. Some girls told me I was awesome and when I was walking out everyone was looking at me bc they recognized me IT WAS SUCH A WEIRD FEELING. Lots of girls came up and said I did really great and some asked for selfies and some even asked for hugs bc I hugged Luke and Michael. I went to where the busses were bc I was meeting my friend darby there and people were asking me if I was the one that went on stage and they asked for my twitter and stuff.

When I got on Twitter it was blowing up. All these update accounts were tweeting about me. I was getting texts from friends who were not only at the show, but Internet friends and friends I met in California freaking out bc they saw me on their timeline. On Twitter everyone was being so nice, complimenting me and saying I was so good. On Instagram my friend tagged me in an update accounts picture and the comments OMG. Girl were like “SHE SLAYED” “SHES SO GOOD” one girl even said “of course they picked the girl with major talent. I’m convinced they talked before the show” which I take as a huge compliment.


So here’s the thing. I’ve ALWAYS been insecure about my guitar playing. I don’t like playing in front of people who are really good bc I suck. I’ve never ever jammed with anyone (by that I mean I play guitar while someone else plays a different instrument.) hell, my ex had a band room and he played drums and he tried to get me to jam with him but I never did because I was too nervous. But I got on stage in front of tens of thousands of people, and I jammed with one of my favorite bands - the band that I nearly gave up on ever getting the opportunity to meet. It felt so natural. It was everything I ever dreamed of since I was a child.
I feel like all I’ve done for my parents recently is disappoint them. I didn’t get to walk at my graduation. I didn’t start school until 2 years after graduation. I’ve been working at the same frozen yogurt shop for 4 years now because I’m too afraid of change. Recently very sensitive to anxiety attacks. And meanwhile my older sister is a missionary, going to school to become a part of the ministry and getting straight A’s, spending a month in a small, poor town in Costa Rica on a mission trip with my room mate. All my dad seems to post about on Facebook is pictures of my sister in other countries, and he constantly talks about how proud he is of her. He says he’s proud of me, but nothing specific - just like, proud that I don’t do drugs or anything. But that night my dad posted on Facebook about me and how insanely proud he is and how he could never do it. My mom and sister did the same. 5SOS finally gave me a reason to make my family proud of me. I’ve felt so irrelevant lately but that moment completely proved it wrong. Again, I can’t begin to explain how grateful I am to have been given this incredible opportunity.

(sorry this was so long but yeah I had to try to put it all into words so enjoy this wall of text)

TAYLOR

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