final impact

The violin scene at the end of The Final Problem is truly one of the most impactful moments (if not the most) in all of BBC Sherlock. I honestly am still speechless that Moftiss wrote something so profound. Eurus was beyond communication with the outside world after the events of this episode, back to the untouchable genius in her glass cage. But Sherlock. Sherlock, this incredible and kind man, who had lost so much to this woman, understood her and still reached out to help. He wasn’t encouraging her to play her own song, he was initiating a duet–so she wasn’t alone, even in her music. It was a conversation, it was understanding, it was connection. This man went beyond words, where others had failed and stopped trying, and showed her that she wasn’t alone. Sherlock has become- or perhaps he always was- one of the best men I’ve ever seen.

8

Peacefulness wasn’t enough. She’d keep fighting. And fighting wasn’t enough, she’d win. But once I remembered that she was fighting a fight she’d already lost, all I had to do was change the fight. Take her back to Bahrain.

Samurai Jack: The Case for Mature Western Animation

When critics talk about the must-see television events happening so far this year, shows like Better Call Saul, American Gods, and The Handmaiden’s Tale are often brought up. This is, of course, for good reason: each of those shows are well-crafted, hard-hitting, and intelligent stories told by visionary showrunners in wholly unique ways.

We need to start including Samurai Jack on that list.

Genndy Tartakovsky has always been a cinematic animator. His original run on Samurai Jack nearly two decades ago nearly revolutionized how children’s action cartoons could be portrayed, with his careful and brilliant use of silence and color. He would continue this artistry with his tragically-underrated science-fiction epic, Sym-Bionic Titan (hey, Toonami, how about asking for a second season of that show next, huh?).

When Samurai Jack returned this year, Tartakovsky knew that his audience was going to have grown with the character. He knew that [adult swim] would’ve allowed him to use as much profanity, gore, and sexual innuendos as your average Family Guy episode, and a lesser showrunner would’ve run with that opportunity. Instead, Tartakovsky opted to tell a more mature story in the literal sense of the word. This meant more reflection, more spiritual and emotional symbolism, more grounded stakes, and a more hardened Jack. Indeed, this is what makes a majority of the season so fascinating to watch.

During the original series on Cartoon Network, our hero was a calm, silent, confident warrior on a mission. Despite being a stranger in a strange land, he always kept his wits about him. Rarely did he lose. Watching the show as kids, we just knew that he was going to eventually make it back to the past to stop Aku.

In season five, we’re not so certain anymore. Jack is now more of a ronin, wandering the apocalyptic wasteland of Aku’s future looking for lives to save. It’s become so routine that he’s almost forgotten why he does it anymore. His mind is corrupted by vicious thoughts that constantly bombard him with self-doubt. He suffers from hallucinations of his family and loved ones suffering in the past without him. All the while, he’s being followed by the spirit of death, who is patiently waiting for Jack’s seemingly-inevitable suicide. Even with the introduction of comedic characters like Scaramouche, we’re shown immediately just how much darker this world had become.

That threat grows worse with the introduction of the Daughters of Aku, seven warriors bred specifically to kill Jack. In my opinion, the episodes surrounding their hunt and the subsequent battles were the highlight of the season, showcasing Tartakovsky’s storytelling nuances at their brightest. The action is as swift and dazzling as ever, and the use of dramatic lighting and suspenseful music is downright ingenious. Balancing the hard-hitting violence with the somber moments of fear and reflection make the battles between Jack and the Daughters some of the best directed scenes not simply in recent animated history, but in television history as a whole.

After a poignant childhood flashback of his father reluctantly slaying an army of foes, Jack comes to terms with the fact that he sometimes needs to shed human blood, despite having never done such a thing before. He slays six of the seven Daughters of Aku in a beautiful snow-covered forest (again showing us how much Tartakovsky and his team love playing with color), sparing only one of their lives. This is when we meet Ashi, who becomes the driving force of the entire season.

I was legitimately impressed with how the show handled Ashi’s transformation from brainwashed killing machine to Jack’s partner in good. Within the span of two incredibly-paced episodes, we saw her slowly peel away the layers of both who she and the “evil” samurai were. Contrasting the unforgiving violence of her upbringing to the gentleness of her former enemy causes her to question everything she knew, and interacting with Jack’s old friends from the original series solidified her stance on the matter: Jack, despite everything she knew, was a hero.

(Just an aside, seeing Ashi break lose and dance at the Rave with a big smile on her face was one of the happiest damn moments of the season for me)

A lot of people were unsure of how to interpret Ashi. I know a lot of people felt she was very sexualized throughout the series, and I felt there was a definitive lack of understanding when it came time for the character to “wash herself clean” of Aku’s influence (does it matter if she was technically naked the whole time? Can’t we just accept physical metaphors and move on?). Some didn’t like that she had to save Jack on multiple occasions, while some didn’t like the fact that she, herself, had to be saved on multiple occasions. I feel as if those people were simply looking for something to complain about, because I legitimately found Ashi to be a great character.

The episode in which she needed to take down an entire army sent to kill Jack while he was meditating his anger away and acquiring his sword is an all-timer, and probably the most Tartakovsky-esque of the season. The action sequences are as brutal as they had ever been, with bright Tarantino-styled blood spilling over the battlefield; Meanwhile, Jack’s spiritual quest for inner-peace is filled with as much stillness and restraint as the creative staff could muster. Truly the last perfect episode of the season.

I felt as if every idea and story beat Tartakovsky had planned ended up in the season in some capacity, though I felt that the pacing was forced to grow a bit rushed as the season wrapped up. The best – and most unfortunate – example of this is the finale itself.

It’s exactly how we all secretly wanted the show to end: Jack is seemingly defeated, and Aku can’t help but gloat to everyone on the planet. Right as a possessed Ashi is about to deliver the fatal blow, all of Jack’s allies rally together for a full assault on Aku’s castle (what else could’ve possibly connected all of these strange characters than the capture of their legendary savior?). Jack breaks free and assists Ashi in overcoming Aku’s demonic grasp. Upon learning that she possesses all of Aku’s abilities, she’s the one who opens up a new portal in time, allowing Jack to go back to the past and finally defeat Aku.

(In what was easily my favorite part of the finale, Jack and Ashi appear almost immediately after his original self was sent back, leaving Aku flustered, baffled, ill-prepared, and horrified. “You’re back already?!” he spits out. Jack conquers his foe easily, and while some found the final battle anti-climactic, I felt it was perfect.)

Afterwards, Jack finally returns home, Ashi by his side. A wedding is arranged immediately, and they’re ready to spend the rest of their lives together. In a dark twist that those of us familiar with time travel almost saw coming, however, Ashi disappears from existence in Jack’s arms, having never been born due to Aku never taking over the future. Jack, bitterly alone, retreats to the forest, where a ladybug (a beautiful callback to Ashi’s character arc) allows him to see the promise of what’s to come.

It all sounds so perfect. Unfortunately, everything emotional that happened in this episode had to be squeezed into the last ten minutes. This maybe could’ve worked if Tartakovsky hadn’t perfectly spaced out Jack’s inner turmoil at the beginning of the season. After such perfect reflection, I wanted to see more emotion from these last few moments. There was a lot Jack needed to react to, from all of his friends coming together to fight Aku, to Ashi finally defeating and channeling the darkness within her, to the unadulterated and enormous impact of finally returning to the past! Jack had spent over fifty years trying to get there, and we didn’t even get to see an emotional reunion with his family. That just didn’t feel right to me.

Then there’s Ashi’s disappearance. She didn’t die, she was erased from existence. After struggling with his inner demons throughout the first half of the season, I wanted to see Jack mentally and emotionally try and cope with that. After all, it wasn’t simply Ashi who vanished; it was all of his friends and allies whose lives he had touched throughout his decades in the future. All of them were gone, a curse that inevitable if Jack were to complete his mission. There is pain, horror, and guilt bursting at the seams with such an ending. We could’ve had an entire half hour dedicated to Jack accepting what he had done. It’s such a bitter, dark, and beautiful ending emotionally, and I felt the writing staff wasn’t given the time to appropriately explore it.

Still, all of the ideas were there, and Genndy ended the show on his own terms creatively. He still provided us with nine-and-a-half perfect episodes that broke the boundaries of what Western animation was capable of. It practiced restraint and patience when other action cartoons insist on doing the complete opposite. It gave us a hero plagued with inner-darkness and mental illness on a journey of self-purpose. It gave us a character with a redemption arc we never saw coming and rooted for until her tragic end. And – for me, anyway – it gave me hope for animation as a medium, that more audiences will look at this sweeping epic of a story and think “I want more.”

the 'I promise I will write more and finish these stories' post

pls give me feedback if you enjoy any 💖

•ONE SHOTS

Suho:

Pancakes

First Encounter

Chanyeol:

How About A Bet?

Wonderland

Neck Kiss

Goodnight

Sunset

5 More Minutes

Terrible Twos

Baekhyun:

2H2 + O2 = 2H2O

Perspective

Anchor

The Waitress

Sehun:

Panic Attacks

Morning

Jade Eyes

Apologies

Kai:

Running Late

Heels

Oblivious

Lonely

Something New?

Infinitesimal

Welcome Home

Kyungsoo:

Anaesthetic

Cupcakes

Coeur Tueur

A Silent Stop

He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not

The Right Words

The Sunshine Yellow Room

Tao:

One Stormy Night

Friday Night

Lay:

Up Against The Wall Like Let’s Go Let’s Go

A Kiss

A Bike Ride

Late Night Therapy

Chen:

Breakfast in Bed

The Familiar Bedroom

The Call

Xiumin:

Nice Legs Babe

•PROMPTS (where you give me a word or a sentence):

The Pink Oven - Chanyeol

Flowers - Baekhyun

Darkness - Kai

The Jock - Kai

Home - Suho

Courage - Lay

Meeting The Parents - Lay

Back To You - Lay

Ways To Show I Care - Chen

Simple - Luhan

Choices - Luhan

•CHAPTERED

Suho:

The Science of You - Prologue

The Science of You - Mitochondrion

The Science of You - Intruder

The Science of You - Routine

The Science of You - Melody

The Science of You - Macchiato

The Science of You - Magnet

The Science of You - Friends

The Science of You - Jealous

The Science of You - Car Wash

The Science of You - You (Finale)

Chanyeol:

The Down Payment - 23:00

The Down Payment - 23:05

The Down Payment - 23:10

The Down Payment - 23:15

The Down Payment - 23:20

The Down Payment - 23:25

The Down Payment - 23:30

The Down Payment - 23:35

The Down Payment - 23:40

The Down Payment - 23:45

The Down Payment - 23:50

The Down Payment - 23:55

The Down Payment - 24:00 (Finale)

In The Midnight Hour (The Down Payment Sequel)

Diametric Love - Prologue

Diametric Love - Chapter 1

Diametric Love - Chapter 2

Sehun:

Lost In Translation - Prologue

Lost In Translation - Chapter 1

Lost In Translation - Chapter 2

Lost In Translation - Chapter 3

Lost In Translation - Chapter 4

Lost In Translation - Chapter 5

Lost In Translation - Chapter 6

Lost In Translation - Chapter 7

Lost In Translation - Chapter 8

Lost in Translation - Chapter 9

Lost In Translation - Chapter 10 (Finale)

Almost Lover

Almost Lover - Part Two

Almost Lover - Part Three (Finale)

Kai:

Paradox Girl - Prologue

Paradox Girl - Chapter 1

Paradox Girl - Chapter 2

Paradox Girl - Chapter 3

Paradox Girl - Chapter 4

Paradox Girl - Chapter 5

Paradox Girl - Chapter 6

Paradox Girl - Chapter 7

Paradox Girl - Chapter 8

Paradox Girl - Chapter 9

Paradox Girl - Chapter 10 (Finale)

Storm Boy - Prologue (Paradox Girl Sequel)

Storm Boy - Chapter 1

Storm Boy - Chapter 2

Storm Boy - Chapter 3

Storm Boy - Chapter 4

Storm Boy - Chapter 5

Storm Boy - Chapter 6

Storm Boy - Chapter 7

Storm Boy - Chapter 8

Storm Boy - Chapter 9

Storm Boy - Chapter 10 (Finale)

The Expiration Date - Prologue

Kyungsoo:

Drowning In You - Part 1

Drowning In You - Part Two (Finale)

A Love That Lasts - Prologue

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 1

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 2

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 3

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 4

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 5

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 6

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 7

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 8

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 9

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 10

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 11

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 12

A Love That Lasts - Chapter 13 (Finale)

Moment of Impact - Prologue

Moment of Impact - Chapter 1

Moment of Impact - Chapter 2

Moment of Impact - Chapter 3

Moment Of Impact - Chapter 4

Moment of Impact - Chapter 5

Moment of Impact - Chapter 6

Moment of Impact - Chapter 7

Moment of Impact - Chapter 8

Moment of Impact - Chapter 9

Moment of Impact - Chapter 10 (Finale)

Nothing More, Nothing Less - Prologue

Nothing More, Nothing Less - Chapter 1

Nothing More, Nothing Less - Chapter 2

Nothing More, Nothing Less - Chapter 3

Nothing More, Nothing Less - Chapter 4

Nothing More, Nothing Less - Chapter 5

Nothing More, Nothing Less - Chapter 6 (Finale)

Chen:

Submerged In Fuchsia - Prologue

Submerged In Fuchsia - Chapter 1

Submerged In Fuchsia - Chapter 2

Submerged In Fuchsia - Chapter 3

Submerged In Fuchsia - Chapter 4

Submerged In Fuchsia - Chapter 5 (Finale)

Okay so I have this headcanon that the paladins are only able to communicate with their own lions, but all the lions can communicate with one another. This is totally normal because the only way to be able to communicate with the lions is if you’ve bonded with them and gained their trust (if you’ve read my non-food Hunk HCs you know where this is going).
Some of the paladins complain to Allura about having to explain what their lions have said to them because the ideas can be too complex for words, but Allura just says that Paladins have only ever been able to talk with their own lion, it’s impossible to communicate with another one.
It all starts with Hunk (my precious Hawaiian hunk). He earns Yellow’s complete trust by helping her with mechanical repairs. After seeing how much yellow trusts hunk and how good he is at mechanical repairs, the other lions start coming to Hunk for mechanical repairs and telling Yellow whats wrong with them. It starts out with minor things, like a loose screw or a dented panel, but slowly they all begin to trust him with bigger things. It isn’t odd for a lion to report to Yellow their damages so Yellow can tell Hunk. However there is still a layer of distrust. Only Yellow trusts Hunk enough to turn her off to do major repairs. Until one day in a really bad battle Red gets seriously damaged. Everyone is surprised when Red limps over to Hunk afterwards because she has always held back. But this time it is necessary. Hunk makes sure to ask Yellow to tell Red that he’ll have to turn her off to fix the damages. Red consents and all the lions watch as Hunk repairs her and powers her back up. When Red tells Yellow to give Hunk her thanks Hunk gasps in shock. He just heard her say thank you! All of a sudden he can hear all the lions talking to him! Allura is frozen in shock because it’s supposed to be impossible! Lance just says, it’s Hunk. If Hunk could defeat Zarkon with just his love and compassion he would. Hunk is totally blushing in the corner and slightly overwhelmed by all the lions thoughts spinning around his head because they feel so alien.
This leads to the other paladins making efforts to bond with the other lions.
Pidge is the next one to achieve it. I always wondered why pidge didn’t just invisibility to all the other lions but then I realized, the lions wouldn’t have trusted pidge to mess with their programming. Only Green would because 1. She can read pidge’s mind and 2. She’s curious by nature and loves experiments. The other lions are always very wary whenever they see pidge plus a piece of technology, and this wariness only grows every time they see an experiment gone wrong that results in pidge covered with soot and Green smoking. Finally after a while of seeing Pidge get better and better with the lions technology Blue finally caves and goes over to Green asking for some of the upgrades too. (Blue really likes showing off some of those upgrades are really cool) Pidge is ecstatic of course, but starts out with small things they know work so they don’t end up losing all of the lions trust. Next is Red, feeding off of the ‘rivalry’, aka Red/Keith is jealous and wants some cool gadgets too! Oddly enough, Yellow is the last one to go to Pidge because she feels as if she is betraying Hunk by having someone else work on her. After a conversation between Yellow, Green, and Hunk, they convince her that programming is very different from mechanics and while Hunk could probably do some coding upgrades, Pidge is the expert. Soon pidge starts doing more experimental things with the lions programming that are custom to each lion. Once again, it’s after a rough battle where one of pidge’s upgrades is the only reason they all got out of there alive that all the lions bond with Pidge. Pidge gasps at all the thoughts entering their head and because of this ability to communicate directly with lions Pidge is able to understand the base code of how Voltron works (something which was previously unknown). Also, now whenever pidge falls asleep in the hangar the lions will gather around them to protect them while they sleep (pidge definitely freaked out the first time they woke up to five gigantic lions staring at them, but now it’s where they prefer to sleep).
After Keith and Lance get together they can hear each other’s lions and it actually gives them the ability to mentally communicate with each other (Lance totally takes advantage of this and will think of dirty things just to see Keith blush).
Lance ends up bonding with all the lions first, something he will hold over Keith’s head forever. Once he learned that he could communicate with the other lions through blue he went and talked to them everyday. He asked them questions about themselves (something no one had thought to do, most people only thought of them as machines). He tells them about his family and earth, they tell him about how they were made and all the things they’ve seen. It’s a pretty smooth transition to Lance being able to hear all of them. He was just hanging out with the lions in the hangar one day asking them about some of the past paladins when all of a sudden they just respond directly to him. He almost doesn’t realize because he’s already so used to having Blue, Red, and Keith in his head. But then his mind is also filled with Hunk and Pidge trying to figure something out and he realizes that Yellow just spoke directly to him. He decides to gloat to Keith during a sparring match to try catch him off guard, Keith just punches him in the side saying, “I can hear all your thoughts you idiot, now stop leaving your side open.”
Keith feels awkward because he can’t befriend the lions like Lance can, he can’t fix any mechanic stuff like Hunk can, and he certainly can’t program like Pidge can. So he kinda just ignores it and trains. One day when talking with Shiro about it, because he hasn’t had any success either, Shiro suggest that keith try to train with the lions since he likes doing that so much. Keith decides to give it a shot and asks all the lions through Red if any of them want to train to prove their reaction time. He explains that with Red being the fastest it would be good practice to try work on speed and stuff. The lions are all hesitant at first, so Blue (who can already talk to Keith) volunteers to go first so the others can watch. Basically it starts out as a serious exercise but ends up devolving into a giant game of tag between Red and Blue. The other lions, realizing they won’t get hurt join in. Soon these giant games of tag become a fairly regular bonding exercise, with the paladins sitting inside their lions, but not steering, just focusing on seeing through their lions eyes. Keith and Red always start as it, but they are usually able to tag someone pretty quickly. One day they decide to switch it up and play a game of hide and seek. Keith finds Red and Blue first thanks to their bond, Yellow and Green hiding in the same spot, and finally manages to sneak up on Black, scaring her into a flashback of Shiros. Keith quickly uses his calming methods for Shiro on Black and is surprised when he hears her say thank you. All of a sudden every lions’ thoughts are flodding his head making sure Black is okay and “can you teach us that? Black has some of Shiro’s PTSD and knowing what to do when the paladins aren’t around would be helpful.” Keith teaches all the lions, and the connected paladins, different ways to calm people down and what do for a flashback vs sleepwalking vs a panic attack etc. This really helps because up until then none of the paladins had realized that parts of them were bleeding over into their Lions. Shiro is the last to bond. He’s trying so hard but he just can’t get them to trust him and Black won’t tell him why. The other paladins are getting concerned with how dejected Shiro looks after leaving the hangar and it only gets worse with each person who manages to bond with the Lions. The other paladins have to remember to speak out loud because shiro can’t hear their thoughts yet and it really impacts him. Finally they gather all the Lions up and talk with them. ‘what’s going on? Is it because he has a galra arm?’ The Lions are like, ‘umm no? Keith is half galra and we trust him’ (everyone’s kinda like oh yeah forgot about that, Keith may turn a bit purple at that) ‘so what is it??’ they ask, but for some reason the Lions seem to be really hesitant to answer? Like they’ve never seen their Lions like this? Finally Black answers, 'it’s because he doesn’t trust himself. I act on logic, not emotions, and logically Shiro is a good leader and worthy, however we can’t wholly trust someone who doesn’t trust himself and that makes our emotional bond weak.’ The paladins are all in shock because they knew shiro had some issues but they didn’t realize it was that bad. Initiate Operation: Make Space Dad Realize His Worth™ (yes Lance and pidge came up with it). At first shiro doesn’t get why the paladins keep complimenting him and telling him how much they appreciate him, but each night he goes to bed feeling a bit lighter. Lance comes up with the idea of having a space family therapy night because coming from a huge family he knows that it was always easier to deal with personal issues once you acknowledged them and told others so they could help/encourage you. Allura and Coran agree to join. They have it in the common room, Lance organizes everything and just asks that people come in their PJs (yes actual PJs Keith, don’t you dare come in you’re regular clothes, oh my quiznak just use some of mine!) When everyone walks in the room is transformed. There are mattresses and blankets and pillows on the ground. There’s tissues and comfort food within arm’s reach. Everyone sits down and the paladins leave their minds open so the Lions can hear and participate in the conversation. Lance goes first talking about how he’s homesick and how he fears he isn’t good enough and that will result in the others dying because he was just a cargo pilot after all. (Keith sends him a mental kiss and then hugs him) Pidge talks about their fear if never seeing their family again and how they feel like they’re wasting their time doing voltron stuff and then feels guilty about that because they know how important voltron is. Allura talks about how she misses her father and how she’s repeatedly woken up in a cold sweat thinking she killed everyone by flying them into the sun. Coran talks about how he is filled with regret for not trying harder to save more Alteans. He feels like he could have at least saved one more person but he was so focused on getting allura and the black Lion out of there he didn’t even try. He tells the story of landing the castle know everyone he loved was dead. Keith talks about how he’s scared about how he feels so much love for everyone in this room because he’s lost everyone he loves and he doesn’t want to lose them. Finally everyone turns to shiro. He hesitates to unload his worries on then because they all have their own problems, but thankfully with a bit of nudging from Black he opens up. About the flashbacks, the nightmares, the amnesia, the insomnia, and the PTSD. How he’s barely holding it together for the team because he knows they need him to be strong and fearless and how he just feels like he isn’t good enough. -Hunk goes last (so shiro doesn’t dwell on his own confession.) He talks about how he’s scared he’s never gonna go home, that the universe will always need voltron, and that the only way he’s gonna leave is by dying. They have a big groups hug and talk about how they can help each other and what works best for themselves. After they make a cuddle puddle with shiro in the middle and all it takes is him thinking, I can do right by these people, and all of a sudden all the paladins gasp. They can Feel and See and Hear everything. Their lions, each other, the castle, the universe around them. It takes almost 20 minutes for it to stop being painful and reach a bearable level but all of them realize we can do this. We can defeat Zarkon because we managed to take the most powerful weapon in the universe and make it even stronger. (Eventually allura and Coran bond with the Lions because they are sick and tired of the paladins thinking they told allura/Coran something but all they did was think it. )

10
Tips and Tricks from Admissions Officers

On Tuesday night I attended a program called “Exploring College Options” in Portland. It was a seminar put on by admissions counselors from Georgetown, Duke, Stanford, Penn, and Harvard. Whether you are shooting for schools at this level or not, I thought I’d share what I learned. 

Applications

Letters of Rec: Find a teacher(s) who knows you well enough to actually give the college a sense of who you are as a student. One way to do this is to ask your teacher what would be missing from their class if you were not present. What do you bring to the table that no one else does? By portraying this they can capture exactly who you are as a person and student. 

Extra-Curriculars: There is no right or wrong EC. However, colleges would rather see you committing and succeeding in one specific area rather than dabbling in several. The Harvard officer explained it as “diving into the deep end” How deep can you go (to what extent) and how big of a splash do you make (your impact)? Finally, do something because you are passionate about it, not because you think it will get you into college.

Essays: It does not matter what you write but rather how you write it. The admissions team wants to get to know you. Get feedback on your essays, but not so much that it no longer sounds like you. The essays give a window into what you will bring to their campus. 

Testing: Testing is a standardized yard stick and is not always fair. Admission people realize that. Do the best you can. Take it once junior year, study over the summer, and again senior year. Don’t make standardized testing an extra curricular activity. In addition, know what tests or subject tests your schools require well before you have to start applying. Rushed testing is bad testing. 

Overview: The application should be a compilation of the best parts of YOU. Don’t try to be someone you aren’t. Admissions officers are normal people and they are rooting for you. 

anonymous asked:

do a imagine were you get in a car crash and he's worried sick or something like that

here u go!! hope you like it xx. 

JOSH DUN IMAGINE

Josh’s smiling face lit up your screen.  You slid to answer, quickly pressing the speaker button so you could continue to navigate your way through the city.

“Hey baby,” you chirp.

“Hey there,” Josh says, “just checking in to see how far out you guys were.”

“We’re literally less than a block away,” you say, “but with Y/B/N driving it might be another fifteen minutes.”

“Excuse me if my only goal is to get us there in one piece,” your brother says slyly, his knuckles white on the steering wheel.  “Columbus drivers suck,” he says to Josh.

Josh laughs through the line.

“Take the next right,” you instruct.  “So are you nervous for tonight?” you ask your boyfriend.

“I’m always nervous, but you being there will definitely add to that,” he chuckles.

“I’ve seen your shows before,” you protest.

“Yeah and I was a wreck for all of those too,” he says.

You’re about to respond, but you’re cut off by a loud horn honking.  Your head whips in the direction of the noise, and as it’s as if your life turns to slow motion, because in that split second, you suddenly notice so many things.  The blinking stop light, the venue just down the road, the sun reflecting off from the red car about to smash into you.  Then everything goes black.  

You wake up and your head is pounding, like built up pressure, ready to pop at any second.  You hope it doesn’t explode.  You can hear muffled cries around you, people talking.  You try desperately to move, you try to cry out for help but your entire body seems to be paralyzed.  You inhale sharply, air finally filling your lungs, and you peel your eyes open with force.  Something bright stares back at you.  Maybe this was heaven.  How cliche.  But then there’s a stabbing pain in your back and the first thing you think is that death should not hurt this bad. You try to move your head to look around, but there’s a pair of hands squeezing your head, preventing it from moving.  

“Baby” someone whispers, keeping your head on their leg as they kneel behind you.

Everything is so blurry.  Your head is so foggy.  You squeeze your eyes shut harshly, and when you open it, Josh’s worried face comes into focus.

You quickly begin to panic.  Your breathing is shallow, choppy hitches that don’t satisfy your lungs.  The pain radiates through you, it’s full impact finally coming into effect.  You don’t remember what happened or how you ended up on the pavement, but Josh is here.  Josh is here and for that you’re relieved.

“Josh-“ you sob, but your voice sounds all bubbly and unnatural, which scares you even more.  

“It’s okay. Everything’s going to be fine. Don’t worry, baby.“

You try to swallow, but your throat feels so blocked.  Random shots of pain hit in various spots.  Throbbing in your back, knives in your chest, you try to wiggle your toes, and fear shoots through you when you realize you can’t.  

“Josh,” you cry, trying to find a part of him to hold, “I can’t move my legs. I move my legs. Oh, no. Oh, please, no.”

You try to lift your head up, needing to know how bad this really was, but Josh pushes your shoulders down, forbidding you from moving.  He’s shaking his head sharply.  

“No. No. Don’t. It’s okay, everything’s going to be okay.” He says, trying to force a small smile.

You start to shake violently, your body convulsing. Josh notices, and starts rubbing your hair with his fingertips. He’s mumbling quiet “You’re okay”’s under his breath and leans down to press a soft kiss to your forehead.

But you’re not. You could see it in his eyes.  You’re not okay.  

With Josh distracted and stroking your hair, you lift your head up slightly, and look down at your body.  Blood.  There was so much blood. Road-rashed skin and red stained clothing.  Your heart beat pounds in your ears for a moment and the rest of the world stops.  Your head feels light and your eyes widen.  

“Oh God! Oh God!” you start to sob, screaming as loud as you can. “Josh,” you’re pleading, gasping.  “Am I gonna die? Am I gonna die?”

Josh grabs your hand and helps you lay your head back on his lap.

”No, Y/N. No. You’re going to be alright. The ambulance is going to come any second and they’re going to get you out of here,” his voice is shaking.  But you try to believe every word he says.  

“It hurts” you whimper, your face scrunching as a violent sob escapes your lips.

“I know baby, I know,” Josh cries, bending his face over yours.  He presses his forehead to yours and closes his eyes.

You stay like that for a while.  Josh’s sweet voice forcing you to calm down.  

And then, suddenly, you hear the ambulance in the distance and you let out a shaky breath of relief.  It was almost here.  You could hang on until then.  

When you open your eyes, Josh is smiling.  

“Hear that?” he whispers, “You’re gonna be fine I told y—“

But Josh’s words are cut off by a scream.  One that doesn’t even sound human.  And it’s coming from you.  The feeling has returned to your legs.  Feeling you wish you could give back.  Because it hurts.  More than anything you’ve ever felt.  They feel like they’ve been crushed.  Wrecked and broken and dislocated.  There are knives sticking out of your calves and a chainsaw running through your thigh.  You want it to stop.  You can’t handle this, any of it.

“Baby—” Josh whispers, “Just hang in there, alright?”

You feel your eyes growing heavy.  

“Y/N, look at me,” Josh’s voice is broken and choppy and you ache for him, but it’s all too much.  You hope he understands.  You let your eyes close, wishing for sweet release.  

“Baby, no!” he’s pleading.  “Look at me, now!”  He shakes your shoulders roughly and you can’t help but pry your eyes open a second time.  He’s gazing over you, tears streaming down his face and you try.  You try so hard to focus in on his eyes.  “Hold my hand,” he instructs.  “Squeeze, you can do this, the ambulance is almost here, you can do this.”

You groan and try to nod.  You’re biting your lip so hard, trying not to scream out again.  Josh reaches down to your hand, it takes you a moment to realize that the liquid feeling between your fingers is blood.  But Josh interlocks your fingers anyway.  

“Just keep looking at me, okay?” he whispers, “they’re here, the ambulance is here.”

You sigh in relief and Josh gives your hand a soft squeeze.

But then suddenly, there’s an intense pressure on your chest, and you can’t breathe.  You choke slightly, trying to inhale but the pressure intensifies.  You release the pressure on Josh’s hand, using your energy to try to grab a breath.  It isn’t working.  You panic.

When Josh notices, his eyes widen with fear.  

“Baby, breathe—“ he instructs, “Breathe!”

You gasp and choke but your chest feels like it’s on fire.  Things start to grow fuzzy, and Josh’s face is fading.  

“Help!” he screams, “I need help!”

Maybe this was death.  It wasn’t so bad.  The pain was fading, and Josh was still in sight.  Until suddenly, he’s being pulled away from you, his face replaced by those of strangers in blue scrubs with stethoscopes.  You search with what little energy you have left, desperate for Josh to be with you again.  You didn’t want to die alone.  You wanted him with you.

“We’re losing her!” someone shouts, and you hear a sob in the distance.  Your vision is tunneled as you let your head fall back.  A single cloud floating in the sky is the last thing you see before you black out again.

There’s this annoying beeping sound ringing in your ears and all you want is for it to stop.  You were sleeping so soundly.  

But then suddenly you exhale sharply and all that pressure in your lungs you felt before is gone.  Your eyes open slowly, the natural sunlight you saw before replaced with annoying fluorescent ones.  

“Y/N—“ you hear someone gasp lightly.  

You can’t turn your head in the direction it’s coming from, but you know it’s Josh.  By your side, yet again.  You sigh a breath of relief.  He didn’t leave you.  He was right here.

“Josh—“ you start to sob, panic setting in, yet again, as you slowly remember the accident.  The fear you felt once you saw the car coming at you.  The pain you felt laying on the pavement.  You were sure that you were going to die.  

“Shh,” he coos, suddenly at your side.  You feel his hand grazing your forehead, his warm lips pressing themselves against your forehead.  “I’m right here, everything’s okay, you’re gonna be okay.”

You exhale again sharply at the feeling of his touch.  

“Where’s Y/B/N?” you suddenly ask, remembering that he was driving.

“He’s okay,” Josh soothes, “He’s in the waiting room with Tyler and Jenna.  They’re all here, everyone’s okay.”

You take a deep breath, sighing out in relief.  

You scoot over then, the pain intensifies, but it’s manageable.  You just want Josh next to you.  

He takes the hint and climbs carefully into bed beside you, wrapping an arm around your frame and stroking your hair.  It feels nice.

“Can you sing?” you whisper softly.

Josh chuckles, “Maybe I should get Tyler in here for that.”

“No—“ you protest, “Please, your voice calms me down.”

Josh nods then and clears his throat lightly before singing the words to some song you didn’t know.  But it sounded so good.

Your eyes start to feel heavy by the time he’s done, and you make an effort to speak before falling asleep, “I love you.  Thank you for being here.”

Josh kisses your head again before whispering, “ I love you so much, baby.  I’ll always be here.”

The Promise is a sweeping romantic epic in the tradition of Dr. Zhivago, its lavish budget denoted by its stars, Oscar Isaac and Christian Bale. It includes a scene unlikely to be equalled in importance this year. It is 1915, and Mikael (Isaac) has slipped back through lines of marauding Turkish troops towards his home village, hoping to rescue his family. Instead, he finds the villagers piled like rubbish by a river, the female corpses’ headscarves a futile effort at modesty. The wooded setting could be a Belorussian forest in 1941, in one of the souvenir photos Nazis snapped of the Jewish Holocaust.

But these are Armenians, the Christian minority who lost 1.5 million to systematic extermination by the Ottoman Turkish government in World War One. The term “genocide” was coined by Jewish lawyer Raphael Lemkin in 1944 to describe the Armenians’ destruction, when its pre-echo of ongoing Nazi slaughter was clear. And yet this is the first time a major film has shown audiences what happened. After 102 years, its visceral impact finally pierces the silence.

Isaac, who made his name as the failed folk-singer anti-hero of the Coen Brothers’ Inside Llewyn Davis (2013), and found true fame as dashing, sexually ambiguous X-wing fighter pilot Poe Dameron in Star Wars: The Force Awakens and its upcoming sequel, felt the scene’s impact when he read it.

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At a 1980 convention of Church bishops debating the topic of Catholic doctrine on sex and family, a liberal Archbishop from South Africa (Dennis Hurley; he is better known for his fierce opposition to Apartheid) made the point that Church doctrine held “the act of artificially limiting the exercise of one faculty of life is intrinsically evil, while the act of exterminating life itself is not” by banning contraceptive use in all cases but allowing for murder in the case of self-defense or just war.

Not only did his comment not impact the final decision of the convention, the Church went out of their way to remove his comments from the official transcripts. (x)

Sai’s One Piece: Film Gold Commentary
  • i love how we’re first intro’d to the villain with a fucking song and dance number
  • also i’m really glad that we didn’t rehash the ‘Straw Hats find the villain and save him and then he screws them over’ thing, b/c it was starting to get a bit stale
  • nah Tesoro just royally fucks them over like immediately. also he may have probably killed a man. i say probably b/c this is One Piece.
  • Baccarat happily suggests burning the Straw Hat’s party outfits fucking kills me b/c yeah they were pretty awful lmao
  • i loved the long pirates joke where the captain is saying his name but he starts listing like a shit ton of names and Luffy punches him in the middle of it and he goes flying and screams “I WASN’T DONE YET!!!”
  • loved the little intro sequences for each of the Straw Hats too, haha
  • lmao “Jokes on you, we’re broke!”
  • CARS POWERED BY TURTLES. IRONY, THY NAME IS ODA
  • the little kids trying to pay off debt hurt me. also they were so cute
  • FUCKING LOVED THE MUSIC IN THIS MOVIE HOLY SHIT.
  • there was fanservice but honestly it was pretty well drawn and i’m so tired of badly drawn watermelons on sticks in the anime that this was honestly kinda welcome
  • also Tesoro got a pretty damn fanservicey moment. for plot reasons, but hey, at least it’s kinda equally spread
  • the fucking wacky races oh my god

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