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Hijab: I dare you.

I am told that I’ll burn in hell for not wearing a hijab. This probably means nothing to an atheist, but can you imagine what it means to a God fearing, pious girl? Tell me that the hijab is a choice and not a compulsion. Tell me. I DARE YOU.

I am told that my body is a piece of property, that the hijab will protect me from the lustful gazes of perverts. I am constantly compared to money that is kept safe in a bank. I am told that robbers are tempted to steal money that is left in the open rather than money which is in the bank. Tell me that this is not objectification and body shaming. Tell me. I DARE YOU.

I am greeted with dirty judgemental glares whenever I go to a family gathering and my hijab isn’t in place or if my sleeves are not up to my wrists or if my kurta is form fitting. I have had elderly women reach out and pull my hijab over my hair when it slips back, without bothering to ask me whether I’m ok with some of my hair showing. And when I remove my hijab and put it into my bag, some of my friends and cousins, who I would expect to be more liberal, keep asking me why I do it and telling me that I shouldn’t. Tell me that this isn’t peer pressure. Tell me. I DARE YOU.

Tell me once more that the hijab is a choice and not a compulsion.

I dare you.

The individual is destroyed through compulsion

Organized religion, organized belief, and totalitarian states are very similar because they all want to destroy the individual through compulsion, through propaganda, through various forms of coercion. The organized religion does the same thing, only in a different way. There, you must accept, you must believe, you are conditioned. The whole tendency both of the left and of the so-called spiritual organizations is to mold the mind to a particular pattern of conduct because the individual left to himself becomes a rebel. So, the individual is destroyed through compulsion, through propaganda, and is controlled, dominated, for the sake of the society, for the sake of the state and so on. The so-called religious organizations do the same, only a little more suspiciously, a little more subtly, because, there too, people must believe, must repress, must control, and all the rest of it. The whole process is to dominate the self in one form or another. Through compulsion, collective action is sought. That is what most organizations want, whether they be economic organizations or religious. They want collective action, which means that the individual should be destroyed. Ultimately, it can only mean that. You accept the Left, the Marxist theory or the Hindu, Buddhist or the Christian doctrines, and thereby you hope to bring about collective action.

- Jiddu Krishnamurrti - Collected Works, Vol. VI",279,Individual and Society

Despite what Monk or the company Obsessive Compulsive Cosmetics might have you think, OCD doesn’t necessarily mean you’re neat and particular. Those of you into freak shows (sorry, reality shows): Have you ever seen that show Hoarders? Hoarding is often a symptom of OCD.Compulsions vary. Sometimes they correspond to fears, like washing your hands because you’re scared of contamination. Sometimes there’s no real logic behind them, like when you have to jump over a line on the floor because otherwise everybody you know will die horribly and it will be all your fault.

Many don’t have physical compulsions at all, instead suffering from “purely obsessional” OCD, where all they have are obsessions. And some people with diagnosed OCD even obsessively doubt the fact that they have OCD. How’s that for a mindfuck?

OCD, at heart, is an anxiety disorder. Yet movie and TV characters with OCD are often shown washing their hands or straightening things, never suffering from overbearing anxiety. This is probably because writing is hard and it’s easier to show someone cleaning than to show someone going through extreme mental anguish.

4 Things No One Tells You About Having OCD

Idea

What if Zeek got hit by something and couldn’t brag about himself? He can talk like normal, but for bragging.
At first everyone’s relieved, and Jake is constantly commenting on how peaceful it is.
Then after about a two weeks the absent silences start to be noticed, because without realising they had fallen into the habit of always leaving a gap in conversations for Ezekiel to brag about himself.
So Stone unable to take the silences starts to fill them in, at first it’s muttering under his breath that people barely hear, then Cassie hears him once or twice and starts to encourage it.
It’s not till Ezekiel hears a week later, his eyes flash, his smile beams and he starts nodding to indicate that he’s totally cool with Stone filling in for him, that Jake starts doing it out loud for everyone to hear.
What confuses them is that it’s completely non-mocking, the comments are things Ezekiel would actually say and sound super sincere from Jakes mouth.
After two more weeks Jake finds himself slipping from filling in for Zeek, to complimenting him without realising.
The spell wears off.
Ezekiel resumes his boasting, only now when a silence comes up both Ezekiel and Jake jump to compliment him simultaneously.
The first few times its funny, then it gets annoying, and it culminates in a shouting match around the round table in the Annex.
Jake tries to explain that it’s like a compulsion, Ezekiel argues that he can boast on his own and habits don’t form that quickly.
They storm away from each other.
Jake starts to realise that speaking for Ezekiel let him express the compliments he would normally hide.
Ezekiel realises he wants Jakes compliments to be real, not just a compulsion to fake being him.
Ezekiel decides to confront Jake and breaks into his apartment.
When Jake asks how he got in, Zeek smirks and replies with ‘greatest thief in the world, mate. Plus your securities shoddy.’
He realises Jake didn’t jump to compliment him, and says ‘you finally learnt I can compliment myself?’
Jake nods, then says, 'it doesn’t mean I don’t want to though’
They talk.
Snogging happens.
They get together.

Compulsions

I have been thinking that while Jeffrey Dahmer knew right from wrong in terms of killing people, I later began to wonder if he really did lack control then. I was thinking that even though he knew he should not kill, it was automatic - a compulsion. I know people might give me hell about it, but I do believe that kind of thing happens. I experience the same thing, except I’m not homicidal or doing anything against the law. I know that getting angry and having outbursts is something I shouldn’t be doing but I do it anyway. I know this sounds unheard of and may even sound humanly impossible to people, but this is what happens to me as the pressure and energy builds up deep in the ground here in Southern California on this section of the San Andreas Fault and there is no activity for hours at a time. I use to endure longer periods of no seismic activity, but each year, it has gotten worse and I believe the big one or a big one should be happening very soon. I’m not kidding. I have opened my mind and wondered if this is even real. I notice that everytime it gets blocked up, I feel pissed off and it can even be depressing(meaning micro quakes popping around the region every 5-6 hours or longer and there being nothing else). It has gotten worse as it has been a while since the last magnitude 4.something in Southern California. I feel sharp pains or deep throbbing pains in the left side(kidney area) before and during increases in activity. I may feel pain, but it simply means there is a spike in energy and the chances of more activity any moment now are great. When it is completely locked up, it literally drives me insane. I immediately start feeling more at ease once the activity begins increasing a little. I don’t even get on and look at the real-time earthquake activity constantly. It genuinely affects me. I get scared that I may get out of control and end up doing something crazy if no relief comes - any significant quake that is - soon enough. I’m not trying to be selfish and I hate to see anyone get hurt, but something has got to give. It can be horrible how it affects me. I don’t know what it is. Is there anyone else out there who has similar experiences involving natural forces? It is like a gift and it’s being deeply in touch with nature, but with the condition of the world and the pollution and things going on today, it’s like these mutations happen where these natural feelings and such have like a steroid effect. It shouldn’t have to be where it has a negative effect like where it affects somebody’s quality of life like this.

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