I am told that I’ll burn in hell for not wearing a hijab. This probably means nothing to an atheist, but can you imagine what it means to a God fearing, pious girl? Tell me that the hijab is a choice and not a compulsion. Tell me. I DARE YOU.
I am told that my body is a piece of property, that the hijab will protect me from the lustful gazes of perverts. I am constantly compared to money that is kept safe in a bank. I am told that robbers are tempted to steal money that is left in the open rather than money which is in the bank. Tell me that this is not objectification and body shaming. Tell me. I DARE YOU.
I am greeted with dirty judgemental glares whenever I go to a family gathering and my hijab isn’t in place or if my sleeves are not up to my wrists or if my kurta is form fitting. I have had elderly women reach out and pull my hijab over my hair when it slips back, without bothering to ask me whether I’m ok with some of my hair showing. And when I remove my hijab and put it into my bag, some of my friends and cousins, who I would expect to be more liberal, keep asking me why I do it and telling me that I shouldn’t. Tell me that this isn’t peer pressure. Tell me. I DARE YOU.
Tell me once more that the hijab is a choice and not a compulsion.
Despite what Monk or the company Obsessive Compulsive Cosmetics might have you think, OCD doesn’t necessarily mean you’re neat and particular. Those of you into freak shows (sorry, reality shows): Have you ever seen that show Hoarders? Hoarding is often a symptom of OCD.Compulsions vary. Sometimes they correspond to fears, like washing your hands because you’re scared of contamination. Sometimes there’s no real logic behind them, like when you have to jump over a line on the floor because otherwise everybody you know will die horribly and it will be all your fault.
Many don’t have physical compulsions at all, instead suffering from “purely obsessional” OCD, where all they have are obsessions. And some people with diagnosed OCD even obsessively doubt the fact that they have OCD. How’s that for a mindfuck?
OCD, at heart, is an anxiety disorder. Yet movie and TV characters with OCD are often shown washing their hands or straightening things, never suffering from overbearing anxiety. This is probably because writing is hard and it’s easier to show someone cleaning than to show someone going through extreme mental anguish.
Organized religion, organized belief, and
totalitarian states are very similar because they all want to destroy
the individual through compulsion, through propaganda, through various
forms of coercion. The organized religion does the same thing, only in a
different way. There, you must accept, you must believe, you are
conditioned. The whole tendency both of the left and of the so-called
spiritual organizations is to mold the mind to a particular pattern of
conduct because the individual left to himself becomes a rebel. So, the
individual is destroyed through compulsion, through propaganda, and is
controlled, dominated, for the sake of the society, for the sake of the
state and so on. The so-called religious organizations do the same, only
a little more suspiciously, a little more subtly, because, there too,
people must believe, must repress, must control, and all the rest of it.
The whole process is to dominate the self in one form or another.
Through compulsion, collective action is sought. That is what most
organizations want, whether they be economic organizations or religious.
They want collective action, which means that the individual should be
destroyed. Ultimately, it can only mean that. You accept the Left, the
Marxist theory or the Hindu, Buddhist or the Christian doctrines, and
thereby you hope to bring about collective action.
- Jiddu Krishnamurrti - Collected Works, Vol. VI",279,Individual and Society
What if Zeek got hit by something and couldn’t brag about himself? He can talk like normal, but for bragging.
At first everyone’s relieved, and Jake is constantly commenting on how peaceful it is.
Then after about a two weeks the absent silences start to be noticed, because without realising they had fallen into the habit of always leaving a gap in conversations for Ezekiel to brag about himself.
So Stone unable to take the silences starts to fill them in, at first it’s muttering under his breath that people barely hear, then Cassie hears him once or twice and starts to encourage it.
It’s not till Ezekiel hears a week later, his eyes flash, his smile beams and he starts nodding to indicate that he’s totally cool with Stone filling in for him, that Jake starts doing it out loud for everyone to hear.
What confuses them is that it’s completely non-mocking, the comments are things Ezekiel would actually say and sound super sincere from Jakes mouth.
After two more weeks Jake finds himself slipping from filling in for Zeek, to complimenting him without realising.
The spell wears off.
Ezekiel resumes his boasting, only now when a silence comes up both Ezekiel and Jake jump to compliment him simultaneously.
The first few times its funny, then it gets annoying, and it culminates in a shouting match around the round table in the Annex.
Jake tries to explain that it’s like a compulsion, Ezekiel argues that he can boast on his own and habits don’t form that quickly.
They storm away from each other.
Jake starts to realise that speaking for Ezekiel let him express the compliments he would normally hide.
Ezekiel realises he wants Jakes compliments to be real, not just a compulsion to fake being him.
Ezekiel decides to confront Jake and breaks into his apartment.
When Jake asks how he got in, Zeek smirks and replies with ‘greatest thief in the world, mate. Plus your securities shoddy.’
He realises Jake didn’t jump to compliment him, and says ‘you finally learnt I can compliment myself?’
Jake nods, then says, 'it doesn’t mean I don’t want to though’
They get together.
Suddenly, Lilith’s pupil’s flashed over her eyes, engulfing them completely in ink black and then, just as quickly as the inky color spilled over, it flushed back into a tight ring inside of her light blue iris’s.
“Tell me,” She mused. “ What did Orobas Reveal to you?”
The words spilled from Bryn’s mouth, She couldn’t control herself.
“Her name is Ophira now, and everything that’s happened: the car accident, Kyle and Bradley, it’s all connected. There are more of them, another legion of Angels out there that the Heavens have created, and they are going to stop you from releasing Lucifer. And Marley and I- I thought we were something special. I thought that maybe we had to do something with all of this, but we don’t. Our birth into the Fae only marks the beginning of the era. That’s our only significance.”
Bryn stopped to catch her breath, panting heavily. She wanted to stop divulging her every emotion to this woman, but it continued to spill from her. It was as though her gut were dry heaving, wrenching up every honest thought that Lilith wanted to hear. She clamped her mouth shut, trying not to speak anymore, but the words forced their way out of her lips with a loud pop.
“And- And I’m an empath!” She squealed. “And I have no idea what that means. But I want to know. I don’t understand what I am.”
just to let you know, the compulsion spoiler is not true. someone who has actual spoilers (their past spoilers have been accurate) said that this isn't happening. She said that Delena will get a happy ending together.
hey! oh really? I hope so! But I saw here on tumblr a lot of people saying that this compulsion spoiler was given by someone who had gotten everything right for 8x15. And the spoiler actually makes sense when you read the latest interview with JP, everything adds up, but I don’t know. I hope it’s fake, because I think it is disrespectful to everyone! Delena, Steroline, Stelena and Defan fans! But let’s see!
Can hallucinations be described as a need to do something? as in like i need to move my arm right now or i need to draw stuff on a wall and if i don't i can't function until i do it.
No, hallucinations don’t manifest as needs to do things. That need could be connected to a delusion, but it isn’t a hallucination. Instead, that sounds like a compulsion. Either way, though, you deserve support and help dealing with this, and I would urge you to talk to a therapist or doctor about what you’re experiencing.