film and novel of my life

I am really tired yall.

Lemme just preface this with saying that I am a writer. I have been writing for most of my life. I have taken actual classes about writing and about what fiction can offer you, me, and people as a whole. I have won an award for something that I wrote. I know and love fiction, be it in written form, graphic novels, or film. It is all so good and complex and it’s something I am passionate about. That said, let’s get into this.

A good majority of the discourse that goes on in most of the fandoms I’m in stem from the idea that violence and forbidden sexual acts in fiction will encourage those actions in reality. It is important to know, firstly, that the only time this happens is when a person is immature enough or not mentally healthy enough to distinguish reality from fiction. Growing up, my parents would often stop horror movies (back when I first started watching them) to ask me questions. To be fair, they were pretty shitty people, but in this one aspect, they were so good about making sure I knew this difference. “You know this is just a movie, right? None of the stuff on the tv is real.” They’d assure before continuing the film.

It’s not real.

Now, half of the stuff I read or watched back then was nowhere near pushing boundaries or making me think critically about society or whatever. However, I knew that what I watched wasn’t real. It was images on a screen. If I don’t like what I’m seeing, I can walk away. It doesn’t have to affect me, personally,  unless I let it.

Now, lets circle back. School. College. I took a writing class that used this book:

Granted, it was a screenwriting class and most of the chapters were about various script formats, but the beginning chapters focused on why we write and why we make the stories we do.

It had a section in it describing how human needs and desires are met through fiction. It detailed those needs in a list. This list:

Please draw your attention to the ones on the list that say that fictions helps people to:

Be purged of unpleasant emotions

To have vicarious but controlled emotional experiences

To confront, in a controlled situation, the horrible and terrible

To explore taboo subjects without guilt

Just because you personal don’t need various forms of ‘taboo’ media, doesn’t mean that others don’t. Media, in all of its forms, is a way for people to explore things safely. It’s an outlet that doesn’t harm anyone and it offers the creator and viewer/reader a safe way of exploring the complexities of situations (or in some cases relationships) that these people do not want to be involved in irl. Because we can distinguish reality from fiction. Because none of us are going out killing people or getting into abusive relationships or fucking our sibling.

While being critical of the media we consume is important and it is vital to dissect the whys of the media being created, there is a line between creating open discussion about these taboos, about the society and personal experiences that makes one need these outlets, and verbally abusing and harassing strangers.

If you want to create a dialogue about media or a ship you don’t agree with, fine. Talk about it. Dissect it. Really dig deep into the human condition and the psychology behind these outlets, but don’t shame people for them to the point of telling them to kill themselves or telling them they are human garbage or what the fuck ever.

Fiction isn’t always meant to be picturesque. It’s not always going to be SFW. If that isn’t your cup of tea, then great. Stop going into the tags of things that make you feel unhealthy. You do you. Keep yourself safe. Stop continuously exposing yourself to content that you can’t swallow. To keep getting involved, to keep harassing people, to keep abusing strangers shows that you don’t give a damn about the content. You need an excuse to bully someone else and indulge in holier-than-thou circle jerks with other people who also have no sense of what fiction is for.


Independent Animated Films From ~The Previous Year

Phantom Boy. This is the story of a New York boy who has an illness, but becomes a hero. The boy escapes his hospital-bound body to go check on his family, but soon he uses his ability to solve crimes. It’s another detective story by the makers of A Cat in Paris and it uses the same animation style.

The Boy and the Beast. This is the most recent movie made by the famous anime director who made Summer Wars, Wolf Children and The Girl Who Lept Through Time. This film is about a boy who ventures into the realm of monsters and grows up under the guidance of a beast. Later he reconnects with humanity.

Big Fish & Begonia. This movie was funded in part thanks to social media and became a surprise box-office sensation.

Long Way North. Before working on this film, the director worked on the animation of The Secret of Kells and The Painting. His style here consists of contourless shapes in gorgeous pastel colors. The story is about a teenage girl who goes to the Arctic to look for a lost boat in late 19th century Russia.

Miss Hokusai. This is an episodic anime film about a female artist in Edo Japan who has to deal with work, her eccentric father and a sick sister. It’s based on the life of the daughter of Hokusai, the artist who drew the famous big wave with mount Fuji in the background. The film showcases some of his artwork.

My Life as a Zucchini.  This is the Oscar-nominated stop-motion French film. It’s an adaptation of a semi-autobiographical novel about a boy who goes to live in an orphanage. It’s realistically somber, but it’s also full of charm and even hope. The children’s performances are phenomenal. The Blu-ray comes out in May.

The Red Turtle. This is the Oscar-nominated French film co-produced by Studio Ghibli. It’s a beautiful and quietly contemplative fable about the stages of life. I would say avoid the trailer if you haven’t seen it and intend to watch it because it’s a mini version of the whole film. The Blu-ray comes out in May.

Louise by the Shore. From the director of The Painting and it’s even more beautiful. It’s a deliberately slow and introspective story about an elderly woman who is left alone in a seaside town vacated during the winter.

See full list here.


Persepolis (2007) - Marjane Satrapi and Vincent Paronnaud

5 bullets on this movie:

  • It’s in french and I recommend you to watch it in the original language, but in the english version Iggy Pop is the voice of uncle Anouche.
  • You can learn Islamic history and a lot about women rights. Marjane, the protagonist, is the best thing in this movie. She’s a rebel girl in a society that oppresses women, and you end up loving her. And also wanting to be her. 
  • It’s as great as the graphic novel. The dialogues are funny, but at the same time the film tells a serious and real story about women’s fight for equality.
  • It’s based on the life of Marjane Satrapi, the writer of the movie and the graphic novel. I think this is what gives the story so much power.
  • It’s mostly hand drawn and the animations is black and white, it’s soooo amazing. Really, it’s one of my favorite movies. 
films to watch

so i saw a post listing films in foreign languages and i thought i could expand on the list a little bit but my addition got so massive i decided to move it to a separate post. this list will focus on my target languages and feature a little bit of french as well just to spice it up. 

films are good for several reasons

  • usually quite fun
  • actually challenging if u watch w/o subtitles and the easiest way to achieve immersion in the privacy of your home
  • “productive procrastination”
  • might give u cultural insight as well
  • or encourage you to learn some history!!!!
  • i’m really tired of people watching almodóvar and being like uuuuuuhuuuu look the great spanish director and forgetting that not only are there spanish films not directed by almodóvar but also that spanish is spoken in other countries as well and GUESS WHAT they produce culture

ok here we go!!!!! im really lazy and my computer is agonizingly slow so i can provide no links. if something interests you search for it et voila

WARNING!!!!! long post 


  • magia salvaje - this is an uber cool colombian film showing largely unexplored areas of colombia which i think is the most beautiful country on earth. it was recommended to me independently by a friend from my spanish class and my colombian pen pal gal. from its website: “magia salvaje es la cinta del mundo natural más ambiciosa realizada en el país (…) [realizada en] 85 locaciones y 20 ecosistemas. (…) un tributo a la belleza de colombia“ tl;dr: cool shit u should watch, it’s available on yt
  • señor ávila - a p good series filmed by the mexican hbo starring tony dalton as an exemplary father and husband that starts working as a paid killer for the mafia, but it’s not all peachy because it affects his personal life and his son gets into some really deep shit. gets a bit grim at times but good nevertheless
  • retrato de un comportamiento animal - really cute indie film made in uruguay. an unlikely couple on a trip to brazil. expect nice landscapes and voseo
  • relatos salvajes - dark humour from argentina, a series of episodes in which people go absolutely bonkers over the most petty shit and also get p violent when you wouldn’t expect them to be. produced by pedro almodóvar if that serves as any recommendation.
  • la historia oficial - another one from argentina. drama. set during the dictatorship and based on true events, follows a family through a period when they would literally tear lil kids from their mothers and drown the parents if they were enemies of the state. watch it
  • juana la loca - spanish historical drama about their queen joan the mad
  • el laberinto del fauno - can we just, omg, ok, i love that film so much. fantasy, set during the civil war in spain. a little girl discovers this world with monsters and other creatures and it’s scary as shit but she goes through these adventures because she cares for her family. watch itttt
  • doce hombres sin piedad - this is the spanish version of the american classic 12 angry men, recorded in 1973. you can watch it on youtube.
  • gran hotel - spanish tv series, historical drama sort of downton abbey style. weird shit is happening in this lovely hotel, what do we do??? apparently available on netflix
  • como agua para chocolate - cute film “about how life used to be in mexico” (imdb) based on the p famous novel by laura esquivel. lovely colours, romantic love and a lot of nice food
  • los diarios de motocicleta - starring gael garcía bernal in an adaptation of che guevara’s memoir in which young che travels the world on his motorbike
  • no - ok this is some amazing shit (oscar nomination holaaaa). it’s a chilean film with gael garcía bernal set in the 1980s. in 1988 pinochet held a referendum in which basically if u said “yes” he stayed as te country’s official and lawful leader and if you said “no”, well, he went. the film is about the campaign that sought to get rid of him
  • talento de barrio - sorry but i couldn’t omit that one. it has daddy yankee in it, period.


  • la dolce vita - please do yourself a favour and watch it
  • la grande bellezza - as above. this is my favourite film of all time. look for the soundtrack on yt and you will know why
  • il bidone - early fellini follows petty thieves in rome
  • il prefetto di ferro - set in the 1920s. giuliano gemma as cesare mori aka the iron prefect who comes to palermo to deal with the gangs. good shit
  • ladri di biciclette - directed by vittorio de sica, set in post-ww2 rome, “a masterpiece of italian neorealism” (wiki). a desperate family needs their bicycle to survive
  • amarcord - comedy/drama, set in the 1930s. coming-of-age. “Fellini skewers Mussolini’s ludicrous posturings … that <<imprisoned Italians in a perpetual adolescence>> by mockig himself and his fellow villagers in comic scenes tha underline their incapacity to adopt genuine moral responsibility or outgrow foolish sexual fantasies” (wiki). won oscar for foreign language.
  • gomorra - tv series based on famed novel by roberto saviano. rival mob clans. good shit
  • il vangelo secondo matteo - “trattando in maniera antidogmatica un argomento di carattere religioso, l’opera fece sensazione e scatenò un aspro confronto intelettuale sulla stampa, proseguendo le non sopite polemiche per le accuse di vilipendio della religione” (wiki). three oscar nominations.
  • una vita violenta - poor kid in rome attempts to transform his life after leaving prison
  • la notte - marcello mastroianni in a study of a deteriorating relationship
  • la nostra terra - cute film which is literally my aesthetic aka people working the land. educated guy from bologna comes down south to start a community and sell organic veg he will grow himself. featuring creepy mafia guy freshly released from prison and sneaky southerners
  • la mafia uccide solo d’estate - drama but also a comedy fresh from palermo. lil boy observes how the mob influences people’s lives
  • il capitale umano - drama. a car accident ties together the lives of two families. people go crazy. great performance by valeria bruni tedeschi
  • il rosso e il blu - follows the lives of three school teachers as they get really involved in the fucked up lives of their students. confusing but oddly satisfying
  • latin lover - fun comedy of how a famed actor dies leaving behind a shitload of lovers, wives and children who all meet for his funeral.


  • trash - an AMAZING brazilian film about two favela boys trying to solve a criminal mystery and unearth corruption before an ill-willed police officer gets to them; all thanks to a wallet found in the dumpster they work in. really good cinema with appearances made by rooney mara and martin sheen
  • singularidades de uma rapariga loura - modern portuguese film based on a short stories by eça de queirós. a blooming romance meets an unexpected obstacle. spot on aesthetic and cleverly blended cultural references. directed by manoel de oliveira who is THE MAN, check out his ther shit such as the p recent o convento starring john malkovich and catherine deneuve
  • saneamento básico - p straightforward but fun brazilian comedy in which a small town community will do anything to raise money to fix their sewer system
  • this is embarrassingly short i will make a separate post to expand 


  • farinelli - an AMAZING film based very loosely on the life of the most famous castrato singer, farinelli. loooveeeee
  • la religieuse (2013) - a really stuningly made adaptation of denis diderot’s novel about a girl thrown into a convent against her will and desperate to get out who discovers some dark family secrets.
  • tom à la ferme - weird indie canadian film with xavier dolan, a gay man travelling to meet his dead boyfriend’s family and terrorised by said’s boyfriend’s horrible brother. more dark family shit for u
  • yves saint laurent - nice biographical film with pierre niney
  • dans la maison - terrifying and fascinating drama about how one seductive teenager ruins some families. 10/10 would recommend
  • les choristes - really good film about how a music teacher transforms the lives of a class of “difficult” boys. set in the 1940s to spice it up
  • les liaisons dangereuses (1959) - adaptation of laclos’ classic novel, set in the present day. directed by roger vadim.

that’s it - I hope at least one person finds it interesting/helpful!!!

i once promised a crash course in polish thing and i know i’m delaying it horribly but sometime next week i will prepare a similar post about polish films (if u folks are interested, ofc)

I am not sure how much longer I can take this life. I mean living in general, to be alive, to breathe. To take in air, to exhale. To dream, to fantasize, to feel. Because everything I do is a kind of filler. The kind of filler you find stuck between the pages of a particularly long novel or the middle sections of a film that doesn’t quite know where it is going. The spaces between the beginning of a story and the end. The spaces between where it was once good and where it will finally succumb to some fortune, good or bad.

Nevertheless, I do not want to live my life as filler anymore. I do not want to continue living in a constant state of waiting and wanting.
—  Nicole Moon || From a Book in Progress

afirewiel  asked:

What is your favorite non-Austen period novel? Movie?

Okay I’m gonna do a rundown of all my favourites because making me pick one is just mean. (Also at one point in my notes on the following books and films I just wrote “Bagels” and I can’t for the life of me think what I might have meant or autocorrected that from. Maybe a shopping list started to take form. I don’t know.)

(If the film Miss Austen Regrets and book Longbourn by Jo Baker count as non-Austen then include them.)


Lagaan: Once Upon a Time in India - 2001 (Sports! High stakes! Sticking it to the Colonial Man!)

Mozart’s Sister - 2010 (Beautiful music! Gorgeous androgyny! GIRLS CAST TO PLAY THEIR ACTUAL AGE AND NOT SOME 20-SOMETHING PRETENDING TO BE FOURTEEN!)

Possession - 2002 (I’ve tried the novel, and A.S. Byatt has some beautiful prose but her structures sometimes do my head in, so never finished it. Ignore Paltrow as best you can and enjoy lush Victorian Gothic mystery and the ending is one of the most poignant things I’ve ever been pleasantly surprised with on film, and it leaves you wondering about many, many things…)

Jodhaa Akbar - 2008 (You could put Hrithik Roshan and Aishwarya Rai in the worst commercial ever made and I would watch it. Costumes, scenery, and, as a friend once put it “I’m not sure how they did it, but they just had a sex scene without any sex.” Bravo.)

Water - 2005 (Deepa Mehta is such a fantastic filmmaker and I loved this whole trilogy but Water is my favourite.)

Elizabeth - 1998 & Elizabeth: The Golden Age - 2007 (The costumes! The caMERA ANGLES!!! The compli-fucking-cated mess that is Elizabeth I.)

[Okay Tumblr won’t let me embed any more trailers, but those ones are easy to find, they’re out there.]

Vatel - 2000 (Any foodie who is also a fan of The Sun King and his era will dig this one. A great score, baddie Tim Roth.)

Alternatively, in the same era: A Little Chaos - 2015. Storyline is a little weak, but it’s so beautiful and the cast is great and the M U S I C. Kate Winslet. Alan Rickman. Helen McCrory. STANLEY TUCCI.)

Also: they’re not films, but TV shows - honourable mentions to the Spanish series Gran Hotel. It’s like a good version of Downton Abbey, only sorta on crack and with a tonne more murder mysteries; and while I have some Issues with its so-called hero and some comparatively weirdo plot-points in S3, overall, it’s fantastic and I’m obssessed. Please don’t mix it up with the Italian re-make which looks horrible in every way. Like, main actors dressed in a poorly-sewn-table-cloth-bad.

And shout-out to the new CBC/Netflix series Anne. I will defend this show to the DEATH, alright? They’ve gone bolder and fresher and have managed to involve period realism in a moving way while retaining the sunshine-and-pinafores element that so many people love about L.M. Montgomery’s work. There’s heaps of women with production credits, and I think it shows. Geraldine James is already my favourite Marilla after one episode, and I feel like R.H. Thompson (HEY JASPER DALE HEEEEY!) and Amybeth McNulty are likely going to become my favourite Matthew and Anne, too. People have complained about this series going off-book and in particular some have condemned it sight-unseen because the writers/directors are putting a feminist spin on it and OH GOD THEY SAID FEMINIST QUICK WE GOTTA SET EVERYTHING ON FIRE BECAUSE CHILDHOOD IS RUINED, but honestly it’s just perky and gorgeous and scrappy and nobody can tell me to my face that Kevin Sullivan didn’t go all the fucking way off-book from the very beginning so I am not gonna sit here and insist that the Megan Fallows Anne of Green Gables was perfection which could never be improved upon because that’s just a plain lie. It was nice and it has its place but it’s time for some new blood. (And NOT the telefilms they’ve also come out with recently with Martin Sheen, bless his heart, but they took a brunette child actor and dumped an atrociously stark box of red hair-dye on her before drawing on her freckles and then telling her to please play everything theatrically to the back of the house even though there is a camera ten inches from her face.) I am HERE FOR ANNE. RIDE OR DIE.


After that you might assume my L.M. Montgomery recommendation would be Anne of Green Gables and sure I won’t say DON’T read them, but for my money the Emily of New Moon trilogy is more my jam and I wish to God and Netflix in all my prayers that there might someday be a decent adaptation of them.

I was really into Cassandra Clark’s Abbess of Meaux mystery series for a time, but then things went a bit pear-shaped in what I think was the fourth(?) book and everything was OOC and honestly I haven’t caught up on the later books after that and they seem to be self-published now but I am a sucker for nuns and mysteries so I’ll probably get back into it when I have time.

The Princess Priscilla’s Fortnight and The Solitary Summer by Elizabeth von Arnim. Vacation-reads! Beautiful prose, some wry wit, and fun hijinks. If you’ve ever wanted to run away and live in an isolated cottage in the wilderness for a little while, these are for you. [ETA: I recently got my hands on a copy of The Jasmine Farm so THANK YOU to one of you who recommended it I am loving it so far only I don’t see the appeal in Andrew so wtf Terry you can do better.]

Edward Rutherfurd’s geographical history novels–Sarum is the classic to start with, but the others I’ve read are very good, too. (London, New York, and I’m now working my way through a first-edition of Russka.)

Amy Levy. A M Y   L E V Y. Criminally under-recognized Jewish Victorian novelist and poet. Novellas Ruben Sachs and The Romance of a Shop. (RS a beautiful and bittersweet story about the conflicts between love, identity, and expectations, and some would say a response to George Eliot’s Daniel Deronda. TRoaS reading a bit like a less treacle-sweet variation on Little Women, where four sisters try to make their way in the world by setting up their own photography studio in late 19th century London.)

The Making of a Marchioness by Frances Hodgkin Burnett. Colonialist racism appears in this one, so be warned. Still the book is a THOUSAND times better than the utterly dreadful adaptation known as The Making of a Lady. Jane is better, Emily is better, Walderhurst is better, pretty much EVERYONE IS BETTER. The pacing is better. The plotting and suspense make actual sense.

The Scarlet Pimpernel by Baroness Orczy. A classic, and the grand-daddy of every secret-identity superhero.

The Forsyte Saga by John Galsworthy. Like, it makes me MAD how good these books are.

And last but not least, a non-fiction selection in Vere Hodgson’s WWII diaries: Few Eggs and No Oranges. Nothing else has ever brought the experience of living (or trying to) under the shadow of the bombs and the threat of invasion quite like these diaries. Fascinating details, engagingly written, and at times a stark reminder that the Allied victory we take for granted in our history could by no means be counted on by the millions who dwelt in daily uncertainty.

The Bowie Counterparts

In the months after Bowie’s death, Kian S. Bergstrom put up a wonderful list on Facebook in which he paired every single Bowie album with a thematically appropriate film (first) and book (second). Having just rediscovered this list in my files (I cut-and-pasted it at the time & feared I’d lost it), I felt like it should be shared more widely. Hope he doesn’t mind.

Some connections are obvious; others, not so much, but often quite inspired. All of these films and novels are worth checking out, in any case. As canons go, this is a superb one. Off to the library and streaming services, Bowie fans.

David Bowie [1967]: THIS SPORTING LIFE [Lindsay Anderson, 1963] & THE BUTTERFLY KID [Chester Anderson, 1967]

David Bowie [1969]: CABARET [Bob Fosse, 1972] & WE HAVE ALWAYS LIVED IN THE CASTLE [Shirley Jackson, 1962]

The Man Who Sold the World [1970]: CRUEL STORY OF YOUTH [Nagima Oshima, 1960] & THE COLLECTED WORKS OF BILLY THE KID [Michael Ondaatje, 1970]

Hunky Dory [1971]: CHELSEA GIRLS [Andy Warhol, 1966] & DISPATCHES [Michael Herr, 1977]

The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars [1972]: PHANTOM OF THE PARADISE [Brian De Palma, 1974] & AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF RED [Anne Carson, 1998]

Aladdin Sane [1973]: LIQUID SKY [Slava Tsukerman, 1982] & BURNING CHROME [William Gibson, 1986]

Pin Ups [1973]: F FOR FAKE [Orson Welles, 1974]  & THE CHAIN OF CHANCE [Stanislaw Lem, 1976]

Diamond Dogs [1974]: BRAZIL [Terry Gilliam, 1985] & 1984 [George Orwell, 1948] (Obvious choice, but in this case I want it anyway)

David Live [1974]: THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE [Tobe Hooper, 1974] & NELLY’S VERSION [Eva Figes, 1977]

Young Americans [1975]: REBEL WITHOUT A CAUSE [Nicholas Ray, 1955] & FRANNY & ZOOEY [J. D. Salinger, 1961]

Station to Station [1976]: THE PASSENGER [Michelangelo Antonioni, 1975] & CHIMERA [John Barth, 1972]

Low [1977]: CRASH [David Cronenberg, 1996] (Obvious choice is THE MAN WHO FELL TO EARTH, but that’s too on-the-nose) & A SCANNER DARKLY [P. K. Dick, 1977]

“Heroes” [1977]: IN A YEAR OF 13 MOONS [R. W. Fassbinder, 1978] & TRITON [Samuel R. Delany, 1976]

Stage [1978]: USED CARS [Robert Zemeckis, 1980] & THE BOOK OF LAUGHTER AND FORGETTING [Milan Kundera, 1979]

Lodger [1979]: BEYOND THE BLACK RAINBOW [Panos Cosmatos, 2010] & HOW GERMAN IS IT (WIE DEUTSCH IST ES) [Walter Abish, 1980]

Scary Monsters (and Super Creeps) [1980]: POSSESSION [Andrzej Żuławski, 1981] & WOLF STORY [William McCleery, 1947]

David Bowie in Bertolt Brecht’s Baal
[1982]: DIE 3 GROSCHENOPER [G. W. Pabst, 1931] & THE HANDMAID’S TALE [Margaret Atwood, 1985]

Let’s Dance [1983]: SID AND NANCY [Alex Cox, 1986] & EDWIN MULLHOUSE: THE LIFE AND DEATH OF AN AMERICAN WRITER, 1943-1954, BY JEFFREY CARTWRIGHT [Steven Millhauser, 1972]

Ziggy Stardust: the Motion Picture [1983]: ONE MAN UP [Paolo Sorrentino, 2001]  & THE DOUBLE [Jose Saramago, 2002]

Tonight [1984]: INTO THE NIGHT [John Landis, 1985] &  CITY OF GLASS [Paul Auster, 1985]

Never Let Me Down [1987]: STREETS OF FIRE [Walter Hill, 1984] & LONG RED HAIR [Meags Fitzgerald, 2015]

Tin Machine [1989]: DONNIE DARKO [Richard Kelly, 2001] & AN AFGHANISTAN PICTURE SHOW: OR HOW I SAVED THE WORLD [William T. Vollmann, 1992/2013]

Tin Machine II
[1991]: HARD-BOILED WONDERLAND AND THE END OF THE WORLD [Haruki Murakami, 1985] & KINDRED [Octavia Butler, 1979] *

Black Tie, White Noise
[1993]: MONSOON WEDDING {Mira Nair, 2001] & THE GROUND BENEATH HER FEET [Salman Rushdie, 1999]

The Buddha of Suburbia [1993]: MY BEAUTIFUL LAUNDERETTE [Stephen Frears, 1985] & BREATH, EYES, MEMORY [Edwidge Danticat, 1994]

1. Outside [1995]: LOST HIGHWAY [David Lynch, 1997] & THE CIPHER [Kathe Koja, 1991]

Earthling [1997]: AEON FLUX [Peter Chung, 1991-5] & CELESTIAL MATTERS [Richard Garfinkle, 1996]

Hours… [1999]: CROUPIER [Mike Hodges, 1998] & LOST GIRLS [Alan Moore & Melina Gebbe, 2006]

Toy [2000]: L’ENFER [Henri-Georges Clouzot, 1964/2009] & THE ORIGINAL OF LAURA [Vladimir Nabokov, 1977/2009]

Heathen [2002]: CURE [Kurosawa Kiyoshi, 1997] & THE BLAZING WORLD [Siri Hustvedt, 2014]

Reality [2003]: CACHÉ [Michael Haneke, 2005] & HERE [Richard McGuire, 2014]

The Next Day [2013]: ZERO DARK THIRTY [Kathryn Bigelow, 2012] & GERTRUDE OF STONY ISLAND AVENUE [James Purdy, 1996]

[2016]: THE NEON DEMON [Nicholas Winding Refn, 2016] & PATIENCE [Daniel Clowes, 2016]

* two books for TMII, for whatever reason. If you need a film, maybe Dead Again.

bluesunwriting  asked:

Hi! So, I'm currently writing a book but have had some trouble kicking off. Is there any way that you could give me some advice on how to stay motivated and to keep myself writing daily?


The best advice on the topic of creativity that I’ve ever come across was from Ray Bradbury, in particular these quotes: 

“If you stuff yourself full of poems, essays, plays, stories, novels, films, comic strips, magazines, music, you automatically explode every morning like Old Faithful. I have never had a dry spell in my life, mainly because I feed myself well, to the point of bursting.“


"As soon as things get difficult, I walk away. That’s the great secret of creativity. You treat ideas like cats: you make them follow you. If you try to approach a cat and pick it up, hell, it won’t let you do it. You’ve got to say ‘to hell with you.’ And the cat says 'Wait a minute, he’s not behaving the way most humans do.’ Then the cat follows you out of curiosity: 'Well, what’s wrong with you that you don’t love me?’ that’s what an idea is. See? You just say: 'I don’t need depression. I don’t  need worry. I don’t need to push.’ The ideas will follow me. When they’re off-guard, and ready to be born – I’ll turn around and grab them.”

(He and his wife owned 22 cats, no wonder he used cats to make his point.)


“Self-consciousness is the enemy of all art, be it acting, writing, painting, or living itself, which is the greatest art of all.”

So  my advice was stolen from Mr Bradbury: 

1) Read. Watch. Listen. Be constantly consuming anything that required some creativity to make. 

2) Don’t push it. Relax. Don’t get caught up in your thoughts and worries. Don’t overthink it.  

3) Don’t be self-conscious. Don’t think about it too much. Just focus on creating. (Incidentally, he’s absolutely right about the 'living’ part of that quote too; this advice has helped me more than I can say.)

Though this might seem too good to be true, when you find out how prolific Ray Bradbury was, his methods have instant credibility. This guy could write a short story in one week. He wrote over 400 short stories, eleven novels, helped develop Spaceship Earth for Disney World, and did so much more that I can’t add it all without making this sentence terrible. 

I also highly recommend his book Zen in the Art of Writing, which is a collection of essays about creativity. 

Anyway! Hope that was useful! Thanks so much for the question. :)


5 Things About Me, tagged by @bahnpoopi

5 things you’ll find in my bag:

- Small sketchbook

- Lip balm

- Small mirror

- Deep blue wallet

- An elephant coin pouch

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom:

- Unused Sketchbooks (Like a lot of them)

- Art books/graphic novels

- Succulents

- A Bulbasaur plushie

- Piles of clothes on the floor

5 things I’ve always wanted to do in life:

- Create a comic with someone

- Have a pet friend

- Working in animated film/series production

- Selling my stuff at conventions

- Get better at drawing and painting (Especially painting and colour theory)

5 things that make me happy:

- Drawing (it also makes me cry)

- Lying in bed (Bonus if it’s under the sunlight)

- Long car rides

- Travelling with my family/friends

- My OCs and favourite fictional characters

5 things I’m currently into:

- Dragon Age

- Overwatch

- Jojo Bizarre Adventures

- Junji Ito’s horror manga

- Mass Effect

5 things on my to do list:

- Apply to the gym

- Work on my charms/prints

- Attempt to paint a tarot card of Galathan (I made one before but it stinks)

- Eat this apple l have on my desk

- Renew my resume and portfolio

5 things people may not know about me:

- I eat my boiled egg dipped in wasabi 

- Has smol hands

- HATES flies 

- The sound of people smacks their mouth when they eat ANNOYS the heck out of me

- Two of my bottom baby teeth were stuck together and remained intact when it fell out 

Anonymous asked:

I’m developing a story that partially takes place in a setting I’ve never been in. Is it enough to do research via all media (news and film included?) or do I need to do field research, since the setting is theoretically accessible in real life? I want to portray life in such a setting realistically to the point where I feel either interviews or heavy research is needed.

Lots of writers have novels set in places they’ve never been to. In fact, four of my novels are set in real places I haven’t been to. If you can somehow wrangle a trip, by all means, do it! However, don’t shy away from a setting just because you can’t visit it. Just do the best you can research-wise. This is a lot easier now than it was even ten years ago, because now you can “walk around” so many places via Google Street View (and Google Earth, if you can get it), plus, there are 360 degree photos and quad-copter flyovers. Google Earth, YouTube, Vimeo, and travel web sites are some of my favorite sources. Have a look at my post Setting Your Story in an Unfamiliar Place for more help. :)

Have a writing question? I’d love to hear from you! Please be sure to read my ask rules and master list first or your question will not be answered. :)

5 things about me

tagged by @houndtails​ !!!♥

5 things you’ll find in my bag;

  1. phone 
  2. purse (wallet??)
  3. lipgloss
  4. My bag is really tiny I cant fit anymore

5 things you’ll find in my bedroom;

  1. bambi plush from disneyland (๑TㅂT)و✧
  2. fireplace that my dad has yet to connect to the chimney.. one day
  3. graphic novels/comics
  4. lots of tealight holders!!✧*。
  5. arty stuff
  6. mess. a lot of mess.I need to tidy up desperately 

5 things i’ve wanted to do in life;

  2. be able to treat my family for everything they do for me and for always being there for me (travel with them ;v;)
  3. make my own comic/animation
  4. be successful doing something I really love!♥
  5. feel completely content with myself 

5 things that make me happy;

  1. art + animation ^o^
  2. being productive!! & feeling accomplished!!!
  3. alone time (but not too much)
  4. watching films with my fam
  5. riding my bike ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭ (its makes me happy)

5 things i’m currently into;

  1. saving up enough money to travel lol god (Australia here I hopefully come dont hold me to that tho ahaha)
  2. YOUTUBERS DUDE. Im obsessed. coughkrist & yucough 
  3. drawing traditionally / realistically 
  4. manwhas/mangas/graphicnovels/comics lordy lord
  5. fashion??? I’ve never been into clothes but lately Ive been like 👀

5 things on my to do list;

  1. make more art/another youtube video 
  2. drink more water
  3. tidy ma room ^v^’’’
  4. start bullet journalling !!! so pretty ! so aesthetic !
  5. practice animating more ;v

5 things people may not know about me;

  1. I’ve never broken a bone in my life
  2. never cut my hair either!
  3. I hate listening to anything/talking when I draw- anything with words or people talking really makes it hard for me to concentrate and frustrates me so fricken much (which is why I’m bad for staying up all night when literally nobody is around talking!)
  4. I never studied for any of my exams until the day before aka I’m a terrible timekeeper (still got one of the best results of my year in school tho lolololol)
  5. I love conspiracy theories and will pretty much believe anything if you show me a convincing documentary on it. *shakes fist at ancient aliens*

and yeaahhh thats it!! if any of u guys want to do this please go ahead, its really fun once u start to really think about an answer for everything :D

5 of 5

the rules are list five examples in each category then tag 5 ppl at least.

I was tagged by @salty-believer thank you cuz I was bored and noticed this eheheh. here goes:

5 things:

that you love

mini marshmallows, jamming to music, making playlists, Product Design work(no rlly, despite all the complaining, it’s all i need in life), tattoos(but i dont actually want one lol)

get you excited

going into central london, trying out new outfits, taking that perfect photograph after standing there for hours, the colouring in movies and visual films, going to the theatre to ogle the set(s)

make you laugh

harry potter-related tumblr posts, my close friends and family, murdoc in gorillaz, my religious studies lessons

that you want to achieve

writing a complete novel, living in another country for a long period, making all the men i know feel more confident about periods (probs never gonna happen but a girl can wish), making and selling a line of high-end products, learn at least two more languages fluently

that you’re grateful for

english is my first language, only having to live with insignificant problems, having a great view of the sky every day, having a family that will talk with me about everything, growing up in a world-renowned hospital (going there opened my mind up faster than most children around me)

i tag @diamondandl, @cest-la-vie-ma-copine @namu-yeppeo @mrcheyl @paperphiliac obvs not all of those i tagged are mutuals or even heard of me, but i want to see this from a range of perspectives.

 im also taggin anyone who wants to do this, gogogo

stay safe, and eat when you’re hungry! ^_−☆

anonymous asked:

are you into lit? what are some books that have had an impact on your life?

Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy really spoke to me and made me laugh so, so hard. I had up until then mostly read horror novels or “classics” and very few of them were funny. This was the first legitimately funny series I remember reading. Not just a drama with funny moments but an actual comedy.

The Last Unicorn first came to me as a film, and touched my soul, but the book and film are actually very faithful to one another. It’s beautiful and sad and in a lot of ways I feel like it’s a metaphor for growing up.

I really loved Stephen King’s IT and Dracula, but there’s a real soft spot in my heart for early scifi horror like Frankenstein and The Island of Dr. Moreau. Mostly because they don’t make a lick of sense but the creativity and moral are more important than being physically possible and that’s an important thing to remember in your own writing. It’s not always about being “real.” Its your universe, make it whatever you want. It’s ok to explain away some things with “magic.”

About That Clive Durham

One of the things I’ve come to notice after reading and watching Maurice several times is the varied opinions on Clive. Which is something that really intrigues me, and I have some input. I’ve crafted my own opinion, which has changed several times, and now is pretty permanent.

After you watch Maurice once, you hate Clive. He’s awful. Scumbag. Douche.
After you watch Maurice a few more times, you start to understand Clive, and you sympathize more. With the pressure from his family and mother, to marry and carry responsibilities he can’t possibly escape from. He realizes the consequences of being homosexual in that time and place. He has so much to live up to, with so much weighing on him, and he falls apart, and in recollecting himself, makes a change. And it hurts Maurice, but you can sympathize more. You might have done the same thing. Poor Clive. 

However, after READING the text, and watching deleted scenes from the film that were CUT (GOD KNOWS WHY) that show Clive’s hostility, you understand. The entirety of what Clive put Maurice through is h e a r t b r e a k i n g. Clive introduces Maurice to his own views about the greeks. He shapes Maurice into his own views. All the while in love with Maurice, yes. But he awakens Maurice in what can almost be realized as manipulative (later on you can see this more clearly). And that’s what Clive is. He falls for Maurice, strings him along out of his own fear and blunt fading interest, starts to back out (note: Risley’s arrest had NOTHING to do with Clive backing out, it wasn’t even in the book). Clive simply lost interest; realized life could be better. He traveled to Greece, saw his own past views in a tangible form, and realized they were no longer valid, and couldn’t be. So, he “changed”. He was an A S S H O L E towards Maurice, who took care of him when he was falling apart. After reading, you can see this. He treated him like shit. He’s a snippy, smartass, pompous, spoiled douche with the way he treats Maurice. After stringing him along, Maurice investing his LIFE in Clive, Maurice is dropped after Clive simply becomes repulsed by anything even remotely related to Maurice because he simply DOES NOT CARE, he purposely (which is in the text) seeks out someone completely unlike Maurice and Clive marries a woman who feels uncomfortable watching her own husband dress because he’s so cold and empty. The relationship is empty. He parades it in front of Maurice and flaunts his “straight” lifestyle. Clive is a cold fish on a marble slab. THAT relationship is platonic! There is no love. And the best part of the entire novel, and I am furious this scene was cut out of the film, is when Maurice stands up to Clive at the very end, and disappears with Alec, leaving Clive alone to withstand all the emptiness he has filled his life with.

I’ve had someone put that on me. My first love decided he wasn’t gay anymore, for other reasons, and it d e s t r o y e d me. So I get it.

I’m not convinced Clive “changed”. I’m sorry. That doesn’t happen. You don’t hit the undo button on the gay factor. Clive was a coward. Clive was empty. Clive was heartless. And I do believe that E.M Forster ends the novel in the perfect way; I do believe that’s an “oh shit” moment for Clive. Where he realizes “maybe i did love you, maybe my life is empty, maybe i made some wrong choices, maybe i was a huge bulldog dick to the one person who was able to deal with me and my smart ass speeches, ever”. I do believe that is the moment where Clive actually becomes un-empty. Where he feels. Where he regrets. But it’s too fucking late because you were completely and utterly awful. And this realization of Clive makes me appreciate Alec and, ESPECIALLY Maurice, so much more, and when I watch the film now, it’s not the same, because I know. I don’t have pity for Clive. I don’t feel sorry for him. 

This has been the ultimate rant about Mr. Clive Durham. Thank you.


Never-before-published edition of Francis Ford Coppola’s notes and annotations on The Godfather

The Godfather Notebook
by Francis Ford Coppola
Regan Arts
2016, 784 pages, 8.5 x 1.5 x 11 inches, Paperback
$38 Buy on Amazon

The Godfather is my favorite Christmas movie of all time. It’s a Christmas movie right? Well, it’s my favorite movie, and I watch it every year at Christmas. To me, it’s as close to a perfect film as I think you can get. I’ve read Mario Puzo’s novel. I’ve watched every special feature. So, when I heard that this book even existed, I got excited. This is a reproduction of the notebook that director, Francis Ford Coppola, used to bring this wonderful movie to life. It not only lifts the curtain showing how The Godfather came to be, but it reveals Coppola’s invaluable techniques for crafting a story.

Coppola went through Mario Puzo’s novel page by page, developing a synopsis that would shape the script and the direction of the film. Each scene is detailed with tone, setting, and pitfalls. Exposition is trimmed, and some characters are cut completely in order to create a story that would work cinematically.

The book’s pretty hefty, since there’s a whole other book within it. It also includes a wonderful introduction by Coppola, and behind the scenes photos of the young cast. If you’re a big fan of The Godfather or if you’re interested in how film adaptations are made, definitely pick this up.

– JP LeRoux

April 17, 2017

anonymous asked:

Am I the only one who likes those cringy and super cheesy couples in tv shows and movies but in real life like 'ew no, go away' ? Haha

Everything is valid in fiction, I always say. And it’s only in fiction where we can have the certainty of how pure a relationship between two people is or can be, because we see both sides. So I probably stand with you. I’ve lately discovered a more romantic side of me that I only allow to come out while indulging in a music, novel or film. Or while writing. In my day to day life, I posses a coldddd cold heartttt 🎶🖤 Ahahah.

Seeing other couples on the streets doesn’t really bother me unless they’re being disgusting and making out in the back of a shitty market because… there’s nothing romantic nor sexy about it like… ew? 🤢 you bitches are surrounded by banana peels and flies? Is that what love is? 😂 NAH DONT EVEN GIVE ME THAT “AS LONG AS YOU’RE WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE IT DOESN’T MATTER” BULLSHIT BECAUSE BITCH, THAT IS UNSANITARY. 💩 .