Warnings: ANGST, little bit of fluff, talk of miscarriage.
Word count: 2.222 (hell yeah)
Summary: Steve’s away for another mission and you fall apart. There’s a secret that has been weighing on your shoulders for way too long and you have no idea how much longer you can keep it from Steve.
Title: Whatever It Takes Part 2 / AO3 Part 1: tumblr Part 3: tumblr Length: 9.5k Rating: Mature for language, sexual content, and mentions of torture. Summary: Reader struggles to cope in the aftermath of her torture and Cassian tries to understand why she keeps pushing him away. Masterlist / WIP List
“I’ll do whatever it takes to achieve my goals. That’s just the kind of person I am.”
Kidnapper, killer, time traveler, mastermind, scientist, conspiracy nut, cult leader, savior of humanity. A mix for Akane Kurashiki.
1. A.A.A| Squalloscope//2. Uma Thurman| Fall Out Boy//3. Oh No!| Marina and the Diamonds//4. Cold War| Janelle Monae//5. Strings and Attractors| How to Destroy Angels//6. Just One Yesterday| Fall Out Boy ft. Foxes//7. Playing For Keeps| Elle King//8. Still Alive| Portal OST//9. Black Sheep| Metric//10. Castle| Halsey//11. I am not a Robot| Marina and the Diamonds//12. Soap| Melanie Martinez//13. Academia| Sia//14. Hope on Fire| Vienna Teng//15. Blindness| Metric
Basically my experiences with Zero Escape can be expressed with a “do it for her” graphic starring Akane Kurashiki. I adore her in all her complex, morally ambiguous, well-intentioned extremist, Machiavellian glory. So here’s my mix tribute to her, complete with the usual obsessively detailed annotations under the cut.
Somewhere between the fact and fiction Sir Arthur Conan Doyle’s greatest creation stole the soul of Jeremy Brett, the actor who would become the embodiment of the Baker Street sleuth. The Curse of Sherlock Holmes follows Jeremy as he fights for his sanity and his life. This is the full script of the play by Dhanil Ali.
“The play is about Sherlock Holmes, and Jeremy Brett. It’s about Jeremy Brett being Sherlock Holmes. It’s about Sherlock Holmes being Jeremy Brett. And it is as fantastic as it is heartbreaking.” The Baker Street Babes
nate fick?? nah I hate all the officers, what a — [trips] [hundreds of thousands of photos of nate fick spill out of jacket] w-what a fucking ivy league prick- I- these aren’t mine I’m just [gathering them up frantically sweating] listen I just listen fuck [thousands of pictures of nate fick scatter across the floor] shit fuck I’m holding them for everyone else in bravo 2 just listen
I need to start fighting for myself. Fighting for my peace, fighting for my sanity, my happiness. I let too many things cloud my space, take over my feelings and corrode me and empty me out. Emotions are necessary but I don’t want to be overwhelmingly controlled by them. I want my mind to have a say in things too. I’m tired of ruining myself.
Spike has released a new trailer for The Mist. Although there’s still no sign of tentacle monsters, the preview shows bugs and a mysterious shadow being emerging from the mist. The series premieres on June 22.
Based on Stephen King’s novella of the same name, The
Mist will consist of 10 hour-long episodes. It’s created by Danish
writer Christian Torpe (Rita), with Adam Bernstein (Fargo, Breaking Bad)
directing the first episode.
Morgan Spector, Alyssa Sutherland, Gus Birney, Danica Curcic, Okezie
Morro, Luke Cosgrove, Darren Pettie, Russell Posner, Dan Butler, Isiah
Washington Jr., and Frances Conroy star.
The Mist centers around a small town family that is torn apart by a brutal crime. As they deal with the fallout an eerie mist rolls in, suddenly cutting them off from the rest of the world and, in some cases, each other. Family, friends and adversaries become strange bedfellows, battling the mysterious mist and its threats, fighting to maintain morality and sanity as the rules of society break down.
Happy World Mental Health Day! It’s days like this, that make people suffering from mental illness feel a little less alone, a little less like an outcast who can’t be or feel “normal”. Its hard living with mental illnesses that control your every thought, emotions, and physicality. It’s hard when people don’t understand, or take the time to understand, but were still here, we’re still FIGHTING for our sanity everyday. Everyday is a battle of the brain, a battle of chemicals, that always seems like a losing battle, but we win, we win everyday we accomplish something we thought we couldn’t. Its also a battle because people glorify mental illness, but never take it seriously, or try to help. But I want you all to know I’m here for everyone of you, I’m no psychologist, but I do have a lot of knowledge and what i don’t know I can research, and what I can’t research I’ll find someone who does.
Long story short. You are not alone, there are far more neuroatypical people, than neurotypical! Continue being the strongest human alive, and keep fighting. Life is worth it, even when it shows different
The Demonic Conman Sequel to You’ll fit right in, Complete ‘Reverse one of us AU! Bill didn’t offer Ford the chance to join him and his minions, he was always talking to someone else. Stan accepted Bill’s deal in light of the weirdmaggedon and chose power over family just for once. The one time it mattered most. Do the other Pines have what it takes to defeat what may be their most difficult challenge yet? Can they defeat Stan?’ Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Bad/Neutral Ending, Good Ending
Phobos On-going ‘Original Mystery Trio fic! Stan’s got a lot of demons haunting him from his days on the street, but now he’s back with his brother he’s happy to try and ignore them all in favour of rekindling their friendship to the point of stubbornly rejecting help. Ford on the other hand can be oblivious and observant all at the same time. Add in a monster hunt that dregs up Stan’s fears and you have a recipe for disaster. Can Ford and Fiddleford get them out of the predicament they’ve found themselves in?’ Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7,
Snake Bite On-going ‘Mystery Trio! Stan’s old flame appears one day out of the blue, months after he’d left his old life behind. It doesn’t take long for the other two to notice that his personality starts to change, the brash outspoken man becoming quieter, more compliant. Can Fiddleford convince Ford that there’s something untoward about the whole affair? That this Jimmy Snakes isn’t all that he seems?’ Chapter 1,
Ignorance is Bliss On-going ‘Time’s running out. Ford has no idea what’s going on but Stan is missing and that’s all that matters. All he can do is follow the trail and pray he’s not too late.Meanwhile, Stan’s demons have finally caught up to him. The only problem is he has no recollection of them at all.…Not yet anyway’ Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3
Repercussions One-shot ‘Defeating Bill left it’s scars on the older twins, some worse than others. Ford tries to stay strong, they both do, but sometimes Stan’s memory deserts him and Ford has to keep himself afloat alone. And unfortunately sometimes, his own demons come out to play at the worst possible moments.‘
Galvanise One-shot ‘Waddles doesn’t set off Stan’s memories, the scrapbook does nothing. Ford needs a moment to come to terms with everything even if he knew what would happen when he pulled the trigger.‘
Indiana Pines On-going ‘Indiana Pines AU. Based on notllorstel archaeologist Stan! Drabbles and One-shots of his life using that basis. All the adventures he would have taken.’ Curse,
A Lot More LostOne-shot ‘Feral Ford AU. Weirdmageddon is over and Ford and Stan have to deal with the repercussions that the amnesia is causing.‘
Lying by Omission One-shot
‘Stan has a bad moment remembering Filbrick Pines. Ford just hopes he can pull him out the memory.’
Crystal Twinning AU Series of one-shots, On-going ’Steven Universe/Gravity Falls Crossover between me and @cirilee.’ Masterpost
The Reapers Story Series of one-shots, On-going ’Joml au one-shots from the grim reapers point of view. Stan’s fate was sealed long ago but various harbingers refuse to give the reaper what he is due.’ Signs of a Life Well Lived
Birds of a Feather Series of one-shots, On-going ’Wing au. Stan and Ford’s lives are a little bit different in this world. Canon version.’ -more to come- ’Wing au meets Mystery Trio (kind of) Stan and Ford meet up ahead of time in rather unsavoury circumstances. Ford learns some horrifying truths about Stan that puts a few things into perspective.’ The Wing Collectors
Onwards!One-shot ‘Ford and Mabel go for a little adventure in the woods together.’
Photographic Memory One-shot ‘Stan is slowly recovering from his amnesia. But there are a lot of memories that would best be left alone…Sometimes you really need your whole family to remind you that things are better now.’
Stan’s Son One-shot ‘Stan finds out about what Soos saw in Mabel’s bubble.‘
Greyscale One-shot ‘Canon divergence. Weirdmaggedon is over. The world has taken it’s sacrifice and left the Pines family splintered and lost. And yet whilst they grieve an unexpected visitor arrives at the Shack. (Warning for character death)’
Hold Your Breath… One-shot ‘Ford has a lot of demons to deal with. Sometimes they can’t be dealt with alone.’
Lost in Translation One-Shot ‘Adapting to this dimension has turned out to be more difficult than Ford expected. With Bill defeated and his family back everything should fall into place. So why wasn’t it? And how did he explain to Stan?’
Music To My Ears One-shot
‘Things are finally sinking back into normality for the Pines family. Or as normal as things can get in Gravity Falls. Weirdmaggedon is over, Bill is defeated- And Stan’s back to making abysmal jokes that Ford’s not quite ready for yet.’
I’m Fine One-shot
‘Stan gets hurt protecting Ford but refuses help himself.’
The Lost Sketchbooks of Stanford Pines On-going
‘It should have just been an interesting trip to an art gallery. But with the mystery of the long missing artist and artwork that almost seems to move, they might have found more than they ever bargained for. (Ib crossover).’ Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7
Help!! I'm going on vacation this week and i need some good johnlock fic to read in the hotel. Can you rec some good (longer) stories, maybe mutli-chaps? I feel like I've read everything already and I need something GOOOOD! I like angst, fluff, smut, parentlock, I love it all! thank you!!
Oh, man! Okay, let’s see. Probably you’ve come across a bunch of these already, but hey, can’t hurt! These stories range from big-bang slams clocking in around 8,000 words or more, to multi-chapter, even multi-work epics.
First I’m just gonna name some of the more famous behemoth fics in fandom, just in case you haven’t encountered them (or would like to read them again).
Drouk, by merripestin: omegaverse, captivity, non-con, relationship angst
Indecorous, by basingstoke: growing relationship, exploration of kink, polyamorous relationship, Sherlock and John are both a bit not-good
The Loss of Flesh and Soul, by deuxexmycroft (WIP)
Dehumanize Me, by deuxexmycroft: John and Sherlock meet in prison. Non-con, manipulation, John is pretty darn fucked up in this one.
Reaction, by blind_author: after Moriarty sexually assaults him, John puts himself back together. Sherlock helps. A heartwarming story about recovery.
Relatively Easy, by OTP221b: John is a faerie-hunter who trades himself to faerie Sherlock in exchange for kidnapped children. I felt like this one ended just as it really got going, but it’s very cool anyway.
The Diranian Effect, xsilverdreamsx: classic fantasy, where Sherlock is a wizard and he and John get into all sorts of trouble trying to solve a case.
Guidelines, by withloweredvoices: John is the Good Soldier, an exiled angel so old he barely even remembers who he was anymore. Sherlock is his charge.
One Day at a Time, by keeliethompson1: John got hooked on drugs while Sherlock was ‘dead.' The story of Sherlock’s return and John’s recovery.
Breathe You In, by lapislazuli: Sentinel verse. John is openly an omega, and secretly a guide.
Wee Doctor, by AmericanJedi: This one’s a real epic. All together, the stories clock in at over 200,000 words. It’s fantasy/scifi and a bit of horror, high adventure, just all around awesome.
Blue on Blue, by lindentreeisle: action/adventure, in which John’s past in a military group so clandestine it doesn’t even have a name comes back to haunt him and Sherlock.
Playing the Game, by keeliethompson1: my favorite vamplock series of all, in which Sherlock and John are not the soft toothless kind of vampires.
How to Tame Your Dragon, by mad_maudlin: another high fantasy one. John is a dragon. Sherlock is a wizard who decides to capture and tame him. Non-con, captivity, stockholming.
The Once and Future BAMF, by winter_of_our_discontent: in which Sherlock is a catastrophically bored and ancient Merlin, killing time by playing detective while waiting for his Arthur to show up again. Guess who’s Arthur?
Getting Better, by nox_candida: one of the few parentlocks I really really like, this is the story of how two single dads and their remarkable kids meet and form a family.
Modus Operandi, by joolabee: After Sherlock’s death, John becomes Moran
Cost of Living, by americanjedi: John is part monster, and he’ll do anything for Sherlock. Bittersweet.
On Your Knees, by myswordfishmind: fusion with the movie Secretary.
Left, by lifeonmars: right-handed people have superpowers.
Kill Tonight, by perryvic and zaganthi: after Sherlock and Moriarty die, John and Moran bond over not having much to live for. Surprisingly, they turn out to be good for each other…as long as John overlooks Moran being a crime lord. (It all gets a bit awkward when Sherlock comes back.). Another epic monster: 233k, multiple works. John/Sebastian Moran.
Not Yet Dead, by castiron: What I have in my bookmark note: “Excellent and unusual reincarnation story/casefic. Sherlock drives me batty in this one–as the story headed into the climax, I found him to be a childish, selfish, willfully blinded asshole whose obsession everyone else had to pay for–but other than wanting to slap him stupid and scream at him by the end, it was really a fantastic, wonderfully-plotted, excellently-characterized story. Also there is copious Mycroft being cool and brotherly in his own inimitable way, and the whole story is saturated with awesome BAMF!Sally.”
Love Letters, by helicidae: daaaaaark fic where Moriarty tortures and terrorizes John mentally via horrible letters, and Sherlock just about goes off his rocker trying to protect him.
We’re All a Little Mad Here, by angelblack3: more WAY DARK fic. Sherlock is flat-out evil. John is held captive, tortured, raped, and fights to survive and maintain sanity.
Once More, with Feeling, by redcarrigan: To put off his meddlesome, matchmaking mother, John convinces Sherlock to play the role of his significant other. Unparalleled awkwardness ensues.
Racing across three towns into a small area known as Hubbell, you pull up into the driveway of the first victim’s home as you shut down the car, undo your seat-belt, and throw your door open.
“Hey. Y/L/N,” Morgan says, his hand reaching out to grip your arm as you slowly pan your gaze over towards him.
“You know you don’t have to be someone you’re not around us,” he says, his eyes softening as your gaze hardens.
“If this is your way of getting into my pants,” you begin as you watch Morgan’s lips pull into a straight, taut line, “then rest assured, the women you hit on are just easy.”
Ripping your arm out from his grasp, you start your trek up to the front door as you knock on it lightly, rocking back and forth on your feet as you watch the doorknob slowly turn.
“Hello?” the petite woman asks.
“Hi. FBI,” you say as you quickly flip out your badge, “I just need a few minutes in your house.”
“I-is…is something else wrong?” she asks as a man comes up to the door, his hand resting protectively on the woman’s shoulder as your eyes dart up to him.
“Please excuse my colleague,” Morgan says as he approaches the door, “she doesn’t get let out much.”
“Anything to help,” she says, her voice trembling with emotion as she steps aside, ushering you both into their home.
Barging through their door, you make a beeline for the kitchen, throwing open cabinets as Morgan comes barreling behind you.
“Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa,” he says, gripping your arm tight as he whips your entire body towards him, “now’s a really good time to clue me in on your little escapade.”
“They didn’t fight back, Derek.”
Using his first name caught him off-guard, so much so that his entire face fell.
“These women, who…who were fighting for their sanity, for…for their ability to feel happiness and joy and…a-a-and…and beauty…and they didn’t. Fight. Back.”
Clenching your jaw as you turn your attention back to the cabinets, Morgan sighs as he begins to backtrack towards the couple, now understanding what his boss was talking about earlier, as he slowly turns towards the couple who are staring at you quizzically from the entrance of their kitchen.
“Would it be alright if I took a look in your bathrooms?” he asks.
“No drugs,” you say as you jam the back of your head into the car-seat cushion.
“Well, the toxicology reports-”
“-only outline drugs found in the system that they routinely test for,” you interrupt.
“Why are you so sure that these girls may have been taking something illegal alongside their medication?” Derek asks, turning his body in the passenger seat and eyeing you pointedly.
“It’s not uncommon for someone battling depression, even on medication, to seek out the comfort of something else to aid in combating the…symptoms,” you enunciate as you clasp the bridge of your nose in between your fingers. “I just don’t understand why-”
“Y/L/N!” Morgan raises his voice.
“What!?” you roar, snapping your cold gaze to his fiery eyes as your chest heaves with emotion
“You’re fixating,” he breathes.
Running your hands wildly through your hair, you squeeze your eyes shut as you shake your head tightly. Opening your eyes, Morgan watches the emotion drain from your eyes, slowly turning you into the cold, calculating person you have been portraying yourself to be.
“Y/L/N…” Morgan lulls, trying to coach the emotion back out of you as you sit up straight in your seat.
“Let’s get back to the precinct. Can you call Garcia and see if she has that list of suspects for me? She was narrowing dow-“”
Feeling your phone vibrate against your hip, you sigh pointedly as you rip it from your pocket.
“What?” you drone.
“We have him,“ Spencer says, "he fits everything. White male, 34, drives a dark blue truck with a fully-covered bed, been going to anger management for his outbursts that started after his mom died three months ago after a long battle with cancer. Apparently his mom also had a bi-polar disorder.”
As your eyes widen, you jam your car keys into the ignition and turn them ferociously, bending the key in the process as you throw the car into reverse, peeling from the driveway as you watch the GPS in the SUV light up with a destination.
“Garcia’s sending the address to your car GPS now,” Spencer confirms.
“It says ETA is 23 minutes,” you lull.
“Alright, see you in 15,” Spencer says before hanging up the call.
You felt your cheek twitch ever so lightly at the sentiment.