It’s funny, it takes the most random moments to make me cry; mostly it’s fics that involve major character deaths. If Steve or Bucky die, I’m probably crying. I don’t usually cry over things like what you mentioned - although it absolutely does make me heart hurt! I hate seeing Steve hurting in any way, he’s my precious unicorn. Off the top of my head (and also because it’s 1:30am and I currently have a wicked headache), I’m sure there are probably several fics in my bookmarks/fics I’ve read that have this sort of theme to them, but only one really, truly comes to mind:
Like a Cruel Mistress Woos - Salvia_G
Warnings: N/A (***But please heed the tags***)
Pairings: Bucky Barnes x Natasha Romanoff (only in the beginning), background Natasha Romanoff x Clint Barton, Steve Rogers x OMC (a couple random ones, and one predominant one that takes up a fair chunk of the story), Steve Rogers x Thor (this one hasn’t happened yet but it’s listed as it happening in the future), and Steve x Bucky as endgame
Length: 162,095 words
Complete?: No (52/65 chapters)
Steve has struggled with the modern world since he woke up, and mostly he and it have called it a draw. When the Winter Soldier comes in from the cold, asking for help in recovering his identity as James Buchanan Barnes, Steve is thrilled. Finally, he’s going to have a friend and ally who understands what it’s like. He’s getting Bucky back, and he couldn’t be happier.
But six months later, James is well enough to be living in Avenger Tower, making moves on Natasha Romanov, occasionally fighting the forces of evil alongside the Avengers, and adapting to modern life like he was born in 1987 instead of 1917.
And he wants nothing to do with Steve.
Maybe it’s time to figure out what Steve wants if he doesn’t have Bucky. What he can live with. What’s not worth living without.
Time for a road trip…
Featuring a confused and questioning Steve Rogers, a Tony Stark with a daddy complex, a Bucky Barnes whose mouth needs to be washed out with soap, a Natasha Romanov who likes her cars fast and her boys bad, and a handful of OMCs with designs on Steve. But I promise you’ll come to love them just as much as Steve does. Most of them.
Tags: Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Suicidal Thoughts, Internalized Homophobia, also just plain homophobia, Road Trips, Roman Catholicism, I’m serious about that folks, Steve Rogers is canonically a practicing Catholic, Virgin Steve Rogers, mostly movie verse, some comic canon (pretty much whenever I wanted), Suicide Attempt, Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. References, Open Relationships
IF ANYONE HAS ANY OTHER FICS THEY COULD REC THIS ANON WITH THIS SIMILAR POST-WS THEME, THAT’D BE WONDERFUL :)