Cried over a gifset. Yep, hormonal. Seriously though! It broke my heart! And it was a cartoon!
Also took two or three naps today (I know exactly how many but I like the vagueness of “or”). Exhausted.
Got super irritated with Jake for a now unknown reason. And I’m sure it wasn’t a good reason. I remember the good reasons. :p Hello, mood swings.
Ate all the things and got sick from all the things, except chocolate covered pretzels. And water. Mm. Water tastes soooo good right now.
The fun part about all these symptoms is that they could be fibro related OR pregnancy related OR both! Lucky me! *grins*
Only five weeks along and I’m already a little bit terrified of how big I might get. I’m not showing yet, obviously, but now that I am pregnant it’s starting to really hit me that this baby is only coming out one of a very limited few ways. I mean, duh, I knew that BEFORE, but I know it better now. And I knew before that I was going to someday become that nine months pregnant lady… but now there are concrete dates for such things and it’s WIERD. It’s like being in a waking dream.
Every morning when I get up, I think, “It’s real. I’m really pregnant and there is really a baby growing inside me.” But I’m not sure how much it’s actually hit me. Or at least, I wasn’t until I started getting pummeled by symptoms today. :p
What were some of the signs you showed of Fibro? Both my grandmas have it and the doctors are saying I'm already showing many of the signs and want me to have a blood test done to see. How do you live with fibro? What're some of the medications? How do you think it'll affect your little one? I'm sorry if these questions are too personal, I'm just really curious what I'll have to do in the future if I have it. :|
My response (sorry it took so long!) is mostly about how I manage fibro currently. Don’t be afraid to ask anything else you want to know!
My fibro signs included, but were not limited to:
unexplained shooting chest pain
constant feeling of discomfort ranging from mild aches up to wracking pain in various body parts
exhaustion, with no relief in sleep
irritable bowel syndrome (more of an accompanying thing, but my doctor said it was common in fibro sufferers)
difficulty with cognition. I have trouble forming sentences, recalling words and remembering things. also known as brain fog
sensitivity to sound (oh man, those public restroom hand dryers send me into an instant flare)
sensitivity to textures (i.e. some blankets or clothes make me hurt more)
sensitivity to pressure and temperature changes
i get sensory overload if too much is going on and I space out
cold or numb extremities (I get this really bad in my toes; they turn white)
stiffness upon waking or sitting for a long time
And keep in mind, of course, that I had to go through tons of tests to make sure all of those symptoms weren’t something else. All of those things can sometimes be explained by other illnesses. I was tested for lupus, RA, deficiencies… it’s a long list.
You are more likely to have fibromyalgia if a family member has it, but it CAN be managed. Some days are going to suck a lot, and others will be much easier.
I manage my fibro differently now that I am pregnant. I can safely receive some kinds of trigger point injections to numb pain at the site. I am on a low level dose of Nuerontin (Gabapentin) to take the edge off (that’s hit or miss, honestly) as well as Prozac to manage my depression. Both are meds that are generally pregnancy safe, with the direction and discretion of your doctor. In my case, the risks outweigh the benefits. Without those meds I couldn’t get out of bed, or sleep, or take care of myself well at all. I can also take extra strength tylenol or hydrocodone/acetaminophen mix if the pain is too awful.
Other than medications I handle my fibromyalgia with a TENS unit (that has been a HUGE help; I highly recommend you ask your doctor for one and then learn how to use it effectively), heating packs and ice packs. Warm baths and showers are great. Counterpressure and massage are things that can hurt while they’re being done, but have a lot of benefit afterwards.
The way I live with fibro is honestly by acknowledging and respecting my limits. If someone asks me to do something and I know I don’t have the energy, I am honest about that fact. It took me a long time to get to this point and I STILL fail at it, but I think that is the number one thing that has made dealing with fibromyalgia easier. I take stock throughout the day of how many “spoons” of energy I have left, and then I prioritize. And sometimes, seeing your friends will take precedence over laundry. Don’t EVER feel bad about that. Socialization is important for your mental health!
As for how it will affect my little one, I’m not sure. It’s something I pray about and think over a lot. My thoughts so far are: My child will learn that sometimes mommy is sick in bed so we have to hang out with quieter toys and watch Miyazaki movies instead of going to the park. He or she will see that I have various treatments I have to go through to make me feel better, and it doesn’t need to be scary. People are different and everyone struggles with something. My child will learn that sometimes we can’t make definite plans because it depends on how mama is feeling that day. After all, it does no good for me to push and push myself and then pay for it with a week in bed and crippling pain so that I can’t care for my baby. Life may have a slower pace in our home, but I know we’ll all adjust.
Jake and I have already discussed in what month and year we want to start trying to get pregnant with our second child.
We both enjoyed having siblings close to us in age (me more so than him) and we both want a large family. This year of raising raptor will be a good indication of whether I am capable of having multiple children. I don’t want fibromyalgia to control my life but I also have to be cautious with my health. That said, I do know several disabled mommies with three or more kids so I think with accommodations it should be possible!
Checked into the hospital Friday. I had been throwing up everything for days and I was so dehydrated I was starting to pass out just moving around. Plus the migraine I’d had for seven days was so intense I really thought I might be dying. I’ve never had a headache so bad in my life.
I was so out of it I don’t remember much about how I got to the hospital. Apparently I collapsed in maternity triage. I got two and a half full bags of fluid before I felt somewhat normal. Threw up crackers and water and then had a consult with the doctor about keeping food down. He prescribed me some new meds.
I went home and the headache/migraine intensified. Just moving triggered it to worsen. Called my doctor crying and she prescribed a pregnancy safe migraine med and oh my gosh I feel like a real girl again. I can function at a better level! Yay!
Yesterday was miles better. I only had jello, chicken broth and ginger beer but I kept everything down! And NO headaches!
(We also moved to Jake’s parents yesterday. That was an adventure.)
So I’m feeling hopeful that my symptoms can finally be managed! I’ve resigned myself to the fact that I probably will throw up the whole pregnancy, but knowing there’s some relief is a huge weight off my shoulders. I’ve felt like a shell for months.
And raptor is great! Wiggly! It took a very nerve wracking three minutes to find his heartbeat and when we did it was not a loud as usual but the L&D nurse said that’s normal at this stage. The heartbeat was steady and strong though!
Next appointment is in two weeks and we’ll have an ultrasound then.