don't think of neil falling sick on the run. don't think of him trying to hide it from mary because it's not like she can do anything. because he doesn't want to be hit for complaining, for wanting help. don't think about the first time he gets sick with the foxes. don't think about him trying to hide it until he literally passes out on the court. and neil and wymack have to have a talk. just don't think about it.