female blogger

my condolences to anyone who’s ever lost me
and to anyone who got lost in me
or to anyone who ever felt they took a loss with me.
my apologies.
for the misunderstanding or the lack thereof.
i’m sorry you missed the God in me.
and i’m sorry you missed the light.
i’m sorry you forgot the way i arose like the moon,
night after night.
with the burden to forgive
eager to feed you everything.
see.. i’m a holy woman.
i know what it’s like to give life to a being
without ever needing to press skin against one another.
i’ve practiced how to hold my tongue long enough,
i’m afraid i forgot to say goodbye.
i’m afraid you’re under the impression that i was made to please you.
i was under the impression, you understood me better.
the truth is,
i’m a super woman.
and somedays i’m an angry woman.
and somedays i’m a crazy woman.
for still waiting..
for still loving harder even if i’m aching.
for still trusting that I’m still worth the most.
for still searching
for someone to understand me better.
—  Reyna Biddy
  • female bloggers: I hate that thing where men deny our experiences like they are authorities on our lives.
  • male commenters: That doesn't happen.
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This Day In Crime

Brenda Spencer
‘I Don’t Like Mondays’ 

Female mass murderers/school shooters are a rare occurrence, but not on January the 29th 1979, at Cleveland Elementary School in San Diego. Whilst the young children were waiting at the school gates for it to open, Brenda Spencer got her rifle and stood at her window. Spencer fired 30 rounds of ammunition, killing the principle, a custodian and injuring 8 children. Spencer then barricaded herself in her home hours before being arrested. 


Whilst inside on the phone a reporter asked why? Brenda’s response was “I don’t like Mondays”  

Brenda Spencer was sentenced to 25 to life 

Spencer has had 4 parole requests denied, her next hearing is 2019

A Message to Women:

you deserve better than to be called “pretty”
you deserve better than to get upset and go online to act petty.
you deserve better than to be on “hold”.
you deserve better than to hold onto someone who’s already let go.
you deserve better than to be held in convenience.

you deserve better than to keep your relationship “lowkey” because..
“someone might see”
and
someone “might ask questions”
and someone might wonder why someone like you would rather hang around a boy who wont commit when someone like them is ready to love you.
is ready to learn you.

ready to show you -
who you are.
paint you a picture of you through his eyes and convince you that you are indeed art.

show you the way he’s mesmerized the way your broken heart still beats
the way it flutters when whole eyes and yours meet
the way it silences to express its beat.
show you how much he realizes you need healing from this hurting.
i know you.
i know something about what you’ve been through.
i know some days feel like heavy weights and hearts with protection that you’ve failed to break through and i know what it’s like to put heart break on hold for the love of your life who forgot relationships take two.
i know he forgot to say “i love you, too”
i know he forgot to stay faithful.
i know you forgot about the time you promised yourself you’d do better but every time you try to leave something keeps pulling you back - telling you
this is the best you’ll ever have in life.
so you stay the night. - - - every night he misses you after remembering your head and how good it works.
and how good it feels to know no matter how bad it gets - you’ll always come back.
I know you.
and he does too.
we know the way your stomach drops at the thought of him loving someone better.
so he knows you wont search for better
and I know you deserve better.
I know you deserve better than to have your spirit bruised.
I know you deserve someone who empowers you.
I know just how beautiful you could be if only you could see your own value.
I know you.
you’re a collection of paradox’s
you’re a compilation of food for thought
you’re a woman - before all things.
you’re more a lover than a fighter - after all it seems..
you’re special.
and I know you know you deserve better than to settle.

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Karla Homolka Volunteering At Schools

According to a report by the Montreal edition of Breakfast Television, murderer Karla Homolka volunteered at her children’s elementary school in Notre-Dame-de-Grace last March.

Homolka also supervised a school trip of kindergarten children from Montreal’s Greaves Adventist Academy in March and once brought her dog to the school for students to pet.

The private school are well aware of Homolka’s criminal past.

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Satanic Murder
Jarno Elg

On the 21st of November 1998 in Finland, Jarno Elg, 17 year old girl Terhi Tervashonka, Mika Riska and a 16 year old boy brutally tortured, murdered and dismembered and ate an unnamed 23 year old male. The gang went to the home and strangled him to death, then dissected his body parts for a satanic ritual whilst listening to Norweigan black metal band Ancient’s album, The Cainian Chronicle.

A leg was found at a local dumpsite prompting the investigation authorities labelled, “The Dumpsite Murder”

This case was labelled one of the worst in Finnish history, in detail information has been sealed for 40 years.

During trial, Tervashonka was declared legally insane

Jarno Elg was sentenced to life
Terhi Tervashonka served a few years before being released in 2003
Mika Riska served 2 years

In 2007, Tervashonka murdered again and received a 10 year sentence