felt like sharing some feels

Activities for Different Energy Levels

I have been in a low-energy state so frequently lately that I feel like I’m accomplishing nothing and contributing nothing to my life or anyone else’s. To try to combat this, I made a list of things I like to do (or don’t hate doing) that can help me get through a day. The less time you waste trying to decide what to do with your time, the better, because that shit is so exhausting.

I felt like I’d share this in case anyone wants some ideas for when you feel totally overwhelmed, exhausted, bored, and frustrated. Here goes!

Low Energy

▪ Listen to audiobooks or podcasts
▪ Edit photos on apps like pixlr or instagram
▪ Look up and bookmark some recipes you’d like to make soon
▪ Play guitar, laying down if needed
▪ Research or plan out future volunteering
▪ Read about meditation from a book or article
▪ Research or plan out steps needed to do a future DIY or art project
▪ Do some light stretching while laying down or sitting
▪ Do some basic chair yoga or tai chi while following an instructional YouTube video
▪ Bookmark new resources for managing symptoms
▪ Make lists or draw diagrams of things you’re interested in
▪ Watch a Ted Talk or informative video
▪ Read using a kindle or book
▪ Scan through previously bookmarked resources
▪ Watch YouTube videos you’ve marked as “Watch Later" 


Medium Energy

▪ Build a model from a kit or printed paper template
▪ Socialize via text or online social media
▪ Research future volunteering opportunities or Return to Work programs
▪ Organize, rearrange, tidy up a section of your personal area 
▪ Make plans for later this week or next week
▪ Manage medication: call doctors, pharmacy. Refill your pill calendar.
▪ Install updates on your computer
▪ Take a long, hot shower. Use nice soap.
▪ Filing: sort your papers into their folders.
▪ Spend some time with a pet, cuddle.

High Energy

▪ Socialize in-person
▪ Learn something new: languages, coding, coping techniques, art, new music, DIY projects.
▪ Cook something healthy for today or for the week.
▪ Creative projects: start one and do your best to finish it.
▪ Plan something and execute it, no matter how small. Bonus points if there is a tangible proof of accomplishment like a model or painting or a song you learned.
▪ Go walk around the mall or Target. Doesn’t matter where, you don’t have to buy anything, just get out of the house and walk a little.

So some guy at work paid for a big order with a large wad of twenty dollar bills, so I went to the bank to deposit this. When I got there, there were three cars in the drive through, so I went inside instead. While the other tellers were busy with the drive through, the bank manager was at the counter to help me with my deposit.

He looked Very Tired.

I gave him my deposit and we talked a bit about the weather, and he then set to work counting out the mountain of 20s. Once he finished, I explained to him apologetically that one customer had paid for a large order with the stack of 20s.

As he goes about the rest of the deposit, he nods and says that that happens, then paused for a moment, going on in a tired voice:

“We had a very angry person here earlier.”

“You did?”

“Yes. He demanded $55,000…”

In ones, I think to myself.

“…in nickels.”

I try to keep myself from bursting out laughing.

It gets very hard to do so as he goes on, in the same exhausted voice, “There is no regular car built that can carry that number of nickels without breaking the suspension.”

“Wh-what on earth would he want with $55,000 in nickels?”

“Oh, he didn’t actually want it. He was just demanding it because he was angry at us.” He pauses. “I wish we had $55,000 in nickels.”

“Why?”

He stares for a moment, still very calm and Very Tired.

“Because I would have liked to have given it to him, loaded it into his car, and watched his car fall apart.”

Today was full of growth and reminders. My sweet son struggled that his Grandma would have his cousins over to spend the night Thursday night. I explained the importance that she spend time with all her grandchildren. But, this morning he didn’t want to go to her house and join them all for breakfast. Perhaps he felt rejected, sad, or just angry. He hasn’t ever stayed the night there …. So his solution is to deny them his presence.

This made me laugh, because I did the same thing several years ago and still have to fight the urge periodically.

My cousin hurt my feelings by not giving me my millionth hug during a visit. He was tired, long day, headache… I still remember those feelings of rejection and lack of love. These weren’t true if course. I vowed to not hug him again. 😐😞
Who suffers most??? Me of course!

I am glad to have this vivid experience with my cousin to help me understand my son and try to help him express his feelings and deal with them.

Additionally it is useful in dating and other relationships. I have felt like withdrawing from some relationships because it is difficult to share. Sometimes I feel rejected or unwanted. But, who would I hurt most? Me of course! I feel this hurt because I care for them and obviously want to be in their presence. So by me removing myself from the small time I do have with them robs me of the joy of being with them.

My cousin died shortly after my little tantrum. I am eternally grateful that I drove the twelve hours back to his place and asked him for a walk on that snowy evening. With great embarrassment, I explained how I felt. Not only did he forgive me of my pettiness, but he shared extra love with me. And especially now that he is gone, I have this special memory and his constant example of love and service to draw upon.

So when faced with current relationship challenges, I remember him and work to communicate, understand, and love.

Activities for Different Energy Levels

I have been in a low-energy state so frequently lately that I feel like I’m accomplishing nothing and contributing nothing to my life or anyone else’s. To try to combat this, I made a list of things I like to do (or don’t hate doing) that can help me get through a day. The less time you waste trying to decide what to do with your time, the better, because that shit is so exhausting.

I felt like I’d share this in case anyone wants some ideas for when you feel totally overwhelmed, exhausted, bored, and frustrated. Here goes!

Low Energy

▪ Listen to audiobooks or podcasts
▪ Edit photos on apps like pixlr or instagram
▪ Look up and bookmark some recipes you’d like to make soon
▪ Play guitar, laying down if needed
▪ Research or plan out future volunteering
▪ Read about meditation from a book or article
▪ Research or plan out steps needed to do a future DIY or art project
▪ Do some light stretching while laying down or sitting
▪ Do some basic chair yoga or tai chi while following an instructional YouTube video
▪ Bookmark new resources for managing symptoms
▪ Make lists or draw diagrams of things you’re interested in
▪ Watch a Ted Talk or informative video
▪ Read using a kindle or book
▪ Scan through previously bookmarked resources
▪ Watch YouTube videos you’ve marked as “Watch Later" 


Medium Energy

▪ Build a model from a kit or printed paper template
▪ Socialize via text or online social media
▪ Research future volunteering opportunities or Return to Work programs
▪ Organize, rearrange, tidy up a section of your personal area 
▪ Make plans for later this week or next week
▪ Manage medication: call doctors, pharmacy. Refill your pill calendar.
▪ Install updates on your computer
▪ Take a long, hot shower. Use nice soap.
▪ Filing: sort your papers into their folders.
▪ Spend some time with a pet, cuddle.

High Energy

▪ Socialize in-person
▪ Learn something new: languages, coding, coping techniques, art, new music, DIY projects.
▪ Cook something healthy for today or for the week.
▪ Creative projects: start one and do your best to finish it.
▪ Plan something and execute it, no matter how small. Bonus points if there is a tangible proof of accomplishment like a model or painting or a song you learned.
▪ Go walk around the mall or Target. Doesn’t matter where, you don’t have to buy anything, just get out of the house and walk a little.

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World Guardian reblog game!

What quest is the most pivotal in your World Guardian’s story? Like, which was the biggest game-changer in their personal character development? It can be more than one quest!

I’ll start: Magnolia’s is Desert Treasure.

do you ever just feel….like you’re not here? in both ways, but mentally you’re just spaced out and physically you can’t feel a thing. it’s a weird fucking feeling. i had that this morning when i was walking through the mall and it was like i couldn’t even feel my feet hitting the ground. my eyes were glazed over and looking past everyone, and whenever ppl did make eyecontact wih me i instantly felt like i was being put on the spot. i felt like i was just floating through space even though i did rationally know that if i were to bump into someone, they’d give me a nasty look because watch out, damn it. but i just felt so odd and out of place?? like i was there, but i wasn’t really there, like i might as well have been invisible

PHOTOCARD SHIPPING WARNING (??)

hi everyone! i usually don’t make posts like this, but i feel like i should be giving attention to this matter, because it can end ugly for people if it happens; people can be accused of being fake or whatsoever while they might eventually not be it. 

cards that don’t arrive at it’s destination: during the summer i sent a card from italy, my holiday destination, to a friend in England, but in the end this card never arrived at my friend’s place. then, during christmas i sent two christmas cards at the same time, one of them included a photocard of sehun inside, to Australia and the other to America. in the end, only one of the two arrived (thankfully the one with the photocard inside). i thought it was just my “luck” being bad, but one of my friends send a card from england to scotland, which is pretty close to one another, but it never arrived either. 

damaged envelopes: something that might be just as worse is getting your photocard damaged or even lost. last year i traded cards with a friend, but when the envelope arrived, it was ripped at the side and when i picked it up, the card fell out; this could’ve happened sooner meaning i would not have got my photocard. again, i thought this could’ve been my “luck” being bad, but again, a friend told me the same happened to them and even worse cards looked like they were opened on purpose.

photocards have the size/look of credit cards and could possibly be opened on purpose thinking they are. another thing with the lost cards is the the fact the post is getting a lot more automatically, meaning no one is taking care of our cards anymore; having it end up getting damaged by a machine or getting lost somewhere along the road.

please be careful in the future when sending photocards with the post, because as i said earlier people might think someone’s “fake” because they did not keep their trading promise, while they might actually did! maybe consider sending it in a small box, because packages (in my experience) have less trouble when it comes to getting lost or damaged! if you still want to send it as a card, consider sending it with extra protection, for example in between cardboard or whatsoever to make it “thicker” and “less fragile.”

So, I’d like to try and inject some hope into the Olicity fandom if possible… I’ve been missing a lot of the drama in the fandom, but I know roughly that many are upset Oliver and Felicity are not back together yet. I just felt like sharing some things, so if you’re interested feel free to keep on reading…

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