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Untitled Poem #4

Why does this shit happen,

Again, again, and again?


Another one bites the dust,

Said that one Mercury.

Now my heart feels cold,

Like numbing agent for surgery.


Walking zombies, drugged to the hilt,

We try to be the one to pull Excalibur.

But hilted or hiltless,

We’re on some dealer’s hitlist.


Back to those zombies, though.

We get a taste,

Then get bitten into like dough.

Feel those teeth sink like a line.


Sinkline,

I’m fucked?

Nah, I think fine.

That is, until that reel pulls.

Watch the whole rerun unfold,

When that movie reel pulls.

-markrentsboy

Originally posted by subhumanoidmeltdown

3x7, Feels

Y’all, this was a slow, but ultimately well done episode. I’m going to break it down into the three main storylines for my feelings. 

SpaceDad and SpaceGrandDad

This was a necessary and cute storyline. It was nice for us to explore J’onn’s life outside the DEO a bit. Like most adults on shows about teenagers (and let’s be honest, J’onn is the adult and the rest of those dumb dumbs are the teenagers), the adults rarely get full lives. I like that the writers know that the easiest way to show a character as three dimensional is through their relationships, and that they chose a family relation instead of forcing another romance. I’m excited to have more scenes with J’onn’s dad. He seems like a hoot and that he’ll eventually give Alex a hard time. 

Mon-vom 

Okay. We all knew this was coming. But it could’ve been a lot fucking worse. We don’t see they kiss on the mouth at all the whole episode which I’m really happy about. If they did that, even to play to the cheap seats (looking at your k*rahell shippers) it would have been in bad taste. 

I’m now interested in the way they set up his and Saturn Girl’s storyline for this season, but I think they fell on the lazy tropes and writing techniques of last season to reintroduce the character. I get the point of using familiar styles, especially if you want to reintroduce, (e.g. Spike entering Sunnydale is a number of ways throughout the Buffy series), but Mon El had such a bad rap at the end of season two, they should have modified the story just a bit more. 

All in all, it wasn’t my favorite storyline in an episode so far in this season by any means, but it wasn’t completely different or off from the six amazing episodes we’ve gotten so far. 

Sam

Here is why you need to watch the episode. The CW fucking buried the lead, and think on purpose (they wanted to warn the fandom about Mon El returning and have us not feel tricked into watching an episode because of Sam, which I appreciate). But man, oh, man, was this a Sam-packed episode! I’m just left with so many questions! I’m really at a loss for thoughts. it was so good. 

And it answered the question about how Sam would suddenly go all evil and become Reign. I’m glad the speculation about Ruby is suddenly null, but I’m nervous the awoken!Sam (Reign) will try to do something to Ruby. I hope Alex and Lena are they to protect her in spades. 

omg, lena is going to have so many feelings when we see her next. Which probably won’t be until after the break. Unless she’s in the Supergirl episode of the crossover.

I just have so many thoughts about the Sam stuff, but it won’t fully hit me until like mid-thanksgiving dinner after I’ve had two mulled wines. 

Going through the feed, I found a comment about how Boruto was the anime that got them into the anime fandom, which I found ironic because to me Naruto was the anime that got me hooked onto anime. Then I realized how old I am…:(  But then again, isn’t that normal?

As the old anime ends and a sequel begins a new generation of fans joins in and the fandom grows.

P.S.: If you like Boruto you’ll love Naruto, do watch it. :D

sovietstar  asked:

Muammar knows Bashar is lying and trying to show he's not affected. He moves his hand to ruffle Bashar's hair and sighs deeply. | Muammar: 'Bashar, if someday you have to face big troubles, please stay strong. Maybe you will be the leader of your country and it won't be easy, but that hasn't been easy for me and also for great men like your father' | Bashar sobs, it sounds like a goodbye.

ALL THE FEELS

‘Come on, young Bashar,’ Muammar says, sighing again. It’s breaking his heart to hear Bashar sobbing like this. ‘I know how hard it is, sometimes it feels like you’re all alone in the world… not too long ago I was seen as the most dangerous person in the world… but Bashar, I do feel that one day you really are going to have to fight for what is right… and I really do think you have the strength, bravery and love for Syria in you, somewhere, to do that.’ 

He’s not so sure why he does it, but he decides to lightly kiss Bashar on the head. 

  https://youtu.be/piFJVwr1YYA (Disintegrating by Myuu)

      Tears streamed down the brother’s faces. Cuphead laid sobbing into the chest of the man who had saved their lives numerous times. The man they had once called an enemy. Mugman had his arm over his brother’s shoulders, sobbing sharply. His violet tuxedo was now soaked in his blood, his minty-green eyes locked and staring, unblinking and never-seeing. Callie raced to the brother’s sides, pulling them away from his body, Cuphead fighting away from Callie and curling into a fetal position at his side. Mugman sat with his brother, the brothers unable to speak from tears. Callie placed a hand on Cuphead’s shoulder, the boy slowly sitting up, and collapsing into Callie’s arms. The Inkling embraced the child, Mugman leaning against them. “You know, he really did love you boys”. Her voice was silky and smooth, yet choked with sadness.
 “H-h-how did y-you know?” Cuphead sobbed.
 “He told me”. She paused. “…He told me that no matter what he would protect you both. It’s his promise”. Cuphead fell silent, sobbing into Callie’s shoulders, thoughts racing through his mind. The man they had once called an enemy, loved them like a father would love his son? The brothers could barely believe it. Cuphead let go of Callie, the Inkling standing before them.
 “I-I’m sorry”. Cuphead turned to the body as Callie walked away, collapsing to his knees, Mugman standing beside him.
 “Cup, I c-can’t bel-ieve this…”
 “A-and he died… th-th-thinking h-e failed us… T-t-thinking w-we hated him…” The brothers made one final look at the body of the man who sacrificed his life for them, before turning and walking away.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FBLFMuASF60 (Dearly Beloved cover by Myuu)

   It was years later after Dice’s death. The two brothers were living alone together, after Kettle had gone. They had learned so much about Dice than they needed to. His deep-rooted love for the boys he was afraid to express… He left everything to them, the casino that the Devil had given Dice after the battle, his house, his everything… Everything seemed to finally settle. Casino-visitors would remark on how the brothers had ‘really grown to Dice’s figure’. They would never be like him, however. Yet they were very much like him… Everything was relatively normal, until one night, Cuphead was awoken to the faint scraping of claws on stone and his closet banging loudly to the point of waking Mugman in the room over up. It got worse and worse and worse. One night, however, things were different. The same scraping and banging, yet violent and loud. Mugman was out with his friends, so there’s no use in yelling. A large… Thing, emerged from the closet, eerily and with a jerking step, walking into the room. It was a mass of pure darkness. Cuphead was frozen over in fear, shuddering and trembling as the thing hissed at him. A long pause, and that hiss became a whimper as it focused on something in the centre of the room. Cuphead gathered the courage to turn and sit upright in his bed. Standing there, as faint as a dim light, with a violet and golden aura was a man as tall as the beast, towering over everything. But he was dead… or was he, after all? Cuphead blinked. The next second he was laying flat on his back, the shimmering figure standing over him. In an all-to-familiar voice he said, “It’s fine. I will always protect you”. The man stood again, and glanced at Cup with those minty-green eyes. He winked, and with a sharp yelp, he and the beast plunged into the depths of the closet, never to be seen. Cuphead heard the door open in the distance, and he launched out of bed.
 “MUG! HE KEPT HIS PROMISE!”
 “Who did?”
 “DICE!”
 “I KNEW I saw someone like him following me… Wait.. That WAS him!” Cuphead collapsed sobbing into his brother’s arms, repeatedly choking ‘He kept his promise’ over and over. For once, the rattling never struck. All was peaceful.

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Sometimes I just kinda wanna cry because in the MCU, Steven Grant Rogers:

  • Was violently bullied throughout his childhood and into adulthood.
  • Watched his mother waste away and die.
  • Was an orphan by his mid-to-late teens.
  • Grew up in poverty, during the Great Depression, as the child of immigrants .
  • Grew up color-blind, partially-deaf, malnourished/stunted, and chronically-ill, in a culture that was so big on eugenics that Nazis took their cues from the US systems.
  • Signed up for the army and then dove on what he believed to be a live grenade because he believed the best use of his life was to exchange it for the lives of others.
  • Fought on the front lines of the bloodiest and most horrific war in human history, where he undoubtedly witnessed terrible violence and atrocities.
  • Watched his best friend die and lived with the guilt of believing he was responsible.
  • Crashed a plane into the ocean, fully believing he was going to die.
  • Was frozen alive.
  • Woke up to find that nearly everyone he’d ever known was dead and gone, and his home was changed nearly beyond recognition; he could never truly go home from the war. Ever.
  • Lost his shot at happiness with the one woman who ever actually looked at him when he was small and frail, and had to watch her mind come apart, and later carry her coffin.
  • Found out his sacrifice – the thing he gave up his life, his friends, his whole world for – was in vain, and that HYDRA had corrupted the legacy of the people he loved.
  • Found out his best friend survived, and that he’d abandoned him to a fate worse than death, and got to then live with THAT fresh guilt.
  • Is seen by most people as Captain America; almost no one sees Steve Rogers.
  • Was only 26 years old, biologically, during the Battle of New York. 
  • Has not had the time or resources to cope with any of this.
THIS MIGHT BE A REACH BUT I THINK I’M ONTO SOMETHING HERE.

OKAY OKAY SO LISTEN 
There’s a lot of discorse about the new season and that’s understandable BUT I want you guys to look at something with me for a second. 

 I wanna talk about Keith and Lance. We all know Keith’s going through a lot, the blade of marmora is convincing him his own life matters less than the mission, that if he died it would just be for the greater good of the cause. So he’s pulling away, trying to make it so that Voltron doesn’t need him so that he could be… disposable. 

So Keith talks to Shiro and tries to get him to go back to being the black paladin. And *cough cough* fake *cough* Shiro tells him to buckle the heck up and stop whining and just be the black paladin. He doesn’t see, in that moment just what Keith is trying to do. So he gets mad. 

This is a face of pure dissapointment in Shiro. And Keith sees it. He really sees it, and feels it too. But he doesnt know what to do about it.

He’s the lone wolf, right? He doesn’t know how to function in a team properly. In the B.O.M he’s much more independant. Yes, he gets orders and people he goes on with missions but if you really watch most of those missions involve very little teamwork. 

So Keith is pulling away, but at the same time he’s getting the rejection from everyone in the team that’s pushing him away. When he shows up late in the begining of episode one Hunk, Pidge and Lance are super pissed at him, right? 

Right? 

No, go back and look at Lance. He’s not angry. He’s worried. 

Yeah, he says “Are you even taking this seriously?” But think about it. Keith is someone who throws himself into missions. He takes everything he does seriously and he puts a 100% of himself into what he does. He doesn’t half ass things, and it pays off. He gets results. 

Lance is used to seeing Keith do well. At the Garrison he was top of the class, when he was still with Voltron he usually spent his free time training. And now, all of a sudden he’s late to missions, falling behind while he’s the leader. 

Not only that but remember this scene? 

 Again,everyone looks super pissed right? No look at Lance. 

And remember the dialogue? 

Allura:You keep saying you’re sorry but your actions say otherwise. Do you realise that your actions put the entire team in jeoprady? 
Lance: And not Just the team but the refugees too. 

and again, look at his face as he says it. 

He’s not angry. He’s confused there. Think about it. What did Keith tell Pidge when she tried to leave? That other people’s lives were at stake if she left. Keith cares about the people he’s out there protecting. Lance understands that this is not how Keith normally is. 

We know that they got closer in season 3 with Lance opening up to Keith and all and you might even call them friends. Sure he’s not as close as (the real) Shiro is to Keith, but he’s close enough to see Keith isn’t himself. 

But what if… what if Keith did open up. 

I get that this might be somewhat of a reach BUT if you watch Keith’s vlog, it’s very likely he wasn’t alone when he filmed it (he looks like he’s talking to someone off camera. but also tells them to get them out of there. Not only that but the camera turns off and from how emotional he got and the way he was walking its unlikely he turned it off and if you watch Allura’s vlog, she definitely gets closer to turn it off). Now my first thought would be that seeming it’s tech related it would be likely that Pidge would be with him. 

But it doesn’t seem like something that Pidge would be into. Sitting and making vlogs with the paladins. Not her style. 

Okay so maybe Coran? He was the first to upload a vlog, and the camera might be some castle gear? Sounds reasonable enough. But why only be there for Keith’s vlog? Allura was definitely alone during her’s. Also, I dont see them having the kind of bond where Keith would say any of that to Coran. No offense Space unc, we love you. 

OKAY so not Coran or Pidge… so maybe Allura? 

No, the bond isn’t strong enough. As someone who is pretty similar to Keith in defense mechanisms, I don’t see him trusting her to a point where he’s this open with her especially after what happened the last time he opened up about his Galra identity. 

(We all know where I’m going with this, but for argument’s sake; I will keep going. Feel free to skip ahead.) 

Okay so Hunk maybe? He has the tech know-how and stood up for Keith during the whole Galra thing. Even if he did tease him a little… Okay but even then they haven’t really had much bonding since then. I suppose it’s possible if Keith was feeling particularly vulnerable and whatever. But… Would Hunk really bother Keith to make a vlog? and would Keith ask Hunk to help with a vlog? 

It doesn’t really seem in character. Yes, they’re closer but still… not close enough. 

So that leaves Shiro and Lance. First, lets look at why I don’t think it’s Shiro. 

As we know Shiro is someone Keith looks up to. He’s always extremely respectful towards him and it shows in his facial expressions and way of speaking. 

but then look at this; 

Thats not a face Keith would make at Shiro.

You know who he does make faces like that at? 

L A N C E 

So lets think about this. Does Lance have the tech know how? Well he’s always stealing Pidge’s shit so I’mma go ahead and say, yeah to that one. Allura seems equally technically inclined as Lance, so seeming she has no trouble with it that makes sense. 

And even if Keith didn’t ask Lance to help him with his vlog, you know what does seem Lance like? Suggesting Keith makes a vlog. 

So lets asume here, for a moment that Lance knows about Keith’s abandonment issues. That would explain why he looks so worried in the screenshot from before, right? He knows Keith is feeling rejected by his team and he knows that Keith’s behaviour has changed since he started working more with the blade. 

But while they got closer in season 3, and Lance has a better understanding of Keith now, I also think Keith was eager to put some distance between them after that outburst. So he starts working with the blade a lot, right? Meaning Lance hardly sees him. 

So they take a few steps back in their friendship.

And then Kolivan calls Keith to a mission that they all know will be dangerous and look at Lance’s face. 

Yes, you could read it as Lance not wanting his spotlight gone BUT remember that Lance isn’t as shallow as he seems at first glance. He’s not the loverboy he pretends to be and few realise it, but he masks a lot of his emotions. 

Yes, Lance thrives on attention. But do you really think that he would prioritise a show over a mission that could give them a great boost in power? No, this isn’t about the show, this goes deeper. He’s worried. He’s worried about Keith. 

He doesn’t want him to go. He needs him around. But he cant tell him that. Especially not in front of everyone. 

So what does Lance do? 

He makes a stupid argument, its not much, but it’s all he’s got. “We can’t razzle dazzle the crowd with four lions.” 
We need you, I need you. Thats what he’s trying to say. 

And Keith refuses. 

So Lance has that same expression. He’s looking at Shiro in dissbelief this time because he can’t believe he’s letting him go. 

So what we’ve established thus far is the following; 

-Lance definitely feels closer to Keith than he used to. 
-Lance was probably there during Keith’s vlog.
-Lance isn’t as straight forward as people think he is. 
-There’s probably some distance between them right now. 
-Lance has noticed Keith’s change in behaviour. 

So with all that in mind, do you really think Lance doesn’t see that Keith is in a bad place. He knows something is up. He can feel Keith pulling and he’s trying to tell him that they need him around but he doesn’t know how to say it. And then… then Keith tells them he’s leaving. 

yeah, everyone looks sad, but look at Lance. He looks deep in thought. What do you think he’s thinking? He just realised he lost Keith. And he gets it. Suddenly it all makes sense. Keith more or less reforced the bond between Black and Shiro and he was acting strange, showing up late. This is what’s been up with Keith and Lance finally figure out that this whole time, he was losing Keith. 

But he gives it one last try. 

Who am I going to make fun of? 

It’s so much more than a playfull jab. Think about it. Really think about it. 

“Who am I going to make fun of?”

Who am I gonna talk to? 

Don’t go.