ok the whole “notice me senpai” thing is probably the worst way to get my attention and to,,”notice” you.
the more you spam me with “notice me senpai” the more chances that I’ll probably ignore you cause that shit’s honestly annoying as hell. Please don’t do that :’’^( not just to me but to other people too.
what other websites are you using as part of your tumblr hiatus/disappearings/whatever you want to call it? bc lord knows I could use more sites to go to off this hellhole besides AO3, youtube, and news websites.
I’ve been spending a lot of time on furvilla + pokefarm Q!! both are moderated + esp furvilla is nice for queer stuff (villagers are any genders, u can talk about ur orientations + stuff all u want, etc) (ALSO THE BLOCK BUTTON WORKS PROPERLY)
pokefarm Q is more of a timewaster but theres a lot of forums too! (i havent dug around in them much yet but th site is moderated + there seems to be a real good amount of queer folks there so im assuming its alright!) (also th site looks real bad before u sign up but Just Bear With Me its A Good w/ Lots Of Content once u get into it) (ALSO th Entire site is child friendly so good for repulsed folks like me!)
im also spendin a good amount of time on furaffinity which is maybe not th most NonToxic place but th block button works + it has Some degree of moderation (+ Lord Theres A Lot Of Queer Folks Its Real Nice) (ALSO its so good for art inspiration + also commissions its. very diverse + i honestly Lov It) (ALSO ALSO theres a mandatory maturity rating for each piece of art + usually folks sort it correctly so u can only see SFW things if u want!!) (THO as an extension a warning to m fellow s/ex repulsed peeps it can get. Bad in that sense so jst Be Prepared if u go lookin)
i also very briefly dipped m toes into chicken smoothie, it didnt hook me too much but its Very Well moderated from what i can tell (also its child friendly + takes it Super Seriously which is again Great for repulsed ppl)
thats about i think?? im still tryin stuff every so often but theres where ive been so far! :O
what? [taking off jacket] i told you to bring more layers but of course you didn't listen and now [piling scarves on Jimin] now look, i've got to make sure you don't FREEZE to death and [taking somebody else's hat] how long have you been cold you should've said something sooner,
this is probably gonna be long but whatever. stick with me.
soooo im currently rereading the original pjo series. and i am feeling. so many. things. i realized a lot of things too.
okayyy so in PJO, we view percy as reckless. stupid. always acting on impulse. basically that dumb guy that never thinks befire doing things. BUT in HOO, we start viewing him as mature and smart and strategic and all that. But he didnt grow THAT much. Percy didnt age that much in hoo.
Remember that iconic scene (Mark of Athena, i think?) where they meet some kind of monster/bad ppl (im too lazy to search it up) aboard the argo II and it was percy that thought of saying that Dionysus was with them? Percy knew about their fear of dionysus, and how he turned them inti dolphins. So he got some diet coke as “proof” that he was there and asked frank to turn into a dolphin. Genius, right?
Annabeth called him smart after that.
That was the only time we considered him smart. (Well not ONLY, just one of the few times.) But guess what? He’s been doing smart shit like that for years already.
I cant really mention all of the times he did something smart/wise. If i did it would take me days before i finish typing.
So i realized why we only thought he was smart in hoo but not in pjo.
In PJO, it was in first person, so we saw everything through the eyes of percy. In this series, he only focused about how stupid he was, about how great other people were and how better they are then him. But he doesnt focus about all the good/smart/wise things he’s done. Percy doesnt know that he’s smart. All he knows is that he is stupid, worthless, and all other negative things.
in HOO, however, we were reading from another person’s point of view. We saw percy from another person’s eyes. We noticed things that he doesnt notice himself.
Hazel called him a god, once, because he was just THAT attractive. Everyone else looked up to him, and thinks he’s the most powerful/strongest person to exist.
But Percy doesnt know that. All he knows is that he’s stupid.
SOOOO, long story short, Percy hates himself.
Ok bye sorry if this was long I just love Percy so much and i a m f e e l i n g s o m U C h
Back on the feels good train! If parallel to the short, I know Dario would be the one who would be desperate to hide his feelings. If not parallel, I think they’d both hide their feelingst! Their hearts would be so stubborn, tho, haha!