feeling indecisive

“bisexuals can’t choose”

You’re right! This is why all bisexuals also:

  • have both a cat and a dog
  • mix pepsi and coke together in the same glass
  • wear pants under their skirts
  • always “dare you to tell the truth” at sleepovers 
  • all have the Bisexual Haircut™
  • subsist entirely on pizza-burgers, ice-cream-cake, turducken, etc.
  • and for that matter, only eat Chocolate-Vanilla-Swirl ice cream
  • sleep with the blankets on exactly half of their bodies
  • can’t go to sporting events because they’ll just cheer for both teams
  • only own sleeveless jackets
  • think the movie was just as good as the book
the private you
  • applies to both Moon and IC. the private you, but also a deep part of you. it's possible that you can relate to it more than any other signs because it's a deep part of you, it's your foundation
  • Aries IC/Aries Moon: needs independence from loved ones, so isn't always present. this need isn't obvious though. quick to react. privately wilful and sexual. wants to explore all things and all desires and not hold back. inwardly feels separated from everyone. intense feelings dominate but this is not obvious, feelings often kept hidden. secretly wants to be alone, might feel bad for admitting it so just does things alone anyway. not afraid to act by itself.
  • Taurus IC/Taurus Moon: privately very stubborn and resistant, and privately needs comfort in all things. wants to have beautiful things and comfortable things, but in private, comfortable settings (i.e. they might pretend that comfort isn't a priority for them to not seem like babies, when really it is). privately lazy and loving. rarely change their lives once it is in a settled pattern. emotionally blunt.
  • Gemini IC/Gemini Moon: wants to have an intellectually stimulating open house system. inwardly feels bipolar and changeable. cleverness is kept private, as are all their thoughts. interested and observant of everyone but doesn't make this known. usually do not express emotion and tend to intellectualise just about everything.
  • Cancer IC/Cancer Moon: whatever they own will be held very closely. wants to belong to a close-knit circle so close that they consider themselves family. tends to protect and take care of. inwardly is an emotional mess and nostalgic but this is kept private. feel a lot, but rarely express a lot. sensitive to anything from their past. easy to express simple emotions like joy, but not easy to be vulnerable and show anything deep.
  • Leo IC/Leo Moon: wants to be the entertainer but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels special and creative. ego can dominate but is kept private (i.e., you'll deny that feelings or ego dominate) the full extent of your creative gifts may also be kept private, but you inwardly feel very creative. needs to feel regal and august.
  • Virgo IC/Virgo Moon: very helpful and competent, but privately. domestically refined, secretly critical. very perfectionistic and usually doesn't express emotion. wants to be of use to people but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels inadequate or that there is always more they should be doing.
  • Libra IC/Libra Moon: strong desire for companionship and tend to not enjoy being alone. ask people constantly for advice on what to do. wants to share and be relational, but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels sensitive and indecisive. needs to feel equal, i.e. the woman who must feel equal to a man, and vice versa. secretly diplomatic and a peace-keeper. struggles with comparing themselves to others.
  • Scorpio IC/Scorpio Moon: when emotions hit they are powerful and they feel chaotic. often emotionally dramatic. wants closeness and intensity but pushes people away at the same time. inwardly an emotionally troubled person, tends to hold onto intense hatred. struggles with emotions and whether to act on them or not. despite this, their intensity is only shown to their loved ones.
  • Sagittarius IC/Sagittarius Moon: feels like they are able or wants to travel and leave home in the blink of an eye. needs to feel free. emotionally irresponsible and will reject whatever does not give them freedom. wants to explore cultures and the world, but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels rootless and lost. constant searching.
  • Capricorn IC/Capricorn Moon: dislikes being shown affection unless they initiate it. needs to feel respected. emotionally responsible and capable. wants recognition but in private, comfortable settings. ambition is strong but can be kept private. inwardly feels serious and does not find it easy to spontaneously express joy or sadness. usually this does not bother them as they prefer to keep to themselves.
  • Aquarius IC/Aquarius Moon: often feels pressured to express emotion but just can't fake it. needs to feel free and respected for their knowledge and unique traits. wants friendship and kinship. platonic love dominates over romantic. inwardly feels rootless, empty and fiercely resistant. wants to be open and ridiculously funny and eccentric, but in private, comfortable settings.
  • Pisces IC/Pisces Moon: no emotional boundaries. wants connections that feel special and glamorous to fulfil their own need for something that is so otherworldly. often escapes reality. compassionate and sensitive, but in private, comfortable settings. inwardly feels like a lost soul, so clings to fleeting things that allow them to escape.
  • I've also found that planets in the 4th house, and Moon aspects to planets can apply here too. i.e., Neptune in the 4th house can relate to the Pisces IC/Moon. Jupiter in the 4th can relate to the Sagittarius IC/Moon, Mercury for Gemini and/or Virgo, etc. Moon-Pluto aspect can relate to Scorpio IC/Scorpio Moon. Moon-Uranus aspect can relate to Aquarius IC/Aquarius Moon.
  • Examine your IC, 4th house and Moon to explore who you are deep down.
  • The IC sign is the foundation of your entire chart.
Typical Traits of Mars in the Signs

What makes us tick? What gets us all fired up? What makes us angry, and how do we express that anger? What do we really desire, and how do we go about getting it? The sign position of Mars reveals much about our basic animal nature—our aggressive instincts, our sexuality, and our drive.

ARIES:

  • aggressive, impulsive, but  don’t live in the past, and are not given to holding grudges or feeling resentful
  • listen to their instincts, make fast decisions
  • irritated by indirectness


TAURUS:

  • generally calm and easygoing people, but powerful tempers when they’re overly provoked 
  • value strength and stability, they are driven by security and an especial fondness for personal possessions
  • slow to arousal, but theirs is an earthy and powerful sensuality


GEMINI:

  • scattered and unfocused, easily bored
  • angry words—some of the most incisive and sarcastic ones— can fly around with the more energetic natives,  draw on their sharp wit to win arguments
  • often express energy through musical instruments and the like—even video games


CANCER:

  • the most passive-aggressive position, seem to resist change and to shy away from direct confrontations
  • at their best, they turn others on with a protective, almost therapeutic way about them
  • have defensive reactions and bursts of emotional agitation when feeling offended


LEO:

  • vital position, passions run high, and so does desire 
  • enjoy the pleasures of risk-taking
  • act with authority and power, and their personal magnetism generally endows them with the ability to get what they want


VIRGO:

  • have a knack for handling a wide variety of tasks at once, and a tendency to take on perhaps too much at the same time, which makes them doubt their abilities. it’s hard for them to deal with it and they might turn into complaining, over-critical nags
  • earthy and sometimes nervous sexuality, shy but open to experimentation 
  • perfectionists at the heart, though they will be the first to deny it


LIBRA:

  • overly indecisive, they feel the need to weigh all of the alternatives before taking action
  • they always play innocent when they are challenged, and can generally charm the birds out of the trees to win your favour
  • never mean but aggression has to go somewhere, so this often results sneaky behaviour and subterfuge


SCORPIO:

  • challenge themselves to do the impossible keeping their cool and their equilibrium on the surface
  • attracted to taboos and feel a certain kind of pleasure resisting their fantasies. also a black-or-white philosophy of life
  • their sexual appeal is strong enough that they generally do get what they want


SAGITTARIUS:

  • when they get angry, they feel like running not knowing how to deal with their aggression, this is where their restless and adventurous nature comes in
  • playful and fun-loving, they love friendly debates, although they can go to extremes, very passionate about what they believe in
  • need to feel like they have space, they’re the ones who will run away when things get too serious or dull


CAPRICORN:

  • a little hard on themselves, and sometimes others, though their self-control is strong when it comes to expressing anger, drive, energy, and sexuality
  • detests waste of any kind, which makes them hard to let go of things 
  • self-indulgent by nature, disciplined, realistic, possesses the ability to plan for the future —something that many other signs have difficulties doing


AQUARIUS:

  • a rather original view of the world, the tried-and-true methods of getting things done are far too boring
  • proud of their willpower and independence they are quite difficult to settle down
  • their madness isn’t easy to discover. Creative about getting what they want, you won’t always know you’re being dominated


PISCES:

  • an unusually passive placement, they don’t appear like they are capable of harming a fly
  • need a creative outlet that allowing them to express their desires of the moment, their compassion —and even their anger —freely and imaginatively
  • prone to feelings of guilt about their anger, and difficulties with asserting themselves
How dan and Phil probably broke up #56
  • Phil: Dani Snot On Fire

Retrograde planet(s) in the 1st house: the Ascendant sign’s manifestation will be heavily hindered/reduced. Very insecure, perhaps prone to self-hatred. Introverted. Identity and life path may change a lot. Likely more self-aware than most others with the same Rising. Tend to be very interesting to others, but don’t feel that way. Worldview is unstable & usually subjective but insightful.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 2nd house: have no idea what they’re worth until they take the time to study their personal values; before that happens, they tend not to have a solid foundation from which to operate & base their decisions/will on whims or temporary mindsets. May have many regrets because of this. Fluctuating & unconventional finances/possessions.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 3rd house: tend to be quiet, considerate, and thoughtful. May prefer to observe rather than participate. Acutely aware of flaws in mindsets/thoughts/statements, especially their own; analytical and clever. Shy, may be unwilling to share thoughts. May tend to talk in circles without getting to the point. Erratic productivity and mental activity.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 4th house: prone to withdraw, extremely introverted and introspective. Self-reliant, psychologically strained but independent nonetheless. Many intrinsic issues that they usually make an effort to work out. Family/upbringing is the source of much inner trouble. Possibly emotionally repressed, or they express emotion unconventionally.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 5th house: poor self-confidence, hate standing out. High standards for themselves. Fear not being received well so they may water themselves down or put up a facade. Self-censure is a big problem, and so is self-denial. Pleasures/enjoyment are stressful & cause inner tug-of-war so they may avoid it altogether. Prefer to experience pleasure in private.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 6th house: easily distracted and prone to procrastination. Tend to prefer working alone as it’s difficult to cooperate and collaborate. Can be lazy and unproductive. Need a lot of motivation and reward. May fall ill often. Mental health may be poor. Anxious. The part of the body associated with the planet or sign on the cusp may have many issues.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 7th house: usually able to acknowledge the parts of themselves they dislike/reject, thus they tend to be relatively self-aware. Very inhibited, may be hypocritical. Potentially the type to back out of commitments, present ultimatums, blackmail/manipulate, and “negotiate” their way through life in an unfair manner. Potentially repressive and superficial.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 8th house: particularly secretive; expression is inhibited. Tear themselves apart looking for answers to their problems; can be blind to things in their life that will help them, may ignore them on purpose out of fear, resentment, or self-contempt. Wise, insightful, extremely intuitive. Inner world is out of control so they’re excessively controlled on the outside.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 9th house: fleeing is a natural defense mechanism. Easily feels suffocated and the first instinct is to disappear from the immediate situation. Feel lost intellectually because nothing really makes sense to them or clicks; tend to have unconventional but intriguing opinions. Restless on the inside. Can’t settle on beliefs; can’t agree with anyone.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 10th house: feel lost in the world; feel as if the world has no room for them. Unsure of who they truly aspire to be, and that trickles down into their personal life, so they tend to be generally indecisive. Feel weak or inadequate. May have too many ambitions or a lack of them. Lack of belief in themselves. Limit their opportunities with underperformance.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 11th house: usually have issues making & keeping friends. Difficult to connect to in a lasting way, despite their efforts to integrate. Uncomfortable with fully “belonging” to a community, or attaching to dreams/ideals. May feel lost and disconnected, possibly excluded. Sometimes prone to withdrawal. Usually limit/filter their personality when socializing.

Retrograde planet(s) in the 12th house: generally present an image of themselves to others that differs greatly from who they are on the inside. Unsure of themselves, may be either extremely self-aware or extremely self-unaware depending on the sign/planet. Rarely seen or treated the way they should be. Painfully repressive but they can’t avoid the truth about themselves.


May apply to houses with their ruler in retrograde.

These descriptions also count for the nodal axis (if retrograde) to a lesser degree because retrogrades often relate to lessons that need to be learned in order for the native to “evolve” as a person, which is a big theme of the nodes.

Normal Horoscope

Aries: The stars say you are lost. That’s okay! Most people are.

Taurus: it’s surprising how much happiness a little fried dough can bring us. Shame it dosen’t work that way for people.

Gemini: Cause a scene at your local McDonalds and then cause a second scene by apologizing dramatically. You’ll feel better.

Cancer: The stars show me you. You lie there, face illuminated by a rectangle of dull light. Get some rest. You need it.

Leo: We can only hate what we see in ourselves. Consider that you may be full of mosquitoes.

Virgo: The stars speak of you in hushed whispers so I can’t hear, but generally they sound encouraging.

Libra: The indecision you feel can be alleviated by eating an entire sleeve of fig newtons while staring at your kitchen wall.

Scorpio: Pallid, grey things stalk just outside your vision, feeding on all the things youve forgotten.

Saggatarius: Nothing that beckons has ever turned out to be good. Good things dont need to beckon.

Capricorn: They blog about you.

Aquarius: Show your contempt for the concept of money by beating a cop with another cop.

Pisces: Come now, you’re more clever than meta-humor. Or perhaps you just don’t know yourself too well? Something to think about, regardless.

Imagine S.Coups nonchalantly giving Woozi a back hug whenever he sees the younger member.

BONUS: Despite Woozi trying his hardest to release himself from the leader’s grip, he secretly likes being in the older’s warm embrace.

How to ‘Unblock your Chakras’

1) Blocks in the Root Chakra make us insecure, scared, anxious. To get rid of the blocks, you need to face your fears, deal with them and let go. To feel more grounded and safe, try walking barefoot, dance, eat root vegetables.

2) If the Sacral Chakra is blocked, we feel guilty, numb, lack emotions and sexual satisfaction. To balance this chakra, take a closer look at the situation that bothers you, fix the things you can fix and relax about those that can’t be fixed. Surround yourself with beauty and take your time to enjoy the things you like.

3) Solar Plexus Chakra is blocked when we feel insecure, frustrated; are afraid of being rejected. To balance this chakra, you need to revive yourself and boost self-confidence. Spend more time in the air, groom yourself well, take up some sports and notice the progress you make.

4) Complicated relationships, tragic losses and loneliness often block our Heart Chakra. This chakra is hard to heal, but you can gradually balance it by focusing on the positive things in life, noticing the people who love you and need you, and being grateful for what you have. Also, working as a volunteer, meeting new people and helping them will eventually open your Heart Chakra

5) Blocked Throat Chakra is usually associated with self-expression problems, deception, manipulative communication. The key to healing your fifth chakra is to be honest with yourself and others. Sing, talk to yourself, write a blog - do things that stimulate your ability to communicate with yourself and with the world.

6) Do you have trouble concentrating, remembering things, suffer from nightmares or can’t seem to find your way in life? Try clearing your Third Eye Chakra by meditation (focus on the space between your eyebrows as you meditate). Do eye exercises and find the time for relaxed horizon- or star-gazing and  mindful concentration on something small - like insects in the grass. Train your concentration without overloading your mind.

7) If your Crown Chakra is blocked, you may feel indecisive; worry that your life is meaningless and suffer from depression. Also, this chakra is negatively affected when we get too attached to material things and lose the ability to let go. To start healing, meditate and do more of those things that make you feel peaceful. Learn to think of yourself as a part of the Universe (as opposed to, for example, being a professional belonging to a company).

(I have to do this from time to time) Turn the phone and social networks off. Take a break, to think, relax and get out in nature if you can. You have the power to fine-tune your life to fully enjoy the peace and harmony that you deserve. 

I don’t have a journal at the moment so I’m just going to have to write this here but omg

Either the rose quartz I keep on my windowsill here is crazy strong or I just turn into the best version of myself in America, because I’ve had six - potentially seven - boys express their interest to me in the past two months. This doesn’t happen. I’m not that girl. What is going on with the universe right now???

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and it’s the s w e e t e s t  bloody thing

Daily Normal Horoscope:

Aries: Confidence comes from secure footing! Stop wearing shoes!

Taurus: Eating northing but spicy pepperoni will not allow you to speak Italian, give it up my dude.

Gemini: Someone is being snarky to you over social media, try bashing their teeth in with a tire iron.

Cancer: plate armor hasn’t been effective for centuries, your archery skills are not useless yet!

Leo: All leo’s have +2 fire resistance this week starting at noon today.

Virgo: You never noticed but the last time you went on a trip, you came home with an extra garment that was not yours.

Libra: The indecision you feel can be resolved by hurtling yourself facefirst into the ball pit at your local Chuck E Cheese.

Scorpio: Today you are fated for minor success in full contact wine tasting.

Saggatarius: The secret saggatarius waterfall palace is open for rent from the hours of 3-8pm this Sunday.

Capricorn: Good news! They will probably say yes! Do bring the baseball bat just in case.

Aquarius: The burden you carry does not have to be carried alone. Most people dont usually try to wheel their bed around with them though.

Pisces: Trust your emotions. Love can overcome gangrene probably.

Drunk

Dean Winchester x Reader

1250 Words

Story Summary: Requested by  @gabuchitop:  Can you make Dean Winchester x reader where the reader is in bar and get drunk and then call Dean to take her home.After that Dean take her at the bunker and she kissed him and blame the alcohol and in the end they end up together..thank you so much

It wasn’t very often you let yourself go. As in drinking as much as you wanted, forgetting that your life was a train wreck. But after nothing but hunts for the past month, seeing people you couldn’t save, you needed to let off a little steam.

Dean had offered to come with you, but you needed to be by yourself. If Dean was there, you would only have eyes for him, and he would only have eyes for the bar tender, or the waitress in the skimpy skirt. Then, you would end up miserable and drunk, crying yourself to sleep in bed once again. And you couldn’t take that. So, you figured you would come and drink, and maybe find some strapping man to get your mind off the green eyes that seemed to haunt your every waking moment.

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