feeling in theory

Maybe the real cryptids were the friends we made along the way

(aka I’m betting my ass that Joseph was not only a cult leader but the Dover Ghost the whole time)

character development i want to see in vld season 3:
  • how each team member copes with shiro being gone, and how they all come together and try to overcome this
  • keith - i want to see him struggling with his role as a leader –  i don’t think keith will necessarily be a bad leader, but i do think he will have a lot of obstacles (emotional, etc.) to overcome whilst shiro is gone. i think since he will be grieving, it may make him make some irrational decisions, but i also think he will make a lot of good ones. i want to see him make mistakes, but i also want to see him pull things together. he can’t be a leader like shiro, he never will be, but he’s going to lead a way that he does best
  • hunk - i want to see his development as a character. we’ve been told before that he’s capable of leadership, but it’s basically his confidence that’s a main obstacle. i want to see more confident hunk, hunk who trusts his instincts, caring hunk - i want to see him grow and become more confident in his own abilities and to maybe grow a closer bond with his lion. (also, more gordon ramsay hunk bc who didn’t love gordon ramsay hunk?)
  • lance. ooh there’s so much i could say, because there’s a lot of different avenues he could go down. but what would i like to see? first of all, i don’t think he’s going to just switch up lions that easily. i think it’s going to be difficult because he’s already formed a bond with blue. i think part of him knows its for the greater good while shiro isn’t there, but part of him wants to stay with his lion. she chose him. and how does he know that red will even allow him to pilot at first? second, i think (esp from current s3 teasers we have), that he will be supportive of keith in his new role as leader, but part of me also thinks that there will also be a slight struggle (it may not surface until a later point), but the insecure part of lance that tells him he’s just a seventh wheel, maybe he doesn’t have a thing, he’s always going to be a step behind keith no matter what - even in space. i think there’s going to be a lot of overcoming on lance’s part around this and his insecurities surrounding keith and how he views himself. i think this may come in the form of him being isolated from the group - i have a feeling he might be isolated on a planet, could potentially be captured for a short time, or he just ends up becoming more distant from the rest of the team for a short time - and through this isolation he confronts his insecurities, or at least some of them.
  • pidge !! i want to see her reunite with matt and then be on the lookout for sam, but i also want to see her grow a sibling bond with the rest of the paladins (i’ve always seen lance and pidge like brother and sister so im hoping for more interaction between them). i want to see her come up with new upgrades and just amazing features that everyone just steps back and goes wow..she’s a genius. i’d like to see a more sentimental side of her, one that shows how caring and kind she is. i want to see more awesome pidge who can take someone down in style. i’d also like to see her build another rover, or an equivalent who travels like a companion with her on missions.
  • allura!!! oooh honestly there’s so much i want for this girl. i want to know about altea? about her family and just everything?? (no one mentions her mother which i’m extremely salty about). i want to see her mourn for the loss of her people for the loss of everything - she hasn’t had time to do that, though. she’s had to get up immediately and continue the fight. part of me, although she’s already talked to keith about his galra heritage, part of me thinks she might still be untrusting, maybe not to keith but to others. i want to see this explored more and for it to be seen from her perspective as well as the other’s perspective. i want to see allura to really show how powerful and amazing she really is. like the way she used that magic?? i want to see more of her powers. i want to see her grow closer with each of the paladins (im longing for allura/lance friendship goasl) and to become the amazing paladin she is. (and to finally get something sparkly for herself. she deserves it)
  • coran coran the gorgeous man needs more screen time, love and appreciation because he is an absolute angel and he has done no wrong. also!! what is his backstory?? i want to know more about my favourite space uncle. also, his interaction with lance, i would love love love to see more of those and a sort of father/son or family bond thing to happen

So if Lapis isn’t gonna be playable in save the light that’s…pretty big imo. I’ve always had this nagging feeling, theory, whatever you wanna call it that she and Peridot are eventually gonna clash over the fact that Peridot is 100% a crystal gem and Lapis decidedly isn’t (or at least doesn’t want to be). But Peridot being playable along with the other crystal gems while Lapis sits on the sidelines would really bring that difference front and center, especially in light of the exchange that seems to be taking place between them in the (audio of the) s5 trailer (which boils down to: Lapis: “I’m not getting caught up in another war” Peridot: “but this planet is worth protecting!! >:(”). Granted, Lapis could be playable and we just haven’t seen her yet, but long story short: I didn’t expect this to come back up after “the new crystal gems,” but if they’re planning on exploring the fact that Peridot has a cause she’s devoted to, and that Lapis kind of hates that cause, I’m really excited to see that!

One thing about chronic illnesses that people really don’t seem to understand is that rest doesn’t make it better, at best it can slow down how bad you feel at that time or help it feel a bit more bearable but it’ll get worse if it wants to whether you’re resting or not

Sometimes you’ll be forced to rest because you can’t do anything else, but that doesn’t mean resting makes it better. When you’re chronically ill, you don’t get better, and rest definitely doesn’t leave you feeling refreshed and full of energy

If your whole body hurts and it’s painful to move then you have to rest but it’s horrible doing that the whole time, I know you’re supposed to rest when you’re sick but actually a lot of spoonies I’ve talked to hate it and would love to be able to be more active but we can’t - the last thing we want to do is spend more time at home in bed on our own

Resting doesn’t make anything better for me, it just helps to stop it being worse - everything can still hurt if I don’t do anything and I’d be happier if I could go out, even if that would hurt much more

okokok.

I have strong feelings about this musical but let me tell you one thing even tho no one will probably read this…

Evans ´´mission´´ to feel confident at that day was: Get another kid to sign your cast!

Now, he asked both of his only friends and ,ok,  Alana was not saying ´´No.´´ , she just walked off. But Jared asked, why Evan wants him so sign his cast, and…didn´t sign it too.

And that pretty much was it for Evan cuz, why the hell would he ask any other person?  The only two he alredy knew just…didn´t want to, so why would a stranger want to? (Likely he wouldn´t even be able to ask any strangers anyways..)


So, but Connor ok…

Yes, Connor was a dick by pushing him in the beginning(even tho we all know he has serious issues) , but srsly, why was he in the computer room thingy in the first place?
Maybe coincidence, sure. 
But, what if Connor maybe was there to apologize?

I mean, he didn´t had to ask what happened with Evans arm. He didn´t had to ask if he could sign the cast. He didn´t had to speak with Evan in a calm or any way at all!  Heck, he didn´t even had to take Evans letter from the printer to bring it to him! He just did. Because he wanted to.

And you know…I think for that short moment, Connor was maybe waving back at Evan. And thats something not even his Friends at that moment did.

SO THATS JUST MY THOUGHTS AND THATS WHY I DREW THIS hhhhh

AND SINCE YOU ALL FUCKING LOVE THIS, I MADE ANOTHER COMIC LIKE THING LIKE THAT! Why not check it out…  here –I mean you don’t have to but…if..if you like this then…yeah.. ;v;

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There goes what little freedom Adrien had.  At least he got a good burn in before being confined to his tower.


Bonus:

Is it just me, or does Gabriel look heartbroken that his son is a superhero?  He’s either worried about his safety or that he’ll have to fight him.  Or both.

Okay so hear me out. Blue Diamond mentions that Pink Diamond was shattered with a sword. But we know that It couldn’t have been Rose’s sword since that sword is made specifically so that it poofs a gem, but never shatters it.

But tell me

Who else do we know in the Crystal Gems who knows her way with swords

Originally posted by suastrology

Who had a PRETTY strong reaction to Pink Diamond’s mural and the mention of her death in Back To the Moon?

Originally posted by lions-universe

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Air Moons & Emotion ♊️♎️♒️🌕

From a young age, air moons are taught their emotions are worthless. Whether it be by firsthand experience or people coming right out and saying it, air moons constantly have their feelings invalidated. This happens several times in youth so eventually when they grow up, they can no longer express their emotions in a healthy way.

*“air moons” will be abbreviated to AM’s

Examples of behavior in childhood:

-people laugh at AM’s frustration

-AM’s ridiculed for expressing their identity through clothes, hair, personality, etc

-AM’s given harsh criticisms

-AM’s called overdramatic or told they are overreacting when they were not

-AM’s manipulated into thinking they do not have a right to be upset

-AM’s humiliated for having feelings whether it be having a crush, or being excited about their hobbies, etc

-AM’s laughed at for being logical

-AM’s called cold or heartless

-AM’s yelled at for disagreeing with other’s opinions

-AM’s told what to think and how to act

-AM’s secrets shared without their permission

-AM’s punished or blamed for what someone else has done

-AM’s berated for not having proper manner’s

-AM’s told they are selfish

-AM’s forgotten or left out

The above behaviors destroy Air moon’s ability to process their feelings. Air moon’s grow up thinking their emotions do not serve them any purpose, and so they try to cast them away. They learn that emotions only cause them humiliation from others, make them seem weak, and cloud their judgement. The sad part is when they grow up, people will then make fun of Air moon’s for ‘not having feelings’ even though they are the reason for the repression in the first place. People get used to Air moon’s having little emotional outbursts and so when an Air moon does become upset, people’s first reaction is to say ‘this isn’t like you, it’s not that big a deal, stop overreacting.’ But this is detrimental to Air moon’s conscious. After such an incident, the Air moon will try even harder to hide and destroy every emotion they have. They will try to never let you see that side of them again. Holding in such feelings is exhausting and harmful to the Air moon. They must learn how do undo the damage done in early childhood. They must stop overanalyzing their thoughts and actions. They must learn to stop saying ‘I do not have a right to feel this way and so I will make myself no longer feel this way’ and start accepting their feelings for what they are. It is ok to be angry, to be upset, to be confused. Air moons must learn that emotions do not make one weak.

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M: jake even sets aside time to come watch me play some tunes so you KNOW its good! Also damn anon all my best wishes and good vibes sent ur way, good luck music comrade! 

(michaels jam-time tune for his pals)

  • luke skywalker [to rey]: who are you?
  • han solo [to rey]: what's your name?
  • maz kanata: who's the girl?
  • kylo ren: what girl?!
  • "omfg rey kenobi is so far-fetched and dumb"
  • obi-wan kenobi: REY?

Druid Shiro Theory Part 2: Shiro’s Arm

Following on from this post about how Shiro is probably a part-Altean Druid who can do magic and make wormholes, let’s talk about Shiro’s arm for a sec. Specifically: why did Haggar give him the arm, and what is it intended to do?

First up… let’s talk about Haggar. She was the one who gave Shiro his Galra arm. We know she loves combining magic and technology, as evidenced by all the robeasts. Perhaps the most dramatic example is the Komar Experiment:

It’s got that weird black smoke surrounded by the purple glow (obviously magic) and the purple lines running across the metal supports (the technology element). Here’s another, wider view of the whole rig:

And now here’s Shiro’s arm, the first time it activates:

Pretty similar, right? And a moment later, he gets that black smoke and purple glow around the hand, right before he overpowers it and then hacks up a bunch of Galra sentries.

{TBH I just wanted an excuse to include this screenshot}

Of course, the revelation that Shiro’s arm is Galra magi-tech is a surprise to precisely no one at this point, but here’s the thing: the Komar Experiment was powered by a bunch of druids. The black smoke and purple glow all came from them. What’s powering Shiro’s arm?

Now, imagine for a minute that you’re Haggar. You find out one of your captive test subjects is part-Altean and has the dormant ability to do magic. You want to turn him into a powerful magical weapon: a Druid completely under your control, trained to fight and do magic. Do you (a) sit in his cell and spend hours walking him through Sorcery 101 until he learns to control his powers, or (b) fit him with some kind of device - say, a prosthetic arm - that activates his magic for him, against his will if necessary.

Option (b) is really more Haggar’s style, right? And the Komar Experiment is proof that Haggar has zero chill and will happily rip the quintessence out of an entire planet if she wants to, because she’s the real Chaotic Evil of this show.

Now let’s take a look at this picture. This is Shiro’s hand right before he brings the arm under his control:

This looks like Shiro is about to do some druid magic. He looks like he’s about to fling some purple lightening or some of that weird black smoke - but he doesn’t. Instead, he overpowers the arm, brings it under his control, and uses it as a weapon.

So here’s an idea: what if Shiro’s arm is a mechanism that forcibly activates his Druid abilities? It would be powered by his own magic, if that were the case. And the reason why it looks like Shiro’s about to do druid magic is because… well… he is. But it’s being forced out of him, and it’s painful and harmful (like forcing the crystals out of the Balmera is painful and harmful). And now that Shiro is free of Haggar’s influence and control, he reins it in and reduces the magic to a level that doesn’t physically hurt him.

What if every time Shiro activates his Galra arm, he’s actually doing magic?

I mean… that arm LOOKS pretty magical. It has multiple functions that Shiro can apparently activate at will, and it gets that cool purple glow every time he uses it, and it leaves a trail of purple light when he wields it as a weapon.

Does that purple glow remind you of anything?

That’s Allura, right before she throws a bunch of magic back at Haggar and the Druids.

Shiro obviously isn’t consciously doing magic - but I think he might be subconsciously doing it. Just enough to make the arm do whatever he needs it to do. After he uses the arm in the Pilot, Pidge asks him: “Where did you learn to fight with that?” and Shiro says: “No idea.” He clearly knows how to use the arm, and we see him use it multiple times, but he doesn’t remember learning how to use it. His {procedural memory} is intact, but his {episodic memory} is damaged. He’s just working on instinct, intuitively channelling quintessence into the arm to power it up and make it work for him.

We’ve seen Shiro’s Galra arm do multiple cool things throughout the series, and whenever we see it, we just assume it’s the arm that’s doing it. But what if it’s not? What if it’s Shiro? The arm is just a tool - like a magic wand - that helps him activate his Druid powers, but all the functions we see are actually Shiro doing a bunch of low-level magic without fully realising what he’s doing or how he’s doing it. We’ve been crediting the arm, when we should have been crediting Shiro and his ability to manipulate quintessence.

Shiro is a Druid, and he’s been doing magic right in front of us this whole time.

Character Analysis: Blue Diamond

I kept trying to make the juxtaposition post between Blue and Yellow Diamond work, but I really needed a foundation before I started comparing their characters. It was turning into a huge section for each character and less like certain aspects of them were being analysed. It never turned out acceptable enough to me, and I was taking longer and longer to write just one post. So I decided to break it down (again) into a character analysis post for each character, and I’ll be following up with their juxtaposition before talking about PD’s shattering.

I want to start with Blue Diamond first, if only because I’ve touched a little on Yellow Diamond before . Blue Diamond is a relatively new character in the show, in that her presence hadn’t been confirmed until Steven’s Dream. Before that, all we had to go on were the Ziggurat and Moon Base murals and Garnet’s story in The Answer.

BD is a very complex character. On the surface, she appears as a victim, a foil to the “harshness” of Yellow Diamond (more on her in the next post). She is a very visible and obvious embodiment of Homeworld’s humanity, that they too have been hurt by the war and the conflict that underlay it. At the same time, though, there is a feeling of guilt about her that reveals she wasn’t totally ignorant of the said conflict going on. Moreover, by her own words, she has not only been dwelling in grief, but also has been searching for answers.

Blue Diamond then, is not a helpless mourner in distress and under duress. She is a capable and intelligent ruler, trying—and failing—to put aside personal pain in order to continue ruling. And that makes her similar to Yellow Diamond in more ways than one. Like their civilisation, she is trying to heal but a focal point of her healing is finding out what really happened the day PD was shattered. The way she deals with her stress and sadness, as well as the way she interacts with the gems around her, reveals a lot about her character. Let’s get to that.

1. BD dances the line between power and helplessness

What is striking about BD is how she looks like the quintessential ruler, a cross between the archetypes of mother goddess and queen. She is altogether very regal and dignified. She speaks deliberately, slowly compared to some of the other dialogue on the show. Combined with her crisp diction, her words always feel weighty. One of my favourite instances is her reply to Yellow Diamond in the Trial. YD almost annoyed asks whether examining Blue’s palanquin is necessary and Blue quietly but firmly says, “Isn’t it?” In that line, it was as if the room collectively held its breath, and even YD paused for a moment.

Blue Diamond possesses all of the attributes that we would normally associate with a leader. Her presence, from her first appearance in The Answer, spoke of someone who literally stood above others. Even while crying or angry she manages to look elegant and composed. Like the classical leader, she is introduced not with her generals but her Sapphire, analogous to leading with wisdom rather than brute force.

This picture of BD reaffirms the concept of a Diamond. In What’s The Use of Feeling (Blue), Yellow Diamond reminds Blue how each gem has a role, and when she gets to BD, she says the needs to be a leader. This is a very telling line, because we begin to understand how the socio-political hierarchy is understood on Homeworld. It isn’t a lie told by the Diamonds to placate lower-ranking gems in society. They themselves fully believe in their role as rulers. They honestly feel that “every gem in her place” is the only way for their civilisation to function properly.

That “truth” becomes a huge limiter of the supposed power that comes from being the unquestioned ruler of an empire. The Diamonds can technically do anything, but they are situated in a particular context, embedded in particular social roles, like any other character in the story. In the rigid social structure of Homeworld, they are expected to lead. So they can do anything, in so much as they do as leaders do. This explains why YD had to drop everything and run after Blue in The Zoo and That Will Be All. Ideally, they can’t just do anything they want because they are fully aware of the huge waves the ripples of their actions will cause around them.

The operative word here “ideal.” One thing to note is that all these rules are enforced by a social structure. That means social roles and expectations do blur and how to act within this structure is largely informal. There probably aren’t written rules that say how far behind a Diamond one should walk, when exactly a Pearl should speak, or how much shoulder-punching is too much shoulder-punching among soldiers.

Much like ours, their society is governed by these informal rules as much as the formal written laws. The Diamonds may have a formal set of responsibilities, but so many other social factors intervene in the way they are perceived. Things like power, class, and even height difference factor into how they are perceived by other gems. This means that a structure in which everyone is supposed to have a place, may not be as easily enforced, especially as gems go higher up the social ladder. Discipline, particularly at the Diamond-level is largely self-enforced.

So it doesn’t mean they don’t break these unspoken rules—we’ve seen them arbitrarily use their power when they’re upset or stressed. It so happens though, that in the show so far, all we’ve seen them feeling is indeed upset and stressed.

The idea that Blue is a powerful, at times unquestioned leader, is countered by how crippled and paralysed she feels in the face of Pink Diamond’s shattering. Blue has so much to offer gem-kind, not only as their leader, but also, as Peridot pointed out in Message Received, someone with abilities that surpass those of any other gem.

Yet she is unable to fulfil her role. In her most vulnerable, while she’s on Earth, she entrusted her safety to only her Pearl. For emphasis, Blue touched down on a Homeworld-hostile planet with no guards, and no Sapphires. The only gem with her was her Pearl. Given my old theory on PD’s shattering, and even the theories floating around now, that whoever shattered PD would’ve had to be close to her, it shows how exposed she is right now.

Blue is a force, but she’s also presented as a character who is flowy, flexible, rounded, and very sad. Were she the same size as the average gem, she would appear weak, not a fighter, and unable to defend herself.

BD seems very much like the archetypal leader, the only Diamond we’ve seen hold court and carry with her the formalities traditionally associated with leaders. But she’s also immobilised by grief. There is a paradox in her looking so willowy and bendable but deeply emphatic and firm about her beliefs, in this case, her search for answers.

In Blue we have a character seemingly transparent, showing everyone her tears and her breakdowns, but at the same time so opaque, as she makes decisions behind closed doors (or closed palanquin, as in The Answer) and has been searching for answers with a resolve YD didn’t even know about.

2. Leadership style

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