feeling good muse

don’t imagine dan and phil shopping for the perfect new piano

don’t imagine dan pulling phil over to instrument after instrument, testing out the keys and the benches and phil grinning fondly the entire time

don’t imagine dan picturing where the piano will end up and getting the dorkiest little smile when he thinks of all the new songs he can learn

don’t imagine phil taking a step back and watching dan in his element, still wowed by his impeccable talent

don’t imagine dan suddenly stopping, a look of awe upon his face as he turns and whispers to phil, “this one. this is the one,“ his voice full of emotion as phil gazes back just as adoringly

don’t imagine phil flipping over the price tag, his eyes bugging out slightly, but then shrugging because hell, they could afford 5 of these pianos and besides, dan deserves only the absolute best

don’t imagine the shivers running down dan’s back when the piano is finally delivered, and the little dance he does with phil around his (their) room when he finally gets to revel in how aesthetically perfect it looks and how well it plays

most of all, don’t imagine dan finally sitting down at that piano like a true virtuoso, his fingers deftly producing the gorgeous melodies of his and phil’s favorite songs, and phil’s entire being flooding with pride and affection, his face glowing and eyes shining as he reaches out to stroke their dog lying on the bed with him, feeling utterly at bliss and grateful beyond words for this new place that seems to be bringing out the best in both him and dan, this place where they’ll probably spend the rest of their lives together


dont. just don’t.


“…I don’t think I answered your question, did I?”

((Idk why my feelings for this comic keeps fluctuating between wanting to post it up and completely scrapping it. But it’s been a week so I might as well post it up ;;;   ))


I recently found a wonderful song. Or rather a cover of it. And in the head immediately appeared a similar pattern. I’ve been wanting to do something similar, but couldn’t find time for it. And now with this song I was able to do it.

Original Geno - @loverofpiggies
Reaper- @renrink
Goth- @nekophy
AD Geno- me

                                  ♡ can you be a little stronger?
                                     ‘cause i need a little longer.♡

i never see you anymore;
not even on valentine’s. 💔


31 Days of Muse
Day 17 - Favourite cover: Feeling Good
 Live @ Radio 3, 2001


ffxv aes | kingsglaive: crowe altius

this one goes out to @croweoftheglaive. i think i’m just slowly making my way through this whole lot, y’all. 

Musical Astrology: Mini-Playlists for the Sign’s Stoners

Aries ~

• Two Weeks // Grizzly Bear

• The Joker // Steve Miller Band

• Timeless // Airborne Toxic Event

Taurus ~

• Waiting Game // Banks

• Do I Wanna Know? // Arctic Monkeys

• Erase Me // Kid Cudi & Kanye West

Gemini ~

• Viva la Vida // Coldplay

• That’s Right // Cage the Elephant

• In the Air Tonight // Phil Collins

Cancer ~

• Piece of my Heart // Janis Joplin

• Me and Your Mama // Childish Gambino

• Late Night // Foals

Leo ~

• Santeria // Sublime

• Heroes // David Bowie

• All These Things that I’ve Done // The Killers

Virgo ~

• Gimme Shelter // The Rolling Stones

• Hey // Pixies

• Loser // Beck

Libra ~

• One of These Nights // The Eagles

• Mary Jane’s Last Dance // Tom Petty

• Let the Band Play // Badflower

Scorpio ~

• Wicked Games // The Weeknd

• Day ‘n’ Night // Kid Cudi

• 14 Faces // Lewis Del Mar

Sagittarius ~

• Pockets Full of No // Coast Modern

• Hotel California // The Eagles

• Dazed and Confused // Led Zeppelin

Capricorn ~

• Mr. Grieves // Pixies

• Gotta Get Away // The Black Keys

• You Can’t Always Get What You Want // The Rolling Stones

Aquarius ~

• Paper Planes // M.I.A

• Pseudologia Fantastica // Foster the People

• Blood on the Leaves // Kanye West

Pisces ~

• Gold // Sir Sly

• Feeling Good // Muse

• Across the Universe // The Beatles

Jason Dean // Ich Lüge (+ key lyrics)

1. Coming Down - Halsey // I found God, I found it in a lover. When his hair falls in his face, and his hands so cold they shake.

2. Heaven In Hiding - Halsey // When you start to look at me, a physical fatality. Don’t you see what you’re finding? This is heaven in hiding.

3. Not Afraid Anymore - Halsey // I am not afraid anymore, standing in the eye of the storm. Ready to face this, dying to taste this, sick sweet warmth

4. Walk the Line - Halsey // You’ve got a way to keep me on your side. Because you’re mine, I walk the line

5. Hypnotic - Zella Day // Locked up till you’re moonlit, brushing my hair back, feeling your lips on my cold neck

6. Garden - Halsey // You think my bruised knees are sort of pretty, and I think your tired eyes are kinda nice. 

7. Come As You Are - Prep School // And I swear that I don’t have a gun. No, I don’t have a gun.

8. Human Behaviour - Bjork // If you ever get close to a human and human behaviour, be ready, be ready to get confused.

9. If I Had A Heart - Fever Ray // If I had a heart I could love you, if I had a voice I would sing.

10. Afraid - The Neighbourhood // When I wake up I’m afraid, somebody else might take my place.

11. Father - The Front Bottoms // I have this dream that I am hitting my dad with a baseball bat and he is screaming and crying for help.

12. Feeling Good - Muse // It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, It’s a new life for me, and I’m feeling good.

13. Me And the Devil - Soap&Skin // It must be that old evil spirit, so deep down in the ground.

14. No Church In the Wild - Kanyé West // Human beings in a mob; What’s a mob to a king? What’s a king to a god? What’s a god to a non-believer? Who don’t believe in anything?

15. Pumped Up Kicks - Foster The People // All the other kids with the pumped up kicks you better run, better run, outrun my gun.

16. Sail - AWOLNATION // Maybe I should cry for help, maybe I should kill myself. Blame it on my ADD, baby.

17. Terrible Tommy - Ryan Horne // I blame my mother and my father for the man that I’ve become. I was born into this family, I was born the devil’s son.

18. Wonderful World - JWM (feat. Shadow Royale) // And I think to myself, what a wonderful world. 

19. R.I.P. 2 my youth - The Neighbourhood // Might be a sinner and I might be a saint, I’d like to be proud, but somehow I’m ashamed.

20. The Stupid, the Proud - IAMX // God is dead. We get to sleep tonight. Walk with me into the truth out of your lies.


I love when the atmosphere reaches agreeable apex. Languishing a self-involved concept of stillness is not exclusively a western comfort. Alarming, the amount of things that make sense in the afterglow of somnolence. It is a lazy Mendelssohn Sunday. The record’s warmth a frequent highlight of the room. Suggestions of amber, vanilla, and pine sate a uniquely seasonal palate. I am feeling full of knowing, resonating with whole. Those around me vibrate it too, renewed. It’s a good day to have a good day, they say. Ambitions of birds relent.


“From the beginning you and the dragon had been one. You are becoming, and the dragon is your higher self.”

The way this show is currently paralleling Will Graham and Francis Dolarhyde is absolutely brilliant. The above conversation is even more significant when you consider Bedelia telling Will that he is capable of righteous violence because he is compassionate, and that extreme acts of cruelty require high levels of empathy, certainly something Will is in no short supply of.

Dolarhyde is not killing his victims because he wants to inflict pain upon them. In his madness he believes he is helping them. He believes he is elevating them to their higher selves by giving them to the darkness within himself that he calls the dragon. This is righteous violence. This is his compassion. But Hannibal knows that this darkness is something that has been inside him all along, and this harkens back to Will at the end of season 2. As he attempted to trick and trap Hannibal, Will unlocked a part of his nature that has always been present, and is just as natural to him as being sweet and good and kind, which he undoubtedly is. But as he said earlier this season, he never knew himself more than he did when he was with Hannibal.

And speaking of which, as soon as Dolarhyde said this:

I was immediately reminded of this:

Molly is to Will as Reba is to Dolarhyde. Through her he has found an escape from the darker side of himself. He consumed the Blake painting because he wanted to desperately to be someone else for her. He wants to step away from the darkness and into the light, but to do so would be to deny half of his true self, and Hannibal is dependent on him embracing that darkness at this point.

Hannibal’s ethics and motivations are fascinating. He is undeniably capable of experiencing love, but the nature of that love and the nature of who he is twists it and turns it into a truly destructive force. He likes testing people, he likes placing them in situations where they have a choice to do right or wrong to see which they will choose, and he is no stranger to a good old game of cat and mouse. But his motivations with Dolarhyde go a bit deeper than that… I believe he thinks if he can help Dolarhyde become his higher self, if he can help him become the dragon, then he can help Will come around again too. He can pull him away from his family (the family that he believes is a poor replacement for the family they were creating together) and back into his orbit. 

A striking difference between the canon of the books and what took place on the show is that Hannibal did not send Dolarhyde after Will AND his family… he only sent him after Molly and Walter. Hannibal doesn’t want Dolarhyde to kill Will in this universe, but he is unbelievably jealous and wants Will’s new family out of the picture as soon as possible. This isn’t simply about playing a game out of boredom for him. In the end it all comes down to his deep and twisted love for Will Graham.

Will and Molly love one another, there is no doubt about that, but we are being shown through visual subtext and absolutely blatant and heavy handed dialogue that Will and Hannibal belong together. They are two sides of the same coin, but Will’s true destiny to be with Hannibal cannot be realized until he learns to, once again, give in to his own becoming.

Will wanted to run away with Hannibal not only because they were friends, or because they truly do love one another on a deep and profound level, but because through Hannibal, Will found his freedom. His transformation at the end of season 2 also felt very deliberate, it began as a premeditated plan to capture Hannibal after all, but it resulted in Will discovering the true nature of the beast residing in his own belly. A part of him will always want to be with Hannibal, will always wish they had run away together all those years ago, and I guess only time (aka the final two episodes) will tell if that part of himself will be victorious in the end.


character aesthetics ~ simon heap

muse // hoodoo