feel like wolf

omg the early days of Serena+Bernie on AAU: Bernie just wants to be Serena’s friend and make things easier for her so she’s always trying to help but Serena is so used to being Let Down and undermined by ppl on similar levels of responsibilities+ higher up she takes everything as a personal attack and is Not Having A Bar of It 

so they keep ending up in situations where both of them are right and neither of them are wrong so they get under each other’s skin so effortlessly bc even tho they’ve only known each other a few months and most of that was brief and fleeting encounters and they’ve only really known each other a few weeks tbqh 

bc they are already so important to each other only it’s so so long before either of them realised how much and I am having f e e l i n g s

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.