feel like shit

I am a mess. A chaos. A burden. I can’t fit anywhere but I am just another girl. I feel alone but not special at all. Well, to be honest, I don’t even know what I feel. I just wanna give up on everything. I can’t stand myself, and I know most of the people around me can’t do it either. Is this normal or am I being selfish?
—  Me at midnight, every fucking night.
I just hate it...

I hate being the ugly one in the group.
I hate being the fat one in the group.
I hate being the dumb one in the group.
I hate being butt of the joke.
I hate being made fun of by the people I’m supposed to call my best friends.
I hate being everyone’s last choice.
I hate being the useless one in the group.
I hate being the worst one in the group.