feel it records

Well, I have a Skype call set up with another contact tomorrow around lunchtime, and I’m hoping that pans out into work. I’m looking into the licensing costs to do substitute teaching in the meantime, because I need something. I’m not making ends meet right now, and that’s a struggle, but I’m still fighting, and I’m still trying to do something about it.

Yesterday I emailed my Congressman >.> so…I have engaged in civic duty for the week. I have watched an entire documentary on an early Krakatoa explosion that resulted in cataclysmic changes to civilizations across the world. I have played almost all of DAII Act 2 again, meaning I can start doing my planning work.

I got my hair cut over the weekend. I deleted the Tumblr app from my phone which did a WORLD of good for me so I have no intention of bringing it back. I went shopping (ouch, my bank account hurts) but while I was there I bought food to actually cook, so it was painful but it resulted in actual food for once, and that matters, so I count that as a win. Also…better toothpaste (cuz my teeth are killing me) and new shoes so these ones that are busting apart at the seams can go out. 

I saw a friend on Friday, and that was nice getting the chance to do that. 

Just holding it together, one day at a time, slowly picking up all the pieces. 

literally every character this season: how does it feel to be on the sidelines, victor? how is it to watch your long-time rivals perform from the audience? how do you feel about having your records broken? 

victor: could you take a picture of yuri and me with my phone?????

i. I’m trying to let you go, but every day it feels like an old record on repeat; a beautiful start with the same ending 
ii. I’m trying to do things I wouldn’t usually do, like write songs instead of poems and paint instead of drawing but every curve of my pencil still ends up spelling your name 
iii. I’m trying to sleep earlier and read more often but no matter how hard I try I still lie awake at 4 am missing you and wishing you were missing me too
iv. I’m trying to open my eyes to new perspectives, see the world differently and find peace in everything but no matter what I do I can’t help but see the colour of your eyes and the shape of your smile in every fucking piece of nature 
v. I’m trying to open up more, come to terms with what happened and realise it’s permanent but I can’t help but get a jolt in my stomach every time my phone vibrates hoping it’ll be you, coming back 
vi. And I’m trying. God I am fucking trying. But this pain seems endless and the thought of you is starting to make me feel sick. I miss you more each day and I don’t know how much more of can take of this but god 
vii. I’m trying
—  dissociatingx, try a little harder


the last shadow puppets - everything you’ve come to expect // 01 april 2016

Ear Biscuits: Uncut

So Ear Biscuits got released at midnight eastern time last night, and my trusty podcast app, Overcast (not a sponsor, but seriously, best podcast app ever), immediately downloaded it for me and gave me a notification for it as I got in bed. I caved and listened to the first few seconds just to see if it really was the episode or if it was I don’t know, a blank file? This is what I heard.

The episode that was released about 20 minutes AFTER this one does not start like this. I recorded all the way to the actual episode opener, though my version doesn’t have the intro music playing over it.

Sorry about the audio quality, I tried to reduce the noise as much as possible. What you’re listening to is a recording of my phone playing a recording, so there was only so much I could do. But it’s worth a listen just to hear an innuendo-laden exchange between Rhett and Link involving soft and hard sticks.