fear of infinity

getting Real

All you see, hear, and feel during meditation are the thrashings of the mind as it begrudgingly melts into Stillness.

Meditation is the difference between knowing truth and being truth.

It is the key to remembering and experiencing what you really are: endless, boundless divinity. 

Your fear of stillness is not unique to you, nor is your fear of infinity. Everyone possesses this fear to a degree. It is the ego’s fear of dissolution and abandonment. 

The ego is identification. The ego is the part of you that wants to know itself, to rid itself of some things and gain other things, and finally to change the world to mirror itself.

The ego in its most simple form is the image that you have of yourself and how that shapes the image that you have of the world. The ego is made of judgements, opinions, insights, and perceptions. It defends these things as much as possible and is very concerned with being ‘right’.

Abandoning the ego means no longer being so certain about anything but at the same time losing no confidence. A yogi’s confidence comes from being sincere in the moment and connecting with emptiness rather than asserting any part of his or her world.

Therefore, the aim of the path is not to change the way all of this is but rather to awaken to your existence as it is beyond perception. It is what you ARE, what is doing the perceiving, rather than the perceptions themselves. It is the Realest.

Meditate. Awaken. 



As soon as I noticed the beauty of Alien: Covenant photography, I realized one thing: that movie had powerful “Romantic vibes”.
That movie had a lot of references to Romanticism.

(Romanticism is an artistic, musical, cultural and literary movement developed at the end of the 18th century in Germany and later spread throughout Europe in the 19th century).

Romanticism exalts FEELINGS, imagination, spontaneity, CREATIVITY, fantasy, personal sensibility and MELANCHOLY, refusing rationalism and perfection of forms of Neoclassicism. David exalts all this things in the movie, he tries to teach Walter to appreciate creativity and emotions, all these characteristics Walter doesn’t possess; David tries to convince Walter that he (Walter) loves Daniels as much as he (David) loved Elizabeth. David cries. David speaks while is crying. David believes that “nostalgia is enemy of science” in the Advent video in the Blu-Ray version of the movie, he says that while we see a drawing of an Engineer/humanoid shaped head (the “original perfection” of human form) that David has sectioned… then we see that David, trough others draws, has CHANGED the “human like” form in a “monster like” form, in the form of an “Alien mother”, in the forms of his alien creatures. David is using his creativity to change the “original perfection” and make something new, without feeling “nostalgia” for the “old” canon of beauty. David doesn’t like the absolute rationalism of Walter. Walter can’t “lose control”, he doesn’t feel emotions, emotions can’t guide his actions. But maybe that’s why Walter lose, in the end (Walter to Daniels in a deleted scene, talking about David: “there is an emotional intensity in him I can’t understand”). In Romanticism the reason lose to emotion and irrationalism.
The LANDSCAPE (in romantic poetry, romantic literature and romantic art) IS SYMBOLIC and represents the emotions, the passions, the dreams, the unconscious. The Romantic man feels himself as part of nature and shapes the nature in function of his moods. That happen in Alien: Covenant too: the storm, the weather that changes from good to bad as things start to get bad (the infection of Ledward and Hallet), the night, David’s cape floating in the stormy night, the horrible shape of the Neomorphs and Xenomorphs too: expressions of pure instinct and scaring parodies of the human form.

What does that mean? Why Alien: Covenant is full of references to that artistic movement?
Maybe there are two reasons:

1) This movie refers to Romanticism because this is the movie that show us the change in David’s character. This movie is about the EMOTIONAL, HUMAN TRAITS OF DAVID that finally have taken control of him. Alien: Covenant is the movie that show us that David is more human than robot. “He may have a soul” said Ridley Scott. The sceneries and the dark situations of Alien: Covenant reflect David “human” personality, his inner turmoil… just as like the landscape was a symbol of the romantic man’s mood in romantic art and poetry.
The crew of the Covenant would like to behave “rationally”, Captain Oram tries to show off his “rationalism” and pretends people around him to be rational. Romanticism refuse rationalism. The misfortune: the irruption of the neutrino burst in the crew’s life. The neutrino burst is imprevedibile. The crew of the Covenant is about to set foot in a planet that David shaped as his personal, emotional, irrational hell. The fate of the Covenant crew is doomed right from the start.

2) Alien: Covenant is also the movie in which we see the Xenomorph for the first time. The Xenomorph is finally born. The first Alien movie was an horror movie in space and become a cult movie. But where did the HORROR GENRE came from? The horror genre was born from Gothic fiction, a part of romantic literature. So… maybe Ridley Scott is telling us where the Xenomorph and the horror genre were born at the same time. I think that this is an interesting parallel to do. The Romanticism brought the horror genre to life/ David’s mind brought the Xenomorph to life. The style of Alien: Covenant is different from the style of the first Alien because the style of old horror stories was different from the style of the contemporary ones… but soon the “style” will “evolve” alongside the evolution of the Xenomorphs that surely David will bring on.

There is another fascinating romantic element in Alien: Covenant, the RUINS of the Engineers city.
The beautiful dead city scenery.
Ruins are a typical element of Romanticism. The ruins inspire the sensation of the decay of the things produced by man, giving the spectator the emotion of the passing time (that is the theme of Ozymandias poem too, quoted by David in front of the ruins of the dead city).
The ruins are a source of emotions for the romantic man (David cries while is watching the Engineers dying and cries when is watching the ruins with Walter).

Alien: Covenant, with its sceneries, its terrible storm that traps the crew on the planet, the horrible but fascinating form of the Xenomorph, let us connect to another important element of the Romantic feel: the “SUBLIME”.
The sublime is a fundamental feeling sought after by the Romantics. The sublime is not born from the pleasure of the measure, from the beautiful form of an object, from “objective beauty,” but the sublime is born from the feelings of fear, dismay, astonishment incurred by infinity, disrepute, and terrible things.
Don’t we like horror stories for the same reason? Don’t we like Xenomorphs for the same reason?

Thank you for reading my bad english! ^-^
I’ll get into more specific topics next times here on this blog! I’ll write about more specific references to some gothic fictions and Romantic thematics that I have found in Alien: Covenant (and in Prometheus too).

(Table of Contents: https://gothic-fiction-in-space.tumblr.com/post/164533391538/table-of-contents-1-the-romanticism-of-alien)

I feel like Peter Quill and Peter Parker could have such a great relationship in Infinity War. Quill lost his mom, just like Parker lost his parents. Quill lost his father figure, Yondu, and Parker lost his Uncle Ben. Quill was an ordinary kid who found out he was a god. Parker was an ordinary kid who found out he could stop a bus with his bare hands. They both were young kids that were placed into extraordinary situations. They both use humor to lighten their spirits and help them get through their fear while fighting. I could see Quill being very protective because he sees so much of himself in Peter Parker, and because he’s so committed and loyal to the people he cares about. He understands Peter perfectly, because they are one in the same. While Tony sees Peter as better than himself, Peter Quill sees him as exactly like himself, and could introduce a whole new dynamic. I could even see Quill trying to protect Tony and Peter so Peter doesn’t have to deal with the loss of a father figure again. Peter Quill has such a disregard of himself, much like Peter Parker, and tries to place his concern for the people he cares about above his constant fear.

How spiderman homecoming subtly confirmed one of my worst fears: Tony's death in Infinity war

Personally, Tony Stark is one of the most enjoyable characters to watch on screen. Movie after movie, for almost 10 years now, he has never failed to entertain everytime he’s on screen.

But all good things must come to an end. And as much as it pains me to say this, I do believe that Tony must sign off and put down his iron helmet before his character gets too stale. (There’s already a certain animosity towards him among the fans so it might already be happening)

So I think Marvel may have already planned ahead for this and started planting seeds to set up the scene: an MCU without Stark. I’m not gonna lie, if I’m right, it’s going to be pretty bitter sweet.

Watching Homecoming, I’ve gotta say, maybe it’s just me being my paranoid self, but I see the signs. Loud and clear. So here are a few ominous things I noticed in Spiderman Homecoming that most definitely tell me that Stark’s a goner.

1. Misleading moment of optimism: Now, I’ve seen way too many stories employing this trope to ignore it. Giving a suffering character a final moment of solace or happiness before killing them off. A moment where you are almost made to think, made to hope that everything might actually work out for the character before fucking ruining everything again. I’ve let moments like these destroy me(-_-forever salty about Sirius’s death -_-) for most of the recent Marvel movies, Tony has suffered . He has made humongous mistakes and has suffered the consequences. Some of his closest comrades have left his side, even Pepper left. Face it, ever since New York, Tony has had it hard. But in Homecoming, despite everything that happened in the recent films, he.. seemed.. happy. In fact, this was the happiest I have seen him in recent times. He has someone to mentor. A kind of relationship I’m sure he never dreamed he would have. This whole thing makes me suspicious.

2. A trial/lesson for Peter: I have heard so many people complain that Spidey is usually a loner in the comics and that he has way too much support in terms of the people in his life in Homecoming. People believe that it almost makes losing uncle Ben not matter because he already has a new mentor. Well, imagine losing TWO mentors/father figures in a span of almost a year. With the terrible luck that Peter has, I say it’s entirely plausible. After watching this movie, it’s almost certain that Peter would lose it if he witnessed Tony die. It would change him as a person and I think it’s a perfect passing the torch moment for our hero.

3. Stark tower being sold: there’s already a theory doing the rounds on the internet about this. We know that Spidey famously got bitten by a radioactive spider while taking a tour of Oscorp. Although there’s no mention of Oscorp in the movie, we know that it exists. What if the elusive buyer of the Stark tower is actually Oscorp? The MCU is already crowded with massive technologically advanced corporations with Pym tech and Stark industries. What if the end of Stark tower symbolises the end of an era? Stark industries taking a break somewhere “upstate” while making way for more story opportunities! Getting rid of the iconic Stark tower from the New York skyline would neatly take attention away from the eventual plight of the company once Tony bites the dust in case the MCU doesn’t feel like addressing it.

4. Pepper’s return: I give Marvel credit for being a master strategist with its storylines so I never think that anything happens without a solid reason. Every move is a calculated step towards some goal. That being said, why bring Pepper back? Maybe, like I said in point 1, to bring a final bit of happiness into Tony’s life? I think there might be more to it. In the long run, Marvel might like to always have a Stark in the game. After all the legacy it has built around the Stark name, killing off all the Starks would be such a waste. So I’m guessing Pepper is going to get knocked up before Tony’s death. Giving the MCU potential to create new stories/spin-offs. I just hope it’s a girl. It would be amazing to see an iron woman or something in the future. Phase 26, anybody?

What they’re trying to tell us?

As I said in a previous post, the background song in the beginning of the Kitchen scene between Wanda and Vision is called “I fall in love too easily” (by Chet Baker) (x) 

But the important thing is that the soundtrack of the next scene, when Vision is talking with Wanda about the Mind Stone, it’s called “Celestial Bodies” (by Henry Jackman) (x)

Foreshadowing about Infinity War, maybe? Someone think the same? Nobody?

What the hell Russos

anonymous asked:

This will require a longer answer but you don't have to reply immediately. As someone not new to MCU but completely new to Marvel Comics, which comics would you say I should definitely read and in what order? As much as I prefer being a completionist, people have said I would get burned out super fast that way. Basically I'd like to know which ones are the most essential that contain important moments (like the Avengers finding out about Iron Man's identity etc). Thank you so much in advance!

Hi, anon! I answered an ask last week that covers a lot of this ground, so there are a bunch of recommendations there (including a list we made at the 616 Steve/Tony Discord; feel free to come by and ask if you have questions, and also we run a weekly book club if you ever want to discuss comics with people). There’s also the Cap-IM Slashy Moments list; not everything in the list is 100% essential, obviously, but there are a bunch of highlights and you can browse it and see what looks good.

Having said that, issues/runs that tend to come up in 616 Steve/Tony fic a lot include:

  • Avengers v1 #4: The one where the team finds Steve. If you want a modern-day reworking of this, there’s the miniseries Captain America: Man Out of Time, which is very good.
  • Avengers v1 #16: This is the beginning of Cap’s Kooky Quartet, in which all the founders except Steve quit the team, which is now Steve, Clint, Wanda, and Pietro.
  • Nomad (Cap v1 #180-#184): Steve gets a new superhero identity and everyone’s favorite costume ever.
  • Demon in a Bottle (IM v1 #120-128): The storyline that establishes Tony as an alcoholic. But when Steve/Tony fandom wants to talk about Tony as an alcoholic, the run that usually gets referenced is Denny O’Neil’s later run, usually just called “the second drinking arc” because the run itself has no official title.
  • Avengers v1 #215-216: This is where Steve finds out who Iron Man is. Please note that not everyone finds out who Iron Man is at this time; Steve is one of the first. The Avengers find out basically one-by-one over the years and the public doesn’t find out until Iron Man v3 and also during Civil War. (Yes, it happens twice. It’s a long story.)
  • The second drinking arc (IM v1 #158-200): Tony falls off the wagon, gives Rhodey the suit, is carried out of a burning building by a very upset Steve, is broke and homeless living in a cardboard box, and nearly dies drinking himself to death in a blizzard. My fave.
  • Armor Wars (IM v1 #225-231): Steve and Tony have their first big fight. If you see fic mentioning the Guardsmen, they come from here.
  • Operation: Galactic Storm (a multi-series crossover; the only issue you really need is the post-event wrap-up in Cap v1 #401): Another fight! If you see fic mentioning the Kree Supreme Intelligence, they’re talking about this.
  • Capwolf (Cap v1 #402-408). Uh. Yes.
  • Avengers/Cap/IM v3 in general is widely liked; within v3 you may see reference to Avengers Red Zone (v3 #65-70) and IM Sentient Armor (v3 #26-30) as well as the 1998 Cap & IM Annual (Tony wipes Steve’s memories and they have another fight). v3 ends with Disassembled, in which Wanda blows up the mansion.

After that is when New Avengers v1 begins (as well as Cap v5 and Iron Man v4), and Civil War starts. There are specific tie-in issues I can rec if you just want the Steve/Tony view of the war. The beginning of New Avengers comes up in fic a fair amount; Iron Man v4 comes up a lot, because it starts with Extremis (many people like Extremis) and it’s the run that’s happening during and after Civil War, so it’s basically What Tony Is Doing While Steve’s Dead. (Answer: Being the director of SHIELD and failing miserably at coping. I also have to rec the Avengers/Invaders miniseries which takes place while Tony is director. SO MUCH ANGST.) Cap v5 doesn’t come up that much because after Steve dies in #25, it is basically Bucky’s book until Steve comes back.

Honestly at that point (Civil War) it’s hard to recommend specific things to read (other than just starting with New Avengers and going forward and hitting the events as you go, which is what I did) because – since that’s when the Steve/Tony pairing really got its start – most of the fic assumes you know generally what’s been happening in all the major events since then. Steve dies and comes back, Tony deletes his brain, later on the incursions happen and Tony mindwipes Steve, and so on and so forth. Big events of the past ten years are roughly: Civil War, Secret Invasion, Dark Reign, Siege, Fear Itself, AvX, Infinity, Axis, Secret Wars, Standoff, Civil War II, Secret Empire. 

Post-CW, the only miniseries with a real Steve & Tony focus have been Avengers Prime (taking place near the beginning of Avengers v4) and One Night in Madripoor (Captain America and Iron Man #633-635), taking place slightly later. Hickman’s Avengers run (Avengers v5 & New Avengers v3) also focuses a lot on Steve and Tony, but, uh, not necessarily in a positive way. They haven’t been on the same Avengers team since Hickman’s run.

This doesn’t even take into account the other comics continuities in which people write Steve and Tony; I would say that the biggest are Ultimates (which is its own separate universe with hundreds of comics itself, where everyone is an asshole), Marvel Adventures: Avengers (an all-ages series with about 40 issues and another 13 for MA: Iron Man), Iron Man Noir (a miniseries where Tony is an adventurer in the late 1930s), and possibly also 1872 (also a miniseries, set in the Wild West).

If you want to read pre-Civil War Steve and Tony, I highly recommend buying or borrowing the trade paperback Iron Man/Captain America (yes, that is its real name) which basically covers a lot of the highlights of their early relationship and will give you a feel for what their dynamic is like: it has some team-up issues, the issues of the second drinking arc and Armor Wars that have Steve confronting Tony, the 1998 Annual, and so on. Most of these issues are collected in other trades or available digitally, but the one thing in here that was never reprinted anywhere else (as far as I know) and cannot be read online is the Tales of Suspense one-shot from 1995, which fandom has dubbed “the azure eyes issue.” It is worth reading. If only for that one conversation.

I hope that was helpful!

anonymous asked:

Im curious! (Especially after homecoming) what is your opinion on tony's portrayal in the mcu?

MCU has always done my boy wrong,

however- a lot of that has to do with crowd perception too. currently, i like tony’s route. he fits the mentor role incredibly well and he’s doing better for himself. he isnt a perfect character, but he absolutely does try his best for everyone and goes beyond the ends of the earth (literally) to do so.

he does a good job of protecting peter while still allowing him enough freedom to make the mistakes that will help him learn

I FEAR FOR TONY IN INFINITY WAR TBH………….but we shall see

alternative song titles - mitam edition
  • hey angel: are u as obsessed with me as i am with yooouuuu?
  • drag me down: thx for putting up with my bullshit. u never had to but u did anyway, which is great because i'm rlly scared of being alone, ya feel?
  • perfect: fear of commitment™
  • infinity: u left and OUCH u hurt my heart u dick (talkin to u zayn)
  • end of the day: *clap, clap, clap, clap* such heart palpitations, wow, very love
  • if i could fly: (piano, piano) LOVE DECLARATION OF THE CENTURY (piano, piANOOOOOO)
  • long way down: u hurt me and that was soooo unpredictable, i'm saaaaaad
  • never enough: LOOK WE ARE ADULTS WE DO THE SEX / u give rlly good head and that's nice
  • what a feeling: can't believe i managed to reel in a 10, good eyes, good eyes
  • love you goodbye: DON'T LEAVE BEFORE WE HAD BREAKUP SEX. nice outfit btw
  • i want to write you a song: i couldn't think of a creative song title
  • history: we are great, we are cool. pls don't leave (like zayn did)
  • temporary fix: LOOK WE ARE ADULTS WE DO THE SEX II / 'friends with benefits' is an underappreciated concept
  • walking in the wind: a-ooo-ooo-ooo i'm just going for a walk but i like to make even the smallest goodbyes very dramatic a-ooo-ooo-ooo
  • wolves: they call me unreasonably paranoid, very possessive boyfriend for a reason
  • a.m.: drunk banter in the early hours of the morning, fuck yeah

Here I present to you a list consisting of #550 phobias that someone can have. These all come from different online lists of phobias and they are organized in alphabetical order. If you’re looking for a specific phobia, ctrl+f and type in the keyword. This is also for my 300 followers. Anyway, please like if you’ve found this helpful. Enjoy, lovelies. (◠‿◠✿)

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cavaleiro-de-dragao  asked:

About ironpanther, I would love to read more of that soulmate au. While I'm at it, will you put it on ao3?

All righty! Here’s a bit more of the soulmate au from T’Challa’s perspective and the team (somewhat) realizing they dun goofed. And yes, I will post it on Ao3! :)


The day the ex-Avengers were pardon T’Challa had felt almost insulted by how easy it had been. The struggle and exhaustion Tony had suffered during the battles and working on the Accords, literally shedding blood, sweat and tears to find a balance only to have his old team tear into him, to have it all put away and momentarily forgotten? T’Challa wanted nothing more than to walk up and shout to the world incoherent words and then sit back and watch them trip over themselves trying grasp what he had said. But he had more important things to do. One of those including being present for Captain America and his team’s return.

James Rhodes stood besides T’Challa. As did Virginia Potts, hidden behind her Rescue armor. None of the Captain’s team mates were any wiser of her identity behind the mask. The Vision remained behind them. It was the four of them standing at a distance as they watched Steve Rogers walk forward. Maria Hill and Nick Fury waited for Rogers to reach them. They greeted each other as the old friends they appeared to be.

“Captain, it’s good to have you back.”

“It’s good to be back.”

The Asgardian prince, the one responsible for setting in motion the Captain’s pardon, made his presence known. They listened intently as he explained the dangers heading their way, the war that was about to start and the battle they were to be a part of for Earth’s safety.

An alien invasion.

“Are you serious? Another alien invasion?” Barton cried.

Another one, just as Tony had predicted.

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Phobias or fears


Ablutophobia- Fear of washing or bathing.
Acarophobia- Fear of itching or of the insects that cause itching.
Acerophobia- Fear of sourness.
Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
Acousticophobia- Fear of noise.
Acrophobia- Fear of heights.
Aerophobia- Fear of drafts, air swallowing, or airbourne noxious substances.
Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places.
Aeronausiphobia- Fear of vomiting secondary to airsickness.
Agateophobia- Fear of insanity.
Agliophobia- Fear of pain.
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place.
Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse.
Agrizoophobia- Fear of wild animals.
Agyrophobia- Fear of streets or crossing the street.
Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects.
Ailurophobia- Fear of cats.
Albuminurophobia- Fear of kidney disease.
Alektorophobia- Fear of chickens.
Algophobia- Fear of pain.
Alliumphobia- Fear of garlic.
Allodoxaphobia- Fear of opinions.
Altophobia- Fear of heights.
Amathophobia- Fear of dust.
Amaxophobia- Fear of riding in a car.
Ambulophobia- Fear of walking.
Amnesiphobia- Fear of amnesia.
Amychophobia- Fear of scratches or being scratched.
Anablephobia- Fear of looking up.
Ancraophobia- Fear of wind. (Anemophobia)
Androphobia- Fear of men.
Anemophobia- Fear of air drafts or wind.(Ancraophobia)
Anginophobia- Fear of angina, choking or narrowness.
Anglophobia- Fear of England or English culture, etc.
Angrophobia - Fear of anger or of becoming angry.
Ankylophobia- Fear of immobility of a joint.
Anthrophobia or Anthophobia- Fear of flowers.
Anthropophobia- Fear of people or society.
Antlophobia- Fear of floods.
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
Apeirophobia- Fear of infinity.
Aphenphosmphobia- Fear of being touched. (Haphephobia)
Apiphobia- Fear of bees.
Apotemnophobia- Fear of persons with amputations.
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.
Arithmophobia- Fear of numbers.
Arrhenphobia- Fear of men.
Arsonphobia- Fear of fire.
Asthenophobia- Fear of fainting or weakness.
Astraphobia or Astrapophobia- Fear of thunder and lightning.(Ceraunophobia, Keraunophobia)
Astrophobia- Fear of stars or celestial space.
Asymmetriphobia- Fear of asymmetrical things.
Ataxiophobia- Fear of ataxia. (muscular incoordination)
Ataxophobia- Fear of disorder or untidiness.
Atelophobia- Fear of imperfection.
Atephobia- Fear of ruin or ruins.
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.
Atomosophobia- Fear of atomic explosions.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
Aulophobia- Fear of flutes.
Aurophobia- Fear of gold.
Auroraphobia- Fear of Northern lights.
Autodysomophobia- Fear of one that has a vile odor.
Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist’s dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.
Automysophobia- Fear of being dirty.
Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.
Aviophobia or Aviatophobia- Fear of flying.


Time is my watcher. At the beginnings of my existence, it watched in joy. And at the end of my days, it’ll watch in mourning.

Time is my rival. It pushes me to seek my greatest level, and yet… it laughs at knowing that my journey shall eventually come to an end whilst its own course has barely begun.

Time is my hero. It rises to meet every challenge, no matter the odds. And despite the overwhelming fear of infinity, it wages on still against any battle before it.

But most importantly, time is a friend… And I thank it for letting me walk beside it, even if for but a moment.