There’s this panic that I feel. Panic that I’m not living my life as I should be- not seeing the world, not meeting new people and not making the most of my time. I feel my old age looming upon and looking behind, what have I achieved? Nothing of note. No degree, no money, no husband, no children.

Aries Biggest Fears

Being trapped, or restrained. Having their flaws/weakness pointed out publicly. Feeling like they don’t matter.

Taurus Biggest Fears

Loving someone more than they are loved. Not having the necessities to have a comfortable life (esp. finances). Unexpected changes disrupting the completion of plans/goals

Gemini Biggest Fears

Feeling trapped, or losing their freedom. Being locked in inactivity. Not finding the person they feel could complete them.

Cancer Biggest Fears

Having to let go of something or someone they care about. Being taken advantage of by someone they try to help. Feeling unloved and/or alone.

Leo Biggest Fears

Public humiliation. Experiencing disloyalty from their significant other. not mattering to those who matter to them.

Virgo’s Biggest Fears

Letting someone too close, too quick. Feeling useless, or unhelpful in the lives of their loved ones. Not being able to compensate for their own shortcomings.

Libra Biggest Fears

Dying alone. Being disliked by those they care about most. Their life being unbalanced, and not being able to fix it.

Scorpio Biggest Fear

People discovering how sensitive they truly are. Being betrayed by someone they care about. Not being able to see the truth.

Sagittarius Biggest Fear

Making a commitment that inhibits their freedom. Forgiving someone, only to be hurt again. Being trapped, pinned down, or otherwise prevented from pursuing their goals

Capricorn Biggest Fears

Not being able to meet their goals. Being embarrassed in front of people they want to impress. Not impacting the world in some way.

Aquarius Biggest Fears

Not having room to be as independent and unique as they like. Being replaced or rejected. Blending in with the crowd/feeling insignificant.

Pisces Biggest Fears

Being rejected. Never being loved/being alone. Not being able to help their loved ones.

[This pertains to the raw Zodiac Signs themselves; you may relate to the description that matches your Sun Sign, and also check out your Saturn, Neptune, 12th House, and 8th House!]

It is April and I am still burning.
Still longing. Aching. Hoping.
Still grinding the word “survival”
between my teeth as I sleep
each night. Making potions out
of “recovery” via mortar and pestle.
Clamping my thighs tightly together
at the mention of “childhood”.

It is April and I am still learning.

It is April and I am still afraid.

—  (8/30) // Haley Hendrick