favourite item of clothing

Dig a little deeper.
  1. Do you prefer writing with black or blue pen?
  2. Would you prefer to live in the country or the city?
  3. If you could learn a new skill, what would it be?
  4. Do you drink your tea or coffee with sugar?
  5. What was your favourite book as a child?
  6. Do you prefer baths or showers?
  7. If you could be a mythical creature, which would you choose?
  8. Do you prefer reading paper or electronic books?
  9. What is your favourite item of clothing?
  10. Do you like your name? Would you ever change it?
  11. Who is a mentor to you?
  12. Would you ever want to be famous? If so, what for?
  13. Are you a restless sleeper?
  14. Do you consider yourself a romantic?
  15. Which element best represents you?
  16. Who do you want to be closer to?
  17. Do you miss someone at the moment?
  18. Tell us about an early childhood memory.
  19. What is the strangest thing you have eaten?
  20. What can you see outside your bedroom window?
  21. What are you most thankful for?
  22. Do you like spicy food?
  23. Have you ever met someone famous?
  24. Do you keep a diary or journal?
  25. Do you prefer to use pen or pencil?
  26. What is your star sign?
  27. Do you like your cereal crunchy or soggy?
  28. What would you want your legacy to be?
  29. Do you like reading? What was the last thing you read?
  30. How do you show someone you love them?
  31. Do you like ice in your drinks?
  32. What are you afraid of?
  33. What is your favourite scent?
  34. Do you address older people by their first or last name?
  35. If money was not a factor, how would you live your life?
  36. Do you prefer swimming in pools or in the ocean?
  37. What would you do if you found $50 on the ground?
  38. Have you ever seen a shooting star? Did you make a wish?
  39. What is one thing you would want to teach your children?
  40. If you had to have a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it?
  41. What can you hear right now?
  42. Where do you feel the safest?
  43. What is one thing you want to overcome/conquer?
  44. If you could travel back to any era, which would you choose?
  45. What is your most used emoji?
  46. What is your favourite season? Why?
  47. How would you spend your ideal day?
  48. Describe yourself using one word.
  49. What do you regret the most?
  50. Invent your own word. What does it mean?
Instrument Asks

STRINGS
Violin - Are you a perfectionist?
Viola - What makes you different?
Cello - Favourite place to be?
Double Bass - How do you like to relax?
Acoustic Guitar - What instruments do you play?
Electric Guitar - Do you experience synesthesia?
Electric Bass - What do you want to study?
Electric Cello - Favourite composer?
Electric Violin - Have you ever been in a musical/play?
Harp - Favourite piece you’ve played?
Ukulele - Are you a good performer?
Sitar - Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Balalaika - Do you enjoy playing sports?
Mandolin - Who inspires you?

WOODWINDS
Piccolo - Describe your personality
Flute - Have you ever gone overseas?
Oboe - Favourite kind of weather?
Cor Anglais - Introvert, ambivert, or extrovert?
Clarinet - How much time do you spend online?
Bass Clarinet - Favourite item of clothing?
Bassoon - Do you enjoy online shopping?
Contrabassoon - Are you brave?
Bass Flute - Can you dance?
Soprano Saxophone - How many times have you broken a bone?
Alto Saxophone - Have you ever pulled an all nighter?
Tenor Saxophone - Favourite film?
Baritone Saxophone - Describe your dream bedroom

BRASS
French Horn - Where are you from?
Mellophone - Favourite musical?
Trumpet - What makes you happy?
Slide Trumpet - Do you like being outdoors?
Cornet - Favourite genre of music?
Flugelhorn - How do you feel about your past?
Bugle - Would you ever join the army?
Trombone - Describe your dream meal
Valve Trombone - Do you suffer from imposter syndrome?
Bass Trombone - Are you reliable?
Tenor Horn - What do you aspire to be?
Baritone Horn - Do you have perfect pitch?
Euphonium - Favourite food?
Sousaphone - Who is your hero?
Tuba - How/Why did you join Tumblr?

OTHER AEROPHONES
Melodica - Do people consider you annoying?
Harmonica - What makes you laugh?
Accordion - Favourite Tumblr blog?
Air Horn - Are you good with kids?
Ocarina - Do you know how to do CPR?
Whistle - Favourite smell?
Slide Whistle - What TV shows have you binge-watched?
Didgeridoo - Tell a funny story!
Recorder - How well did you do in school?

PERCUSSION
Xylophone - Do you like classical music?
Marimba - What’s your ringtone?
Glockenspiel - Are you talkative?
Bongos - Can you jumpstart a car?
Wood Block - Describe your dream house
Snare Drum - Favourite colour?
Bass Drum - Would you want to be able to read minds?
Timpani - Do you enjoy meeting new people?
Gong - Are you a loud or soft person?
Triangle - Could you imagine being the President/Prime Minister?
Steel Drum - Favourite season?

narry is such an under-appreciated ship….

  • “everything we do!”
  • “that was for you! that was for you!”
  • where do broken hearts go being niall’s favourite 1d song
  • fetus harry going to mullingar
  • niall breaking a record for most amount of shots in a certain amount of time because harry dared him to
  • “i think he looks handsome, very handsome.” - harry about niall wearing glasses
  • high-fives turning into hand holding
  • “who was the last person you had sex with?”
  • niall kissing harry’s cheek under the mistletoe
  • ^ harry’s look of awed surprise
  • harry saying niall was the best kisser out of the band, eyes going wide straight after
  • “big spoon.” “little spoon… we fit!”
  • harry’s many attempts to grab niall’s crotch throughout the years
  • niall tucking his head into harry’s neck every time they hug
  • golfing dates
  • niall: “sitting in the garden!” harry: “i’m in the bushes.”
  • reenacting ghost during narry hour on 1d day
  • harry always trying to tickle niall…. but quietly
  • “i’d do niall.”
  • niall loving the pink album
  • “the laughs we have!” “between me and you…”
  • niall cackling at basically everything harry says and does
  • “harry just told me i look like a wall street banker.” “a good one! a good one, though.”
  • being in their own world during the 1d four hangout
  • “he [niall] looks good coming out of the ocean.”
  • harry telling niall to take off his shirt during a gig
  • “don’t knock it ‘til you try it.”
  • niall saying harry can do 105 press-ups
  • harry buying niall’s favourite item of clothing, a vintage the eagles top
  • niall using harry’s toothbrush on tour
harry potter ask box meme
  • harry: do you consider yourself brave?
  • hermione: what is your favourite book?
  • ron: are you scared of spiders?
  • voldemort: what 3 items would you chose to be your horcruxes?
  • dumbledore: do you have many secrets?
  • snape: if you could read anyone's mind for a day, who would it be?
  • sirius: if you became an animagus, which animal would you choose?
  • remus: if you faced a boggart, which form would it take?
  • draco: be honest, do you worry about social status?
  • ginny: who would you let read your diary?
  • neville: are you passionate about any social causes?
  • luna: do other people tend to think of you as strange?
  • fred: have you ever played a prank on someone?
  • george: is humour important when considering a significant other?
  • bellatrix: are you easily manipulated by confident or powerful people?
  • hagrid: if you could have any creature as a pet (regardless of the law), which would you choose?
  • umbridge: are you passive aggressive?
  • viktor: are you athletic?
  • fleur: is physical appearance important to you?
  • tonks: if you could change your hair to any unnatural colour without damage, cost or regrowth, which colour would you choose?
  • kreacher: would you protect your friends' and family's secrets at all costs?
  • mad-eye: are you trusting of other people?
  • lockhart: do you ever elaborate on personal stories to improve your image?
  • dobby: what is your favourite item of clothing in your wardrobe at the moment?
Gerard Way Style Asks
  • Cats: What's your favourite animal?
  • Lindsey: Do you have a date mate?
  • Revenge era: What do you think of blood?
  • Bullets: Have any kinks?
  • Black Parade: How do you want to die?
  • Danger Days: Sexuality?
  • Hesitant Alien: Hardest thing to let go of?
  • Bandit: Do you want kids? How many?
  • Mikey: Do you have any siblings? How many?
  • Doom Patrol: Any special talents?
  • Frerard: Biggest thing you regret?
  • Socks: Favourite item of clothing?
  • Lola: Are you a furry? Thoughts on furries?
  • That one hat from Russia: worst thing you've lost?
  • Lemon Gerard: Ask your own question.

anonymous asked:

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What is your favourite item of clothing?

Either this denim-ish carpenter dad shirt that doesn’t actually belong to me OR this incredibly soft oversized light pink sweater that someone dear sent to me for my birthday. it is like wearing a hug. <3

Umbrella

Pairing: RAP MONSTER X READER

Summary: Itโ€™s raining and Namjoon has forgotten his umbrella, like always.

Genre: fluff

Length: 1.6k

A/N:ย H A P P Y ย B I R T H D A Y ย N A M J O O N!!!

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

The threat of a storm had been looming over the dorms, dark clouds lay on the horizon and there was no wind stirring up the dead leaves outside. You knew the boys had gone to the studio today, and when you heard the door slam shut followed by the sound of laughter and shouts, you sat up from your bed and slipped on your slippers before shuffling into the hallway.

Your eyebrows raised in amusement as you looked at the boys, umbrellas wet and shaking their heads like a pack of wild dogs and moving to the side to see if you could see your tall dimpled boyfriend you let out a sigh when it turned out he hadnโ€™t come home.

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post-reveal adrienette fluff (because we all need this)

• adrien carrying marinette’s books to class
• especially when its cold and she gets tired easily
• ladrien and marichat visits
• quoting romeo and juliet when they flirt
• “neither fair saint, if thee dislike”
• “but a maiden blush bepaint my cheek”
• Adrien gets marinette an internship at his father’s work
• adrien visiting marinette at work occasionally
• occasionally having photoshoots together
• marinette visiting adrien at his shoots
• she sometimes makes small clothing items for him • he’s her favourite model • and her clothes are the only ones he likes to wear • wearing each other’s merchandise • Marinette getting defensive over adrien when someone objectifies or discredits him • kareoke • they love to partner up for most assignments • adrien on piano marinette singing • tender hand kisses • sometimes from marinette sometimes from adrien • they don’t actually realise how much they flirt • adrien cant decide which sounds better • adrien dupain-cheng or marinette agreste • mari likes the latter • coffee dates • marinette designing as adrien watches over her shoulder Maybe I’ll add more later. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Headcanon: Fleur was the only one of Molly’s daughters (because all her daughters-in-law became her daughters) who carried on the tradition of Weasley Jumpers. Hermione liked to use what little free time she had reading or spending time with her family, Ginny absolutely hated knitting and Angelina had never learned to knit.

Fleur’s last Christmas gift to Molly was a beautiful purple jumper with a gold ’M’ on it and a card that read: “Mum - After all those years of making them for everyone else, I thought it was about time someone made you your very own Weasley Jumper. All my love, Fleur.”

To the end of her days, it was Molly’s favourite item of clothing.

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PadMay Day 3. Favorite The Phantom Menace Costume

Okay, this is not my favourite gown or outfit or ‘item of clothing she wears during the film’ (that’s either the light up red brocade we first see her in or the effervescent pale silk we last see her in). But it is my favourite costume in the film.  

First of all, where does she even get it? The Queen’s Wardrobe is extensive and includes matching gowns in various colors for her handmaidens but Padmé’s peasant disguise looks nothing like anything she or any of the others ever wear. The concept art has a few nods to Nubian fashion but they’re left off the final result (which makes sense, she’s not disguised if she’s still wearing a diadem). It does, however, somewhat resemble what Anakin and others on Tatooine wear. This makes it a good disguise. But how does she know that and where does she get it?

I’ve decided she or one of her handmaidens spied on Qui-Gon’s preparations and approximated an outfit to match out of bits and pieces of various individual’s clothing on the ship. Scavenged hand-me-downs explain why it fits so loosely and is made out of rough, simple fabrics. Conceivably, it might even be made out of blankets and miscellaneous cargo (if the handmaidens are as crafty and quick witted as I like to imagine). 

Second, I love, love, love, love, love, that Padmé is wearing the simplest and plainest and commonest outfit we literally ever see her in when Anakin first sees her, and calls her an angel, the most beautiful creature in the universe. I love that he meets her not only not as the Queen, but as a servant, dressed not dissimilarly from himself. In the second picture she looks so young, and fits in with the terrain so well, like she belongs. It makes her approachable to him. But at the same time he sees her – pure Padmé, with no paint or trappings – as a heavenly creature.

Endless Summer Asks!

QUINN -
1) Are you a fighter?
2) What is the hardest thing you’ve ever done?
3) Would you consider yourself trustworthy?
4) Do you like swimming?
5) How would you cope with change?
6) Where do you feel happy?

SEAN - 
1) Are you a leader?
2) Do you stick with things until they’re done?
3) What is your best trait?
4) Favourite sport?
5) Would you rather be in the limelight or in the background?
6) How do you help people?

JAKE - 
1) Are you badass?
2) What vehicles can you drive?
3) Have you ever gotten into a fight?
4) What is your ideal way to spend time on the weekend?
5) Can you trust others?
6) Do you enjoy being outdoors?

ZAHRA -
1) Are you tired of people?
2) Have you ever stolen something?
3) What colour would you dye your hair if you could?
4) Who do you never get tired of being around?
5) Which character in any Choices game would you punch?
6) Do you want to be someone?

CRAIG -
1) Are you impulsive?
2) When have you been most disappointed in life?
3) What sports do you play?
4) How do you get along with people you don’t like?
5) Do you joke around or are you serious about things?
6) Would you consider yourself brave?

RAJ -
1) Are you chill?
2) Favourite food?
3) Favourite Choices book?
4) Who is your idol?
5) Where do you go to relax?
6) What’s your MBTI type? (alternatively, a character you can relate to in ES)

GRACE -
1) Are you a romantic?
2) Are you a nerd?
3) Favourite bit of trivia?
4) How do you feel about injustice?
5) What do you want to do in the future?
6) Where do you sit on the political spectrum? (alt- feelings on Aleister?)

ALEISTER -
1) Are you a person with high standards?
2) Would you ever tell your crush you like them?
3) What would you say if you were going to die?
4) Do you ever feel pressure from your family?
5) Favourite person in the whole world?
6) If you were a fruit, which one would you be?

MICHELLE -
1) Are you forgotten?
2) Do you feel like people don’t like you?
3) Favourite colour?
4) Significant other?
5) Would you rather have everything in the world or have your crush?
6) Where do you go when you’re feeling done with everything?

LILA - 
1) Are you helpful?
2) Any hidden talents?
3) Who is your greatest hero?
4) Favourite drink?
5) What is your mood mostly like?
6) If everyone turned on you, what would you do?

ESTELLA - 
1) Are you secretive?
2) Do you go by a name other than your first name/given name?
3) Favourite item of clothing?
4) Have you ever beat someone up?
5) Would you kill someone for a friend?
6) Where do you feel safe?

DIEGO -
1) Are you a good friend?
2) Who is your best friend?
3) Would you stick up for someone being bullied?
4) Could you tell your friend an honest truth that might hurt?
5) What makes you happy?
6) Favourite smell?

MC -
1) Are you surrounded by attractive people?
2) Do you want to be friends with everyone?
3) What is your biggest question about your life?
4) Would you want to be in the Endless Summer universe?
5) Can you resist cheating?
6) How many diamond choices have you bought for Choices?

MISC QUESTIONS
Fox - Are you well liked?
Rourke - Do you want to rule the world?
Serpens - What lengths would you go to to help people?
Blue - How many languages do you speak?
Shredder - What would you like to forget ever happened?
Dossier - Have you ever struggled to hide something?
Graleister - Biggest ship in the Choices universe?
Select - What makes you special?
Password - Have you ever spoiled something for someone?
Iris - Which character from Endless Summer do you want to end up with?

(note: if I spelled anything incorrectly, sorry!)

Glitch In The Matrix Stories #28

I Duplicated A Box Of Magic: The Gathering Cards

I have a deck of Magic cards themed around Elves that I dusted off to show a friend last night at my local game store. I haven’t opened this box in almost 2 years. It was my first deck. Before I left, I opened up the box and looked at the deck list that I had put in the box, and checked to make sure all the cards were there, which they were. 

I went up to my LGS and played some (with a different deck) and my friend had to leave before I could show him the deck, at which point I left too and came straight home. When I got home I played on my computer and went to bed, the deck remained in my bag.

This morning, I woke up and the deck box was sitting on my desk. I thought it was odd, but brushed it off figuring I had put it there last night and forgot to put it on my shelf where it sits. Well, I went to my bag to grab some cards I got last night to put in a different deck and there’s that box. It’s the same box. I thought that I had accidentally picked up someone else’s box. And so I look through it and it’s the same deck. Down to which cards are foil and what version it came from. No one but me has seen this deck since the last time I played it, 2 years ago.

Credits to: crushcastles23

Someone Was Missing

Me and four other friends of mine were hanging out after school because there was pizza or something- I don’t really remember why we stayed. We were bored and wandering the hallways when one of our guy friends excused himself to go to his sports practice. The locker room for that particular sport is in the basement, a place well known for its title, “The Dungeon”.

Now it was me and three other girls and we were just messing around the stairs, going down into The Dungeon, when one of the faculty members began coming down to where we were. We freaked out and got the hell out of there (because four girls messing around the guy’s locker room isn’t exactly “OK”).

As we were about to go back to the main part of the school, my friend stopped and said “Wait, somebody’s missing.”

At that point I got horrible goosebumps, like not the “oh that’s creepy haha” goosebumps, but the “something is terribly wrong here and we need to go NOW” goosebumps. The air just seemed dangerous and off and it still gives me goosebumps to this day.

We never figured out who was missing because it had been us four girls since our guy friend left, and we couldn’t figure out why we felt that way. I can only think that somebody had been with us and they were kind of “erased” from the universe, and we don’t remember.

Credits to: keikabug

Flash With Silhouettes

I must have seven or eight years old. That’s somewhere in the early 90′s. it must have been 11 pm or so and I was getting ready to sleep in my parents’ bedroom. I could see the dark sky out of the window. The lights were off. I was staring at the sky, when suddenly I saw 3 simultaneous and separate flashes in the sky, equidistant from each other, and a godlike figure in each of them. 

From what I can remember they looked like 3 Indian gods- Bramha, Vishnu and Mahesh (Shiva). Just one flash and they disappeared. I cannot give you the exact description of the figures as it was long time ago and whenever I try to re-see it in my mind, I can see just 3 silhouettes. The reason I’d call it a ‘glitch’ is because I can clearly remember my eyes were wide open at the time (I wasn’t dreaming).

Credits to: tekenaki

My Clothes Keep Duplicating

A little backstory about me. I’m a male 23 year old who lives with his parents, brother and grandmother. The washing, putting away of clothes etc is done by my mom.

One day I noticed that one of my favourite pair of pants was missing. Black sweatpants with cuffed ankles that were the comfiest pair of pants to wear. At first I thought my mom had placed it in one of the other wardrobes in the house or was hidden away by my grandma who seems to move items into seemingly strange places due to her dementia. 

After about a month of searching, I thought the pants were a goner - alas I was wrong. As it turns out, I found the pair in the boot of my car buried under bags and other items that i kept hoarded in the back of my car. When I placed it back in my wardrobe for a split second I was confused. An exact pair of the same pants was in my wardrobe. I don’t recall ever buying a second pair nor did I recall ever picking someone else’s pair up from a party, nor does anyone else in the house wear these same kind of pants. I didn’t think much of it at the time as I was more happy at the fact that I had a second pair of my favourite pants. 

After a month however, another item of clothing went missing- a denim button up shirt. Again after about a month of searching, the shirt popped up in my closet… twice. The first time I saw it, I assumed my mom had finally found the shirt (there are 3 bathrooms with 3 separate laundry bins in my house) and after questioning her, this theory turned out to be correct. 

However, that day when I arrived home, threw the shirt in the laundry bin, showered and came back to my room, the exact same shirt was there. I questioned my mum about it and she recalls only cleaning one (albeit there are a lot of clothes my mum cleans and sometimes gets my grandma to help out as it helps give her a bit of structure with her illness). This however hasn’t stopped there. 

In the past two years I’ve had socks, a t-shirt, a jumper and a pair of underwear duplicate with each time just as perplexing as the last. I have a coat that has been currently missing for the past year (I might have genuinely lost that one) and am totally perplexed as to what’s been going on.

Credits to: roprobro

alcoholic-bananas  asked:

,, ugandan headcanons please??

Anon:  do you have any hc’s for the ugandans ??

Imma do a few for each one lmao (this is minus Nabulungi because I’m gonna her separately ayy):

MAFALA HATIMBI

  • A walking Dad Joke™
  • Own’s really horrible and loud shirts that he loves but make Nabulungi’s eyes hurt
  • Still hasn’t broken his habit of always making enough food for three people
  • The most positive man in the world
  • Has the tendency to hold your hands while he talks but they’re so warm and large you look forward to it every time
  • Very worrisome because he likes to know what’s going on at all times because he doesn’t like to feel helpless like he did when his wife got sick
  • If VERY cautious around the General even after he joined the Church of Arnold and doesn’t let Nabulungi pair with him on rounds
  • A skilled storyteller, he can make stories about him just going to the store sound like fucking poetry it’s beautiful

DR GOTSWANA

  • Worked extremely hard for his medical degree and he deserves it 100%
  • He knew he wanted to become a doctor after a little girl fell down when they were at school and he saw how happy she was after he cleaned up her knee as best as he could
  • Has a 14-year-old daughter whom he loves very much and is quite protective of her. Everything he does is for her safety and happiness especially after his wife had died recently
  • Even though he possesses a very awful… medical condition, he still remains very positive spending the last bits of money on lollipops for the small children who come to visit and Arnold
  • Loves to read anything and everything that shows up in the market, but loves Barbara Kimenye books because even though they are for children they remind him of when his daughter was smaller

KALIMBA

  • Loves to knit and sew and makes little socks and hats for whoever is pregnant at the time
  • A bit of a cynic and will call you out on your bullshit
  • Becomes a sort of grandmotherly figure to those in the village and the Elders because she gives great advice and has loads of sesame-honey candies that she gives out generously
  • However, she will beat your ass in football you bet it’s terrifying when she comes running at you
  • An overall very sweet woman who will compliment ‘how smart you look’ and then smack you because you stepped on her sweet potatoes

KIMBAY

  • Became Nabulungi’s mother figure after she died and comes over some nights a week to help Mafala with the cooking and cleaning and to teach Nabulungi how to read
  • A very blunt person who will tell you what she thinks with no hesitation
  • “Kevin go have a shower you smell like a warthog.” “Thanks, Kimbay.”
  • Quite a logical person and is usually the voice of reason among the villagers

MUTUMBO

  • He’s only a few years older than the Elders in his early 20s so he really gets along well with them
  • Especially Elder Neeley they bond over their love of the beach and Neely shows him his collection of shells so they made loads of necklaces
  • A really talented songwriter - he wrote all the songs for the Joseph Smith American Moses production
  • Loves to read poetry
  • His favourite colour is dark green because it reminds him of the dress his mother would wear everyday 
  • His staple item of clothing are bandanas his favourite is a green and white one he found by the river

anonymous asked:

True or False: socks with individual toes ("toe socks") are a purely fictional muggle clothing item. My muggleborn friend keeps saying these socks exist, but I'm pretty sure they're messing with me.

FALSE. Toe socks are quite real, and very popular indeed. One of our favourite muggle clothing items, these socks, often striped and brightly coloured, feature a space for each toe. They provide a maximum of comfort and style. We suggest that you pair them with flip flop sandals, a very trendy combination.

Softly - My Immortal

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Ten months had passed. Ten long months.

You’d gone back to work after six months. During one of your ‘dreams’ Spencer had told you that you needed to. That it would be good for you, that it would take your mind off the misery that you were stuck in. The misery of him not being alive, the misery of you not being with him physically.

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

And… It hadn’t been too bad. You’d not gone out into the field again yet, but then again you rarely did anyway. Your main job was to help back at HQ, and to focus on the media, but the team had been doing that between them whilst you’d been off. Working helped you take your mind off Spencer, although the first time you’d gone in and seen his old desk, you’d lost it and had burst into tears.

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

You were no longer sure that these dreams you were having were actually dreams. You always seemed drained after them and you’d noticed that since you’d started back at work, they either only occurred when you were off work the next day, or else they were only brief ‘dreams’ and then you’d start dreaming about something else.

You’d opened up to Derek about them, fearing that he’d laugh or find it funny but he’d just solemnly nodded and told you that he’d had them too. Spencer speaking to him and checking up on everyone, making sure they were doing okay and that he was looking out for you.

“How often do you have them?” you’d whispered to him.

“Every few weeks at least. He mainly talks about you. It’s so strange because… well it’s like I’m asleep but I’m not. He’s talking to me in my bedroom and I’m wearing the same clothes that I went to sleep in, which well… Sometimes is nothing at all, so that’s weird too. And they’re so vivid, I can remember almost everything, like we’d actually had a proper conversation.”

“It’s like he’s actually there… ” you’d said and Derek had nodded.

And so you’d researched it. So many people reported be able to have conversations with their loved ones during their sleep. So many people reported having the same feeling of having someone there with them, someone watching them. So one night, when he came, you asked him.

“Spencer, are you actually here?” His arms had been wrapped around you, your skin cold where he was touching you.

“Yes and no.”

“Yes and no?”

“Well I’m not here physically, but I am still here. It’s…. complicated.”

You smiled, “You’re like a ghost?”

“Erm….well. I guess I am. Why. Does it bother you?”

“No! It means…. It means I still get to be with you. But… How long for? How long will you be around?”

“For as long as you need me,” Spencer had told you, nuzzling your hair and sending cool shivers down your spine.

“Always then….”

“Like I said, for as long as you need me.”

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

Spencer had cut down his visits, well….he’d cut down making her aware of his visits. Mostly he’d stay out of sight, only showing himself when she’d had a particularly rough day at work, or if he knew she didn’t have to go in the next day.

He was pleased she’d gone back, it gave her something to do. He’d hated seeing her sitting and wallowing, not even crying sometimes, just staring off into space at the same spot on the wall for hours on end.

She was making progress. She was slowly, so slowly, starting to live her life again. She wore his wrist watch everywhere she went though, she’d had it adjusted to fit her slim, delicate wrists. And she’d not yet removed her engagement ring, not once. She still looked for that scarf though. He knew where it was. He’d seen it seven weeks ago when Morgan had helped her move their… well her, bedroom around. It had fallen behind a dresser and neither of them had spotted it. He’d tell her, eventually. That was his favourite item of clothing and for some reason, he knew it wasn’t the right time for her to find it yet, no matter how hard she looked for it.

He’d watched her get dressed up a few times to go out with the team, looking more beautiful than the sun and moon themselves, although each time she’d returned she’d fallen into bed sobbing, crying out her him. So he’d wait for her to fall into that state, that very special state. Then he’d go to her.

She was starting to understand why she could see him. He was… a ghost, a spirit of sorts and she’d asked him one night whether he was actually there. He was and he wasn’t, is what he’d told her. Because it was true but it also wasn’t true. It was such a contradiction but she accepted it for what it was and she’d continue to accept it, it meant she could see him and that he could talk to her and hold her. She was so warm when he hugged her and he was so cold all the time. Being next to her made him feel alive again, reliving happy memories, before she’d relent and slip off into a deeper sleep where she could no longer feel him.

He’d visited his mom as well. Just the once, to say goodbye. He didn’t go again. One visit she’d accept as a dream, any more and he’d risk upsetting her already fragile emotions and he didn’t want to aggravate his mom’s condition.

He visited Derek too, a few times actually. To make sure he was keeping good on his word and looking out for Y/N, although he knew he was. Derek had been his best friend on the team and he’d known there was no way he’d let Spencer down.

Spencer had dropped in at work one day, sitting in the corner of Rossis’ office as he counselled a distraught Morgan.

“Dave, it’s wrong… I need to make these feelings go away.”

“Derek, it’s not wrong. You can’t help how you feel. Has she given any indication….?” The older man had tried to delve deeper, comforting his friend.

“I don’t know… Sometimes I think so and then others…. I can’t tell. And I can’t act on it like I normally would to find out.” Spencer watched a frustrated tear slip from his best friends eye, wishing he could help him.

“Why not?”

“You know why Dave, you know why.”

The older man had sighed and patted Morgan’s shoulder, “He’d want you to be happy Derek. He’d want both of you to be happy.”

Spencer hadn’t been sure how he’d felt about the conversation at first but then he had a long hard think about it and decided that he didn’t mind it. Morgan was a good guy, and he knew that this would be different to his flings.

… Another two months after….

The anniversary of his death had kicked you back down to rock bottom, resulting in another absence from work, although this one had only lasted a week. He’d come to you that night, not holding you this time, you told him not to. You needed to sob this out by yourself.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

Your ‘dreams’ were less frequent but that didn’t mean you didn’t feel him there still. You could sense him.

Sometimes you’d be going about your business in the house and you’d stop.

“Spencer?” you’d whisper, feeling your hair waft in a breeze that shouldn’t be there.

It was comforting and unsettling both at the same time to begin with…. But now…you didn’t know, now it seemed almost wrong.

You didn’t want him to not be there, but the truth was, he wasn’t there. Not really. It didn’t make sense anymore.

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

“Baby girl, that food was to die for, as always. Next time, I’m cooking.. Well, taking you out. Alright?”

You laughed as you escorted Morgan to the door, seeing him out. You’d been spending more and more time with him and you liked it. You’d always got on with him but since Spencer had gone, you’d seen a different side to him. The softer side that he kept hidden at work. Morgan had been your rock and you’d helped each other through the past year. You honestly didn’t know what you’d do without him.

“Alright, I’ll let you take me out. But no Italian, okay? Rossi has fed me so much pasta recently, I’m scared I’ll become a piece of penne.” You’d had to actually throw away some of the delicious meals your colleague had bought over for you, claiming he’d cooked too much but knowing that he was trying to fatten you back up. You’d lost a lot of weight with everything that had happened.

“Your choice, beautiful girl, your choice.”

You smiled and let Derek pull you in for hug goodbye. You enjoyed his hugs. They were different to Spencer’s but comforting and nice in a different kind of way. Spencer had been all long arms and lean muscle, Derek was bulky and somehow, more cuddly with it. Nothing would replace Spencer’s warm hugs, but Derek’s came a close second.

You pulled back from his arms, reaching up and planting a kiss on Derek’s cheek, hearing an odd hitch in his breathing as he turned to look at you.

“Y/N…. ” he whispered softly, his head lowering to yours and surprising you as he placed his mouth onto yours.

You kissed him back at first, out of shock more than anything before you pulled back and pushed him angrily away.

“Morgan! What the fuck?” you wiped the back of your mouth with your hand, trying to rid any trace of him from you.

“Oh fuck. I’m sorry… I’m so sorry. I thought… Oh god I don’t know what I thought,” he looked ashamed of himself, a feeling that was running through you as well.

“What the hell made you think you could do that!? He was your best friend Derek!”

“I know, I know. I just… I thought… I feel something for you Y/N. I thought.. I thought maybe you felt it too.”

Without thinking, the next words spilled from your mouth, “It doesn’t matter what I feel for you! What about Spencer?!”

Derek looked at you sadly, “Spencer’s gone, Y/N. You know this. He’s not coming back. But I’m AM here. I’m sorry. The timing’s not right, but I don’t think it’ll ever be right. I have feelings for you. I’m sorry, but I do.”

“Just leave Morgan. Please. Go.”

“Y/N.. Can we talk about this?”

“There’s nothing to talk about! Nothing! Get that into your head. I belong to Spencer. No one else. It’s not right.”

“He’d want you to be happy. He’d want US to be happy, we can be that together.”

The damn that was building behind your eyes burst free and you used all your might to shove Derek outside of the door, taking him by surprise, and slamming it shut.

No no no no.

Just no.

It didn’t matter what you felt for your friend, Spencer’s best friend, just… No.

It was wrong.

You would never move on from Spencer. He was your one and only.

You couldn’t have feelings for someone else, especially Derek. It wasn’t right.

You stalked into the kitchen, pulling out a bottle of vodka from the freezer and taking a long glug, screwing your face up at the taste.

Taking another sip, you felt your hair blow in a breeze. No windows were open though.

“Now… You’re here now?! You saw that?! Of course you fucking did. Well you don’t have anything to worry about. You may have left me here, all alone. But alone I’ll stay, until we can be together again. However far away that may be.”

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

You raised the bottle to your lips once more, feeling a sudden chill run up you arm causing you to lose your grip, the bottle smashing to the ground.

You looked around the room accusingly, knowing it was him.

“So I can’t even drown my sorrows now? Is that it? Just leave me alone, for once. Just one night. I feel guilty enough as it is. Please…. ”

Leaving the mess on the floor, you took yourself off up to bed, flinging Spencer’s pillow onto the floor. You just wanted one night of blissful blank sleep, with no dreams. And vodka would have done that.

Spencer felt bad. He hated how guilty he knew she felt. Yet she had no reason to.

He knew what he had to do. Which is why he’d made her drop the bottle. Alcohol would make her pass out. And he couldn’t have that tonight. Not when he needed to talk to her.

He wanted her to be happy. He wanted to take her pain away, make her tears stop. He knew that they’d always have something special. She was his love. The only one he’d ever have. But she could have another, and she needed to know that.

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

Dig a little deeper (honesty hour!)

ask box

  1. Do you prefer writing with black or blue pen?
  2. Would you prefer to live in the country or the city?
  3. If you could learn a new skill, what would it be?
  4. Do you drink your tea or coffee with sugar?
  5. What was your favourite book as a child?
  6. Do you prefer baths or showers?
  7. If you could be a mythical creature, which would you choose?
  8. Do you prefer reading paper or electronic books?
  9. What is your favourite item of clothing?
  10. Do you like your name? Would you ever change it?
  11. Who is a mentor to you?
  12. Would you ever want to be famous? If so, what for?
  13. Are you a restless sleeper?
  14. Do you consider yourself a romantic?
  15. Which element best represents you?
  16. Who do you want to be closer to?
  17. Do you miss someone at the moment?
  18. Tell us about an early childhood memory.
  19. What is the strangest thing you have eaten?
  20. What can you see outside your bedroom window?
  21. What are you most thankful for?
  22. Do you like spicy food?
  23. Have you ever met someone famous?
  24. Do you keep a diary or journal?
  25. Do you prefer to use pen or pencil?
  26. What is your star sign?
  27. Do you like your cereal crunchy or soggy?
  28. What would you want your legacy to be?
  29. Do you like reading? What was the last thing you read?
  30. How do you show someone you love them?
  31. Do you like ice in your drinks?
  32. What are you afraid of?
  33. What is your favourite scent?
  34. Do you address older people by their first or last name?
  35. If money was not a factor, how would you live your life?
  36. Do you prefer swimming in pools or in the ocean?
  37. What would you do if you found $50 on the ground?
  38. Have you ever seen a shooting star? Did you make a wish?
  39. What is one thing you would want to teach your children?
  40. If you had to have a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it?
  41. What can you hear right now?
  42. Where do you feel the safest?
  43. What is one thing you want to overcome/conquer?
  44. If you could travel back to any era, which would you choose?
  45. What is your most used emoji?
  46. What is your favourite season? Why?
  47. How would you spend your ideal day?
  48. Describe yourself using one word.
  49. What do you regret the most?
  50. Invent your own word. What does it mean?