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Of Dazai and the Old Boss – An Analysis Report

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So ever since I started reading the manga, there was always one character I always wondered about; the Old Boss, or the boss that came before Mori. Sure he seemed like an unimportant side character in the way he’s presented, but I have reasons to believe he’s more than that.

First, let’s compile what we know about him.

1.     He was ruthless even when he’s not bedridden and paranoid, as was said by Kouyou whose lover was killed because she tried to escape the Mafia with him.

And again when Tanizaki tried to kill Mori but was stopped by Kouyou, saying that if Mori died, the Mafia would return to its ‘wretched ways’. We can say with complete confidence that Mori’s way is so much ‘kinder’ than the old boss.

2.       He was bedridden with illness that also made him paranoid of attacks. This is not the case before the illness strike because Hirotsu mentioned he become like that after the illness. If Mori hadn’t stopped him by slicing his throat, he would have burnt Yokohama down.

4.       Wait that’s it? Yep. All we knew about him was in that episode and that chapter. But what we know about him was profound.

First let’s look at this scene:

Notice how Hirotsu mentioned Dazai specifically? Here’s the original panel for that scene:

In this, we can confidently say that Hirotsu singled out Dazai about how was the one who should’ve been most not alright with the development. The words used for it ‘Dazai –kun mo rikai suru tokoro de attarou‘  implies this. It hints that Dazai should’ve been resentful to Mori because he killed the Old Boss. But against all odds, he understood why Mori did what he did.

Then there’s this scene.

It really bothered me and when I looked deeper this is what cemented my conclusion of Dazai and the Old Boss’ connection. So as we could see in this scene, Mori killed the Old Boss and had Dazai become the sole witness. Now this premise has many problems.

1. Other than Mori, who was a doctor so obviously he was to take care of the sick, notice that Dazai was the only one in the room. Now this is strange. He was the only one who was by the Old Boss’ side, all alone in the room with the vulnerable, sick man when there’s no doctor to hover on the bedside. This in and of itself is a proof of their bond. If they weren’t well-known to have it, then all the Mafia would be suspicious to the fact that he’s accompanying the boss when he’s the most vulnerable.

On top of that he was entrusted with the Boss’ security as he was in the room with Mori who might or might not harm him (spoiler, he harmed the boss.) so he was supposed to be the one to care the most about the Old Boss’ wellbeing.

2.       As we know from the light novel, Odasaku mentioned that Dazai was considered to become an Executive at 16. In this scene he was only 14 and at that point of time, he had enough sway in the Organization that he can be the sole witness to the boss’ will and everyone just—nods and go along with it, making Mori the new boss despite them should be having Five Executive that would have fought for the seat. Why?

3.       In this case, Dazai cannot be adopted and raised by Mori as the fandom believed. If he was Mori’s and he became the sole witness everyone would call bull on it because he’d be perceived as Mori’s accomplice in taking out the Old Boss. They’d be executed and one of the upper echelon would take the throne themselves.

This would only work if the Port Mafia to believe that he couldn’t harm the boss and wouldn’t let harm come to him.

But what about this picture, you ask? Well, Mori did have a connection with Dazai too seing how Dazai got the coat he wore from before he was 14 to 18 from him. That’s a good 4 years wearing the same thing. I think this was actually the same case with Chuuya not appearing in the Dark Era; the plot has yet to be told to the readers and kept secret.

And then there’s the possibility that they knew each other because of Dazai’s wounds. If the Old Boss is as ruthless as Kouyou made him out to be, it won’t be far-fetched to say he’s the one resposible for Dazai’s numerous injuries and was frequently sent to Mori, the doctor, to get treatment.

Summary:  the Organization needs to know Dazai well and for some reason connect him with not only being close enough to the Old Boss for it not be strange for him to be all alone in the room with him and having enough credibility that he can’t possibly lie about the Old Boss’ last will. On top of that, he needs some reason to be the one ‘most not alright with it’ in a personal sense.

So what would make this credible? What could make this work? It would be if by doing so he was giving up his rights to the throne.

Here cometh my conclusion: Dazai was the Old Boss’ son and the rightful heir to the Port Mafia. If he was one, it won’t be strange for him to have credibility as 14-year old kid claiming to be the sole witness to a boss of The Mafia’s biggest bad that made a city doctor its next Boss.  More than that, it would be natural for him to spend time alone in the Boss’ bedside when he was sick and vulnerable.

No, I won’t be dropping Darth Vader’s ‘I am your father’ bomb here, despite it being extremely tempting. How many father and child bound by blood have you seen in BSD? That’s right, none. No reason to break the pattern now.

But what is prevalent? Adopting orphans. Hell, it was dropped by Odasaku in his last moment as one of Dazai’s driving force. In fact, most of the main cast are either adopted orphans or have adopted an orphan. (Fukuzawa & Ranpo, Kunikida & Rokuzo, Akutagawa/Atsushi and Dazai, need I go on?)

Here’s my verdict: Dazai was the heir to the Port Mafia because he was the Old Boss’ adopted. When the Old Boss died, everyone in the Mafia who knew about it, thought that he couldn’t possibly lie because by doing so he’d be defacing the Old Boss and giving away his rights to the throne. This gave him the ultimate credibility and thus allowing Mori to become the next King.

Most of all, this also solve the mystery of Mori’s behavior. Why drive Dazai away when he’s 18, when Mori could’ve killed him or make him go away before? He made the preparation to drive Dazai away two years beforehand when Dazai was 16, a good two years after becoming boss. The answer was because this will reveal his play to his subordinate. In the light novel Odasaku mentioned about Mori’s fearsome reputation for being ruthless and clever as hell. And this is the key; reputation.

If Mori killed Dazai before he got a secure standing in the Mafia, he would be accused to be killing the Old Boss and taking down his heir. Everyone would be on the scent of blood like sharks, especially in a place as cruel as the Mafia. So he got himself a reputation, backed by people loyal to him (Chuuya, Kouyou and, in an extent, Ace who was loyal only to money) and when he was sure that he has shown what he could and would do to the whole Mafia and the world, he cut off Dazai because he was no longer needed and now poses only threat.

By exiling the Prince, he would be able to hog the throne for himself since the older members would not be rallying behind Dazai to retake his rights. Truly a long-running plan befitting of him.

But hey, that’s just a theory. A BSD theory. Aaaand cut.

Random Questions - Send Me Numbers!

Here is yet another set of random questions for people to ask you in order to get to know you better. Please reblog!

1. What is your middle name?
2. Do you have any nicknames?
3. Do you have any allergies?
4. What is the longest your hair has ever been?
5. Apple or PC?
6. Favorite flavor?
7. Have you ever been on a blind date?
8. Are you friends with any of your exes?
9. What kind of car do you drive?
10. How grammatically correct are you when you text?
11. What foreign country would you most like to visit and why?
12. Creamy or chunky peanut butter?
13. Favorite food to pig out on?
14. DC or Marvel?
15. Disney or Nickelodeon?
16. Do you have any stickers on your laptop computer?
17. Name/author of the last book you read cover to cover. Do you recommend it?
18. Do you read any magazines?
19. Coffee or tea?
20. What is your go-to Starbucks drink?
21. How many things can do with your weaker hand?
22. Last show you binge watched?
23. Dogs or cats?
24. Favorite Disney princess?
25. Do you like fast food?
26. Favorite thing to cook for yourself?
27. Favorite song to sing in the shower?
28. Have you ever butt dialed anyone?
29. iPhone/iPad or Android?
30. Any styles of music you do not like?
31. Have you ever kissed anyone of the same gender? If so, did you like it?
32. Have you ever gotten a ticket while driving?
33. Favorite emoji?
34. Showers or baths?
35. Is there anything you regret buying?
36. Are you fluent in more than one language?
37. Any movie(s) you can watch over and over again and enjoy just as much every time?
38. What is the heaviest you have ever weighed?
39. Do you have any tattoos? If so, how many and where?
40. Have you ever uttered a spoken hashtag?
41. Favorite school subject?
42. Favorite non-chocolate candy?
43. Name one celebrity you dislike.
44. If you could have one superpower, which one would you most like to have?
45. From 1-10, rate your singing ability.
46. From 1-10, rate your dancing ability.
47. From 1-10, rate your cooking ability.
48. From 1-10, rate your driving ability.
49. Are you religious?
50. Do you drink soda? If so, which one is your favorite?
51. Have you ever locked your keys in your car?
52. Spring or autumn?
53. Do you play any sports?
54. Can you play any musical instruments?
55. Are you more introverted or extroverted?
56. How easily do you cry?
57. Last musical artist you saw live?
58. Favorite YouTube channel?
59. Star Wars or Star Trek?
60. How long have you known your best friend?
61. Have you ever voted for a reality show?
62. Last CD you bought?
63. Have you ever ended a romantic relationship?
64. Have you ever been broken up with?
65. Have you ever been in the audience for the taping of a TV show?
66. How long was your longest relationship? Are you still with that person?
67. Have you seen any Broadway plays or musicals?
68. Have you ever acted in a play or a musical?
69. How flexible are you?
70. Have you ever sexted?
71. Do you own any clothes from garage sales or thrift stores?
72. Real or fake Christmas trees?
73. How many pillows do you sleep with?
74. How well can you write in cursive?
75. What is your political affiliation?
76. Do you like any boy bands?
77. Have you ever broken any bones?
78. Have you ever gotten any stitches?
79. Do you have any piercings in places other than your ears?
80. What is the oldest piece of clothing you still wear and how old is it?
81. Do you like wearing hats?
82. Have you ever dyed your hair?
83. From 1-10, how competitive are you?
84. How long have you been at your current job?
85. Have you ever studied abroad?
86. Phrase you say the most?
87. Have you ever quit a job?
88. Have you ever gotten fired from a job?
89. Have you ever won a trophy? If so, what for?
90. Have you ever been a Boy/Girl Scout?
91. Last thing that made you laugh?
92. Do you eat meat?
93. Are you more of a morning or a night person?
94. Worst habit?
95. Deepest fear?
96. Do you believe in ghosts?
97. If you could take home any animal from the zoo, what animal would you take?
98. Do you consider rapping singing?
99. Favorite costume you wore for Halloween? How old were you?
100. Favorite store to shop at?
101. Have you ever given anyone CPR?
102. Favorite Pokémon?
103. Do you own any homemade clothing?
104. Do you drink alcohol at all? If so, what is your drink of choice?
105. Have you ever skinny dipped?
106. Favorite type of cookie?
107. Favorite flavor of ice cream?
108. Biggest pet peeve?
109. Are you still friends with anyone from high school?
110. Favorite literary character?
111. Are your birth parents still together?
112. Do you wear or have your ever worn glasses?
113. How many of your Facebook friends do you actually hang out with?
114. Have you ever been the victim of a prank?
115. Do you belong to a fraternity or a sorority?
116. Have you ever taken a nude selfie?
117. Are you adopted?
118. Favorite fandom?
119. Oldest memory?
120. Have you ever snorted when you laughed?
121. Can you drive stick?
122. Favorite Disney song?
123. Random boy’s name.
124. Random girls’ name.
125. How often do you eat out at a nice restaurant?
126. How many people are in your nuclear family?
127. What accent do you consider the most attractive?
128. What is your Myers-Briggs personality type?
129. What is your astrological sign?
130. Biggest regret?
131. What type of shoes do you wear the most?
132. Do you like any soap operas?
133. Do you listen to talk radio?
134. What sports team(s) do you root for?
135. Describe your sense of humor.
136. Have you ever been hit on by someone of the same gender?
137. Favorite video game?
138. Name a moment in your life when you were pleasantly surprised.
139. Do you believe in serendipity?
140. Have you ever left a movie theater before the movie was done?
141. Have you ever felt you were born in the wrong period of history?
142. Is sex before marriage wrong?
143. Have you ever gotten a song you dislike stuck in your head?
144. Can you handle spicy food?
145. Have you ever called a non-lover a term such as darling, honey, babe, or dear?
146. Do you like MTV?
147. Where on your body are you the most ticklish?
148. TV show or movie you quote/reference the most?
149. Have you ever lived with a roommate you didn’t get along with?
150. Where do you think is the best place to meet a new lover?
151. Have you ever successfully been on a diet?
152. Favorite thing to do outside?
153. Where did you go on your last vacation?
154. Do you say “y'all” at all?
155. Have you ever lived on a farm?
156. Do you believe in evolution?
157. What TV channel do you watch the most?
158. Favorite Beatles song?
159. Have you ever been on TV?
160. Have you ever been to Disney World or Disneyland?
161. Do you like horror movies?
162. Do you like to go fishing?
163. Have you ever been hunting?
164. Do you take medication for anything?
165. Name one item from your bucket list.
166. From 1-10, how much do you like children?
167. Have you ever thought about your wedding?
168. Have you ever been bungee jumping or skydiving?
169. Favorite flower?
170. Do you collect anything?
171. Who was the last person you told a lie to?
172. Have you ever been a bridesmaid or a groomsman?
173. Have you ever had a fortune cookie fortune come true?
174. What was your favorite toy to play with when you were a child?
175. How good are you at math?
176. Have you ever learned anything from a how-to YouTube video?
177. Have you ever participated in a science fair?
178. Have you ever wished you were born the opposite gender?
179. Have you ever participated in a public protest?
180. Do you have a pool at your house?
181. Have you ever hosted a wild party?
182. Do you like karaoke?
183. Have you ever written a love letter?
184. Have you ever ran a marathon?
185. How often do you get mad at yourself?
186. Any guilty pleasures?
187. Fruits or vegetables?
188. Do you live in a house or an apartment?
189. The countryside or the suburbs?
190. Worst job you’ve ever had?
191. Do you hang out with any of your co-workers?
192. Were you ever voted homecoming/prom king or queen?
193. Were you voted a “best” or “most likely to” in high school?
194. Have you ever gotten detention?
195. Have you ever babysat?
196. Have you ever taken a road trip just for the fun of it?
197. How many drinks get you tipsy?
198. Were you a part of any academic clubs in high school or college?
199. Have you ever given a public speech, aside from your schooling?
200. How long have you been on tumblr?

New to spirituality? tips for beginners!

Hi guys! People have asked me how to get into spirituality. I must admit it took me a while to finally write this post and answer the question. Spirituality is such a big term & people practice their way to connecting to something higher (or to themselves) in very different ways. It’s a personal journey, I must admit :-) However, i also had to start somewhere to be in a place where i can understand these “spiritual” terms and concepts that i now use, so i thought i would give it a try and come up with some tips and advice for anyone who’s interested or for anyone who would want to start a spiritual path! 💖 

  1. Following your inner guidance: Your inner guidance (or intuition) will always guide you and lead you where you need to go. It will provide you with answers and inspiration, you just need to listen to it :-) If a book will serve you, your intuition will probably speak and tell you. Read this post I wrote about intuition for more info! 
  2. Spending time by yourself: In my opinion, connecting to yourself is one of the most important step there is to start. by spending time alone, I don’t mean to never go out haha. What i mean is to get to know your own energy. I always mention this but in today’s world there’s too many voices and opinions! It’s important to reconnect to the deeper parts of yourself. You can do this by journaling & by…
  3. Meditating: Meditation will enable you to get in touch with that higher part of yourself, to your intuition and to your heart. Meditate everyday for at least 5-10 mins and trust me, you will see your mood and life change for the better <3 (New to meditation? Here’s a video that will help you)
  4. Researching, learning, studying: There’s tons of books out there that will help you. Self help, self growth and spiritual books will introduce you to new ideas and concepts. /Here’s a book masterlist/ by @indigoschool. Choose the one that interests you the most! Follow your curiosity, it will guide you :-) /Here are my favorite youtube channels on youtube/ (some of them are self growth channels and others more spiritual, subscribe to the ones you like the most!) /Koi Fresco/ on youtube has lots of videos that will probably help you a lot as well! Follow people on tumblr who inspire you. Important tip: While learning is fun and helpful, also remember to connect to yourself. Many answers you seek are inside, listen to your inner guidance! 
  5. Keeping an open mind but trusting your truth: You don’t have to agree with everyone & that’s ok and normal. Not everything will resonate as true. When i don’t believe in something i kind of put the idea in the back of my mind as “maybe.. or maybe not”. I had to experience many things before believing in them haha. 
  6. Try new things!: Interested in crystals? Buy some! Interested in yoga? try it! Don’t be afraid to be a beginner, start new habits, follow your curiosity. 
  7. Taking care of yourself: So, how did I learn about all of these new concepts? Because the way i was living wasn’t serving me anymore! I was feeling depressed and i knew i could be happier. So i started meditating, eating healthy and reading self help books. When i started taking care of myself, many things in my life shifted, without even knowing… i was getting into spirituality. This is honestly the best tip out there, to take care of yourself. What brings you joy will lead you to where you need to go. Follow your passions & curiosity & let go of everything that does not serve you anymore (including toxic friendships or habits). 
  8. Be patient: It’s a journey, be patient with yourself!

This is all i have for now :-) Hope these tips help you. If you have any question, feel free to ask!

Much love,


50 Wrestling Questions!

So while at work I thought of some wrestling questions. Only rule is that you ask whoever you reblogged this from a question (because they most likely want one of these questions asked and that’s why they reblogged it).

  1. What got you into wrestling? 
  2. What is your favorite wrestling promotion? 
  3. Favorite male wrestler of all time?
  4. Favorite female wrestler of all time?
  5. Favorite current male wrestler?
  6. Favorite current female wrestler?
  7. Favorite theme song?
  8. Least favorite theme song?
  9. Favorite gimmick?
  10. Least favorite gimmick? 
  11. Best entrance (either their usual entrance or a special one, like a Wrestlemania entrance)?
  12. Best Undertaker Wrestlemania match?
  13. Most overrated?
  14. Most underrated?
  15. Have you ever been to an event? If so, which one?
  16. Who has the best merch?
  17. Do you own any merch?
  18. Best nickname?
  19. Worst nickname?
  20. Best mic skills?
  21. Most annoying?
  22. Most attractive male?
  23. Most attractive female?
  24. Favorite faction?
  25. Worst faction?
  26. Best ring gear?
  27. Who do you think would be the nicest in real life?
  28. Who would be the rudest in real life?
  29. Favorite heel?
  30. Most hardcore?
  31. A wrestler you could beat?
  32. Best story line?
  33. Biggest missed opportunity for a story line?
  34. Worst story line?
  35. Which wrestler should turn heel?
  36. Which wrestler should turn face?
  37. Who would be the worst to room with?
  38. Who would be the best to room with?
  39. Who would be your best friend if you were a wrestler?
  40. What would your job be in a wrestling promotion? 
  41. Favorite wrestling podcast/ Youtube channel?
  42. Favorite finisher?
  43. Least favorite finisher?
  44. Favorite match?
  45. Favorite PPV?
  46. Guilty pleasure wrestler?
  47. Favorite submission?
  48. Most entertaining to watch?
  49. Best spot?
  50. Who do you most respect?


so like, Overly Sarcastic Productions, one of my favorite YouTube channels, did a thing on Five man Bands and used Voltron as an example of one that isn’t as strict.

Shiro is the leader, Keith the lancer, Pidge the smart guy, hunk the big guy, and Allura (who Red established as a side character) is the heart- and Lance doesn’t fall into any category.


I wanted one nice day, no langst no nothing, and I get tHIS? Like they established that Lance is more a Lancer to Keith and I get that because Keith’s gonna be the leader, but fuck play with my emotions much?!

Though I think Lance could totally be the heart.

Yet another question list - Inbox me a number(s)
  • 1. favorite dessert?
  • 2. if you could have your hair dyed any color you wanted, which color would you choose?
  • 3. favorite fictional character?
  • 4. do you swear a lot?
  • 5. favorite disney film?
  • 6. favorite youtube channel?
  • 7. who’s your favorite person on the planet?
  • 8. which color do you wear the most?
  • 9. do you have any pets?
  • 10. favorite horror film?
  • 11. how many languages can you speak?
  • 12. favorite band?
  • 13. what’s your spirit animal?
  • 14. do you prefer to watch movies online or go to the theatre?
  • 15. show a sample of your handwriting.
  • 16. have you ever visited another country?
  • 17. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?
  • 18. do you know how to sing or play an instrument?
  • 19. what do you wear to sleep?
  • 20. have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
  • 21. when was the last time you cried?
  • 22. do you like ghosts or skeletons better?
  • 23. what food are you usually craving?
  • 24. be honest, do you masturbate?
  • 25. what kind of phone do you have?
  • 26. what was the last song you listened to?
  • 27. what’s your favorite object in your room?
  • 28. do you like claymation or cgi better?
  • 29. how would you describe your style?
  • 30. have you thought about sex in the last 24 hours?
  • 31. are you tired right now?
  • 32. favorite sea creature?
  • 33. favorite flower?
  • 34. would you ever get a tattoo?
  • 35. what’s the riskiest thing you’ve ever done?
  • 36. which social media site do you use the most?
  • 37. favorite decade?
  • 38. are you a feminist?
  • 39. would you say you sleep too much?
  • 40. how many piercings do you have?
  • 41. what’s the last thing you bought online?
  • 42. are you an introvert or an extrovert?
  • 43. does size matter?
  • 44. which fictional character’s house would you want to live in?
  • 45. what did you dress up as for halloween last year?
  • 46. what’s something you want for your birthday?
  • 47. have you ever skipped a class while in school?
  • 48. have you ever gone skinny dipping?
  • 49. do you ever get zits?
  • 50. have you ever sent a nude photo?
  • 51. are you religious?
  • 52. what’s your ringtone?
  • 53. would you rather go to a zoo or an aquarium?
  • 54. how tall are you?
  • 55. do you like kids?
  • 56. what are some of your pet peeves?
  • 57. would you say you have a popular blog?
  • 58. last thing you ate?
  • 59. waffles or pancakes?
  • 60. favorite fruit?
  • 61. are you in any physical pain right now?
  • 62. what is your gender identity?
  • 63. shoe size?
  • 64. last concert you went to?
  • 65. if you could have one superpower, what would it be?
  • 66. could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
  • 67. favorite singer?
  • 68. how old are you?
  • 69. what’s something you know a lot about?
  • 70. which of your tumblr friends have you known the longest?
  • 71. what color was your hair in 2013?
  • 72. cake or pie?
  • 73. are you a hopeless romantic?
  • 74. would you kiss the person in your icon?
  • 75. what were you doing at 12 in the morning?
  • 76. can you draw well?
Italian Youtube Channels

“Learn The Language” Channels

Learn Italian With Lucrezia - She’s probably my favorite youtube channel as far as learning the language goes. Not only does she have loads of videos explaining verb tenses, she has an “Italian Idioms” series that she does, she does vlogs in italian, adds subtitles to a ton of her videos (mostly just the educational videos), and she speaks slowly and clearly which makes it 900x easier to understand her. Plus whenever she’s making an educational video she always makes several examples, it’s wonderful!

Tom Txxytu - Tom is another super great educational youtuber. He is, however, a native English speaker. Don’t worry, though, his Italian is really good. He makes videos both for Italian speakers learning English and for English speakers learning Italian. His videos are super easy to understand, and I just like him a lot.

Italiano Automatico - I don’t actually watch any of Alberto’s videos, but he does use subtitles (as far as I know) and he has lots of guests on the show. He speaks at a pretty normal/fast pace, so for beginners it might be a little overwhelming. From what I’ve heard from other people, his channel is SUPER helpful so definitely check him out at least.

Vlogger/Beauty Channels

Ehi Leus - She’s kind of your average “beauty guru” channel. She makes lookbooks, does monthly favorite videos, Q&A’s, makeup tutorials, etc. She’s super cute and I love watching her videos.

ClamRush - Her channel is super small but she mainly does vlogs and lots of travel videos!

Tia Taylor - An American university student living in Italy. She posts primarily in English, but she still offers lots of great italian videos, and she talks a lot about cultural differences and just what life in italy is like so if that’s your thing, go check her out.

Gaming Channels

SurrealPower - I dont watch him very often, but from what I’ve seen he does lots of different types of videos. Lots of let’s play series.

DarkDevil - He does I think 100% pokemon letsplay videos. I don’t watch him very often, either, but if you’re into pokemon let’s plays check him out.

OKAY sorry that list isn’t very big, but it’s not hard to find good italian youtube channels if you just search around!! One thing you can do (on desk top) is to scroll down to the bottom of the page, and change your country and language of origin to Italy and Italiano so that you can go to “trending” and find popular italian videos. Another thing you can do is plug in phrases related to the videos you’re trying to watch (i.e. “i miei preferiti” (my favorites) or “giochiamo a (GAME HERE)” (let’s play ___”), things like that. Another thing you can do is go to the channel page of a channel you like and click “channels” so that you can see more related channels. Just snoop around you’ll find something, I promise!

Thank You Sourcefed

The first Sourcefed video I ever watched was with Lee and Joe. I remember being entertained but not subscribing because it was a lot of humor very different from my own in a very short period of time. But like with everything I end up loving, I came back to the channel and thoroughly enjoyed every video. I subscribed just before NERD started. I came to appreciate the different personalities and voices of all the hosts.

Lee was a ball of comedic anger and silly voices inside a tiny pretty lady, and I adored her.

Joe was this fucking bad ass, clever guy that is impossible not to like.

Meg was this hot lady that dressed in simple tshirts and jeans, which is how I dress. It was something I had never really seen before, and she proved to me that I could dress casually and still be sexy.

It took me a while to get used to Shisha. Her constant perkiness was annoying to me, but over the years I learned to appreciate how sweet the woman is. Optimism shouldn’t be annoying. 

Ross, although a late comer, was a great addition to the team.

Elliott was the one I found I related to the most. His subtle, witty, pessimistic, goofy humor was very similar to my own.  When I was going through a dark time and essentially having an existential crisis, Elliott helped me find the balance between my difficult thoughts and humor, and I’m eternally thankful for that.

I got scared when new hosts started to show up. It took me some time to get used to them, as it did with most of the audience, but I am so glad that I did.

I didn’t think much of Matt at first, to be honest. He seemed too serious and reserved. Now I know him to be this joyful, clever, talented actor and chef that I’m always happy to see in a video.

Bree was a new flavor that also took some time to get used to but, listen, the girl is badass. She is honest and funny. And it honestly was such a beautiful thing to watch her live out her passion for acting on Nuclear Family.

Will came out of fuckin no where. Like, who was this kid that seemed to have a new idea every week and was completely unpredictable in video? It was amazing to watch him grow and change over the year.

Sometimes you zone out when watching videos y’know? Not when Maude Garrett is in it. You can’t help but listen to that tall funny Australian woman and think she for sure knows what she’s talking about.

I was a late comer to Super Panic Frenzy, and admittedly was only watching for Suptic at the beginning. But Reina grew on me real quick. She’s funny as fuck and you could just tell that everything that came out of her mouth was genuine.

Not gonna lie, I had a crush on Sam for a while there. How could you not love that sweet nerd boy??? He’s one of the sweetest people on the planet and he’s funny and awkward and he’s great ok?

I had never thought much of Whitney when she had appeared in Sourcefed videos before being hired tbh. But over the past few months I have enjoyed watching this stylish woman just be herself and talk about nerdy shit, and now I adore her.

Filup grew on me real quick. He won me over when he sang Seasons Of Love in sign language. He’s clever and super smart and he really surprised me.

I knew Yessica from Buzzfeed’s videos, and was so happy to see a familiar face on PBL. She’s a strong woman who I enjoyed watching kick Will’s ass. A funny sweet person. I just wanna be her friend.

John was this calm, sane, funny presence on PBL. He always gave me a comforting feeling because he seemed to have his shit together.

I, like most people, thought Candace was high and boring. I was wrong. The girl is too fucking funny. She was this new kind of bizarre on the channel that made it feel like a fresh start.

Speaking of bizarre, how about that Suptic guy huh? I subscribed to his personal channel real quick after I started watching SPF. You never knew what was gonna come out of his mouth. It literally could of been anything, but it was guaranteed to make me laugh. I love that wacky tall chicken boy.

I knew Ava as DVG’s girlfriend and that was it. I was pleasantly surprised to see that she was very funny and witty. She’s always seemed like a kind wonderful person to be around.

I was subscribed to Mike Falzone’s personal channel for a couple years. I’m pretty sure he started at Sourcefed as soon as I unsubscribed from his channel. I adore Mike Falzone. When you hear the other hosts say he’s a good guy, you know it’s true. You can tell he cares. Also he’s fucking hysterical. Everything he said was either smart or funny.

Where do I even begin when it comes to Steve Zaragoza??? He is the embodiment of joy. He was always willing to do anything to make someone laugh and that’s beautiful damn it.

And last, but CERTAINLY not least, all the people behind the camera. I am so fucking glad the Vloggity started up again because it has a pleasure being introduced to all those beautiful people in that office, that are phenomenal at their jobs. They played just as big of a role in making those channels what they were as the hosts did.

Everyone in that office made me smile. Everyone one of the hosts have impacted me in a positive way. The Sourcefed channels will forever be my favorite channels on YouTube. While the channels were alive and well, if my subscription box was full I would pick an old SF video over any new ones. That’s not going to change. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for making me happy every day. Thank you for making me a better person with your wonderful and hilarious content. I cannot wait to see what you all do in the future. Thank you Sourcefed.

three of my favorite YouTube channels are being canceled. SourceFed, SourceFedNERD, and People Be Like have been some of my favorite channels. I’ve been watching SourceFed since I was 15 and I’m 20 now. Over five years and my heart hurts thinking of all of these talented people losing their jobs and the internet losing an icon.

I’ll miss them so much, I look forward to seeing what the hosts and crew do next.

anonymous asked:

What you're studying all sounds pretty interesting! I want to ask about all of them but I guess I'll ask about sacred geometry for now. I tried to get into it in the past but all I remember is watching YouTube videos on like crop fields lol 🤔 So I guess you can talk about anything on this topic! 😀 Thanks for being open about these subjects! 😊


Let’s start with a definition: Sacred Geometry consists of multiple universal symbols and shapes that have popped up around the globe, literally everywhere, throughout the ages, unrelated to any organized religious institution or single source.

They’re, to be blunt, incredibly powerful shapes that are said to hold the key to the creation of the universe - sounds heavy, I know, but it really isn’t!! If you’ve ever heard of/studied Pythagoras, Leonardo Da Vinci’s Vitruvian Man (and many more works of course), alchemy and the elements, the Golden Ratio, the Fibonacci sequence, Nikola Tesla, Plato, etc…you’ve broken the surface of Sacred Geometrical research! ***Be sure to click the names, I’ve provided links :-)

Here are just a few examples of one sacred geometric symbol that’s snuck its way back into our collective consciousness in recent years, The Flower of Life:

And that’s just a FEW! There’s an overwhelming abundance of information, so I suggest beginning with researching the Five Platonic Solids - I’ve added a link to a dense but super informative page on these!!! 

The Five Platonic Solids are as follows:

Overall, these shapes can be used to heal, create, unify, transform, and assist us all in understanding ourselves, our world, the mysteries of energy or “chi”, and the crazy mathematical/vibrational information that makes up our reality - in short, quantum physics.

Also!!! Studying Sacred Geometry is truly a transformative experience, and these geometric shapes are extraordinarily helpful as tools to be used alongside meditation/visualization. Since these sacred shapes are organically three-dimensional, many in the metaphysical community recommend visualizing these images as physically three-dimensional and imagining yourself quite literally stepping into whatever shape you’ve visualized! This is a very powerful way to assist in the relaxation and opening of your mind - when you get this right, it feels like stimming tbh, that warm and fuzzy feeling in the back of your mind that you can’t quite place. Click here to read about this!

To finish this off, here’s a video that explains the basics of Sacred Geometry from one of my favorite Youtube channels, Spirit Science! Check out more of their videos, if you’re interested.

I really hope you read up on some of this stuff (there is….A LOT) and take the time to try some of these meditation techniques and continue studying up on sacred geometry! THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!!!!

What are your favorite YouTube channels run by people with disabilities?

This is who we have so far on the list (which is mostly from my personal subscription list)!

Amythest Schaber
Annie Elainey
Rochelle Barlow
Megan Rhiannon
Carley Fleischmann

Channels do not have to be ABOUT disability, but if they are NOT about disability, we would prefer that they are active vloggers. We are particularly interested in people with active special interest channels, channels focusing on disability rights, disability, physical or mental health, and of course autism and/or ADHD.

Please no stimming / ASMR vlogs - we are going to handle those a different way.

Bonus points if the vloggers are autistic/adhd, or have a common comorbidity. We’re looking for channels that all y’all would find relatable.

Decolonize your suggestions! We don’t want our suggestions to be a sea of white Americans, as we’re a dime a dozen. Please, please, if you have a favorite channel that isn’t white and isn’t american centric, we would love to hear about it!

Thanks everyone!

- Sam