“Gwendoline Christie is one of my favorite people, and you get to see her in action which I think is going to be really fun. That character is just so damn cool looking. Like, okay, let’s see what we can do with her. Let’s put her in action and see what happens.” - Rian Johnson
My best friend Pixie passed away on Sunday, November 5, 2017.
She never posted this on tumblr, but it’s one of my favorite kurokens that she gave me. She made it for my fic Run to Me, just because she wanted to, because she told me she loved the fic. One of my biggest regrets is that I wasn’t fast enough with the final chapter. She’ll never get to read it, now.
She read everything of mine, often more than once. She worked as a preschool teacher, and she would re-tell her favorite fics of mine to the children (omitting anything explicit, of course). She was my biggest supporter, my loudest cheerleader, my bestest friend. She believed in me, even when I didn’t believe in myself. She would tell me over and over again that my writing was good, it was amazing, that I was amazing. She loved everything I wrote, and would live-text everything she read back at me, so I could share in her joy and sorrow and excitement. It was always the highlight of my day. If I ever doubted my skill, I would still post that fic or new chapter anyway, because I knew she would read it and love it, even if no one else did.
But even more than just being a huge supporter of mine, she was an incredible friend. She lifted me up when I was feeling down, she kicked my butt when I was too hard on myself, she told me over and over that she loved me, that I was strong, that I could do anything. She sent me kenmas, she talked to me about haikyuu!! and kuroken, she called me the kenma to her hinata, and I called her the hinata to my kenma. I told her anything and everything. We would watch shows together, talk on the phone for hours (not nearly enough), text each other every day. Whenever I needed her, she was there with her arms wide open.
I’m completely devastated at losing her, but I’m so so so glad that I got to know her, that I was able to have this sunshine in my life. She was half of my heart, and I am so grateful and honored that she considered me one of her best friends, too. I never felt like I deserved her, but she was always quick to reassure me that I did.
I will always love her, and I will always miss her.
Thank you, Pixie. For your light, for your life, for everything you gave to me and to everyone you crossed paths with. You were truly a blessing, a star, the sun and the moon. Rest in peace.
Gwendoline Christie is one of my favorite people, and you get to see her in action which I think is going to be really fun. That character is just so damn cool looking. Like, okay, let’s see what we can do with her. Let’s put her in action and see what happens- Rian Johnson