One day someone is going to see you. That’s it, take in that sentence. One day someone is going to see you.
I tried to see you.
I think the true cause of my dwelling over her is that I tried to be so real, I tried to give her everything everyone wants in this world; something real. You know? You want someone to love you for who you are. You want someone to know you. You want someone to care about you. What do you do after school? What’s the first thing you eat when you wake up? What keeps you up at night? What means a lot to you? What’s your faviroute book and faviroute song? Are you happy? Yes? Amazing, tell me why. What makes you laugh and what makes you cry? Would you rather watch a movie or go out? What do you think about when you see the stars?How do you feel about animals and nature? Who are you? Who do you want to be? Can I see you on the inside? You’re feeling sad, okay, let me help you. What do you want? I would do anything for you. I have a heart, but here, have it, out of everyone, I want you to have it. Something real, something raw, something naked. I miss calling you honey… baby… because I really wanted you to be mine. I really wanted something real with you because I really cared about you. I’m well aware that I’ve always had a big heart and a lot of feelings, well guess what? I wanted to give it all to you, and I wanted you to open up to me. In the end though? I realized that giving up isn’t always the wrong thing to do because you should never continue loving someone who’s never going to love you. So, to you, and you will never even see this, but, I hope you know deep down in your heart, and when you can’t sleep at night, that he is never going to love you, but I did. You didn’t even let me love you, you wouldn’t even let me in, I let myself in. I loved you, because you needed love. You just didn’t need my love. I’m mature enough to admit that, to see that now. I’m a good person, that’s why we said goodbye because I know my absence for the rest of your life is what you wanted. I love you, and that’s why I’m going to let someone else love you, because you’ll never love me. But I’m not strong enough to be okay.