fat is not disgusting

I look at my reflection and all I see is fat. I’m fat, obese, gross, disgusting. Fat, fat, fat FAT.

I fast, restrict, lose weight, maintain… And then I screw everything up, I binge, I gain fucking weight again. I don’t deserve it.

My body doesn’t deserve to be treted like that. It deserves to be tiny, thin, lovely and cute.

And I will. I will be skinny. I can do it. I’m a fat pig now, but I’ll starve until all you can see are my pretty pale bones. Until I’m cold all the time, my cheeks are pink and my eyes look big.

I’ll go wherever Ana takes me. 💕

#ana #proana #ed #edproblems